Nov. 02. 00.
Blood in 
Blood out 
Spilled red on your skin 
Silver interference 
cut, not cut, scar 
Fuck all that 
you don't deserve it 
you don't deserve it 
The blood count is rising. Now 4 (or is it 5?) people that I know personally have wet themselves with a blade. Everytime I think about it or read about it I think of the song Hurt. "I hurt myself today... to see if I still feel... I focus on the pain... the only thing that's real..."
But now, how do I know how many of my friends do it? Probably more than just 3 or 4. But there are those few that have written about it, in one place or another. It seems like no one really wants to talk about it, but they don't want to keep it a total secret either. What are you supposed to do when someone you care about hurts themselves on purpose by slicing themselves open? Or burning themselves? I should have been able to come up with something the first time...but I didn't. That person was very important to me, and I didn't do anything to try to stop it. Should I have? maybe. but what right do I have to tell someone that what they are choosing to do to themselves is wrong and they would be better off intact
I know that there are many different reasons why people do this. I don't know if there's anything I can say that would convince a person to stop, and never do it again. I don't know why I'm not at least trying to do something about it right now...maybe I'm just not ready. 
    You don't deserve it. You don't deserve it.
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    My Favorite Cloud

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