Realizing to be a boylover was the most cruel thing in my life. When I felt it the first time, I didn't have a clue about the WWW and other people talking about boylove. All I had was panic because the only aspect of boy-"love" you read about in the newspaper or watch on TV is abuse and raping. That's why I was really terrified about feeling attracted by boys as I was absolutely sure that I could never ever hurt one of them. But in puplic opinion, every one who is attracted to them in that way is regarded as criminal.
So it was a real relief for me when I first got in touch with people calling themselves "boylovers" who on the one hand confessed their love for and (not only platonic) attraction to boys, but one the other hand made clear that they would never do any harm to a boy not because they would get in trouble but also because they just don't want to.
So thanks to the WWW, boylovers are not totally alone. However, you might think that boylovers are really lonely people. And of course they often are: They are in love with someone or attracted by someone they won't ever be able to reach. At least not in that easy way "normal" men can do, who can just tell a woman how beautyful she is and that they are in love with her.
But desperation is the wrong reaction as there are ways to get at least a little piece of what you desire. You can get into deep friendships with boys which is an absolutely wonderful experience although you have to tolerate that they (in most of the cases) do not feel towards you what you are feeling towards them. However, there can be a very close relationship, and anyone who ever had that knows what I'm talking about. And of course there are boys who are feeling like you, not many in fact, but maybe you're just lucky and meet one.
So the only advice I can give is: It does not help you to feel sorry for yourself and think that you will be lonely all your life long - if your eyes are open and respect yourself being a boylover, then you will be what you want to be: a friend of boys, maybe a very close and very important friend for a special boy you are in love with, and you won't miss these things you cannot do with him because being his friend and knowing that he puts his trust in you is the greatest thing in life! Believe me.
