Rant

*** I was very pissed when I wrote this. As you can tell. I don't really hate people or wish they would die... I just get, well, pissed sometimes. Bear in mind that this is a rant. ***

i hate you
all of you

the way you sit there in class
huddled together
as if you subconsciously realize
that you are nothing by yourself

and pick
with your perfectly manicured french nails
at anyone that you judge weird
or not cool
or simply an outsider
rip them to shreds

unless they are there

and then you smile, sweet as poison
and twist your lies up in your perfect hair
dyed blonde, of course
(everyone knows they have more fun)

now a rationale: oh, she's so stuck up!
look in a mirror, my friend
with your eyes open for once
it just might destroy you
i pray that this might happen
for then you have a chance at becoming real
(as phoenix surely rises from the ashes)

you tease her for not having perfect skin
(unlike you, perfect in every way)
and then you plunge a knife
into your "friend's" smooth brown back
the minute it presents itself

"but she's NOT COOL!"
well......

you are small-minded
stupid
superficial
fake
parasitical
snobbish
annoying
petty
whining
two-faced
helplessly dependent on others to lift you up
because you can't stand on your own two feet
and you know deep down inside that you are nothing
but as long as you are "cool" you can fool yourself

sometimes i pity you

and sometimes i wish you would die

-5/15/00