Hey Arvin, I worry about you man! You are always getting sick. Do you take vitamins or any type of supplement? I saw this ad for I think A Current Affair which says everyone should be popping a pill...I reckon its cause the entire country's diet has been going down the crapper so the only way to get nutrients is through vitamins. I used to take Vitamin C and I loved the taste that I would take like, four a day. I don't know if it did me any good...I didn't get sick and I always get sick. But for me, it is through stress. I really believe that when you are stressed that the immune system isn't at top notch so you are prone to catching the stuff...plus there is some truth to the thing of "worrying yourself sick".....I get really bad stomach pains...always have. I worry too much and I think too much. I can psych myself out of anything and I really hate that. But yeah, Arvin mate!, maybe you should take some vitamins. It always seems to be the flu with you so lots of Vitamin C! I hate it when you go to the doctor and they say "oh you have what is going round"...and it's like "there is always something going round".

It sounds like you're stressed Therese! You need a time out, if possible. You were saying how you are doing so much assignment work and it sounds like it has been full on for a bit now. Is there a let up in the work any time soon so you can just sit down and have an "ahhhh" moment?...and parents, well yeah. They do tend to cop it sweet eh? You can always make it up to them in some way like do the house chores or get them something nice. Even a "Sorry" card and flowers.....parents can be amazing. You can be bloody awful to them and they are like "thats ok honey".

Hmm what have I been up to?.....geez...study mostly. That's why I haven't even been online and when I came online today, I got all these messages from ebayers in America who are wondering why they had not heard from me. One of them is a bit angry cause she reckons payment should have been received by now by me and that I should have e-mailed her to say so and send out her stuff but I haven't got her payment yet. I am hoping it wasn't lost...it takes so long to get from America to here...I think its cause of the terrorism stuff cause other countries, I get it within a week. I hate it when I don't receive it and they say they sent it cause they could negative feedback me and that isn't the best thing to read.. plus it aint my fault! I am so stressed.......I read this interview with Ethan Hawke the other day and ...have you ever read something said by someone and it made you go "Holy crap thats what I think or thats what I am like" and you feel really great cause you like the idea that someone else out there thinks or acts similarly so you dont' feel alone or well, crazy?......I read Ethan's interview and he was saying how he cherishes his time alone. He says he loves been married to Uma and having his kids but that because he spent so much time alone as a kid (I think he is an only child) that it has become a part of who he is and that these days, he needs his time alone and he goes crazy when he doesn't get the chance to have it. I had never thought about it that way but that is how I am. I was alone a lot as a kid and because of Mum stuff, people did not come over much. So being alone has become a part of me. Wayne used to accuse me of not liking people and being a sociopath and that hurt cause I love people and their company but I really need that time alone. I have had it for so long that, like Ethan, it has become a part of me. Plus, and this is bad to say, but I have a hard time trusting people and I guess I can be awkward with new people because I have had so many people in my life who have attributed to my mistrust so I am extra wary with new people. And when I do open up to someone new, I actually feel sick afterwards because I don't normally do in a short period of time....and I hate talking about myself to peope I don't really know. LoL That isn't really evident here cause I am always talking about me, the little ego that is I.......hmm oh god maybe I am a sociopath. I friggin' hope not. You never hear of positivity being associated with that word.

Holy crap that wind was hard! Oh man, Arvin. I have this image of you being carried away like Mary Poppins. I went out for pizza and my ears were hurting so much because of all the cold wind blowing into them....they hurt so much I couldn't even keep my balance. I thought we were getting our first tornado or something....and I stayed up for most of that night and it didn't let up till about 5am. I just kept thinking about all those homeless people I see when I go to the city....their beds are park benches and a couple of newspapers for blankets. I get in awe of some of the homeless because their whole life is focused on survival...not the little everyday goals that the rest of us have like getting to the bus stop before the bus comes or getting to work on time. It is a simple life in some ways but so hard...I don't think I could do it. I have some street smarts taught from my mum but not much...I might last a day if lucky. And then I hear of people who were high flying business executives and they give it all up, they leave their families and their jobs and choose to live on the street...why? Because they are sick of the fakeness and the lifestyle of being in a cutthroat industry and having to backstab everyday and having to conform to all these social rules..I read this somewhere....and yeah. So they choose the simpler and not-so-simple life and live on the streets cause it is more real and freer to them. I couldn't do it...I like the freedoms it would have but I also crave security. When I get a house, I am getting a friggin' huge dog and a security system...the works. I am very paranoid about that sort of thing.

Yeah Happy Birthday V. Hope it was a good one! I heard you had a boyfriend and I was very shocked! Geez that probably will come out wrong. It's cause I was so used to the idea of you and Wayne so this is new and very good. Wayne is not good boyfriend material, never was or will be. I tell him this but I don't think he understands. He needs to see it from a girl's perspective.

Anyways, I might leave it here for now......and oh yeah!! XXX is fantastic but I had one little snaggy problem with it. In the beginning, Samuel L Jackson and his crew are looking at the plans of the bomb thing the bad guys are making and one of the many notes made about it was that it had the ability to be invisible...yet when good guy and very nice looking guy Xander goes after it, it is visible....the bad guy was on the thing and set it up to detonate but didnt press the invisible button?...would have been handy...not that I want the bad guys to win or nothing. And yeah....I am with ya Arvin! Lilo and Stitch looks great..havent seen it yet though. I think I am driving Justin mad by saying the word "punch buggy!" in my crap Stitch accent all the time....you know that part in the preview where he throws the car and says punch buggy? I love that part. Anyways, hope you feel better Therese!!! I hope you get a real break from all your work and get to sleep in and stuff. Hehe yeah...I thought Olivia's Secret was Victoria's as well....I think it's a rip off of it...nah we can give the benefit of the doubt....Olivia is Victoria's sister! ....you know more men subscribe to that catalog than men...now they cant say they get that for the articles !

Love ya all.......Bec
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Went ring shopping with ness this morning then i met up with Jo and Trish to watch Goldmember. It was okay, some bits were laugh out loud (esp the first half) but some bits were corny and some bits were kinda rude...well duh teri, it is called GoldMEMBER! Is goldMember any good? he was alright but i still enjoyed 'the spy who shagged me" better. There'a a pun in there somewhere.
After the movie we found ourselves in Olivia's Secret (i thought it was Victoria's but apparently i was mistaken) and we each left with...something in the bag

:P
teri


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Thursday, September 19, 2002
     
hey all!
just finished mid-term exams and have a chance to post some hellos' and thoughts! but i will not use the ordinary way. i hope its readable...
first - hello everyone im ok and feeling better, i can actually breath now, as in not sick
happy - birthday NESS!!! sorry couldnt be there, money probs. yeah. wish you all the happiness and god furtune.
question - why is ness on tafe?
wow - you have a boo!!! *sweettt* wow so whats he like ness??? sounds like you guys are really going well! wow you found someone, that is so cool!!!
sweet - teri is a godmother! *parent* you will be an important part of that baby's life. i dont have mine since they are in phils. but i heard that you become part of their family/life. you are there for them and stuff. i mean thats how i would treat it.
saw - sumrah and shes fine and catching up well with uni work, shes been telling us how mahaam *cute baby* is like and all the little cute things she does like cry to wake up daddy.....so cute!
good - bec! im glad thnigs are better, it will get better. life is full of problems, one after another, thats how things are, its how you handle it and how u learn and grow from it. it seems that you are doing ery well, your a supa cool person and so strong to be still standing and you should give yourself an applause everytime you wake up in the morning!!! *claps*
the - that is so funny *smiling* i didnt know about it, that is a good idea.....the....
wise - i am as wise as you guys! you guys rock totally!!! *wohooo*
step - hope that works out teri! u did it and wow....see ur a gr8 friend!!!!!!!
tired - i am so sleeepy....i hardly had any sleep for the last few days. i can sleep tomorrow.
offline - is where i am typing this 7:43pm 17sept2002tue.
hungry - want barbeque.....lol
go - me go this is it for now......my eyes are hurting and my head is blank.....just had exams....
later - i'll be back!

added today:
reincarnation - not sure.....i just like living too much right now...i have thought about it and i think there is a heaven for all of us, whatever u want heaven to be, but be good!
god luck with the assessments teri...
i have mine next week......5 stuff due....b4 the midterm break...wish me luck!!!!
the wind nealry blew me off the road tonight...so cold.......i got home b4 8 and not wearing a jumper....duh.....im gonna keep myslef warm 2morrow.....i m feeling betta and i dont want it to be worst....anyways i have nothnig ti'll 3 but im coming at 12 to start assingments.....so yeah!!! sleep tight all!!!!

hugs all!!!!
arvin
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Greetings from teri

Finally finished my marketing assignment. It's crap but i hope i passed. I've been flat out with assignments lately and yesterday i had an exam for Budgeting. I think i did good. Gotta wait and see...
I was kinda bummed again today, had a lot of pent up anger and tension. From what? i dont know. So i went for a walk to the shops at 5.30 and got home at 6.30. By then the sun had gone down and i was freezing my ass off. Did everyone here the wind tonight? My windows were shaking! i hope i havent forgotten any laundry on the line! ha! i can imagine my underwear getting blown all the way Parra and landing in some poor unsuspecting persons backyard!
Anyway, i should get to sleep. i gotta hand in my assignment tomorrow at 9.30am which so inconvenient. I dont have class till 1pm but i have to hand in the assignment at 9.30 and i just wanna sleep! Think i'll just take up a corner of the library and doze off.

nighto!
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Tuesday, September 17, 2002
     
I saw XXX on Sunday. that Vin Diesel is one yummy dish. did i say mm-mmm?. *puts tongue back in mouth* Vin Diesel. nuff said.
teri
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posted Sunday 15th
hello all.
sometimes i cant believe what a bitch i am. And the worst thing is i dont even know why i do it. this arvo i was soo bitchy to my parents right after they treated me to a movie! and the weird thiing is i only seem to be this bitchy with my parents. urgh! i dont know, sometimes they just irk me so much and i cant hold my tongue like i usually do with other people. its very frustrating since i actually hadnt seen them for most of the weekend coz i slept over my cuzs house and when i was home i was doing assignments and all i could do when i did see them was bitch, bitch and bitch. man i kept on telling myself to take a chill pill...but... bleurgh! anyway, i was such an ass today.

Ah! i have just finnished reading the updates since the last i was here. and i must say i am much cheerier now than when i first typed that first paragraph.

I love that name! MAAHEM. its cool. i wish i had a name that wasnt so common. But i still wouldnt change it. I have strange views about my name. i mean most of the time i hate, Hate it when people say theresAh. especially when the name is written down for them and still they add an "ah". On the other hand it doesnt bother me at all when the say theresa with an accent... "te-re-sa". hmmm is that accent discrimmination? blah there's no law against it and anyway its my name. i mean what about that colin powell guy (did i spell that right?) his got everbody calling him "co-lin" (kinda a cross between colon and colin).

Godparenting: as ness said, being there for the child when needed and when not needed. plus helping them to "live the faith". Although im not quite so sure i want to do that last bit. i mean im willing to do the whole values and morals and things but there are just too many questions about what i myself believe that i dont think i have the right. i so want to go about catholicism but i dont hav the patience right now to talk get into a debate with myself about it and reincarnation and the afterlife just ties in with it all and i know i am starting get frazzled now so ill stop on the subject.

Ness, no offence taken lovey. i understand well, because u know, sometimes whenu tell me things i dont know what to say because ive never experienced what u were feeling and i feel like a fool for not being able to help u out. so yeah, im not offended coz i totally get u.

So anyway, goodnight dearest friends.
*group hug*
teri

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Sunday, September 15, 2002
     
hello again,

I'm really hungry and knowing that BBQ is being done outside my window is makng it worse. But it also means that dinner will be ready soon.

How's Sumrah handling motherhood?

I do remember "The... " the movie. Very fun indeed! Wen I read it, it all came back to me. This was the one with Cathy and Trent and everyone else. Remember how we had the "The.... Coming toa cinema near you soon" thing? Ahh... memories.....

My godfather is my uncle and is hardly allowed to talk to me or my siblings. He is not even to know that he gave my mum $20 for each of our birthdays. My aunt is a bitch. But, he treats me no different to how he treats the siblings who aren't hs godchildren. my godmother is dead, but I hardly spoke to her when she was alive. I thought it was just a name and that you did some stuff at the christening. But michael has a goddaughter and treats her in a particular way. He says that a godparent is someone who is there for the child whenever needed and whenever not needed....... Congrats, by the way, Teri....

Meanwhile...... I AM GOING TO M-ONE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! michael bought me a ticket for my birthday, but I told him I'll pay him back (eventually) since he bought me an anklet as well. I ams so excited about M-one. I have never been to something like that before, so I am over the moon... and I am going with someone who I love, so its all that much better! for anyone who does not know what M-one is all about..... www.m-one.com.au i think.

Bec...... sometimes i think about you and me. there is stuff going on in my life that i know you'd understyand better than anyone else.... no offence teri. Its just that Bec has done stuff that you havent, and I am not talking about anything sexual! But, i wont go into this here.

Too hungry now.

Love ya all....
From Ness.
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Hello all,

I havent blogged in ages. i said that I would about two weeks ago, but did not get around to it. I am a very busy beaver.. or, rather, I am rarely home.

I shall begin by updating you on my life.... for all those who do not know, I have got myself an absolutely wonderful boyfriend. It is Michael - the guy who works at Blacktown station. Great place for him to work coz it means i get to see him most days before and after TAFE. We are incredibly happy together! We are coming up to a month of being together. But it feels so much longer because of how much we know about each other and how long we have been interested in each other. There are so many people that tell me that it is about time I got over Wayne...... I still want Wayne in my life, but not like I did before.

i am still not liking TAFE but it is only a short time to go.

For those who did not come to my birthday, it was much fun.... did teri write anything about it? I'll just check..... no, she hasnt.... we went to Panthers.. Lone star for dinner and Panthers afterwards. We played Aqua Golf. That is my new thing. That and Subway subs with 1000 island sauce..... Aqua Golf is much fun! Last night I wanted to go again, so Michael and I went after he finished work at 10pm. I won a 2-4-1 voucher and he won $20. That was an incredible shot that he did - he hit it so far and into the basket!

James (Wayne's brother) wants to play pool, so I shall finish this later.

Love a very happy Ness
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Saturday, September 14, 2002
     
Hey there everyone. Good on ya Therese! But give yourself some credit girl! You have made the effort, it doesn't matter how small an effort you think it was, it's an effort! I truly truly hope it works out.

I forgot to say this ages back in my Sumrah! news...for people who don't know yet, the baby's name is , and I think I am spelling this wrong so don't take it as gospel...but it's Maaham....how you pronounce it is a cross between 'mum' and 'mayhem'. .... I think the name actually is a softer way of saying Mayhem....I looovee it! I didn't as first and I feel bad about that...I guess cause when Sumrah said it to me, I was like "wha???!" ..it sounded like a....well it sounded like a sound. But now I love it! ...I think its the mayhem bit that turned me around. I mean, what a cool name! And it's great for protection at school too! I mean, would you want to mess with someone called Mayhem? And I envision that twenty years down the track, little Mayhem Shahbaz will be riding down the freeway on her own Harley. Ok...maybe that's too stereotypical. I love it when people name their kids really original names...I love my name but it isn't too original. Not to say that we should all go the insane child-abuse route and name our kids stuff like hacksaw and gobbleknocker...that stuff is reserved for poor defenceless pets ... but one-of-a-kind names. Nick's idea for a girl's name is Ti'anna...how nice is that?.....of course there is the route some people go and they change their name by deed poll to stuff like Jesus Christ and The Holy Spirit and Elvis Presley (I am not kidding) ....now with a guy called The Holy Spirit.....is the first name Holy or is it The?..cause in most essays, The does not count but I have no idea for a name. Vanessa probably doesn't remember this but we had a wacky idea years ago to produce a film and call it "The"...just for the fun out of seeing people go to the box office and say "Can I have oneadult ticket for The"....it is just so incomplete cause no normal sentence ends with that word...ergo the fun.

Totally agree Therese!!! Arvin is the man! He has such a positive bent on life...and the advice and stuff he comes up with...he should have his own section at the Hallmark store cause its the sort of stuff that you read and go "yeah!! thats so right!" ...and he puts into words stuff others cannot. And you are philosophical but not to the point of know-it-all....you know those gurus that make out as if their word is law...but you're not like that! I swear I can see me turning the TV on at 3am one of these days and there you will be giving advice to a worshipping crowd. I totally respect you man! You really put things in perspective!

Congrats on being a godparent T ! That is great news. What does a godparent do exactly? I know there are some roles they have in the child's life but I never hear of the godparents I know of kids doing any of those things anymore. I don't usually like tradition but the idea of godparent is nice. I thought about mortality when Mum went....and I guess I think about it subconsciously ever since then but I don't know if it has set in. When I try and think about it, I get so frustrated because I have no idea where we all go after this life. I believe there is something else out there, the universe is limitless in so many ways but that's all I know.....who knows? Heaven could exist like the fluffy white clouds that is always portrayed on TV...or it could be a nice little retirement style village with its own Starbucks. It frustrates me that I have no idea. And I have a problem with reincarnation. If people are reincarnated, then how do people then "contact the dead" and have family talk to their lost loved ones if, through reincarnation, they are actually the soul of some little boy in Chile? The soul is apparently what gets reincarnated and the sould is the essence of that person so how does one talk to them when they have already been transported to another body and back into this life?....sorry if it all sounds like a dumb lot of questions but I have no idea.

Hey guys, thanks for the messages. I am better now. It is still the same situation but I guess I have had time to look at it from different angles and now can have a more positive bent on it. I just wish life was a bit more simpler and easier. In the past, I would have crappy times but then there would be a lull in between and I would vent, deal and get over with it and then another lot would come and I was prepared. In the past few years, I have had no lulls. It has literally being one thing after another so when another thing happens, I am trying to deal with it but am still dealing with the rest. I went through the whole "this is so unfair" rant which, at all angles, does nothing to help anything. Now I am at the "fine!" stage and I am going through it and sticking the proverbial finger up at fate.

Geez how cool is this? I miss you guys a lot and I am really sorry we don't hook up more than we do. But then we have our own lives that are going in so many different directions so it is hard to completely follow someone down a road when you are going the other way.....but then there is this! So when we pit stop down that road, we say a hello and a "how are ya?" and the connection stays. God bless Blogger!

I'll go now cause I am majorly behind in study. Just wanted to say a hello on my cyber pit stop and I love you guys!! Stay cool and beautiful!

Crazy thing found on the web today : Came across a guru website with the banner across the top saying "now with 30% more credibility" Like....ok.!!! Love Bec~!!
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Friday, September 06, 2002
     
There, the email has been sent. okay so i didnt do it in person. but i know that some things i put in the email i just wouldnt have been able to articulate in person. so yeah, i took the easy way out there but hey im building some bridges here. so what if my bridge is made out of toothpicks and glue, at least its a start huh...?
teri
:: posted by us friends 12:38 AM [+]




Thursday, September 05, 2002
     
hiya been busy busy busy and still am but boy is it ever a joy to come here and 'see' my people :)

lol! thanx bec. actually ive been so busy that ive been too tired to clean the kitchen from ceiling to floor, now its just been the areas between the floor and the stove...and no i hav not been uncoagulating the toothpaste! there's hope for me yet!

um and i think stuffing a purse into ones ass might be a touch uncomfortable...well for some anyway...whatever takes your fancy!

arvin, you continue to amaze me. do you realise you are quickly becoming a type of guru in my eyes? fearless and full of wisdom is our arvin. okay, maybe i shouldnt say that coz i dont wanna put u under any pressure or embarrass you. what im trying to say is you really are a good person and i wish i was more like you.

and u do tae-bo! i miss body combat! but i have been making some extra effort to include exercise in my normal daily routine. i now walk to the breakfast rd bus stop instead of the one at the end of the street. i am so looking forward to warmer days when i can go for an early morning jog. i havent been doing it coz its been too cold.

Hang in there bec. you will get through this. its the old 'sink or swim' we've all just got to try and keep our heads up out of the water.

Last night i went to a seminar about being a godparent (im gonna be a godparent on sunday) and Frank, the guy who was talking to us reminded me so much of this thing from LOTR (im not obsessed, really) Gandalf says to Frodo something about deciding "what to do with the time that is given to you". Frank said that we are all going to die some day. I realise that we are all going to die someday but somehow it sounds different, more real when someone actually says it to your face, not with non chalance or amusement but saying it solemny to your face...it makes a great difference.

Anyway its with those words and a bit of arvins as well that im going to make one small step forward to perhaps saving a friendship...i have butterflies in my stomach right now but here goes.......

teri
:: posted by us friends 11:39 PM [+]




Tuesday, September 03, 2002
     
Hey there everybody!!

I had no idea you did Tae-bo Arvin! I have this cool image of you kicking some major ass!...like in a Bruce Lee film! By the way, I apologise for my blogging in the shout box. I think the pics are really cool and me commenting that I am not there wasn't supposed to sound as "down" as it came out. I just had a very very bad weekend and so everything around me took on a negative feel. I do like the pics and reckon they really add to the "friends" feel of the place. I have some pics of me, sumrah and Cat together so you have the option of adding them. I don't see you that much so of course you're not gonna have pics of me! :))

Yeah but as I said, I had a really bad weekend. You ever had a time in your life when you thought one bad part of it was over and you could move on but then it resurrects itself and comes to bite you in the ass? That is what has happened to me. I thought I had rid of this problem and now I have to deal with for the next ten years at least because they have put this in my lap. I came home and just cried my eyes out. It felt good but I felt at rock bottom. I don't like to read like a sob story but I have had a lot of things go wrong in my life and they were things that I had no control over. So I marched on as one can only decide to do and thought I had finally reached a point where I did control things that would happen to me but it has happened again. I feel very, well, defeated. It is neverending, it seems. So much stuff in a consistent flow over my whole life has thrown itself at me and it has always been stuff that I could not dodge but had to keep my head straight and get bashed in the face with it. And this person who has given me this new lot of crap thinks they are doing me a huge favour because they had it much worse when they were younger so they see it as me having it real sweet. Part of me hates them so much and another part feels sorry for them. Worst of all, it has changed me ..hopefully temporarily. I am more introverted and always thinking about what I have to deal with, trying to plan ways out of it and dealing with it. I don't feel as carefree anymore because I know such feelings would be superficial. I have passed the "life sucks" phase and am entering the "will get through this and cut these cancers out"....cancers being the people who have caused this. It will all be cool eventually.

I hate to be the wet blanket but I wanted to share. You guys are my friends so its cool that you know what's up..or what's down. I agree with Arvin...we don't see each other very much if at all for periods of time and this site keeps that link going and current so that when we do meet up, it's not like we only have the memory of high school to keep us going. Anyways, I might leave it here...stay cool and real guys!!! I will blog again real soon.

Love Bec ~~!!
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Sunday, September 01, 2002
     
ello ello everybody!

therese! you have some weird quirks! thats so cool! we all have our own but yeah i had no idea that you do that. oh yeah. thats a new quirk you have. but i can relate to about having a very clean freak person. my mum, shes so clean freak. i think its just something she alwasy had, sometimes its good coz everything is so clean and sometimes its bad coz its so tiring and can be boring to clean so much like that. but you are not alone i have my own little impulsice compulsive behaviour, is that a disease or something, well i mean its not that bad. ok yeah im just blabbering, but remember that dont over do it. to break it, once in a while break it, leave a whole piece of lettuce or rice and see that it wont hurt at all.

oh. i know how u feel about feeling bloated bec. i am like whats happening with my body, whats all these stuff hanging out. lol. even though i am not fat nor chubby. even though people especially family goes .....look at you putting on extra flab.....ummm...ok....thanks for telling me..... i can see that i have low muscle content. i need some exercise to firm some parts of my body. and watching the new tv show that i really want to watch, search for a supermodel - guys and girls, wont help at all. but im really looking forward to watching it. wed 8pm ch10, if u wanna see....

anyways yeah i need some exercise and i try to do tae-bo as often as i can which is basically 2-3 times a week. around 10 minutes.....actually did u kbow that ur ssuppose to exercise for at least 20 min 2-3 times a week....to be healthy....yes i heard that if you do that u'll feel healthy and better.....other than loosing all the weight....yeah i have also noticed that i also i feel so much better and i feel like im not carrying a heavy load or something. its cool. last week i did no tae-bo at all. i mean my parents actually jog at wekend and tae-bo at night...20 minutes... yes they're so sweet doing the exercise thing together.

but bec if u ever do try female wrestling. go girl!!! i would be like i have a female wrestling friend! so cool!!! yeah! so cool!!

happy fathers day to all fathers!!! had a barbeque courtesy of my dad. so yumm. i totally agree with you bec. we should tell the people that we love how much we love them not only on days that are marked but also on everyday of our lives. life is too short to hate, hold grudges or judge people. actually there is really no point on that at all, even uf i leave a million years, whats the point of hating someone. let love in our life!!!!! ok kinda corny but yea its all good.

i made some pics on the top. trying to personalize this page. like it? i do! ok anyways if you guys dont like any of the pictures i'll change it or put it down or u can do it if u know how to, if u need help let me know, so just say coz im totally fine with it. hope u guys like it. as you can see there are a few people missing like bec, sumrah, cat etc..... or people that shouldnt be there. just say. ok.......so if you guys have any newer pictures please send them to me so i can make a new one. i dont see you guys enough!!! hopefully soon again.

i cant believe i have remained friends with you guys for so long, even if i dont see you guys for a very long time! im so happy about that! we have made it this long. the only thing that is pulling us closer is our friendship. not school, not uni, not a job. we are still here friends coz we make an effort and we keep in touch! so cool!

anyways later and enjoy the pictures....

ps... please send me pictures so i can make a new one and yes you can make your own collage and pictures and stuff and u can add it here. if u need help just ask me. ok dokes later!

pss... i think the thing with my uni friends will be fine....i think...

miss u all heaps!
arvin

:: posted by us friends 8:53 PM [+]





     
something is happening to my uni friends....hope it doesnt happen to us......i mean........here is just some thoughts.....havent read the last few posts and i'll reply to that.... i just quickly wanted to post this, maybe we can get something out of this.......

last night i was so frightened what will be of our friendship. i wondered about the whole idea and the fact that we did that to each other.

i had time to think.

it is open forum, where you say what you think about that person, that friend. the things you usually dont say infront of their face. but u think about it and say maybe sometimes say it behind their back.

noone and nothing is perfect.

the open forum was not suppose to be destructive it is suppose to be constructive.

i was not there to change someone coz everyone is their own person. i was not there to judge, coz i had no right to do that. i was not there to criticise and make someone feel bad about themselves coz i know i have my own faults.

at the open forum, i wasnt enforcing that i was right. i wasnt saying that, hey your wrong. its not that at all. i said what was on my mind at that time/moment and maybe my mind will change later. maybe you could tell me your view on that situation after listening to what i say.

yes it was raw, yes it was real and yes it can be hurtful. yes it was me pointing out from what i see that persons faults or something that kinda annoys me about them. yes i will get my fair share and yes it can either be something that can break us or make us into better friends.

i admit i felt bad. but im glad i know it, it does not mean i will change myself. it does not i mean i will continue being that person. i heard what they said and i will take it day by day. its an adjustment knowing somethnig about yourself that is not good.

some, they might not know that they do that, maybe they do. maybe they need help, maybe they dont. maybe its their personality and maybe thats the actual reason why we are friends with them and not know it and maybe it hurts us. maybe your glad it was said and heard. maybe its something you will regret.

the reason why i agreed was that i believed that our friendship was strong enough to get rid of the lies under the table, behind each other, like a bubble floating close waiting to be burst by a pin.
maybe we pushed too much in trying to pull each other closer.

look at the big picture.

i knew that someone can get hurt from this, espeically that ur friends has said this. some will listen, some will use it for their own purpose... good or bad, some will forget it and someone will hold that to their heart and let that get to them.

i am cool with that, i realize that we were opening pandora's box together and i felt that we were going to conquer this together.

this friendship is something that i take seriously and im so glad i am part of. each person brings something. good. or why would we stay in a bad frienship.

at the process of doing this, it wasnt my intention to be bad and hurtful, judgemental or change someone. i am as human as you.

i accept my friends so much, before this happned and after it occured.

we should balance it out. the things that annoys you and the things you like about them. its not sucking up its telling them how you make their day better. its not fishing for compliments its telling them that you are soo good.....

maybe it wasnt the best idea but im glad it happened. these things happened for the best and thats how God planned it. it was meant to be.

honesty is such a lonely world. i hope not. the truth is painful but also the truth is love and care.

we will all take something from this, we can grow from this or we can break from this.

the only thing that was not right, was the fact that we did not think about what will happen afterwards. i have other friends and i try to be as honest as i can. i say it, small things maybe big. but know that im your friend. good times bad time in between.

that is all i can think of right now. but im ok. i am not perfect and the things my friends say matters deeply, and i know mine does to them. good or bad. what will happen now? i dont know. que sera, sera, whatever will be, will be. the futures not for us to see. que sera, sera. what will be, will be. i like that song.

it was done, the intention is good, am sorry people got hurt and some people didnt listen. all it was was letting that person know. the good and the bad. at the end you still accept them and not think of them any less. its up to u how u use it and see it. it is up to each of us what will happen now.

i hope it turns out ok. more to say but i'll leave it here for now.

later!
arvin
:: posted by us friends 10:24 AM [+]





     
Hey there guys!

You do have a point Arvin! We do tend to just go off on little random proses so it's like we have been doing the prose thing for ages and didn't realise it. How cool is that? I like your idea about free association though I don't know how that could be exercised here...?! I believe in that...that if you ramble and are asked different questions at lightning speed that you end up telling the God-honest truth and so many times, it shocks the people who do it cause they are like 'wow! so that's how I feel about that!"....humans are funny.

hehe yes!! Same thing! I got a napkin put in my lap too at that posh restaurant I was rambling on about before. I felt like I was an invalid.....like I'm not capable of putting a piece of cloth in my lap??...is there a special style of doing it that has more effect than just whacking it on your thighs? But I didn't like the idea of this waiter 'serving' me in the most traditional way possible which I reckon extenuates their job to servant.

Interesting Therese! I think you have discovered a slight case of obsessive compulsiveness. I just really hope you don't turn into my dad who absolutely has to use matching colour pegs to the colour of the piece of clothing he is putting on the clothesline. And my mum used to iron my bras! But quirks are good...quirks are what make you, you! Plus, advertise the fact that you cleaned the kitchen from floor to ceiling and you will be very popular with some very messy people out there. It reminds me of a Seinfeld episode...now Therese, did you Windex any peepholes or uncoagulate any toothpaste tubes? LoL Cause then its time for a little chat girl! .....

Sumrah mini-news! Sumrah is cool! She is getting used to nappy changing and has no problems feeding now. I just had to feel her stomach to see what it was like post-birth...it felt like jelly...really cool and kind of gross. But she is doing really well and will be going back to her studies very soon!

Father's Day is...well time is 12.41am so its today. I have a problem with Father's Day. I know of families who are at war all year and then call a ceasefire to act all fake-nice around the dinner table for one night to give off some sense of family closeness and normality and then once the day has passed, return to war. And then there are families who don't seem to give a damn until that one day a year when society says "send a card a.k.a give the govt more money" and suddenly everyone is the friggin' Partridge Family. Why wait till that day every year? I have always felt that a present in the middle of nowhere for no reason other than "I thought you would like it" means more than forced presents given out on nominated days. Not to say we shouldnt get birthday presents or Christmas presents but why wait till then? Why wait till mother's Day to show your mum you love her?.....haha this may be me subconsciously championing the idea of getting more presents so who the heck knows but yeah.

I am blabbing on. Watched some wrestling last night. It is getting so much better and the writing is not so crap now.....and please, non-wrestling fans out there, resist the urge to comment!! lol....I should have been a wrestler....I could look in the mirror in the morning and move around and see that nothing was wriggling....I have pudgy bits on me that annoy me a lot. It is like someone played "pin the fat ball on rebecca" because there are these pockets of fat everywhere...if they were real pockets, I wouldn't need a backpack to go out anymore...I could just tuck my keys into my stomach and my purse into my ass. Haha though the latter may prevent me from being served at cashier counters when I go to pay for stuff......but yeah...wrestling is so athletic. I like the idea of wrestling too...good contact sport. However, the women get crap compared to the guys. We have to wrestle in our underwear, wrestle in mud and have ugly big guys kiss us....well according to the wrestling I watch...so maybe I don't want to be a wrestler....my friend's sister loves the moves...she has been trying to convince her boyfriend to allow her to do the sleeper hold on him....interesting talk that would be "honey can I strangle you for a couple of minutes.....aww honey don't knock it till you try it" .... I am sidenoting to the point I have no more subject left to sidenote from.....will leave now more confused and angst ridden than when I arrived.....

People may laugh at me because I am different

I laugh at them because they are all the same

Love Bec ~!!
:: posted by us friends 1:09 AM [+]