LetterBoys: Part 2- Can't Take It…(AJ/JC Slash)-*

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"Josh… I miss you."

"I know, baby. I miss you, too."

"When are you coming home?"

Josh sighed.

"Joshua?"

"Not for another two weeks."

"Two weeks?" Alex asked clearly outraged. "But I thought-"

"I know, but Johnny somehow roped me into doing more interviews and he set me up with two gigs next week."

Alex pressed his head against the steering wheel and closed his eyes.

"I'm sorry, baby." Josh replied to Alex's silence.

He didn't know how to respond so he didn't say anything. He hadn't seen Joshua in a month. He had seen 'JC' at a function about a week ago, but they both had to go their separate ways immediately after so they didn't get to spend anytime together.

"Alex? I love you, baby. But I have to go. I have this interview-"

"Alright, bye." Alex said abruptly hanging up, not even allowing JC to finish. He grabbed his stuff out of the car and heading inside. His phone started ringing but he knew it was him, so he hit the button, turning it off.

He was on his way up to his bedroom when his house phone started to ring. He shut the door blocking out the noise from downstairs. Then he grabbed the cord attached to the phone on the nightstand and pulled it out of the way cutting off the annoying sound.

He turned on his stereo and almost started crying when JC's Cd started. He turned it back off and laid down on his bed not even bothering to take off his shoes.

He woke up several hours later and immediately noticed it was dark out. He glanced at his alarm clock. 9:07

'Why did I go to bed so soon?' Then it hit him. Joshua.

Joshua wasn't coming home… again. This was the second time he had put off coming home. Alex wished he would just get it over with.

He knew what was coming. They had been together for almost three years now. Joshua was gorgeous; he could have anyone he wanted. He was getting bored. Especially now that he was back in the spotlight. He wanted to be free to roam again.

Alex jumped up suddenly running his hand through his hair. He walked toward the bathroom. He had to get out and clear his head.

He headed to a club downtown. He walked up to the bar and almost bit his tongue when he realized he was about to ask for a shot of JD.

"J-… uh… Just a sprite, please."

He drank half of it before placing it back on the bar and heading toward the dance floor. He was only by himself for a minute, before a beautiful blonde came over and joined him. No words were spoken, he just pulled her close and started to grind.

That's where Justin found him twenty minutes later.

AJ didn't see him he was to busy trying to forget his life up until this point. He came up behind him and tapped him on the shoulder. AJ turned and swore softly when he saw him.

"So, your boyfriend is on the other side of the continent freaking out and you're here," Justin shot the blonde a dirty look clearly telling her to go away. She took the hint and moved on. "With her."

"Oh fuck off. And would you mind keeping your voice down. I realize you don't give a shit about my career, but JC's-" Alex walked upstairs into the VIP area it was currently empty leaving him and Justin to talk freely.

Justin snorted. "Yeah, cause your thinking of JC's career right now."

"Look, our relationship has nothing to do with you, and therefore, is none of your business. So just stay out of it."

"Right, so when he calls me crying, I'm just suppose to say, what? Sorry JC, but AJ told me to not get involved? I really don't know what the fuck your problem is, but right now I don't care. My best friend is devastated and I just spent the last two hours on the phone trying to convince him that you don't hate him."

Alex turned around, about to leave, when Justin stepped around him. He immediately noticed that Alex had started to cry. Silent tears were running down his face. Justin sighed… 'Great, just what I need.'

"Leave me alone." Alex said softly.

"Josh-"

"Do me a favor would you? Just tell JC to get it over with."

"Get what over with?" Justin asked confused.

"Breaking my heart. Just tell him to do it so that I can-"

"What the fuck are you talking about? Josh isn't going to break your heart. I'd say it was the other way around. And since when have you started calling him JC? I haven't heard you call him that since you guys started dating, a couple years ago."

"Yeah, three years ago Saturday."

"Huh?"

"Our anniversary. It's this Saturday. Tell him to have fun in New York would you? Now if you'll excuse me I've going home."

"Wait, I'm more confused now, than when I got here."

AJ shrugged. "Your problem, not mine."

He walked out leaving Justin standing there trying to decide what he was going to do.

"Josh, what's going on?" Justin asked hoping to get some answers. He had just left the club and got in his car immediately calling Josh.

"What do you mean?" Josh sniffed, and Justin knew he was still crying.

"Why did AJ tell me, to tell you, just to go ahead and break his heart?"

"What?" Josh asked confused.

"Yeah, something about telling you just to get it over with… Not to mention he kept calling you JC… He doesn't call you JC…"

Josh took in this new information and started to connect the dots.

"Oh, and he said to tell you to have fun in New York this Saturday. He said it was your three year anniversary."

"Fuck… Fuck, fuck, fuck…"

"Do you kiss your mother with that mouth?" Justin joked trying to lighten the mood.

"Shit, Justin… Our anniversary… I forgot it was this Saturday."

"When did you think it was?"

"I don't know. I wasn't really thinking about it."

"Ohh, nice…" Justin said sarcastically.

"Tell me about it… He thinks I'm putting my career first, before him… I can see why he'd get that, but how can he honestly believe it? I'm dying not seeing him. Not kissing him, touching him… God I can't even hold his hand, or cuddle together on the couch discussing out days… I miss him, so much."

"And when was the last time you told him this?"

"I told him I missed him earlier… I mean we talk almost everyday… I always tell him I miss him, and that I love him…"

"But have you told him that you not being there with him is killing you as much as it is him. He's in this business to Josh; he understands all the pressure and responsibilities that are on you to push this album. But you're not talking to him. I know you're busy. I get that. But he has to come first, man."

"He does!"

"Then tell him that. Don't just call him between gigs and say 'Hi, gotta go.' You have to talk to him about all of it. He understands what you're going through, all of it. The career stuff, and the personal stuff, he's right there with you."

Josh sighed. He knew all of this; he just hadn't been doing it. "You know he stopped calling me JC because he says it's my public persona, like AJ is his. That behind the scenes he wants it to just be Josh and Alex. He doesn't want this crazy shit to leak into our relationship."

Justin nodded, and then remembered that Josh couldn't see him. "That makes sense."

"Yeah."

"Call him."

"I have. He's not answering my calls. His cell is off, and the house phone just keeps ringing."

"You have to do something, Josh. If you really love him, if he means this much to you, don't let him get away. I've never seen you as happy as he makes you. He's good for you, and I think you're good for him."

Josh said goodbye and hung up. He laid back on the hotel room and decided he was keeping him. He didn't know AJ's plans, but he was keeping Alex. There was no way he was letting him slip out of his life… now he just had to figure out how.