These are some of my poems. I haven't wrote in about a year.. well good enough to post. You can use my poems , but don't claim them. I have all my poems in journel books (15 of them actually), when I wrote them, who they are about and what was going on in my life when I wrote them.
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Well added a new page, why??Maybe because I'm bitter fresh out of a relationship with a guy that was CLUELESS(6/2002), or I'm tired of guys saying the same thing when they talk to me, lol. A man that is funny and romantic wins my heart so maybe this page will help...
Quote her romance
This is my family page , I haven't added new pics lately to it.
To the page of family pics!.....
Pictures of my boys when they were younger, and how a like they looked.
Dill Pickle and Bubba
To the page About me!.....
My Newest Pics
These are 2001&02(Yes as a Red Head)
ENJOY
Broken hearted
Wanting more
And who can't bear to let anything tear us apart
Who isn't afraid to see who I truely am>BR>
That when children laugh he is filled with joy
5-18-2004
Darker shade of me
Of how a different road would had avoided this mental rape.
I see the face of a child long gone starring back,
I try to look forward , but always I glance behind.
But life is always moving forward, wishing only loses time.
1/28/2003
Looking...
To be with you
To be with him is what my dreams are filled with
To do all I can to make him happy is my goal
He must know by now that I'm crazy about him
July 21st, 2001 But you did the running. You stopped running January 18th , 2002. I miss you !
Searching
Searching for the love that hold me close and tight at night,
Searching for the love that when next to mine will become one and grow,
Searching for the love that wakes just to watch me sleep at night,
Unfinished
Of how a different road would had avoided this mental rape.
I see the face of a child long gone starring back
I try to look forward , but always I glance behind.
But life is always moving forward, wishing only looses time
When I found you
I hear your voice on the wind
So unbelieveable and how wonderful you are
I want to enjoy us forever, Holding you lovingly
In your Arms
Dreamed I fell asleep in your arms,
I wish myself there with you,
Tho the Journey to you is far,
You are my Best Friend, I love you!!!
It Hurts too much to bear
not needing someone who doesn't really care
Is love really too much to ask?
where are the men that want love to last?
Hunger in my heart so strong
Why does searching feel so wrong
the slightest touch would make me fall
Broken hearted again I slam into a wall
I have lost more love then I have gained
and my heart seems to have been flushed down the drain
I have so much love to give away
Where is the love I deserve.Maybe someday?
Beginning to doubt I'll ever know true love
That I am doomed to a life of empty lust.
Wanting and needing to be touched, and not being held
Prisoner to my own longings , confined to my own personal jail
5/27/04
I want to claim my promises of love
To find the one who will long for me always
The one who has my name etched on his heart
who has been given to me from above
One who will be with me all our days
A man whose love & soul will complete me
Who longs for my touch more then anything
He can make me laugh no matter how sad I am
Who wants to grow old with nobody else they see
Just being together makes the angels sing.
who longs to make me happy no matter the price
and could never cheat on the on he loves so dear
can hardly wait to hear someone say
I'll be here when were are old and gray
who takes love serious and not just a roll of the dice
And misses me so very much when I'm not near
Where can love be?
Eyes are the window to the soul.
Looking into them and falling like a fool.
Would I follow him, whose to say.
Just want him here to stay.
Arms holding me close, starring deep into me,
My imagination or meant to be,
In only one night, hard to tell.
Is it sweet paradise or my personal hell.
So hungry for that everlasting love of another.
So tired of settling for so much less.
Needing passion & wanting of my heart, not just sex.
Why do I torture my heart so with false hope.
Falling to quickly, loving one sided- feeling like a dope.
Tired of the mind games swirling around in my head.
Will I find my one and only , my unconditional lover before I am dead.
Now 30 I fear the latter of those two.
Many times was with wings of blind faith.
Only to be shot down with lies and hate.
What of the scars that now surround my heart.
Making me feel nothing but pain.
Needing the my one pure love to tell me I have not loved and longed in vain.
Could it be those eyes? Are the pure ?
Hoping and longing they are not the same lies just wrapped in different colors.
My heart can’t take much more , before I just give up completely.
Let it just stop beating , turning black with hate living forever lonely.
So far , So lonely!
August 2003
Sitting here in the deepness of Dark,
Thinking back to things gone wrong in my life.
My head is full of ever severing sparks
Paths I chose, and ways I could have made them right
How the many pains in my life still fill me with fear
The Darkness so blinding and heavy covers me like a drape,
And I search for any good to pull close as I look in the mirror.
But inside the chains so tight around me show there effect.
Each new place in my life so much I want to leave, but the baggage never do I unpack.
Never trusting anyone , Just making them another suspect..
My life is what I made of it, but I don't remember the choice.
God how I wish life could be like a remote, as simple as pressing rewind.
My life is like a scary dream screaming to change , but never do I listen to the voice.
All I can do is change where I'm going be it good and where I will be bad.
And think of grander things to quiet the voices of mine.
Do I see a Dead End Street or a cross country road ahead??
For a man who will make me laugh despite a horrible day,
For a man who will challenge me to do something new thing each and everyday,
For a man who will love me completely & unconditionally even on my bad days,
For a man who will cherish my love for him & never want to stray
For a man who will hold me in he's arms and say I LOVE YOU at least a 100 times a day
For a man who will touch me & look at me in that longing sorta way,
For a man who will surprise me in all he's wonderful little way,
For a man who will sneak into the bathroom with me so in the shower we can play(WINK)
For a man who will make love to me over and over again till we can do nothing else but breath and lay
For a man who will share the adventure of a lifetime.
I'm looking for .... maybe it's YOU.
My yearning heart beats faster at the mention of his name
The sound of his voice send vibrations through my body
My imagination runs wild at the thought of what his touch could do.
He consumes my every waking thought
To be face to face with him is where I desperately want to be
To live and grow old with him would be the joy of my life
To look into he's eye and hear I love you would be my perfect world
But does he know just how far I'd go
To be with him, take care of him , and love him even when we are feeble and old
for Dave
I'll Never Run, Never Hide and Always be by your Side
Searching for the love that will last forever,
Searching for the love that I so deserve,
Searching for the love that I so desperately need,
Searching for the love that loves me unconditionally, whatever,
Searching for the love that will warm me up inside,
Searching for the love meant to fill this empty void in my life,
Searching for the love that longly will be returned
Searching for the love that will shatter all other records,
Searching for the love that can show me exactly what love is,
Searching for the love that lights up my life like candlelight,
Searching for the love that could move all mountains in it's way,
Searching for the love that finally make me feel whole,
Searching for the love that has been hiding, watching me all my mistakes,
Searching for the love that will always be strong and true,
Searching for the love that yearns to be just with me,
Searching for the love that will keep me safe from harm,
Searching for the love that would find it impossible to cause me pain,
Searching for the love that burns with a silver flame,
Searching for the love that my heart has kept secret the name
Searching for the love that is mine to just reach out an claim,
Searching for the love that my soul greatly craves,
Searching for the heart of my one true love to finally write my name on he's heart.
Searching for my lover, is he searching for me too!
June 10th, 2001
Sitting here in the deepness of Dark
Thinking back to things gone wrong in my life.
My head is full of ever severing sparks
Paths I chose and ways I could have made them right
How the many pains in my life still fill me with fear
The Darkness so blinding and heavy covers me like a drape
And I search for any good to pull close as I look in the mirror
But inside the chains so tight around me show there effect.
Each new place in my life so much I want to leave, but the baggage never do I unpack
Never trusting anyone , Just making them another suspect
My life is what I made of it, but I don't remember the choice
God how I wish life could be like a remote, as simple as pressing rewind.
My life is like a scary dream screaming to change , but never her the voice.
All I can do is change where I'm going, be it good or bad.
And think of grander things to quiet the voices of mine
Do I see a Dead End Street or will there be a cross country road ahead.
05/18/2000
Sweet & Warm in the air like the sun in the sky
Wishing you would be right there for me to turn and find
So far away, Such Torture, wishing I knew why.
Many would say I'm crazy to feel this way
I just want to stop and drop and run to the car
I feel the way you almost said today.
To feel your arms around me, pulling me so very close
To kiss your lips and look into your eyes so longingly
So full of Love to share from now til only God Knows
02/04/2000
I slept there so comfortable and warm.
A feeling I have yet to feel,
Until I'm in your arms for real.
Taking nothing, No luggage,clothes, or shoes
I can image myself walking on air,
honestly I don't think I'll need shoes to walk there.
I close my eyes and wish on a star.
That all will work out soon and we will be together,
That I will find myself in your arms and love forever
2/10/2000
I wonder if he sees it,
In my sparkling eyes
The way I feel within,
Really tells no lies.
I wish I could tell him,
The way I really felt ,
Because if he knew the truth,
His heart would truely melt.
So long I've been here without you,
It's a test of love,I've suffered through.
Anyone can they love someone,
But both my heart and soul say your the one.
As I sit here in the dark ,
The only lights are shining in my heart.
Only you can heal my endless pain,
Only you can drive me completely insane.
4-2-91
I couldn't keep past memories
they only made me cry
I had to forget my past loves
and give love another try
So now I've fallen in love with you
and I'll never let you go
I love you more than anyone
I just had to let you know
Innocent school girl crush, I was crushed, lol
Your name was covered with a little frog
10-90
2-91
And even tho I don't feel it sometimes,
You say I'm accepted , but only threw your blood.
I've turned my back so many times ,
and yet you still remain.
I've tried to run , and I've tried to hide,
But you were always ahead of my games.
I never knew what real love was,
Until I felt yours for me.
So unlike this world.
It's unconditional,strong and pure.
Never judging and always there to comfort,
When this world continually lashes out at me.
You love me anyway.
I thank God for all the unanswered prayers, who knows who I would have ended up with if he would have answered them!
11-18-97
Nothing makes me as happy as your love does
Now that we have found each other,
I never want to be apart
We have such a perfect love,
Not fake , but from the heart.
We may not have known each other long,
but our love grew quickly to be strong.
Tho the way may try to make us stray,
With me in your arms I want to always stay.
11-1-97
In a moment you think on the past,
of all you love lost and dreams .
Often wondering ,when is it my turn.
When will I know? whose the one?
I often feel this way,and know that others do.
So why do we settle for those that will break our hearts.
We hate to be alone , of being set apart.
So we let others , break and crumble our hearts.
Searching for our perfect mate, to make us whole
I grow so tired of this wait,
And fear my heart can't take much more
Going thru such pain can easily make you insane.
Will my true love wait til it's to late
6-14-98
You had no care for it's value,
and no thought of it's meaning to me.
It's value to me is priceless
and can never be repaid.
How wish it could have been riped from you,
I wonder how you would feel to have to,
to have to give up something,
as precious as you took from me.
How would you act ? , and who would you be?
How would you feel? and who would you need?
would you would feel empty as I often do?
Who would you trust and let get close to you?
How long would you feel the pain ?
How long would you feel ashamed ?
Would you last as long as I have?
Would your scars show from all your pain?
6-14-98
By now you know how much I love you ,
How much I think of you ,
How much I want to,
Kiss your lips by candlelight,
Love you under the moonlight,
Hold you tight.
I want to take you away to Ecstacy,
and throw away the key,
I want to be your destiny
Or take you on a tropical cruise
That way we won't loose
The love we choose
Then again ,I want you to hold me in your arms,
I want you to protect me from harm
I want to always be safe and warm
And I'd say , I'll never hurt you
Never will I desert you.
Always to serve you
What I want to do , I will always cherish,
What we want to do will never perish.
12-98
Sean from Hawaii wrote this one for me
Will it last forever or end today
Will we long for each other always this way
When the chips are down,will our love be enough
Will we stick together if another one calls
Or will we lose the faith and take the fall
Will we wind up lonely like other fools
Who have let insecurities take the rule
Can we forget all the hurting in the past
Be strong and make this sweet love last
Will we fogive each other when the other is bad
Or will we be like others, lonesome and sad
Sharing a life yet ,yet living alone
Forgetting a love, priceless seed have sown
Will we realize our love as ocean deep
Will we hold on to what we've fought so hard to keep
Will we hold each other as the night grows cold
Can we see that our love is more precious than gold
Will we follow our feelings or trust in our thoughts
Is it enough to find what for so long we've sought
Will we give all we've got ,should the nights turn gray
Or will we simply give up , throwing it all away
What will become of us ,what do we know
Just holding on forever and never letting go
Love never ends , when two hearts fall
Never cheating each other but giving your all
Entrusting in someon , your body and mind
Everyday there's a new treasure in love to find
And it's all before me, as i look in you eyes
Can you hear my heart as it softly cries...
You see my love for you will never end
You're not only a love ,but a trusting friend.
11-90
Ally form Hawaii wrote this one, it was so cool I added it here
And you begin to learn that Kisses aren't contacts
And presents aren't promises
And you begin to accept that you will be defeated
With head held high and eyes wide open
With the grace of God and not the grief of a child
And you learn to build all your roads
On today because tomorrows ground is to uncertain for plans
And the future has away of falling down in mid-flight
After a while you learn that even the sunshine if you get to much
You took my heart and my soul
Without you here I've turned so cold
Why have a future without you in my life
When I can die quick with one slice of the knife
Because no man is worth giving up the rest of my life
With or without you , I will survive ,just as before
So I may be alone now , but life has much much more.
9-98
12/30/98
So I didn't burst,lol.
The Feeling , feeling of complete failure.
the only thing I have ever completed.
I life not worth living, but not worth dying.
So much more to live for than to die.
All the things that would be missed.
Smiling , playing children , that love me so.
Future not seen now, but but close enough to know it's there.
A knowing that I'm better than I was , but not as good as I will be.
A wanting to be with and love the one God has for me.
A memory of abuse to be washed away by the slightest of love shown.
After that, I see nothing to die or worthy of me dying for but my GOD.
November 24, 1999
But years go by without seeing his face ,
Never knowing his touch or the feel of his embrace.
But all the hopes and dreams and desires of your heart
Feel once again as strong as they did right from the start
Those secret desires that layed dormant for years,
Come rushing back to your mind and overcome you with tears.
All the love and passions from years gone by alive.
Just waiting for a look from him to know it's revived.
Feelings so strong as they use to be.
So now just how does he feel about me?
Does he how I've change , is it for good or bad?
Now that I have kids would he want to replace there dad?
Why is love so Unfading and remember so much.
Because love is forever and who it loves we have no choice.
To Love or Forget the heart remembers it all.
Be careful what you wish for when your heart starts to fall.
03/04/99
Bub Anthony, I swear I thought he was the one,even after 10 years, Gosh .
Who can love me?
Battling years and years trying to find,
My soulmate,my hearts desire,My mr. Right in my mind.
And in a moment of flooding tears,
The Answer came and freed me of my years of fear.
Love has to start from loving yourself.
Until that time it is too hard to accept others love.
You put all past admirers love and hearts on your shelf,
You lock away your dreams of love and deem yourself unwothy of any love.
After years of broken hearts and shattered dreams,
I had the revelation, life doesn't have to be this way.
I can truely love me and anyone else it seems,
Because I am Beautiful,Loving and God made me to be this way.
My worth comes from the inside out.
Where unworthy mate looked only from the outside in.
My Beauty is not skin deep and can not be washed away for those in doubt.
But my glorious beauty hides deep with in.
The Love that one day was meant always meant to be,
Will look on the inside, at what it is that makes me....ME!
Not my clothes , my hair or eyes,
But by my inner soul that continually shines out, not my Size!
6/18/2000
To the one man that has always made me feel beautiful in all I do. You made me realize that I am wonderful, and no one can ever tell me otherwise.
Thank you Mike!
2003 he still does
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