i tryed to prove myself to you, prove to you that i could be as cool as you. i could do the things you said and not get cought. you can walk all over me and i don't mind, rip my life apart and make everyone laugh. tell them the things you swore never to reveal and then watch as i crumble to the ground. inside you do you feel that little pinch when you see me cry? when i tell you my secrets do you instantly try to conspire a way to let the whole world know and not have me know you told? i've known since the start, your nothing that you let on to be. all your insecurities, all your weaknesses, i see them all, yet do you see me running to tell the first person i see that your faltering?
i put my life into your hands, you ran my whole persona. even more then a boy i love, you had me by puppet strings, jerking me around to play the part that you desired i play. you waited for me to make a mistake, waited to pounce and pour blame on me like a hot liquid, scalding me and making me look the fool. you'd pretend to help me back up but when my back was turned youd be laughing the loudest.
you've shown me who you really are and i still accepted that. all your faults, all the times you've turned your back on me and yet i still accept you, i still draw you in. when you fall i pick you up andbrush you off, disillusioned to the way you've only gotten me dirtier. i can see all of this now and i can see that your worthless.
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