Big ball o' stress..
Mood:
rushed
Now Playing: Protege Moi - Placebo
I've been a big huge ball of stress lately.
Warning: Ranting will ensue. I'm not seeking out any particular advice or comfort, I just need to get this out of my head.
Okay, so..
1. Job: My supervisor wants to make me permanent, but that involves writing up all this paperwork and going through a formal process. Could be weeks, if not longer.
There's this other position in the same agency that's a permanent project until '09, it's programming, and it's an ITS3 in-training which means I get hired at the college recruitment level and get paid the big bucks after two years. That announcement doesn't even close until tomorrow, which means that hiring supervisor won't get the applications until Monday.
Okay, so it annoys me that it's up in the air, but I could normally handle it. ..Except that it effects EVERYTHING. ELSE. Leading to..
2. School: I've been accepted into Capella University (go me) and started my first class. This is all fine and dandy, except that I'm $500 short PER QUARTER, taking into account my student loans and financial aid. I -could- foot this, but it means that I'd have almost no savings for the next.. oh, three years.
Which leaves me the following options, and ensuing problems:
a. Become independent. Problem: Screws up my parent's taxes.
b. Have parents apply for PLUS loan and get denied. Problem: We're planning to build a house soon, they need their credit rating in as good of shape as it can be.
c. Get outside loans. Problem: ANOTHER bank to pay off at the end.
d. Get reimbursement from work. Problem: They only do that for permanents.. and considering I currently have TWO permanent positions up in the air, this option is taunting me.
e. Ask for money from grandparents. Problem: Putting my school burden on someone else.
So I'm leaning towards footing the bill until my work thing gets settled, but EVERYTHING is up in the air and I hate it. I can't make any moves until they figure out where I'm going, so I'm footing it until they do so. Not the most comfy position to be in.
3. Church: I'm co-teaching Rainbows, the Wednesday night club/class for preschoolers. It's pretty fun, except for their constant and utter lack of an attention span. The nice thing is, they're pretty forgiving. So even if I suck on any given week, they don't notice.
But I need to start getting on the ball.. the lady I'm teaching it with is NOT the sort of person to get on the ball. Which means I have to. Problem is, I'm not the sort of person to get on the ball, either. So yay.
4. Financial: I'm down to $45 in my checking account. >_> This used to be at $550. I went a little crazy this month, since I haven't been using any sort of budget tracking thing. I had an Excel spreadsheet set up, but it got too complicated and confused the phreak out of me. So I stopped looking at it.
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Yah, so that's the drama. I know there's all of those debt consolidation places, but.. can't there be a stress consolidation process?
I need to be more organized. Desperately. Too many things are falling though the cracks, and it's NOT cool. So.. tomorrow night, I'll come up with a schedule. At least some kind of thing where I have a dedicated chunk of time to do something. That chunk can move freely, as long as it's not broken up.
I need my own bylaws. XDD But thinking about what the benefit will be when such a system is in place.. I can only dream.
But that's enough dreaming; it's time to get crackin'.