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Some of my writing

Tuesday, 12 December 2006


Road of unknowns now, that's what I'm leading
My life rearranged by the fear and the fleeing
My mind still so jaded, hating yet pleeding
My heart's distraught, broken and bleeding
The war of the worlds, it's on my shoulders now
It's a battle of selves, the origin I can't tell
Mind against heart, Light against dark
Logic’s got to win the fight so I can get on with my life

Posted by blog/steffa at 9:57 PM EST
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If in time I can remind you
You’re not the kind who is inclined
To find blind a piece of mind
While you redefine sublime
Your eyes, they compromise the skies
Your guise complies only with your lies
Because beneath each chivalrous emprise
Lies a place wherein highs meet fatal demise
A maze of clichés, to avoid you convey
Such praise to the strays, so fake your displays
And when struck by malaise, the heard you amaze
You find ways the make them stay exceeding their days
But now impends losing a final friend
And I extend to advise you comprehend
That the fringes of pretend you don’t transcend
And every trend meets and end no matter how far it ascends

Posted by blog/steffa at 9:56 PM EST
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The restraints of society, the complexities of propriety
So much left behind me, new pain here to bind me
In a place with such boundaries that need to define me
Each deed done more blindly, each word spoken less kindly

People get sick to the tick and the tock of the clock
When every hope is a trick and a dream is a mock
Can't we have some time to choose our own way
Some small peace of mind, one borrowed day

When it's all gotten confusing to the point of amusing
You laugh away your sanity at everything you're losing
And your time's all spent musing on self depiction you're ruining
And you're convinced you deserve the absurd self abusing

Posted by blog/steffa at 9:42 PM EST
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For the first time in a long time
I don't feel confused
From the first time you locked your eyes on mine
I knew I belonged with you
And from the first time I felt your heart beat
Right next to mine, I knew it was true
That for the first time in my whole life
I had something I stood to lose


Now I've been up and down that path
Of heart breaks and breaking hearts
There were times that I really doubted love
Doubted I'd ever play that part
So it was hard at first for me to believe
When you said the things I wanted to hear
But I soon grew to learn the kind of man you were
And every kiss was more sincere


Baby ya know you've got me feelin crazy
And I've got no explanation why
I'm doin and feeling the things that I do
You never gave me a reason to cry
But I get so much out of the thought of your touch
I just can't stand thinking it could end
I've never had somone put so much faith in me
Be my lover and my best friend

Posted by blog/steffa at 9:40 PM EST
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I woke up today feelin like
This morning I just was born
Like everything I ever learned
My whole life was wrong
I'm not sure where things start or end
I don't know where I belong
When I lost you, lost myself too
God help me
This time you're really gone

When I was a girl, I used to believe
That love was something cut and dry
That you could fall far enough and never need to get up
And that was all it took to bond you for life
But the truth I learned from loving you
Sometimes the deepest love just ain't enough


I've got my coffee, I got my paper
10 min til work and my hair's still wet
I'm goin through all the same motions
Just prayin it'll help me forget
Pick up my keys and I'm out the door
Fumble thru my purse just to miss the call
I'm doin the same things I do everyday
But none of it seems to matter at all

When I was a girl, I used to believe
That love was something cut and dry
That you could fall far enough and never need to get up
And that was all it took to bond you for life
But baby somehow we just never make it
And every time we try, it ends in tears
I'm not sure how much more I can take it
Just having to up and throw away these years

It hurts to lose you, but more to keep loving you
Baby, this just can't go on
And I died the day I told you that
This time I really need to move on

I can't really say that I'm feelin much pain
I'm feeling really nothing at all
And with every move, that I'm making today
I'm slippin further and further away
Cuz when your heart gets bruised, it tends to heal over
You hurt and you forget
But I guess this is the way that a heart no longer feels
When it's broken past the point to mend

Posted by blog/steffa at 9:38 PM EST
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I'm sick of going through the motions
Sick and tired of the games
My head's so spun with riddles
I've lost the line between real and fake
I don't know much about love at all
And every time I think I do
I stumble and I fall
I've got the bruises for proof
So just forget it this time
What's the use?
I'm sick of hurting myself for nothing
Sick of feelin so confused
You want me?
Fuckin come get me

Posted by blog/steffa at 9:37 PM EST
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Don't take em for granted
Yah, every up and down
Don't look at it slanted
Smiles can grow from frowns

Posted by blog/steffa at 9:35 PM EST
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When I met you, my heart was a hurtin unit
It needed more than a little fine tuning
I got to thinking it'd only get worse
Like I was on a fast track but stuck in reverse
I put my heart out on the line
But baby still from time to time
You get that look in your heart
Well I don't know how it don't show
But hunny I've gotta let you know
You've got the world over him
Yah baby you win

Baby I dont know why
You let it get to you so
I let go of my past
And I need you to know
Don't be jealous, please, don't be hurt
We're just mending a broken friendship
The moment you walked into my life
Whatever we had, I ended it

Posted by blog/steffa at 9:33 PM EST
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I overreacted our past few fights
Maybe I didnt interpret things right
But if I tend to act uncertain
Its just that Im terrified
I dont wanna lose again
Cuz you made me cave, made me try
And now I dont wanna relive
The recurring tears I've cried

I wanna make it easy
Make it perfect, make it cheesy
I want pet names, wanna hold hands
Wanna laugh, I wanna slow dance
I want it more than anything else, I do
Baby and I want it all with you

I let u in and it may damn me
But I care, maybe more than u know
Thats y I'm so damn scared w/ you
And its y I wanna let u go
See I didnt know there was still a part of me
That didnt wanna be free
That needed so badly to need someone
Someone that needed me

I want us to be happy
A little cute, a little sappy
I want pictures of us laughing
To look back at good times we were having
I want that more than anything else, I do
Honey, and I want it all with you

I wanna make it right
I want you every day and night
I want what we could have
Don't want tears, don't wanna be mad
I want us to just let go
Of pettiness so we can grow
I want it more than anything else, I do
Baby just want this to work with you

Did u ever feel ur <3 so full
From being rejected and replaced
That it was no longer worth the heartache
Makes u wonder what the hell is faith
Well I have, and I dont want to burden u
With all the shit Ive been thru
All I want is someone I can trust
And I want that to be u so much...
I wanna make it easy

Posted by blog/steffa at 9:32 PM EST
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We used to be perfection
Now I'm losing your attention
And I'm trying not to mention
But I just can't hide the tension
Did you think I'd never question
Your glowing red complextion
When I call on the direction
Of your affection, Damn deception

Posted by blog/steffa at 9:30 PM EST
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