im starting to worry myself. im beginning a really bad habit, and its just liek i cant stop myself. but i cant be creative anymore. i always feel like such an outcast with everyone. i always feel unwanted, ugly, fat, annoying. so unhappy, but only with myself. my job made me feel like i was actually doing something, but now thats gone and i feel worse then before. ive tapered off all of my friends slowly with the exception of 1, letting myself become totally isolated from everyone else.
but that one boy.....that one beautiful boywhos my everything....who wants me too. he holds me tight and smells so good. were love, and truth, and happiness. and that makes up for it all. maybe one day ill be ok....maybe one day i wont need that one beautiful special boi to calm me and make me feel like im worth it. but for some reason i dont believe ill make it very far without him.... and that scares me
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