I like to look nice so I'm usually late, but that don't make me a priss
And don't think I can't run car talk just cuz I got gucci on my wrist
So I bleach my hair, get over it, that don't mean I'm dumb
I'm not tryin to be something I'm not, I'm just having fun
I'm independent and that means I'm capable, but if that's what it does
What it doesn't is that I don't sometimes, just wanna be taken care of
I'm not a girl who falls for the same old cheap ass lines
Yah I wanna fall, but until it's real, if I'm on my own that's fine

Don't judge me before you know me
Or when you think you do
Cuz it seems people mainly talk
When they haven't got a clue
So if it's really that important
To drag my name through the mud
Then why don't you pick a real flaw
I've got plenty you don't have to make up

I can get a little jealous and act stubborn out of spite
But just cuz I'm a woman, don't mean I make everything a fight
I'm not a girl who crowds a man, he likes his space I like mine
But if he takes advantage of my trust, the first will be the last time
Now I'm a sexual person, but I got a lotta respect for myself
So guys who just want one night, best look somewhere else
I tend to refuse a helping hand, my best line's always been "I'm fine"
I just want a guy who'll know I'm lyin and see straight thru my pride
Now believe I've been knocked down more than my fair share of times
But the more you fall the stronger you are, there must be a lot in store for my life

Don't judge me before you know me
Cuz trust me, you ain't got a clue
Not even my closest know me
As well as it seems you do
So here's a little tip for free
Why don't you spend more time
Recognizing your own faults
And less analyzing mine

I tend to go out and party it up a few too many nights
It seems the only remedy, when you're trapped in city lights
I'm a little bad at trusting men, so my relationships tend to falter
But when you're magnet for those who get a kick outta control, the mindframe's tough to alter
Now I've struggled with life and had my loses, some so bad that I’ve cursed tomorrow
So you might notice I act impulsively, cuz I know that time is borrowed
I bet you could never tell by looking, I've read Faulkner just for kicks
And I'd bet anything if you got to know me, I'm not the girl my face depicts

Don't judge me before you know me
Just gimme the same respect I've shown
Don't trip on how I live my life
Before you get one of your own
It seems you're trying to fit a role
That's already played by another
Stop tryin to be my toughest critic
I already got that one covered

The first time was a mistake
You lied and cried you never meant it
I guess I didn't quite know what to think
I just hoped that'd be the end of it
But the second time was heartbreak
This time there was no regret
Unless you count the tears that fell
When I cursed the day we met
But in spite of will or desire
Some things just don't come true
And the things that hurt the most
Are those you can't bare to lose

Does it make you feel like a man
Laying your hands on a girl?
Come on tell me
Are you on top of the world?
Is it the grabbing or the bruises
That give you the control?
Come on tell me,
Cuz I'd really like to know
Come on tell me
So I can let you go..


For the first time in my life
I just wasn't strong enough
Behind all the smiles and bullshit
I was far more weak than tough
And it's funny, the man who claimed to love so strong
Was the one who brought me to my knees
And so you took it and used it against me
I guess it made you feel empowered
And I don't know if you've ever tried
To keep something so bad inside
Have you ever smiled until it kills you?
Just so that they never see you cry?
You made me feel like I was nothing
You treated me like dirt
The back of your hand was how I found
A way I never knew that I could hurt


And that's why I don't anymore
You'll never see me cry
You'll never see that part of me
And here's the reason why
It gave you satisfaction
It made you feel complete
The lower I felt, the stronger you were
But I'm back up on my feet
So fuck you asshole, fuck you you bitch
You'll never be a man
And fuck you cuz I know
That you'll never understand


Well I threw away your bullshit
It means nothing to me anymore
And I hope it kills you to see me smiling
Though it can't begin to settle the score
I often wonder how long it'll take
To heal the wounds you made
Or how long it'll be til I can trust again
How long til I'm no longer afraid
You see I put up with the bruises
The times you brought me to my knees
But the pain you caused that I couldn't stand
Were from the scars you couldn't see

When we started talking,
I kinda got the feelin that
We were clickin, but you were chicken
Now you're the mess I'm dealing with
I know what I meant
cause I could see it in your eyes
You'd call me your baby,
Sweet talk me in front of the guys
Never assumed it'd end this way
You're so used to playing games
You're too immature to know anything more
We could've had it all but you showed me the door
Immature, gotta grow up
Immature, couldn't handle an us
Immature, now you miss me so much
Boy you're so immature, but you're shit outta luck
Now you wonder why I don't call
Don't stop by to say what up
And deep down you know it's you fault
Cause every day you call me up
All you can handle is nothing more than a little fun
But by the time you told me, it was too late
The damage was already done
You have no capacity for any sort of compassion
And damn you need to realize
You should think before your actions
All I ever asked was to tell me the truth
But you couldn't handle that could you
You had to play these games then expected me to wait
Well you're not at the top of my priorities babe
Look at me when I'm talkin to you
Tellin my girl I'm doggin you
Makin up a thing or two
Can't face up to any of your emotions, you f*ed up
Now you'd distraught with what might have been
But you're shit outta luck
Said it was your fault and you didn't wanna fight
Well finally we agree on something boy
Said you're ending this for my own good
You don't want to see me cry
But that you screw up every relationship
Well no shit, cause you won't even try

You're so good at lying
So good at crying
Just to make me believe what you say
You look for sympathy
Beg for my pity
Then you throw it all away
Well you can't seem to get past
What's real and what's trash
You'll be alone till forever and a day
*Chorus*
How can ya lie like that
Live like that
Make people cry like that
When they give like that
Give me the eye like that
When it's all a fib like that
Say you'd die for me like that
Well I can't forgive like that
**
There's something sick about you
How do you do
Things you were taught
You weren't supposed to
Well I'm done, it's a wrap
Scene's over, cut the act
Underneath your facade
You couldn't give a rat's ass
You're pathetic, believe it
Don't think we don't all see it
It's clear
Open up your ears and hear it
*Chorus*
I promise you this
You're not even missed
I know now you're a prick
Too bad I fell for your shit
You're a liar and a coward
You thought you had power
Like jekyll and Hide
You changed by the hour
You hurt your friends
To become the new trend
But you'll reach your end
No matter how far you ascend
Because success only survives
Where honesty resides
And the world wasn't built on foolish pride
Maybe one day you'll learn that

You jerk, that's it
I don't want anything more to do with you
I've had enough
I'm so through with you
This time for good
Last time I thought that I would
Leave you forever
Somehow we got back together
But it' the last straw
Here's where I draw the line
I won't come back to you
Never again, not this time
*Chorus*
You're the last thing on my mind
I refuse to call you mine
You made the mistakes
Now it's my choice to make
You could've had it all
Had you slipped, I'd break your fall
I could've been everything to you
I would have done anything for you
I tried to be friends
But it wasn't enough
Then you act all tough
When you hurt
So you flirt
Trying to get me back
Well fuck that
What I did wasn't mean
You should've seen and heard
The last twenty times I said the words
I tried to be nice but it got old
Then you act all cold
How ppl do when they're pissed
Telling everyone how you got dissed
Would you just cut that shit
You're so full of it
Liar Liar, pants so on fire
You're in dire need of new attire
*Chorus*
Hey you, you should just face the truth
Be a man about what you do
But now you gotta act like a prick
Then make me out to be the trick
Well I'm done, now I'm through
Never thought you'd hear that did you
Ironic, I never kid you
You just wouldn't listen
Now take a look at what's risen
You did that, congrats, good job
Oh wait, now you're sorry?
Now there's a prob?
Well now I don't care
Life sometimes isn't fair
So go ahead, try your lie
I've wet my last eye over you

I don't think I'll ever understand you
Or not have feelings for you
And sense has got me moved past it all
Still there are words left unsaid
That will never be said..
I wonder why you said goodbye
Your reason was bullshit
Don't give me a lie
I wonder if you ever wonder what I'm up to
Well I can probably say if there's ever that day
I'm probably doing the same as you
But the difference will be what always was
You put that barrier up
You know why you made me cry
You can explain this emptiness I feel inside
God, I'm just not equipped
To be caught in your grip
Maybe once in awhile you think of me
But I doubt it
I need closure, but I'm so sure
If I asked, I wouldn't recieve it
The secret you hold, it's so clear to you
Everything's simple when you know the truth
And yet every day it plagues me
How I was just your baby
I need reason, come and save me
What we shared was uncomprehendable
What you did was unmendable
God I never asked anything of you but truth
But you couldn't handle that
To hell with you
Why should I even care
You're a little boy, you run when you're scared
You're the type that'll always be alone
Love's something you can't postpone
For a time when you're better equipped
and strong enough to deal with it

I don’t
Wanna tell you how I feel
And I won’t
Let you know I need a little time to heal
And u’ll never
See the part of me that’s weak
Cuz I’ve always tried to be strong enough
So u wouldn't see I'm not that tough

*chorus*
Well I wait too long then I’m gone
Another day went wrong
Well I’m fine I said but I lied
Another night alone I cried
See I let the issues bypass
Another week’s gone by in silence
All my feelings stored away
The end of the month is just another day

With you, it’s hard
I never get very far
In what I need to say today,
It hurts
But I can never find the words that I feel
And I wonder if I'll ever get the pain you caused to heal

I should
Confront the situation
But I don’t
Wanna build my expectations
And it doesn’t
Matter anyways
Cuz I spent so long numbing myself
Against every shred of logic I have left

*Chorus*
Well I wait too long then I’m gone
Another day went wrong
Well I’m fine I said but I lied
Another night alone I cried
When I felt wronged I let it bypass
Another week’s gone by in silence
All I do is hope in vain
Cuz end of the month is just another day

And now I don’t care
If the way life goes is fair
Cuz I can’t feel the pain
Or anything
I wonder if it's just that way with you
But I can't let you go and face the truth

Perfect oh so perfect
Such determination twistedly
In retrospect, realization says
How perfect can you really be
With such disregard to the obvious
The want, the need to feel a way
Which out of all things that should be
You want the one thing you cannot attain
It's black and white with no greys to sheild
To protect from what you try not to see
Because all your energy is sacrificed
On something you will never be
Yet so long ago was idenity relinquished
Forever all you were and all you knew
Now possessing only drive and surrealist passion
Blurred judgement and marred vision

You say you need me
Boy just stop your lying
You say you care for me
You don't even know I'm crying
Boy you turn me off now
But I don't wanna be with
nobody else but you, how
Do I get myself so confused over you
If I could just feel your arms around me again
I'm afraid I'd be alright
Until the night comes to and end
And we're stuck in another fight
In the mornings we make up what's lost
and we're back to being friends
But as the day gets long, I'm not so strong
We end up hating each other again

What's the matter?
Don't you see I showed myself?
I opened up my soul and said help
Look at me for once
If this is what you wanted,
You wanted me to open up
Why am I still laying here in my head
Crazy with what's left unsaid
See I knew that I should have kept it all inside
Cuz then all that hurt me was my pride
But the deeper you let them in
The deeper they tend to drill
And the more wounds left to heal

See the thing is that I've never been good enough
And I don't know why I try to act so tough
Maybe because there must be soemthign wrong with me
Something deep that I can't see
Don't you just wanna let me breathe?
God I wish that they could see
What the little things have done to me

It started out as everything else
And ended up to where I can't tell
Where I started
When you reach the point where no one cares
You cannot trust, and you just can't bare
To try again
Cuz you never seem to win
And what's in front of you is what you need
Still you can't seem to do the right thing
And you hurt yourself again
Chasing affection that you couldn't give
And it seems to hard
Maybe just to live