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wistful thinking

*** note: the following have been written strictly and originally by me.***

don't

smile until it hurts today.you act like that, put on a face.you're cool at school, but so alone.by yourself, someone else, after the show

don't be another one of us.i don't really care for broken trust.you can't take back identity.just what are you trying to prove?

words are used to cover truth.we bend and trend to be like you.let's hide behind makeup and clothes.cause the heart's a part of what you loathe

don't be another one of us.i don't really care for broken trust.you can't take back identity.just what are you trying to prove?

lying, denying, the fact that we live lies.defending pretending like we get second tries.you got one shot so make it right


brown eyes

the world is different.from paradise.disappointment.he wants black and white.innocence.has too many sides of gray/swelled with tears.he looks on ahead.there's nothing here.he wanders yet.his dream is smeared.and he steps out in the rain

he's lost the will to change.he's let go of his faith in me.the one who loved me so.and carried the skies for me.in his brown eyes.cries painfully

love is conditional.and now he knows.improbable.a wilted rose.he's doubtful.that letting go will help/with anguish.he opens his heart.tears his selfish.world apart.and every kiss.the warmth he felt

he's lost the will to move.he's let go of his truth in me.the one who loved me so.and carried the skies for me.in his brown eyes.bleeds profusely

i could save you.but you don't believe.you won't give yourself to me/yeah, i could love you.but you won't believe.you don't find love in memory

he's lost the will to trust.he's let go of his love in me.the one who loved me so.and carried the skies for me.in his brown eyes.dies empty


suffer

i can tell that it's getting.harder to breathe.gasping for air.it's agony.a million words.tug at my heart.none of them bring me.closer to where you are.i suffer in silence.i feel you're presence here

i can't see past tomorrow

past your love

past the pain

i can't see past your window

past the tears

through the rain

there's too much left in feelings.the lines in between.trying to read.what they don't mean.my comfort brings.a bed of thorns.rest in loneliness.it's not worth hoping for.i suffer in entity.i feel your memory here


bittersweet waste

you don't think i'm over you.i admit, at least, i tried.but just cause i fell and got back up.doesn't mean i'm alright.see, i made a sad mistake.that i truly do regret.i've overseen the part of you and.i need it off my chest

i'm sorry that i took the time to talk to you

thought i saw something in your eyes, your face

a wishful star, a broken heart, a little piece of who you are

but it all was just a bittersweet waste

don't think i'll apologize.i'll say what i should've said.consideration's met its demise.won't quit while i'm ahead.you proved you're a waste of trust.and i don't still care for you.as much as i thought i'd known you enough.the opposite's true


like the rain

i welcome the rain, standing out in the cold/clouds, a lovely gray, wanting to be alone/i wait patiently, it passes by and dies/less than a day to feel more than alive/i spin around, i know that you're there/a misty blue sunset, i wouldn't mind to share

you barely dig a memory of yesterday's eternity/don't want to set myself up, cause i've known i was never enough/i can't keep falling for your smile, i can't keep falling for your eyes/can't keep falling, can't keep falling like the rain

puddles of water, reflections of you/beautiful fantasy, reality's déjà vu/i refuse to let me take your hand/you are more than a man, (you are) more than i am

you barely dig a memory of yesterday's eternity/don't want to set myself up, 'cause i've known i am never enough/i can't keep falling for your smile, i can't keep falling for your eyes/can't keep falling, can't keep falling like the rain

i can't keep crying, i can't keep pouring over you/i can't keep sighing, i can't keep going after you/i can't keep dying, i can't keep falling into you/i can't keep falling, falling, keep falling


if only

she comes home dazed and confused/runs to her room and cries/seems she's been let down again/now tears fall from her eyes/she's made this mistake twice/last time they became friends/she's throwing things at the wall/the loneliness never ends

if only she could learn not to trust/she knows just how much...

love burns, love hurts, love makes you feel/it tears your insides, love isn't for real/you cry, you lie, you wanna just die/don't want to be hurt, yet you seek and not find/when you find you're alone and ask yourself why/know love is what's to be blamed

he walks down empty streets/her locket in his hands/seems he'd fallen way too fast/hoped maybe she'd understand/he broke it off with her/the last thing he'll ever own/he shakes his head, then he sighs/he's never been so alone

if he could only learn how to trust/she wouldn't know how much...


inspiration

we sit by a fire just talking/we've got the stars in our hands/even though i barely know you/i speak and you understand/it's kinda weird how you read me/like as if you really care/you know my every thought and/for a second, i'm glad you're there (cause)

you are... everything i'm not/inspiration of my life/you're all the love in the world/and i... need you

you're hiding cornered in a room/a room that's made up in my head/my mind says no, my heart a yes/think i'll give up on common sense (cause)

you are... everything that i'm not/inspiration of my life/you're all the love in the world/and i... need you

you smile, my heart beats/you laugh, i can't breathe/the fire in your eyes/is the same flame inside/and it brings me down to my knees

you are... everything that i'm not/inspirationg of my life/you're all the love in the world/and i... need you


he wonders

i wanted to think that you were true/that you wouldn't be a cheat on me/but after hearing things 'bout you/i finally began to see

and when you slip out of our bed tonight/i won't believe in another lie

he wonders why i hate him/as he sneaks out every night/he wonders why i love him/when he leads a double life/he questions why i want him/why i need his cheating touch/he wonders if i'd leave him/while he's hurting me so much

there's a simple feeling placed in trust/and i gave it all away/faith in a failing lover, but/i just let the dream run its game

and when you walk out of that door tonight/i won't be here to cry

and when you're kissing me goodnight tonight/it also means goodbye...


smile

there's a smile on my face/as i try to concentrate/on what my friends are saying/they're always complaining/about something new/someone's just not cool/i don't say a word/i don't have the nerve/to say what's on my mind/i'm too scared sometimes/so i keep to myself/wishing i were someone else/hoping someone walking by/could see beyond the lies

i can't tell the truth/i feel like such a fool/i want to say how i feel inside/i wish i were you/across this empty room... in my head/under this smile i hide

you can read between the lines/what no one else can find/you see right through me/wanting to set me free/you say that i depend/too much on all my friends/it never worked before/searching for something more/but you give me time to think/you don't give up on me/we talk until the dark/you really touch my heart/it's hard to say goodbye/and return to the lies

i can't tell the truth/confide in only you/i want to show who i am inside/wish i weren't confused/trapped in this empty room... in my head/under this smile i hide

it's a brand new day/same smile upon my face/hearing them laugh at you/don't know what to do/do i tell them to stop?/am i strong enough?/i get the nerve to speak/i feel so scared and weak/but i won't hold back this time/inside i come alive/i tell them how i feel/they don't know how to deal/they shrug and laugh it off/this time i won't give up

i will tell the truth/i'll stick up for you/i'll say what i want this time/i won't have regrets/i found my self-respect/leaving this empty room... in my head/under this smile i hide no more


mon type sympathique

(french)

je croyais que j'ai été bien, seule toute seule

que je n'avais pas besoin de n'importe qui

mais puis je t'ai rencontré

et nous sommes retrouvés par hasard ici

le garçon avec les yeux qui sont aussi bleu que l'océan

tu as touché mon couer

tu es mon étoile au ciel

mon rocher quand j'ai peur

tu es ma securité secrète

une promesse dans la quelle peux avoir la confiance

être amoureux de quelqu'un

j'ai de la chance

j'adore t'aimer

ma rose romantique

mon rêve devenu réalité

mon type sympathique

(english translation)

i thought i was fine, alone by myself

that i didn't need anybody

but then i met you

and by chance we've ended up here

a guy with eyes as blue as the ocean

you've touched my heart

you are my star in the sky

my rock when i'm scared

you are my secret security

a promise i can trust

to be in love with someone

i am lucky

i love to love you

my romantic rose

my dream come true

my nice guy

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