*~*The Boys You Don't Know*~*

As I look down at Nita's tiny body curled up next to mine I feel sad... I fucked up big time. I should have said no! AT least things are back to normal kinda She still is obviously not happy with me. Unfortunately she wouldn't even let me talk to her before she fell asleep. I took another swig of beer as I flipped threw the channels ever since what happened with me and Courtney the hotel was starting to feel like a rent by the hour dumps god I've been in enough of those to know how the electricity in the room feels. I can't even remember what the first ones name was all I know is that She looked nothing like Nita none of them did I can't believe she begged me to kill her. I felt so bad like it was my entire fault even though I know it wasn't. I picked up my cell and called AJ. He went out to a bar he invited me but I turned him down I wanted to talk with Nita to straighten things out but she got mean and told me to go fuck myself and leave her the hell alone. AJ picked up the phone.

Talk to me? AJ said as you could hear the music in the background. Hey dawg what bar you at? The Blue room why man? I need... well you know... .I need some one to talk to Why don't you talk to Nita? Or did you wear her out already??

Dawg it's nothing like that! She wouldn't even let me talk to her fly ass she went right to bed before I could say or do anything “Oh. So she's really pissed then come down here so we can talk. I'll buy you a fuzzy navel Okay man let me write Nita a note I'll be right down there. Okay man see you! He hung up. I grabbed a piece of paper and scribbled to on a piece that I was going to the Blue room. And I took one look at Nita asleep on the bed then I reluctantly pulled on my jacket and left.

The Blue room turned out to be a strip club. When I found AJ I was kind of pissed Dawg why you up in here? I said looking around Where the hell you been? Why you up in here?? Nita's gonna kill my ass Because I want to! What are you gonna do bout Courtney?? There's nothing I can do we're back together No I mean when she finds out your ass was up in here! oh my god isn't that leighanne over there???

Oh my god that is leighanne what the hell is she doing up here?? What is you gonna do about Courtney when she finds out you where up in here? She'll understand Well Nita won't I'll tell her you didn't do a thing you're innocent And do you think she'll believe your drunk ass? I am not drunk Yeah right dawg how many of them Screwdrivers did your ass have?? None Do you want me to ask the damn bartender cause you be actin drunk dawg I know I don't care

I'm gonna go. I got up and some sluttish girl walked over to me. Are you Nick Carter from the backstreet boys? She said she was blonde and had brown eyes and she had the body a 12-year-old boy. uhhh.. yeah When I got home Nita was awake and sitting on the bed her eyes were red rimmed! Where the FUCK where you! She said drying her tears I went to a club Yeah a goddamned strip club I looked it up! How could you,our relationship is shaky as is!! well I didn't know until I got there. Well you were gone for hours!! It's now 6:30 in the fucking morning! I had no clue it was that lateYeah cause you were probably too busy staring at some naked chick. I wasn't staring at anybody I was talking with AJ.. Yeah right? I can't believe it! you are stupid really you are so fucking dumb! No I'm not.. Yes you are! She said turning her back on me, I had a heavy heart, Plus I was so angry I wanted to hit her. No I'm not I sobbed. Yes you are! She turned around and looked at me I love you though. Even if you do think I am stupid I sat down on the foot of the bed and looked into her big green eyes. Well I don't She said looking out the window she looked like she was gonna cry If you don't then why are you going to cry I said looking into her eyes and I crawled next to her in the bed and stroked her hair and put a fallen tendril behind her ear.

Didn't you do the same thing to Courtney the other day? Goddamn why can't you put that behind you and loosen up I said looking into her eyes. Because if I loosen up too much I might end up like that girl from the other day. "Why are you beining so difficult?" "uhh.. cause I am" "No you weren't this way before" "yes I was you were just to busy hurting me physically and mentally" she slipped out of the bed "Where are you going?" I said looking at her as she pulled on a shall.

"Go Away.. and don't try to look for me" She said as she slipped on a pair of high heels and slammed the door. "Don't worry I won't" I yelled eventhough I knew she wasn't listening. for the rest of the night I sat in my the room and cried AJ and courtney were still out they hadn't come back yet so I had the room to my self so I cried and cried and cried thinking of what Nita might be doing.