DANGEROUS GAMES
Chapter Three
The next morning came all too
soon for Savannah. Rolling over, she found herself alone in her bedroom.
"Jane!" Savannah called
out into the empty room.
The door opened swiftly and Jane
marched in. "Good morning, ma’am. Did you sleep well?" Jane asked as
she gathered Savannah’s clothing for breakfast.
Savannah yawned and stretched her
arms high above her head before answering. "Yes, actually, I did. Tell me,
Jane, do you know what time Bruce retired to his room?"
Jane shook her head. "No,
ma’am. I’m not sure," she said as she drew a bath for Savannah.
Savannah piled her hair on top of
her head and sat on the edge of the porcelain bathtub. As the basin filled, she
ran her fingertips through the mountains of bubbles that floated at the rim.
Savannah handed her nightgown off to Jane as she stepped over the lip of the
tub and into the water. Jane had just returned Savannah’s nightgown and robe to
the wardrobe when there was a faint tapping on the door.
"Excuse me, ma’am,"
Jane said with a small curtsey before exiting. Savannah sighed and sunk deeper
into her bath. In a moment, Jane returned. "Ma’am, there’s a Miss Rose
DeWitt Bukater here. Shall I ask her to return later?"
Savannah smiled brightly at the
mention of Rose and jumped to her feet. Jane grabbed Savannah’s robe from the
wardrobe and assisted in covering her completely before allowing Savannah to
leave the privacy of her bedroom.
Out on the promenade, Rose stood
by the window, watching the sea spray below.
"Rose, I wasn’t expecting
you," Savannah said as stepped through the doorway and out onto the bright
promenade deck.
Rose smiled suspiciously and
asked, "Did I interrupt something?"
Savannah laughed quietly and
said, "Goodness, no. I was just about to take a bath." A look of
relief came over Rose’s face as she and Savannah sat down in the wicker deck
chairs.
They sat in silence for a few
minutes while Jane served tea. Once she had gone, Savannah spoke up. "I
can’t do this anymore, Rose."
Rose placed her teacup back into
the saucer and asked, "Can’t do what?"
Savannah rested her forehead in
her palm and replied, "I can’t see Thomas anymore. Bruce knows. I can feel
it."
Rose shook her head and said,
"If he knew, I think he would say something, don’t you?" Savannah
stood and walked towards the windows, all the while shaking her head.
"How can I do this to him,
Rose? He’s been nothing but kind and loving to me, and what do I do? I carry on
with another man. His colleague, no less! My God, I’m despicable!"
Savannah finished with a loud cry of anguish and anger.
Rose jumped from her seat and
scuttled over to where Savannah stood, tears welling in her eyes.
"Savannah, listen to me. Bruce may love you or he may not. But do you love
him? At some point, you have to stop thinking about others and focus on what is
best for you."
Savannah backed away from Rose.
"This needs to stop," Savannah whispered to herself.
Rose’s eyes watched Savannah
anxiously. Savannah’s hands were in her hair, gripping it for dear life.
"Savannah, listen to me," Rose began, slowly approaching Savannah in
an attempt to calm her.
Savannah backed away from Rose,
still shaking her head. "Jane!" Savannah shouted as she stumbled from
the promenade to the sitting room to her bedroom. Rose followed her closely, as
did Jane.
"Ma’am, what is it?"
Jane asked from behind Savannah.
"I need to dress. Quickly,
please," Savannah uttered as she tossed her robe aside and stepped into
her undergarments.
Jane, eyes wide, nodded and began
lacing Savannah into her corset as quickly as she could. Rose stood in the
doorway, watching as Savannah dressed.
"Savannah, what are you
doing?" Rose asked as Jane pinned Savannah’s hair up.
"I need to talk to
Thomas," Savannah said quickly as she struggled with her shoes. Grabbing
her shawl as she passed the front door, Savannah made her way down the hall
towards the grand staircase.
Once she reached the door to
Thomas’ stateroom, all of Savannah’s courage and resolve seemed to leave her.
She stood outside the door for what seemed like hours before finally tapping
gently. In a few moments, a young steward opened the door.
"Is Mr. Andrews in?"
Savannah asked, loud enough for only the young man to hear.
He shook his head and replied,
"No, ma’am, I’m sorry. Mr. Andrews has gone to meet with Captain Smith.
Would you like to leave a message for him?"
Savannah shook her head and left
without another word, making her way towards the boat deck.
The sun outside was overwhelming
at first. As Savannah’s eyes adjusted to the abundance of light, she began to
see other passengers enjoying the morning air. She walked briskly through the
many people milling around on the deck.
Don’t you people have anything
better to do than stand around like mindless cattle? Savannah wondered to herself as she slid
past another gaggle of gossiping women. Finally, she reached the bridge, where
she saw Thomas and Captain Smith talking beneath the roof of the wheelhouse.
She slowed her pace and straightened out her dress and shawl before approaching
them.
"Mr. Andrews, Captain,"
she greeted with a smile.
Both gentlemen looked up and
smiled at her. The captain took her hand and gave it a slight kiss, as did
Thomas.
"Mrs. Ismay," Captain
Smith said genially. "So nice to see you this morning. What brings you up
here?"
Savannah smiled at the kind old
man and said, "Actually, Captain, I was hoping I could have a word with
Mr. Andrews, once you have concluded your business with him, of course."
Captain Smith nodded and said,
"Certainly. Mr. Andrews, I will see you at dinner this evening?"
Thomas nodded to Captain Smith
and, after bidding him a pleasant afternoon, turned his attention to Savannah.
"What can I do for you, Mrs.
Ismay?" Thomas asked as they made their way down the crowded boat deck.
"Mr. Andrews, I need to
speak with you privately," Savannah said firmly, her eyes revealing every
emotion coursing through her.
Thomas nodded and led her through
the first class entrance and into the deserted reading and writing room. Once
again, Savannah found herself lacking the courage to speak to him. Her eyes
darted around the room and finally came to rest on the floor. Thomas put his
hand on her shoulder and leaned down until their eyes met.
"Savannah, what’s
wrong?" Thomas asked as he tried to catch her eyes.
Again, she looked away, unable to
face him. "Thomas," she began. "I can’t do this anymore."
Thomas was confused. He watched
Savannah pace for a moment before asking, "Can’t do what,
sweetheart?"
Savannah stopped dead in her
tracks and whirled around to face Thomas. "I’m not your sweetheart,
Thomas!" she bellowed at him. "I’m married!" She stopped and
took a deep breath before continuing in a softer voice. "I love my
husband, Thomas. I can’t see you anymore."
She kept her eyes glued to the
floor as Thomas slowly nodded his head in understanding. "Very well,"
he said. He took Savannah’s hand, kissed it softly, and said, "Have a
pleasant afternoon, Mrs. Ismay."
Savannah stood in the middle of
the deserted room and watched him walk away. She could feel the tears in her
eyes threatening to spill over. For a moment, she contemplated stopping him
before he reached the door, but when she opened her mouth, her voice was gone,
as was her self-control. Savannah broke down. She collapsed in a chair by the
fireplace and cried softly to herself. She hid her face from people who passed
by her, hoping no one would recognize her.
"Savannah?"
She raised her head from her
hands and blinked away the tears. She saw Bruce kneeling before her, his hand
on her knee and concern in his eyes. She looked away from him in shame.
"Come, darling, let’s go
back to our stateroom," he said as he helped her out of the chair.
She nodded to him and took his
arm. As they exited the room, Savannah saw Thomas leaning against the railing
of the ship, staring off into the waves.
Down in their stateroom, Savannah
sat on the sofa in the sitting room while Jane prepared her a cup of tea. Bruce
sat in the high-back chair across from Savannah, nursing a brandy.
"Savannah, darling, won’t
you tell me what is troubling you?"
Savannah accepted the warm cup
from Jane and asked her softly if she could leave them for a moment. Jane
curtsied to both before taking her leave to the servant’s quarters. Savannah
took a long sip of her tea before placing the cup and saucer on the table
before her.
"We need to talk,
Bruce."
Bruce placed his snifter next to
hers and left his chair to sit next to her.
"Bruce, I must confess something
to you," Savannah said, looking Bruce in the eye.
Bruce nodded and coaxed her to
continue. "Go on, darling. You can say anything to me," he said
softly as his hand began to stroke hers.
Savannah removed her hands
gradually as she took one last deep breath. "Bruce, I…I have not been
faithful to you," she said softly. So softly, in fact, she was not sure he
heard. But he had.
Bruce sat motionless, his eyes
fixed upon his youthful bride. In his mind, he was running over every word she
had just uttered to him. Unfaithful. Savannah had been unfaithful. He walked
towards the mantle, trying to formulate a coherent thought in his head.
Savannah followed behind him, but he heard nothing she said.
Savannah watched Bruce as he
tried to comprehend what she had just told him.
"Bruce," she said,
following him at a distance to the mantle. "Bruce, I’m sorry. I knew it
was wrong, but I just…"
Bruce turned from the mirror
above the mantle to her and asked in a deep, threatening voice,
"Who?"
Savannah stepped back for a
second and raised an eyebrow. "What do you mean, who?" she asked him,
mystified at his current state of calm.
Bruce looked her in the eye and
began to approach her. "Who was it? Who were you seeing?" he
bellowed, causing Savannah’s muscles to tense up in fear.
Savannah shook her head and
replied to him with as much courage as she could muster, "No one of
consequence."
Bruce’s eyes grew wide with rage.
Savannah stood before him defiantly, refusing to give him the name of her
paramour. Without warning, Bruce’s hand flew out and collided with Savannah’s
cheek. Savannah dropped to her knees, causing the sofa to crash into the table,
spilling tea and brandy across the floor. Bruce looked down at Savannah for a
moment, rage still glowing in his eyes.
"Have this cleaned up and
then dress for lunch," he said coldly before leaving the room, being sure
to slam the door behind him.
As soon as Bruce was gone, Jane
rushed into the room. As Savannah tried to stand, Jane stooped down to assist
her. Once she was up, Savannah saw the mess she had made.
"I’m so sorry, Jane,"
Savannah began as she picked up her empty cup and saucer. "I was being
careless."
Jane took the cup and saucer from
Savannah and put them back on the table. "Come, ma’am. Let’s get you ready
for lunch," Jane said, leading Savannah into her bedroom.
*****
As Jane fastened the back of her
dress, Savannah could feel her face bruising. Jane noticed it, too, but said
nothing.
"Jane, is there anything you
can do about this?" Savannah asked hopefully.
Jane sat Savannah down at her
vanity and began to apply some extra cosmetics to Savannah’s now purple cheek.
As Jane finished with covering Savannah’s face, a knock sounded at her bedroom
door. Savannah remained in her seat and waited as Jane answered the door.
"Sir," Jane greeted
with a curtsey. "Mrs. Ismay is ready for you."
Jane stepped aside so Bruce could
enter and then exited, closing the door softly behind her. Savannah could see
Bruce in her mirror. Her pulse quickened as his hand grazed her shoulder and
ran up her arm. Bruce felt her muscles tense and dropped his arm to his side.
"Are you ready for
lunch?" he asked her softly, extending his hand to her.
Savannah only nodded and stood,
taking his arm once she was erect.
Once they were in the hallway,
Bruce tried to make amends.
"I’m sorry," he said to
her calmly. "I lost my temper earlier. I was wrong. Will you forgive
me?"
Savannah looked into his eyes and
saw that he was genuinely remorseful. Without a sound, she nodded her head.
Bruce kept his eyes on her.
"Please, I need to hear you
say it," he entreated.
This time, Savannah kept her eyes
trained ahead of her when she said, "I forgive you."
Bruce nodded happily at his
newfound forgiveness, but found there was still one thing plaguing him.
"Why won’t you tell me who
he is?" Bruce asked as they descended the grand staircase.
Savannah shook her head
vigorously and replied angrily, "No, Bruce. I will not tell you who he is.
It is of no consequence whether or not you know."
They walked on in silence for a
few moments before Bruce revived the conversation.
"Do I know him?"
Savannah dropped her hold on
Bruce’s arm and said, "Excuse me. I’ll join you in a moment," before
storming off to the powder room.
Savannah stared at her reflection
in the gilded mirror that hung on the wall before her. She could clearly see
that Jane’s hard work was in vain. The purple of Savannah’s cheek was now
clearly showing through. She contemplated skipping lunch; running back to her
stateroom and hiding her face in shame.
No, she said to herself silently. Wear it
proudly. Show them what that man is capable of. Savannah smoothed her dress
and hair quickly. With a little water, she washed the excess powder from her
cheek, allowing the bruise to shine in all its unspeakable glory. With one last
look in the mirror, Savannah made her way to the dining saloon to meet her
party.
As she approached, Bruce, Thomas,
and Rose’s fiancé, Cal, rose from their seats. Savannah smiled gracefully as
she was introduced to Caledon Hockley, the handsome man Rose was to marry.
After greeting him, Savannah turned to Thomas. She could feel his eyes on her
face, converging on her bruising cheek.
"Mr. Andrews," she
greeted solemnly, extending her hand to him.
He kissed it softly and said,
"Mrs. Ismay. Nice to see you this afternoon."
She nodded to him and silently
willed him to stop gawking at her face.
Throughout lunch, Savannah and
Rose sat silently while the gentlemen discussed the ship. Savannah could feel
Rose’s eyes on her, but she refused to look. When she did raise her eyes from
her plate, all she saw was Thomas. His eyes were full of concern for her. Soon,
lunch was over and they were dispersing. Bruce and Cal were off to the smoking
room. As they walked away, Rose approached Savannah.
"What happened?" Rose
asked as they made their way to the boat deck.
Savannah did not offer an answer.
It was a rhetorical question. Rose already knew what had happened. Anyone who
looked at Savannah’s face could read the entire story. Her husband, the man her
mother had trusted her to, had hit her.
They were almost to the door that
led out to the deck when they were stopped.
"Savannah," she heard
from behind her.
She turned and saw Thomas waiting
about five feet behind her.
"Mr. Andrews," she said
with a nod before starting to walk again. She heard his footsteps quicken
behind her and stopped again when she felt his hand on her shoulder. "What
is it, Thomas?" she asked just above a whisper.
He took her by the elbow and
pulled her towards the wall before asking, "What happened?"
Savannah unconsciously brought a
hand up to her cheek while she thought of a convincing lie she could tell him.
"Nothing," she said.
"It was an accident."
Thomas moved her hand to the side
and gently slid his fingertips over the swollen area. "He hit you?"
he asked, already knowing the answer.
Savannah finally gave in. "It
was my fault. I told him I had been unfaithful. When I wouldn’t tell him who I
was seeing, he lost his temper."
Thomas shook his head and said,
"I’m going to tell him it was me."
Thomas began to walk away towards
the smoking room, but Savannah reached out and stopped him.
"No, Thomas. Please, don’t.
We’ve already talked about it. He apologized."
Thomas looked into her eyes as
she pleaded with him. He let out a heavy sigh and finally agreed. She was about
to rejoin Rose when Thomas stopped her again.
She looked him in the eyes as he
asked her, "Did I do something wrong?"
Savannah shook her head and
replied, "No. I did wrong in bringing you into this."
With that final remark, she
turned her back on him and joined Rose on the boat deck.