End Of Forever

Title: End Of Forever

Author Name/Email: Brie / roses_b@yahoo.com

Rating: PG-13

Featured Boy: Nick

Tidbit or Summary: Nick has made the biggest mistake...can he save the relationship or it is the end?

The days keeping rolling by me like a top. I feel like I am trapped in a time warp or something. I still think about him sometimes. I wonder where he is or what he's doing. But why should I care? He betrayed me.. betrayed me in the worst possible way. So why do I dream of him at night? I thought I pushed him out of my mind.. out of my heart forever. Is my mind playing tricks on me?

As I clean my room, I try to push the thoughts away. Just when I thought they were finally gone forever, something cracked under my bed. I bent down to see what it was. A picture.. a picture of him and I, together, happy in the park. Those were the good times.. only now all I can think about is what he did to me.

~Flashback~

I came home from work Nick was in his boxers with a striper/dancer, his hands on her waist. She was standing in front of him dancing and fooling around

*~End of Flashback~*

Tears roll down my face as I remember that awful day. I thought true love was supposed to be wonderful and everlasting, just like in the fairy tales. Only I found out the truth, the cold, hard truth. I could never forgive him. I threw the picture across the room, the glass shattering into a million pieces. I lay down on the bed and cried myself to sleep

I don’t really know why he did what he did. My mind keeps trying to come up with reasons as to the cause of his betrayal. ‘ Was I not good enough? Was it that I can’t satisfy his sexual desires and he had to go somewhere else to get it? Did I not give him what he wanted, even needed? Was I too boring for him? Am I not pretty enough?, Am I too demanding? I didn’t think so but maybe I’m wrong…What is it about me that he had to go to some other woman? Am I that awful? Did he fall for someone else? Is he scared of commitment? Is he trying to deny to himself that he wants to be single again? Did he want out of this relationship so bad that this was only thing he could think of to get out of it? Is this revenge for something I did?’ Why in god’s name,…. why did the man I loved so much, do this to me?

One week later...

I ran to my car as the snowflakes fell to the earth. Right before reaching it, I bumped into someone. I turned and started to apologize when I saw him standing there.

"I'm sorr... Nick"

"Brie..."

All the hate and the hurt came rushing back as I looked into those same blue eyes. I quickly tore my eyes away and started getting into the car. He stopped the door from closing.

"Brie.. I'm sorry.."

"Save your breath Nick.. it won't work"

"Brie.. please.. I love you.."

"No you don't.. you.. you ruined my life!... Just stay away from me.."

"Brie.. why can we just work this out?"

"Because.. we can't. I can't.. not ever... now leave me alone." I shut the door and drove away

"Damnit! No... " kicking the sidewalk

"I lost her... I lost her forever" he whispers before going back home

The end