gross
I am so fat I disgust myself. Have you ever sat down and realized that your thighs seem to take up the whole chair? I'm sitting on my legs right now and they are HUGE!! I don't even recognize them anymore from like a month ago when I was running up to twice a day....I want the tone back and all this fat to goo awwayy!!!
Gaingin this weight is doing nothing to bring me out of the isolation I've found myself in lately. When I was 115 after a day or two of bingeing, I would
not go out until all that excess was burned off. Now, at 120 pounds, I want to die. What's worse all my friends ecpect me to be skinny still. They never see me eat either, so it's gonna be extra shocking to them to see me this tuesday when I go back to school and I'm like 10 pounds heavier (if that's how much i really weigh and not all water/food weight). That's why I'm going to work out at least once a day and not eat anything..I'll drink a ton of water/tea and coffee occasionally, but no food. Because once I start eating I won't stop....