Trying Hard

Trying hard to live. Living hard to try
In this place of inbetweenness where I'm not to sure to live or die
Fighting hard to try. Trying hard to fight
In this place of inbetweenness where I'm not to sure to hide of fly

Fighting hard to live to breathe to dream to feel
To feel me now not years ago
It's been a while you know
It's been a while you know

Remember I'm not too sure how to feel
I don't always know what to say
I don't always know what to feel what to be what is me?
Exploration and inquiry it all takes time
Learning that my lifeline is not the past
It's hard. And it all takes time

Im scared to fly now im losing all the pain I'm scared to fly
Im scared to fly now im losing all the pain I'm scared to fly
There's nothing to hold onto. Nothing to hide in anymore
Im scared to fly now im losing all the pain I'm scared to fly

- Ellie
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