I deleted all the raucous content that was once on this page because I decided that it probably isn't necessary. It was a nice place to vent for awhile but I tend to run out of things to say because once I've written down all the thoughts I hold inside, it's pretty rare that I come up with new ones. It kind of defeats the purpose of even having a journal like this. So now, &c. will just be...well, I haven't decided. Maybe I'll just write stuff in here. In fact, I'll organize it by date and everything. It's too bad, actually for those of you who have found this link. Since it is so well hidden, you were probably expecting something a little more...secret? I don't know. If you found the link prior to today's date, then you probably wouldn't have been all that disappointed. Possibly disgusted if you're one of those people who are afraid of human behaviour. You see, &c. once contained a whole two entries written in a similar fashion as Entry #22 on the main page. However, rather than being edited as something that I assume everyone can handle, it was just a stream of consciousness. Not one thought that entered my head was censored from the journal entries, naturally making it sound rather vile and perverted and totally against what everyone thinks of as acceptable socialization. Now, I've changed it though. Now it's just some reading for you.
Maybe I should write messages to everyone in here. All of my friends. Yes, I could do that. Maybe then the people who are looking for some real gossip or whatever it is you expected to find here would be satisfied. Maybe I'll do that. I could write all the things I want to tell my friends but am unable to do because of my..er..success as a social failure.
So anyway. I'll add more to this eventually. I like the letters to friends idea. Perhaps I'll do that. For now, I'm going to go and write a real Et cetera entry.
2-19-01
Would you look at that? All these days have transpired and I still have no idea what to do with this page. Here, I'll post a picture of my family for no reason:
Because of poor picture quality my dad looks rather frightening right there. It's actually a smile, no matter what the picture says. Say, this is cool. I'm typing all this stuff while staring straight at the floor. That's kinda fun. It's really lazy, it seems. Wow, I'm getting stupider by the day. Typos are going to be a problem right now since i can't really see the screen. I don't think I'll bother correcting them, though. This page doesn't really matter. It's not exactly the main feature to the whole site, you know. Why worry about grammatical and spelling conventions?
Okay, back up the screen. Yes, I really do feel stupid right now. I'm just going to stop writing here. I'll go to bed. I think. I hope.
2-28-01
i have little time on the net here, so this and checking e mail is all im gonna get done. oh well. wow, i realized in social today how out of hand this whole drinking thing has gotten. its pretty bad. It doesnt mean im gonna stop though. I almost dont want the 2nd to come. i almost wanna say "i cant make it", but, its like, fun, i dont know why, but it is. i miss the good old days that randall organized in his backyard, actually i miss the days of not drinking, that little period in grade 8 when that stupid bitch was teaching. I regret most of my early drinking (grade 7) and i almost regret drinking now. ive decided against doing anymore drugs also. they are not really that interesting. I wanna stop all of my bad shit, but, i dont know what else to do, because i know that when Chris B, Chris W, and Richard get Fucked on mush, they'll have a blast, and i will to. But then there is the other side that says "drugs are bad" and stuff, but i know that. If I dont do Mush, i will just come home and do the same shit. Then when i get to the table the next morning, they will talk about how much fun it was and i will regret not doing it. Even Randall said he wanted to try E wich is like, 10 times harder than mush, and i just dont want to anymore. If i wanna become a cop, i have to do a stupid drug test, so........if i do mush/e/acid/pcp/weed/crack/cocaine/dex/lsd or any of the other shit, i will bury my future, my present, and destroy my morals from the past. OH MY GOD!! what would Crystal say if she saw me as fucked up as i am now!!?? Fuck i dont wanna do anything now...........fuck. i will drink on the 2nd, but then i will keep the leftover stuff, and save it for a spontaious sleep over. oh god........this sucks.......damn me. how to I go to sleep at night knowing that i do this, Crystal would dump me in a second if she knew some of the stuff i was honestly planning on doing.......how do i sleep.....wait.......i dont..........oh.......shit....FUCK I AM SUCH A GODDAMN MORON!!!! oh fuck, what if i turn into jeff.............FFFFFFFUUUUUUUUUCCCCCCCKKKKKKKKK!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I'm just storing this piece of text here so I don't lose it when Jon changes his imood later. This is an indirect response to Entry #52 on my page and I'd just like to keep it to let people know one day that what I said made sense to you at one point.
3-1-01
Although I'm a bit pissed off that I just wrote this and somehow accidentally closed the program before getting the opportunity to save, I will again mention that the purpose of this snippet to &c. is to point out the good points and bad points in DiEt cetera Entry #7: Mitchell's rant on atheism and what has happened to the basic perception of atheism by everyone around. So what I'm going to do (again!) is categorize the different points he brought up in his entry and organize them into two separate sub...things. I will have one section of things in Entry #7 that I thought were good points and agreeable to what I believe in at least. Then the other section will be quotes from that entry that I didn't agree with and most likely why. So here we go...again:
THINGS I AGREE WITH:
This is absolutely true. People feel as though they are obligated to do certain things that are against religion if they are an atheist as though there is actually something required of those belonging in the atheist category.
Since there is nothing you absolutely have to do to be an atheist, the only restrictions put on you are certain things you can't do to be placated in this category. You cannot believe in a god if you wish to be known as an atheist. What Mitchell is referring to here is the corruption of the true meaning of atheism. Atheism is just a very simple disbelief in a higher power, but some of this corruption of atheism that has been going on is a direct result of people changing the real meaning of atheism to suit their own social needs. Some people who claim to be atheists bring up points that are against religion and actually assume a belief in God. How can you even mention an antitheist point, and worse yet AGREE with it, as an atheist? It's a bad, neological caconym of the real meaning of the word.
I have no problem with this because the constant unnecessary God-bashing fun that everyone has with religion is getting very tiresome. However, this statement will show up again in its entireity in the "disagreeable" section.
Most people realize that anarchy is popular and that undermining authority is cool, so this is unimpeachably nothing new.
This is what the neology of the atheistic concept is based on, I think. The real meaning of atheism never would have changed if the concern was not for their own self-image and desire to be more and more "cool." Everyone wants to be cool and popular, but what it has done to atheism and what people believe is not the noblest of sacrifices.
This is the same problem. Being so absorbed in their own status in the social hierarchy, what they say isn't really significant as long as it is accepted by everyone else, regardless of whether or not the speaker believes his own speech.
This makes a lot of sense. The minute one of your friends tells you that you have to hate God, you know that the beliefs you once shared have changed. Mitchell is right. You don't have to pretend you hate God. That's just another one of those intentionally blasphemous and offensive statements that comes from an "atheist," yet the statement itself is assuming the existence of a God. Don't defend atheism by depraving theism.
I may have interpreted this statement with a different meaning than it originally carried, but I think this is valid either way. Irony is the perfect way to describe it. Being an atheist, or rather an "atheist," posessing all these unnecessary characteristics of the new stilted definition of the ideology, you can effectively be excommunicated from the very religion that you claim not to believe in. It's rather funny actually.
I won't bother stating my case on the rest of it but it gets very confused, anyway.
3-5-01
I haven't finished the above thing as of today [3-17-01 - Actually, I have], but I'm just storing it here for now. But what I have added is a brand new hidden section. That's right, you want your saucy content and sick and disgusting ideas? Well, I've got it. But you need to find it. It is now a game. If you do happen to crack my code and defeat the puzzle of links I have set up, don't tell me about it. Trust me, I'm impressed.
It might take hours, perhaps days. Good luck!
3-17-01
Yet again, I'm using this page for storage just for this link. http://download.cnet.com/downloads/0-4003353-100-886788.html?tag=st.dl.4003349-103-1.lst-7-8.886788 Because my computer is not operational at home, I have to use this one at school to do everything but because of all the security they've tacked on to their network, I am unable to download anything and do what I want to my page, which requires the download that can be found at that link. Actually, it doesn't require it, it's just really useful. 2:57 pm. School's almost out for the day. For some reason, I expect this to be a long week.
3-25-01
For being a hidden page, this thing is really lacking in content. Too busy on everything else I guess. For some reason I'm always thinking that I have to maintain every single section. That's hard work and not really necessary. Why don't I just create my nice little subdirectories and leave them be? It's the entries that matter. Everything else is just to make it look like I have content. Hehe...check this out:
I am enjoying this network stuff, speaking of having way too much to do. It's a good thing those banners aren't difficult to make.
I've discovered exactly what this page is. It's storage. I come here to post things that I need to remember from school and don't have a floppy disk on me to save it to. If that makes sense. I don't know, it's rather late. Why is this page written in Times New Roman? Blah, that mildly bothers me.
Doing some regular advertising at Dark Side of the Monkey now. Should help the hit count a little. Now I need otherwise to publicize this network just to give myself even more work.
Wailaie in a tumbiscuit!
