Thoughts on Being A Shaolin
(through the eyes of Peter)
By: Mary Ann Boring
I tentatively step towards the caldron, uncertain as to whether I am ready to
embrace my heritage as a Shaolin.
My hands fall limply to my sides as I back away from the assembled priests.
Including my father, Kwai Chang Caine.
I want to please him, but there is another whom I called father.
I am torn between them and their two worlds.
I love them both.
There is unfinished business with him. I need to know if he still loves me as he
did then.
I need him, but does he want me? Why did he leave us? When will he come
home?
I need these answers from him.
I have to find him.
My senses have been heightened due to the training I have been given.
I wonder if I have the ability to leave my body to search for him.
But will my Shaolin father help me find my other father?
I have had dreams where he comes back to me, only to vanish again.
I am lost, like that frightened child again, coming to terms with the death of
my real father and the destruction of the temple.
I can't go on like this. I need his help.
I cannot take the brands of the tiger and the dragon until I get my head on
straight.
Please be at the secret place, Paul. I--we all need to see you.
To touch you and know that you're alive and well.
We need to tell you how much we love and miss you.
I want you to come back and be with us.
Be part of my life again, Father.
I still need you, even now.
I love and miss you.