I am living and
Aware of everything
But I feel nothing
I cause others to feel
What I need
I'm freezing
And numb
Radiating negativity
And helplessness
From myself
Alone
Off to the side
Forgotten
So out of place
Skin like ice
Try to touch the sun
But knowing I will melt
Just give me something
I can feel
Anything but this nothing
I live in
Pale, icy skin
That fades when no one is looking
A tear slides
And is frozen there
Tearing me up from the inside
Internal wounds
Mental bleeding
Tortured
Both inside and out
Wishing to sleep
Forever
But the sun does rise
And so do I
Eyes hurt
The tears sting as they freeze
Ringing in my ears
Painful and high-pitched
Slicing through my mind
A burning coldness
That takes me over
And I can't escape
I can't move
I'm frozen in my life
And everything passes by:
An unrecognizable blur of normal
And I'm out of place in this world
Living in a Swirl of darkness
That causes moods to
Come and go too quickly
I walk on unsteady legs
And fly with quivering wings
So unsure of myself
Because this is not my place
Try to get along
But I only get ignored
Misunderstood so much
Because it's not what I mean
And I don't know how else to say it
Heat gently creeps up on me
But it flees
When I turn with open arms
To welcome the much needed sensation
I try flying to it
But it burns my wings
And I am forced back
Into the dark
Into the cold
Into this world
That holds nothing for me
And where angels do not belong
