ISAAC MAX BENTON MORGAN

Isaac Max Benton Morgan

Max LOVED:
Winnie The Pooh and Tigger :)

~The 3 Amigos~

The following is a letter and poem I sent out on Max's 2nd Birthday...

February 5th, 2000

If My Dreams Were Reality...

Oh, My Precious Son...
Today is your SPECIAL DAY. And birthdays are special at our house. There are balloons, and streamers all over the house. Signs everywhere that say "MAX IS 2 TODAY!!!" We go to Ma and Papa's house for your party. Soooooooo Many PRESENTS. Your sisters help you open them, while I take pictures. We all say oooooh and ahhhhh. And laugh and laugh at your expressions. You do not know what to play with first. You are wearing your overalls, just like Papa. There is a big chocolate cake decorated with a train. You love it so much when we sing "Happy Birthday" to you. Your sisters help you to blow out your "2" candles. Cake is all over you. and you LOVE it. YUM, YUM. I get you cleaned up. (You know how I am.) And we play some more. You keep taking the toys away from your sisters. (You know how they are.) You ae getting tired and a little cranky. So we load up and go home. Papa had a heck of a time getting the battery powered jeep in the truck. You sleep all the way home. You get your second wind. And we play with all the balloons. And you drive your jeep somemore. YOU LOVE IT. Time for a bath, and bed. We go through the night-night routine. And after a long while, you finally go to sleep. I sit back and smile. Wondering where I am going to park the battery powered Jeep. Leaving it in the living room will not work. What a WONDERFUL day!!! Oh...How I Love BIRTHDAYS.

If my dreams were reality...You would be here with me...
Laughing and singing is all there would be...
The day would be so fun... We would know just what to do...
There is no question... We would spend it just with you...
And you would love every second of it... Not really sure what it is all about...
But knowing it was just for you, I am without a doubt...
The smiles would be endless... The day would be just right...
My precious boy, his birthday... and hugs and kisses good night...
To feel your little arms around my neck... saying "Mommy, can tomorrow be my birthday too?"
I would smile and say "good night little Maxman...
ANYTHING FOR YOU!!!"

But my dreams are not reality... There is no cemetery in my dreams.
I have no idea what to do for your day... Nothing seems right...
I want it to be special, remembering how WONDERFUL it was the day you were born...
I'll try to smile... and not cry too much... But I miss you Max...
I want you to celebrate your birthday here... and not in Heaven...
I keep thinking... I hope your birthday is as wonderful in Heaven as it would have been here with me and your sisters...
Jesus, please give Max a better birthday party in Heaven than I would of here on Earth.
Happy Birthday Max...I LOVE YOU...Mommy

For Max, On his 4th Birthday

The brightest stars that shine at night...
I always think of you.

I look up and wonder what you are doing,
and if you think of me too?

Are you here?...Somewhere?
Are you watching me?
Do you know?

This life is strange, somedays are so hard.
The hurt of missing you is endless.

Another year closer to seeing you again...
I am counting on that...

Someday...
The hurt will stop,
and I will hold you, my precious son, in my arms, finally...at last.
Never remembering even one-second of the hurt.

Then I am sure you will know...
You will know how much we LOVE YOU!
You will know how much we MISSED YOU!
You will know how much we wished it could have been different.

Until then...
I look up at the brightest stars...and...
Think of YOU...

~MAX~...Happy 4th Birthday...Mommy Loves YOU!!!

In honor of Max's 4th Birthday...I named a "STAR" for him. The dedication date is the day he was born 4 years ago, February 5th, 1998. So now when I look up into the nighttime sky...there is an extra special star named...

Isaac Max Benton Morgan!
Happy Birthday Little Maxman! I love YOU!

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It is separate from this webpage and this site...The link is below...there is also another link on the main page.

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