Mood:
chillin'
Topic: Love
Blah, umm...
The reason why I haven't written anything this summer...
Well, let's just say there was a lot of drama.
I actually broke up with Nestor.
Omg! Shocked? =O
Yup, and that's not all.
I started to go out with Wilfred.
Oh my gosh ;; heart attack?!
Yesss.
How you ask?...
Let's just say, a crush can grow into something more.
Near the end of sophmore year, we started getting very close.
Mhm, very good friends. =]
I couldn't handle it anymore with Nestor.
He was too immature and wasn't giving me anything to hold on to.
I needed something more, besides he always leaves.
And of course, Wilfred was there for me.
You know how the story goes after that...
We dated for about a month.
Why?...because I dumped him.
I admit, it was a pretty stupid mistake.
But in a way, it helped us grow more...
To the point of love. ♥
The reason why I broke up,
Was because I thought I should try it again with Nestor.
One more time...
Man, that was dumb cause' nothing even changed.
Anywho, so I went out with Nestor again...
And then dumped him about another month later. =P
Yes im crazyy!
But you know what's even crazier than that?
I went back out with Wilfred less than a week later! =O
[crazy bitch]
We spent three happy months together. <3
But then, again!
My dumb brain fucked things up again.
My jealousy and everything got in the way.
And I started talking to him about the minor problems and so fourth.
Then I said I wanted a break...
Then we got together that same night.
The next day, Nestor came over & fucked up with my head.
So as soon as Wilfred called, I told him I needed a break again.
Next day, I didn't go to school & he though things through.
Called me that same night, and dumped me.
How nice is that?...
He said that he thought it was better off that we stay as friends.
This totally fucking sucks for me.
So now, we are right there.
It's been a month that I have been single.
And im still by his side. =]
Maybe there is a chance for us.
And I still want to fight for it.
He is someone very special to me.
There is really no one like him.
He's so different but I like that.
I admire him for so many things.
He is one of the greatest people I have ever met,
Even if he doesn't think that himself.
He cares for me as well,
And I have many sweet memories with him.
Sometimes he's very confusing lol.
But I still love him for everything.
I know this is all unexpected.
But I have to follow my heart, right?...
Im in winter break now,
So hopefully I can talk to him more.
And he still loves me.
That's all that matters to me at this point.
Im just here hopelessly waiting,
holding on to a tiny hope.
Wish me luck. =]
xoxo`♥