i tryed to walk away from you, but it was just to hard for me
i tryed to pretend like everything was ok, and everything isnt ok
it never was
i tryed to act like i was ok with the looks and the smirks and the words
and i tryed to think that maybe we could just be friends and nothing more
but then i saw you again
and so i'm the stupid one who broke the rules
and i'm the one who lives in fear of myself
and i'm the one who gets laughed at because i care
just a little too much
fuck it, laugh all you'd like
because you'll look back and see that nothing was what you thought it was
and i was never such a joke
because theres nothing that you can do to forget me
i'll always be there even when i'm not
and when i'm gone and moved on
it'll be the same
because things just dont change that easy
when they meant so much
pretend that it didnt matter and pretend that you didnt care
but look inside yourself and you'll see the truth
and ask yourself why you keep finding your way back to me some way
if i'm so wrong for you
so play your games and hide
and swallow whats left of the pride that you've taken from me
but just remember that in the end
everybody loses at least once.
handicapped
