Mood:  rushed

Been kind of lazy on the blogging, haven't I? There's been a lot going on around here that is not Lyme related, at least not directly.

I tried to quit smoking using a drug called Chantix, and not only was that a flop, but it screwed up everything in my body. I do not recommend this drug to Lyme patients. (actually I would not recommend it to anyone!!) I gained weight very quickly, my sugar went out of control and I don't have full control back yet, my blood pressure went up, I had constant insomnia even though my RLS was under control, and I had the headache from hell that would not quit. The straw that broke the camel's back was severe depression with suicidal thoughts. I would rather die from a smoking related disease than sit around wanting to kill myself so I went back to smoking!

I've managed to get the weight back off, my blood pressure has come down, and I put in a small garden for the first time in years. I may not be the happiest person, but no longer want to hurt myself.