SCENES OF LOVE
Chapter One
I saw my whole life as if I’d already
lived it...an endless parade of parties and cotillions, yachts and polo
matches...always the same narrow people, the same mindless chatter. I felt like
I was standing at a precipice, with no one to pull me back, no one who
cared...or even noticed.
Seventeen-year-old Rose DeWitt Bukater stared
blankly ahead, her food untouched, hearing nothing of her mother's
conversation.
Her life flashed before her eyes. Her entire
life...the same people...the same talk...parties, cotillions, yachts, polo matches.
She had the life so many people only dreamed of. And yet, she hated it. She
dreamt of freedom. She dreamt of being away from all this. She glanced about.
This was it. She felt something inside her
snap.
They were strangling her. Killing her. She was
screaming and no one looked up. Nor cared.
This was it.
She could take no more.
Her heartbeat quickened.
I'll be there soon, Daddy, she thought.
Rose removed the napkin from her lap and
gently laid it on the table.
Her mother looked at her.
"Rose, dear, what are you doing?"
Ruth asked, gently reaching out and taking her daughter's wrist as she stood.
Rose stared down at her mother.
"I'm just going to take a stroll on the
boat deck, Mother."
"In the middle of supper, dear? Stay.
Then we can all take a leisurely stroll together," she said, motioning to
the Countess.
"No, thank you, Mother," Rose said,
gently pulling away. "I think I would rather be alone right now."
"Rose," Ruth scolded quietly. Rose
looked indignantly down at Ruth.
"Good-bye, Mother."
It would not be the last time she said those
words.
And Rose turned, quickly making her way out
of the dining room.
She started slowly at first. Walking at a
casual pace. But her mind swirled like some great hurricane within her. That
anger--anger at Cal, at her mother, at society, at herself. Then the pain. The
pain of losing her father, of losing her freedom, losing everything that a
human longed for.
I'll be there soon, Daddy.
Faster. Her feet gained speed until she was
running. Running as fast as she could in the heels she was wearing. Tears
streamed down her face as she ran over the decks, toward the stern of the
massive ship. She paid no heed to those who cursed her as she pushed past them.
She didn't care. What would it matter?
Rose DeWitt Bukater would be dead the next
day.
She stopped, slamming against something. Her
tears blurred her vision so she could not tell what.
Rose stared ahead. Stared out to the black
waters, rushing out behind the great ship as she flew across the water like a
bird across the sky. The sea and sky seemed to merge into one.
She slowly made her way to the railings,
wrapping her delicate ivory hands around the cold white rails. The icy air
whipped around her as she lifted herself onto the railings. She struggled to
climb over.
Climb to her freedom.
Rose finally settled on the railings, her
arms straightened, and she leaned far out. The water churned from Titanic's
great propellers.
Father, Rose thought, staring down at the black sea. I love you. I love you
so much. Help me now, Daddy. Just help me with this.
She inhaled, preparing herself to let go. To
plunge into the waters below.
And then, "Don't do it!" tore
through the air.
Rose's head snapped around to see her
guardian angel standing behind her.
Part of her wanted to come back over the rail
that instant. But then...she was so very miserable. Her father wouldn’t have
wanted her to have a life like she had. Daddy, she thought. Just give
me the strength to let go. Please.
Rose spoke to the young man now. "Stay
back! Don’t come any closer!"
His voice was very calm. "Come on. Just
give me your hand. I’ll pull you back over."
It wouldn’t be that easy; Rose didn’t want
the life she had, not any of it. All she wanted was to be with her father
again. "No! Stay where you are! I mean it. I’ll let go."
But Rose found herself watching him calmly as
he did indeed come closer, tossing his cigarette over the rail. Then he glanced
at her, cautiously, sideways.
"No, you won’t."
Rose was instantly angry. "What do you
mean, no I won't? Don’t presume to tell me what I will and will not do! You
don’t know me."
Rose could see that the young man, whoever he
was, was less sure of himself now. He hesitated a moment, obviously trying to
think of the right words. When he did begin to speak again, he looked directly
at her. It was then Rose saw he had the most wonderful eyes...she forced this
thought from her mind, and concentrated on what he was saying.
"Well, you would have done it already."
Now Rose was even more angry, mostly because
she knew he was right. And, she wondered, why did he, a total stranger, care
what happened to her? Especially when even her own mother didn’t? She forced
herself to turn back to gaze at the ocean, using the sternest tone she could
muster.
"You’re distracting me! Go away!"
She sounded more frightened now than determined to go through with this, and
she knew it. From the young man’s tone when he spoke again, Rose could tell he
knew how frightened she was, too.
"I can’t. I’m involved now. You let go,
and I’m gonna have to jump in there after you." Rose knew he meant this,
because he took off his coat, obviously preparing to go into the water. This
made no sense. Why did he care? Why? And maybe, if this complete stranger could
care, there was still hope after all.
"Don’t be absurd. You’ll be
killed." Even though that was what was about to happen to her, Rose could
not bear to think of someone else dying because of her.
"I’m a good swimmer," he answered
calmly as he took off one of his boots.
"The fall alone will kill you." At
least she hoped that would be true, for herself. She wanted everything to be
over as soon as she hit the water. But, what if it wasn’t?
As if in answer to her question, he said,
"It would hurt. I’m not sayin’ it wouldn't. To tell you the truth, I’m a
lot more concerned about that water bein’ so cold."
This was just what she had dreaded hearing.
She looked down at the water again, truly afraid now. Rose’s heart was torn.
She had been so sure...now she found she was nothing more than a coward. I’m
sorry, Daddy. I can’t...she thought.
It was then she heard he father’s voice. It
echoed through her mind, filling her up. Don’t be sorry, Rose. You are meant
to stay. Please trust this young man. He will show you the way. I promise.
"How cold?" she asked, tentatively,
looking over at him.
"Freezing. Maybe a couple degrees
over." He paused. "You ever--ah--ever been to Wisconsin?"
Rose's eyes had wandered back out to the sea
as the great ship flew over the water, but now, she snapped her head back to
look at him. "What?" she asked irately.
Unrelenting, he continued, "Well, they
have some of the coldest winters around. I grew up there, near Chippewa Falls.
I remember when I was a kid, me and my father, we went ice fishing out on Lake
Wissota. Ice fishing is you know where ya--"
"I know what ice fishing is!" Rose
snapped.
The young man raised his hands and shrugged.
"Sorry. You just seem, you know, kind of an indoor girl. Anyway, I fell
through some thin ice, and I'm tellin’ you, water that cold, like right down
there, it hits you like a thousand knives stabbing you all over your body. You
can't breath. Can't think--at least not about anything but the pain..." He
gazed over the rails, seeming to be recalling that terrible memory. "Which
is why I'm not lookin' forward to jumping in there after you. Like I said, I
don't have a choice." He slipped out of his jacket and inched toward her.
"I guess I'm kind of hopin' you'll come back over the rail and get me off
the hook here," he said calmly.
"You're crazy!" she exclaimed,
turning back to the water.
"That's what everyone says, but with all
due respect, Miss, I'm not the one hanging off the back of a ship here. Come
on. Come on, give me your hand. You don't wanna do this."
No, I don't, Rose thought, and neither does Father. She
inhaled deeply and cautiously reached over, taking his hand. With painfully
slow, careful moves, Rose turned around to face this young man, this guardian
angel that had been sent to her.
"Whew!" He smiled. "Jack
Dawson."
"Rose DeWitt Bukater."
"I'll have to get ya to write that one
down."
She laughed shortly.
"Come on," he said, tightening his
grip on her.
She lifted her foot.
And all of a sudden, a blood curdling scream
escaped her as her shoe slipped on the train of her dress.
Jack's grip clamped down on her wrist.
"I gotcha! Come on! Come on!" he
urged.
"Help, please! Please help me!" she
screamed desperately.
"Come on. Pull yourself up!"
Rose reached up, grabbing her rail, pulling
herself up. But her palms were sweating, and she couldn't hold on. She screamed
again as death licked at her, pulling back toward the water.
"Listen! Listen, I've got you! I won't
let go! Come on, try! You can do it! I've got you!" he urged, pulling with
all his might. Rose reached up, grabbing the white rails once more, this time
refusing to let go. Finally, she flung herself back onto the deck, Jack falling
on top of her, her dress falling back and revealing her stocking leg.
"What's all this?" a startled
crewman muttered, finally reaching the place where screaming had been coming
from only moments before. Jack looked up, dumbfounded. Rose could do nothing
but shake. "You stand back and don't move an inch! Fetch the
Master-at-Arms!" the man demanded. Jack obeyed, standing back. The man
helped Rose up, and in only a minute, Cal, as well as Colonel Archibald Gracie,
the Master-at-Arms, and the other seaman joined the scene.
Immediately, a blanket was put over Rose and
handcuffs on Jack. The colonel helped Rose to sit down.
"What made you think you think that
could put your hands on my fiancée?!" Cal spat at Jack. Jack looked to
Rose, but Cal demanded his attention back. "Look at me, you filth!"
he shouted.
"Cal!" Rose began.
"What do you think you were doing?"
"Cal!"
"What gave you--"
"Cal, stop! It was an accident!"
Rose said, almost shouting as she stood up.
"An accident?" he repeated, looking
dumbly down at her.
"I was leaning over and I slipped!"
He stared at her. "I was leaning far over to see the
ah--ah--ah--ah--ah--" She moved her hand in circles, trying desperately to
make this lie work. She couldn't let them know what had really happened, and
she owed her life to this Jack fellow. She couldn't let them take him away.
"Propellers?" Cal suggested, a
strange expression crossing his face.
"The propellers! And I slipped! And I
would've gone overboard, but Mr. Dawson here saved me and almost went over
himself!" she said, secretly congratulating herself on saving
herself--saving her own hide.
"You wanted to see--she wanted to see
the propellers!" Cal said, turning to the others.
"Like I said, women and machinery do not
mix!" Colonel Gracie exclaimed, walking toward them.
"Was that the way of it?" the
Master-at-Arms asked, looking harshly at Jack.
Rose looked desperately at Jack. "Yeah.
Yeah, that was pretty much it," Jack muttered. The Master-at-Arms removed
the handcuffs from Jack's sore wrists.
"Well, the boy's a hero, then! Good for
you, sir! Well done! So then all's well, and it's back to our brandy," the
colonel said, starting away.
"You must be freezing! Let's get you
back inside," Cal said, gently rubbing Rose.
"Perhaps a little something for the
boy?" Colonel Gracie suggested, seeing Cal was prepared to leave it as it
was, and not say another word to the man that had just saved his love.
"Of course. Mr. Lovejoy, a twenty should
do it," Cal said to his manservant.
"Oh! Is that the going rate for saving
the woman you love?" Rose challenged, looking up at Cal.
"Rose is displeased. What to do?"
The couple studied each other. "I know!" He started toward Jack.
"Perhaps you could join us for dinner tomorrow evening. To regale our
group with your...heroic tale!" Cal said, smiling smugly at Jack.
"Sure. Count me in," Jack said with
a voice that Rose could not place.
"Good. It's settled then," Cal said
walking away. "This should be interesting," he mumbled, leading Rose
away.
Rose frowned, realizing how odd it felt for
Cal to be touching her again. She turned back to glance at Jack, seeing him
take a cigarette from Lovejoy. Part of her wanted to run back to him, to wrap
her arms around him and sob onto his shoulder, but of course she couldn't do
that.
Cal led her back to her cabin and only stayed
long enough to be sure she was all right--physically.
But as she lay in her bed that night, all she
could think about was Jack Dawson.
And she knew, she knew that he had been
brought to her for more than to simply pull her back over the rails. He had
been sent to her to pull her back to earth--to keep her there.