Well this would be the first day I write in this thingy so I better make this one count*rolls eyes*... Anywho today was pretty even, I think Im always in a grumpy mood. I got pissed at this one girl at school, but I prefer not to talk about that in here cuz its kinda personal. Then after that one of the subs. pissed me off becuz she got on to heather for drawing on me .Oh well I suppose.
Yesterday was more exciting, I went to Exxon to watch my sister work, which was pretty amusing, cuz I think I may work there this summer, hopefully, cuz I need a job pretty bad. Ill need something to do to keep my mind off of wanting a cig. I think if I worked and was busy all the time, then I would never have time to smoke. Im changing my life around. I may ever start going back to church, but I honestly doubt it cuz I dont believe in that stuff. Trudy wants me to go with her on Sundays, then after church go to work with her. Sometimes I wish I was somebody else, becuz I know I messed up in this life. I could name all the things I wish I could go back and do all over again, but I know I cant. I try so hard not to get mad easily, but you just dont know how hard that is
On to a non-depressing subject. There really isnt much to say, my head went blank I really wish I had a cig. Now, people say they dont see how hard it could be to quit smoking well whenever they start smoking then they wont have shit to talk about, becuz it is hard to quit I dont think its as much as an addiction, but you do it cuz you have nothing else to do It all comes from boredizom!...Right or am I just crazy for thinking that ? I dont know I dont know anything anymore I think Im going to go insane * falls in floor * ouch that actually hurt
The rest of the night went pretty good. Brandon and Mike came over and we chilled for a while. We were gonna go riding around, but mike had to leave early, so he left and me and brandon just sat around talking about insects and stuff..well i guess i'm gonna get off here becuz i'm tired!!