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Adrian came home again last summer things just haven't been the same around here people talk people stare oh, Adrian, come out and play an unfortunate accident in a canoe Dr. said, I'm sorry not much I can do the air was so still his eyes they did not blink oh, Adrian, come out and play Little Mary Epperson like him she vowed always to watch after him still he did not move Dr. said it's no use oh, Adrian, come out and play She sat by his side, watched the years fly by he looked so fragile, he looked so small she wondered why he was still alive at all Everyone in town had that I'm sorry look they talked in a whispered hush, said I'd turn the machines off but still she sat by his side said, life he won't be denied oh, Adrian, come out and play yellow flowers decorate his bedroom sign above the door says, welcome home but he just sits and stares he's awake but he's still not there oh, Adrian, come out and play she sat by his side and watched the years fly by he look so fragile, he look so small she wondered why he was still alive at all little Mary Epperson grew up lovely and she still comes to visit him on Sundays he's like and unused toy he's got big hands but the mind of a little boy oh, Adrian, come out and play Adrian came home again last summer things just haven't been the same around here
you're mothers? child but night lays you down hair aflame, wild look in your eyes naked belly to the ground a forest fire nibbles at your veins crawls up your arms runs away with your mind and burns dry thoughts like leaves amen eyes stare up but something in the way in the bible only angels have wings and the rest must wait to be saved a dry tongue screams at the sky but the wind just breathes words in as a strange bird tires to fly amen pieces of us die everyday as though our flesh were hell such injustice, as children we are told that from God we fell where are my angels? where's my golden one? where's my hope now that my heroes have gone? some are being beaten some are being born and some can't tell the difference anymore amen hallelujah hallelujah
All through the night I'll be standing over you all through the night I'll be watching over you and through bad dreams I'll be right there, baby holding your hand, telling you everything is all right and when you cry I'll be right there telling you, you were never anything less than beautiful so don't you worry I'm your angel standing by
my bones are tired, daddy I don't get enough sleep I don?t eat as good as I could, daddy what's that say about me sometimes I sleep past noon, daddy drink lost of black coffee and I smoke like a chimney yes, I left the refrigerator door half open, daddy what's that say about me sometimes I want to rip out your throat, daddy for all those things you said that were mean gonna make you just as vulnerable as I was, daddy what's that say about me sometimes I want to bash in your teeth, daddy gonna use your tongue as a stamp gonna rip your heart out the way you did mine, daddy go ahead and psycho-analyze that cause I'm your creation, I'm your love, daddy grew up to be and do all those sick things you said I'd do well last night I saw you sneak out your window with your white hood, daddy what's that say about you I'm sloppy, what's that say about you I'm messy, what's that say about you My bones are tired, daddy
don't walk too close don't breath so soft don't talk so sweet don't sing don't lay so near please, don't let me fall in love with you again please let me forget all those sweet smiles all of the passion all of the peace, the heat, the pain all those blue skies where your words were my freedom please, don't let me fall in love with you again too many times I've cared too much I stood on the edge and saw that you held my hand and knowing too well I couldn't hide from those eyes please, don't let me fall in love with you again
You took your coat off and stood in the rain you were always crazy like that I watched from my window, always felt that I was outside looking in on you you were always the mysterious one with dark eyes and careless hair, you were fashionably sensitive, but too cool to care then you stood in my doorway, with nothing to say besides some comment on the weather well in case you failed to notice, in case you failed to see, this is my heart bleeding before you, this is me down on my knees these foolish games are tearing me apart your thoughtless words are breaking my heart you're breaking my heart you were always brilliant in the morning smoking your cigarettes, talking over coffee your philosophies on art, Baroque moved you, you loved Mozart and you'd speak of your loved ones as I clumsily strummed my guitar you'd teach me of honest things things that were daring, things that were clean things that knew what an honest dollar did mean so I hid my soiled hands behind my back somewhere along the line I must've gone off track with you excuse me, think I've mistaken you for somebody else somebody who gave a damn somebody more like myself these foolish games are tearing me apart your thoughtless words are breaking my heart you're breaking my heart you took your coat off and stood in the rain you were always crazy like that
If I could tell the world just
one thing
It would be that we’re all OK
And not to worry ‘cause worry is wasteful
And useless in times like these
I won’t be made useless
I won’t be idle with despair
I will gather myself around my faith
For light does the darkness most fear
My hands are small, I know
But they’re not yours, they are my own
But they’re not yours, they are my own
And I am never broken
Poverty stole your golden shoes
But it didn’t steal your laughter
And heartache came to visit me
But I knew it wasn’t ever after
We’ll fight, not out of spite
For someone must stand up for what’s right
'Cause where there’s a man who has no voice
There ours shall go singing
My hands are small I know
But they’re not yours, they are my own
But they’re not yours, they are my own
And I am never broken
In the end only kindness matters
In the end only kindness matters
I will get down on my knees, and I will pray
I will get down on my knees, and I will pray
I will get down on my knees, and I will pray
My hands are small I know
But they’re not yours, they are my own
But they’re not yours, they are my own
And I am never broken
My hands are small I know
But they’re not yours, they are my own
But they’re not yours, they are my own
And I am never broken
We are never broken
We are God’s eyes
God’s hands
God’s mind
We are God’s eyes
God’s hands
God’s heart
We are God’s eyes
God’s hands
God’s eyes
We are God’s hands
We are God’s hands
I was thinking that I might fly today just to disprove all the things that you say it doesn't take a talent to be mean your words can crush things that are unseen so please be careful with me, I'm sensitive and I'd like to stay that way you always tell me that it's impossible to be respected and be a girl why's it gotta be so complicated? Why you gotta tell me if I'm hated? So please be careful with me, I'm sensitive and I'd like to stay that way I was thinking that it might do some good if we robbed the cynics and took all their food that way what they believe will have taken place and we can give it to the people who have some faith so please be careful with me, I'm sensitive and I'd like to stay that way I have this theory that if we're told we're bad then that's the only idea we'll ever have but maybe if we are surrounded in beauty someday we will become what we see cause anyone can start a conflict it's harder yet to disregard it I'd rather see the world from another angle we are everyday angels be careful with me cause I'd like to stay that way
hey little sister I heard you went to Mr. So and So, knocking on his door again last night, said you needed it bad you know that ain't right cause so many times you?ve come to me crying trying to stop, you said it hurts so bad but please don't let you go back for more my little sister is a Zombie in a body with no soul a role she has learned to play in a world today where nothing else matters but it matters, we gotta start feeding our souls have been lost to the millions with lots who feed on addiction selling pills and what's hot I wish I could save her from all their delusions all the confusion of a nation that starves for salvation but clothing is the closes approximation to God and He only knows that drugs are all we know of love every day we starve while we eat white bread and beer instead of a handshake or hug we spill the pills and sweep them under the rug my little sister is a Zombie in a body with no soul a role she has learned to play in a world today where nothing else matters but it matters, we gotta start feeding our souls hey little sister I heard you went to Mr. So and So's knockin? on his door again last night said you needed more
let the phone ring, let's go back to sleep let the world spin outside our door, you're the only one that I wann see tell your boss you're sick, hurry get back in I'm getting cold get over here and warm my hands up, boy, it's you they love to hold and stop thinking about what your sister said stop worrying about it, yes the cat's already been fed come on darlin', let's go back to bed put the phone machine on hold leave the dishes in the sink do not answer the door it's you that I adore- I'm gonna give you some more we'll sit on the front porch, the sun can warm my feet you can drink your coffee with sugar and cream I'll drink my decaf herbal tea pretend we're perfect strangers and that we never met.. my how you remind me of a man I used to sleep with that's a face I'd never forget you can be Henry Miller and I'll be Anais Nin Except this time it'll be even better we'll stay together in the end come on darlin', let's go back to bed put the phone machine on hold leave the dishes in the sink do not answer the door it's you that I adore- I'm gonna give you some more let the phone ring, let's go back to bed
please don't say I love you, those words touch me much too deeply and they make my core tremble don't think you realize the effect you have over me and please don't look at me like that it just makes me want to make you near me always please don't kiss me so sweet it makes me crave a thousand kisses to follow and please don't touch me like that it makes ever other embrace seem pale and shallow please don't come so close it just makes me want to make you near me always please don't bring me flowers they only whisper the sweet things you'd say and don't try to understand me your hands already know to much anyway it just makes me want to make you near me always and when you look in my eyes please know my heart is in your hands it's nothing that I understand, but when in your arms you have complete power over me so be gentle if you please, 'cause your hands are in my hair, but my heart is in your teeth and it makes me want to make you near me always I want to be near you always I want to be near you always
eighty years, and old lady now, sitting on the front porch watching the clouds roll by they remind her of her lover, how he left her, and of times long ago when she used color carelessly, painted his portrait a thousand times- or maybe just his smile- and she and her canvas would follow him wherever he would go cause they were painters and they were painting themselves a lovely world oil streaked daisies covered the living room wall he put water colored roses in her hair he said, 'love, I love you, I want to give you mountains, the sunshine, the sunset too I want to give you everything as beautiful as you are to me cause they were painters and they were painting themselves a lovely world so they sat down and made a drawing of their love, an art to live by they painted ever, passion every home, created every beautiful child in the winter they were weavers of warmth, in summer they were carpenters of love they thought blue prints were too sad so they made them yellow cause the were painters and they were painting themselves a lovely world until one day the rain fell as thick as black oil and in her hear she knew something was wrong she got to where he lay, water colored roses in his hands for her she threw them down screaming, 'Damn you man, don't leave me with nothing left behind but these cold paintings, these cold portraits to remind me he said, 'love I leave, but only a little, try to understand I put my soul in this live we created with these four hands love, I leave, but only a little, this world holds me still my body may die now, but these paintings are real? so many seasons came and many seasons went and many times she saw her love's face watering the flowers talking to the trees and singing to his children and when the wind blew, she knew he was listening and how he seemed to laugh along, and how he seem to hold her when she was crying cause they were painters and they were painting themselves a lovely world eighty years, an old lady now, sitting on the front porch watching the clouds roll by, they remind here of her lover how he left her and of times long ago, when she used to color carelessly painted his portrait a thousand times, or maybe just his smile and she and her canvas would follow him where ever he would go yes, she and her canvas still follow because the are painters and they are painting themselves a lovely world
She's an ugly girl, does it make
you want to kill her?
She's an ugly girl, do you want to kick in her face?
She's an ugly girl, she doesn't pose a threat.
She's an ugly girl, does that make you feel safe?
Ugly girl, ugly girl, do you hate her
Cause she's pieces of you?
She's a pretty girl, does she make you think nasty thoughts?
She's a pretty girl, do you want to tie her down?
She's a pretty girl, do you call her a bitch?
She's a pretty girl, did she sleep with your whole town?
Pretty girl, pretty girl, do you hate her
Cause she's pieces of you?
You say he's a faggot, does it make you want to hurt him?
You say he's a faggot, do you want to bash in his brain?
You say he's a faggot, does he make you sick to your stomach?
You say he's a faggot, are you afraid you're just the same?
Faggot, Faggot, do you hate him
Cause he's pieces of you?
You say he's a Jew, does it mean that he's tight?
You say he's a Jew, do you want to hurt his kids tonight?
You say he's a Jew, he'll never wear that funny hat again.
You say he's a Jew as though being born were a sin.
Oh Jew, oh Jew, do you hate him
Cause he's pieces of you
people live their lives for you on TV they say they're better than you and you agree another burger, another hot dog, some fries a wish in the well, hope your health don't go to hell, well another doctor's bill, another lawyer's bill another cute cheap thrill you know you love him, if you put him in your will but who will save your soul when it comes to the flowers now who will save your soul after all the lies that you told, boy who will save your soul if you won't save your own we try to hustle them, try to bustle them, try to cuss them the cops want someone to bust down on Orleans Avenue another day, another dollar, another war, another tower went up where the homeless had their homes so we pray to as many different gods as there are flowers but we call religion our friend we're so worried about saving our souls afraid that God will take His toll that we forgot to begin but who will save your soul when it comes to the flowers now who will save your soul after all the lies that you told, boy who will save your soul if you won't save your own some are walking, some are talking, some are stalking their kill you got social security, but it doesn't pay your bills there are addictions to feed and there are mouths to pay so you bargain with the Devil, say you're ok for today you say that you love them, take their money and run say, it's been swell, sweetheart, but it was just one of those things those flings, those strings, you've got to cut so get out on the streets, girl, and bust your butts who will save your soul when it comes to the flowers now who will save your soul after all the lies that you told boy who will save your soul if you won't save your own
I hear the clock it's six am I feel so far from where I am got my eggs, got my pancakes too got my maple syrup, everything but you break the yolks, make a smiley face I kinda like it in my brand new place I wipe the spots off of the mirror don't leave the keys in the door never put wet towels on the floor anymore cause dreams last for so long even after you're gone I know you love me and soon you will see you were meant for me and I was meant for you called my momma she was out for a walk consoled a cup of coffee but it didn't wanna talk picked up a paper, it was more bad news more hearts being broken or people being used put on my coat in the pouring rain saw a movie it just wasn't the same cause it was happy and I was sad it made me miss you oh so bad dreams last for so long even after you're gone I know you love me and soon you will see you were meant for me and I was meant for you go about my business, I'm doing fine besides, what would I say if I had you on the line same old story, not much to say hearts are broken every day brush my teeth and put the cap back on I know you hate it when I leave the light on I pick a book up, turn the sheets down take a deep breath and a good look around put on my pjs and hop into bed I'm half alive but I feel mostly dead I try and tell myself it'll be all right I just shouldn't think anymore tonight dreams last for so long even after your gone I know you love me and soon you will see you were meant for me and I was meant for you