*~* The Boys You Don't Know*~*

I lean my head against the car window and started to cry part of me is scream for Nick while the other half is cring it's eyes out.and I am reminded of a poem, If you cry softly no one will hear or care if you cry loudly they will hear but will they care if you cry against a car window you voice your tears to the world If you cry softly If you cry loudly If you cry at all you still won't know who cares but If you lift your voice strongly and act as though you don't care or sit in silence and just stare and stare then they will care but if you cry softly they'll never hear nor feel your tears and they'll never care

All of a sudden I felt cold and I started shaking violently. and I also started to cry. "why are you shaking.. is this because of what happend at the bar" courtney said keeping her eyes on the road "No I'm cold" I said turning up the heater and wrapping the shall tighter about me. "oh let me turn up the heater" courtney said as she reached over and started to turn up the heater. "I'm still cold.." I said as I rubbed my hands together. I wasn't warm untill we got to the parking garage, I then saw Nick green mustang, parked by the door to th stairs, next to AJs black Saab, near the entanrace to the stairs. I had a bad feeling every time I walked up a stair. It was about nine oclock in the morning when we got to the floor our hotel room was on. I was tired emonally and phically. We stopped at the door and hesitated befor we turned the knob. "If there in there room with thoses girls its the end of it for me!" courtney said as I turned the knobb. I stepped in the room I didn't see them at first but courtney did.

"What the Fuck are you doing" she screamed from behinde me I then saw them and screamed. Nick was on top of some Mexican looking slutt I didn't need to see anymore so I ran into the bathroom and locked the door I cryed with my back against the door I could hear every noise but I couldn't make anything out clearly. and then I slowly fell asleep fell asleep next to a pile of someones clothes. About an hour later I was awakened by some one banging on the door. "Nita open up this door god damnit" Nick yelled and I froze half with terror and half with anticipation "Wh-why" I asked with a shaky voice as I started to shake again.

"Cause the girl needs her clothes" Nick yelled his speach was slurred and he sounded drunk. "fine" I grabbed my lighter off of the bathroom sink and lit the T-shirt on fire and threw it out then the other clothse but they weren't flameing. I could hear them trying to put out the T-shirt from behind the door I locked it again. and fell back asleep I was woken up again ten at Night. but some one banging on the door.

"Nita wake up please I wanna talk" Nick said his speach... wasn't slurred anymore but I was still frosen with fear. "What is there to say" I yelled trying to conceal my tears "that I'm sorry" Nick said as he put his hand against the door i could tell because I could hear his promise ring click against the wood. "sorry doesn't cut it" I yelled as tears started to pour down my face.

"I sorry about what happend last night.. and I love you and wanna make it up to you"Nick said as he tried to open the door. "it's too late for that" as I cried I thought of all the Midnight talks and sweet words whispered between us

"Nick, I really don't think she wants to talk to you let alone look at you.. obviously I don't know what the hell else to say to you... look at all this heart break you have caused her... If I were you I would just go somewhere else cause right not it's clear she don't wanna talk to you... oh yeah one more think... you can tell AJ, tell Aj if he wants to talk to me he can call my ass better yet he can kiss it!" Courtney said in the background. I heard Nicks hand slide accross the door as he walked away and then the door slammed. "Nita you can come out now he's gone...." courtney said I then unlocked the door and walked out the bathroom. and sat down on the bed. "Do you want to go out to a club or something?" Courtney said as she leaned against the wall "No I just wanna sit and think" I said as I rubbed my back.

"Do you wanna be alone??" Court said as she smiled "yeah... I would like that" I said as I stood up and walked toward the CD player and put in black and blue and I turned it on I promise you and put on repeat. Courtney left leaving me alone in the hotel room I felt fairly good I then sat in a wooden chair on the balcony for a few minutes. and then whent back in and changed into a flowy flowerd skirt and a simple white tank top I then pinned my hair up in a bun and I turned the volume up loud enough so I could hear it from the balcony and I grabbed a blanket , I walked out and sat in a big wicker chair. And it started to rain hard. Then I wrapped the blanket around me. After about an hour of rain and thunder Nick walked in the room but I didn't hear him. He then walked out to the balcony and kissed the back of my neck. He kissed around to the front of and he kissed the dip of my colar bone. I then started to breath shallow he then kissed my lips. then my Neck. He was on his knees infront of me I then closed my eyes and I did what I really didn't want to do I put my hand on his chest and leaned down and touched his cock and I then got hit mentally by every cromesome of my body screaming it's that it's not right. "I can't" I jerked my hand away "it's expected" he said shaking his hair out. "We should go back inside it's staring to get really bad" I said as I took his hand he looked so good wet I can't beleive I could stop my self. "aren't you cold?" Nick said as he helped me shed the wet blanket.

"yeah kinda" I said taking my sopping wet tank top off I gave it to Nick I then removed My skirt to revel my panties with teddy bears on them Nick laughed. "Nice panties" Nick said as snapoped my panties I squealed. "Not fair! I can't get you back" I said as I crawled in bed. He then gave me a little show for me he stripped to his boxers and got in bed. he then squeezed me "do you forgive me??" Nick asked as he held me close and we then kissed "yes I for give you my sweet Kaos" I then bit his shoulder till he yelled "Nita quit it hurts you got me back you got me back" "back like backsteet" I said as I kissed his chest "yes back like backstreet" Nick said as he kissed the top of my head. We were awoken later that night by courtney and AJ screaming!

"you did not!" courtney said as her eyes bugged "Nope we didn't" Nick said wrapping his arms tighter around me "But then why aren't you wearing a thing.... either of you" Courtney said as she stood her ground.. she reminded me of my mom.... MOM I forgot to call her!! I was supposted to be moving out this week.... and down to Florida so I could have a taste of dorm life befor this fall when I start at FSU. "I'm still in my Bra and Panties and Nick has his boxers on..." I said throwing the covers off of us... revealing our bodies which were tightly pressed against each other for warmth. Nick quickly snached the blanket up to hide the fact that he had gotten hard off of seeing my body

"Oh fine what ever I dunwanna deal with this see you two in the morning" AJ said as he stripped down and hopped into they're bed which was only feet from ours. "G'night you two... I dunwanna be woken up by you two going at it so don't" Courtney said as she slid inbed with AJ and turned off the lamp. Then Nick and I started our midnight talk session. ".. wow... we were really close today weren't we?" I asked staring at his chest which was screaming Nibble me. "yeah... but I've been there done that and if push comes to shove I'd much rather be with you right now talking to you then ravaging your body like you were my whore... cause your not... thats Emma's job" Nick snickerd "who???? was that that dick sucking bitch you were with or was that the one that you were fucking last night?" I said getting angry

"shhh... chill I was joking.... right now if I want anyone to suck me off It'd be you okay?" Nick said as he kissed my forhead "but I won't cause I don't want to do anything untill marrage... and then I wanna have five kids or maybe more... I'll be happy with any number god gives me though" I said as I snuggled closer to him I was so close I could smell him... the all natral sent ode a la Nickolas Gene Carter de Natural and it smelled wonderful to me... it was musky yet... sweet... and I could feel the sweat forming on his chest I kissed where his heart was and he held me closer.

"I hope... you save your self for marrage and you get those five kids... did I evea tell you that I like kids..." Nick said stroking my hair I then looked into his eyes and smiled... "no..." I said playing cutsey little innocent girl... "well I do.." "good" I said as I kissed his neck he groand "Okay.. you know whats not a good Idea?" he said as he slowly put a little distance between me and him "what?" I said in the sultryest whisper I could do "making out..." "why?" I said eventhough I already knew... he was staring to get hard I could feel near my leg... so I shifted just so I brushed it nice and slow.. "you know why..." "yeah... I know why.... so why don't you just turn on the spice channel or somthing I thought guys do that all the time..." I said as I smiled.. "most guys do ... infact I do... but not when I'm in a room with a girl..." He started to play with my hair "Why not.. I promise I won't look I'll go to sleep... I promise crosss my heart!" I said giggleing "No I'm not I'm just gonna go to sleep" "Okay... sweet wet dreams!" I said in a soft whisper "What did you say?" he said smirking "Sweet dreams" "no you said something diffrent" "nuh uh..." I said shaking my head "yeah right! G'night and sweet dreams" "Sweet wet dreams" I whispered again... he just shook his head and closed his eyes ten minutes later he was asleep