In 1976 to 1976 I had burnt out from teaching school and it didn't take long for my savings to run out. I was having to sell my blood plasma for basic needs. I ended up sleeping on people's floors. Looking back...I was a real mess. One morning I woke up and put my head in my hands and told God, "I have come to the end of my rope. It is up to You now." Just as suddenly as I was saved in 1963, I had energy like I never had before. I had a new outlook. I put on the only decent clothes I had and went and got a job at the first place I went to apply. I taught there for the next 18 years. Beginning at that time...I started studying myself. I wanted to know how I could go from one extreme to another...up and down like a see-saw. I came to the conclusion that my poverty and condition was in my consciousness and not just in my pocket book. Consciousness is everything. I started nurturing my physical self with miles of walking, my emotional self with whatever creative thing I could do, my mental self with many non-credit courses at the local universities, and my spiritual self with plenty of spiritual reading, meditation, and prayer.
I started dressing up in a sport coat and tie every day with the money from my new job and investments. I felt wealthy. I looked wealthy. I lived wealthy. Everything I touched turned to money. After a number of years living like this, I realized that my spiritual life was not what it should be. Something was lacking. Instead of exploring the world like I had been doing: Europe, South America, China, Thailand, Hong Kong, Greece, Indonesia, Nepal and India, Japan, Taiwan, and 30 other countries, I retreated inward to be once more with my Lord, my First Love. I may not have the money and lifestyle I once did, but I have the love and spiritual blessings of the Lord, Yeshua-Jesus.