It Was Missing; It Was Broken



Chapter 1


Christina looked at herself in the mirror…Life was never what she thought…Never what she wanted it to be.

She had on a red plaid skirt that barely came to mid-thigh with a black corset that laced up the front with red laces. Her waist length red and black hair was in tiny little braids…the black eye liner outlined her eyelids and eyes, with the thick mascara, gave her green eyes the smoky effect she liked. She had in her small red nose ring, and navel ring. Plus her 2 inch heeled lace up, knee high combat boots.

She figured…Well this is as good as it’s gonna get. She sighed as her friend Cali walked over and took her hand and they took off out of the abandoned house…Meeting up with Sam and Derek down stairs they all headed out to the nearest bar…hoping to either get someone to give them money or food.

The foursome had been living together the last 2 years on the streets of New York.

Cali 25, had been forced into the streets when her and her boyfriend had come to New York for vacation, but he was just going there to ditch her…He left the hotel before she woke up one morning, with 50 bucks on the night stand…She hadn’t left since…She had nowhere to go.

Derek and Sam both 23 and were both gay, and when their families had found out about them being lovers, their families completely cut them off and they wound up on the streets and met Cali and Christina a few months later.

Christina 25, on the other hand…Her story is a little more complicated. Her parents were extremely wealthy…she was in her last year of medical school, when her step brother and 3 of his friends raped her repeatedly one weekend…They kept her hand cuffed to a bed naked…Her mom and step dad were out of the country…When Christina had told them…Her Step brother denied the whole thing and got his friends to lie about where they were…

Then her Step dad convinced her mother she was a liar and cancelled all the tuition they’d paid for her college…She stayed until they literally threw her out of the dorm…All she had was 1 backpack and 2 garbage bags full of her clothes…most she’d sold for money for food. Usually she’d been able to work to get food…but every once in a while she’d get a guy who wanted to have sex with her for money.

Apparently tonight was no different. She could feel the guys hand on her inner thigh before she even seen his face. She knew exactly what he wanted, and when she turned around and saw him in a navy blue Armani suit…she knew he was willing to pay big money. She told Cali, Sam and Derek to head back to the house and she’d be back in a couple of hours with food. They knew she was going to jump in with both feet as they watched her walk out of the bar and get in the limo with the guy in the suit.

After tossing the guy a condom, flashing her tits and ass, the guy did his business with her…afterwards, she was getting ready to leave and he pulled her over and slide what she thought was a 100 dollar bill in her bra as he pinched her nipple one last time…but once she was outside…she pulled the cash out and it wasn’t just 1, 100 bill…it was 10…the man gave her a thousand bucks…She could only hope he’d be back next month.

As promised a couple hours later Christina walked through the door with 2 pizza’s and munchy foods, soda and water. She had a couple of pieces of pizza and some water and bid her fellow friends G’night. She slipped her skirt off, kicked her boots off, pulled her corset off and pulled on her sleep pants and tank top…she leaned against the wall as she sat on the dirty mattress covered with a couple of clean blankets and pillows…

She looked around the dark room only light with the moon light from outside. She felt the tears sliding down her cheeks…every night was the same…she should’ve been a doctor by now…she’d be in an apartment in Manhatten…working at a practice or in a hospital…

Every time she thought about what her step brother did to her she got so mad she couldn’t do anything but cry. She couldn’t wait for the day when a steady job came around for her and her friends and they could get off the streets…She knew she had piece’s of herself scattered all over New York. She was sure her soul had left a long time ago.

Not sure where it was…but it was definitely missing.


Chapter 2


Different Night…Same old shit…Restless ways for a living…Saying yes when she meant no.

Christina was with the Armani suit wearer again…Mitch…At least that’s what he wanted her to call him…This had been the 4th month he’d been back to see her again…Every time she left him, he’d given her a little bit more money…She’d been keeping track and he’s given her at least 25,000 dollars so far…and he was only having sex with her for an hour…two at the most. Tonight it was no different as usual…He’s handed her the money…only this time, he’d offered to take her home…Tonight was particularly bad weather…it had been pouring down rain and windy all damn day.

Mitch really enjoyed her plaid skirts…tonight she had on royal blue plaid pleated skirt with a matching tank top, her boots of course…on the drive to the house the foursome had called home for the last 2 years…Mitch was rubbing her thigh…as his hand slid further and he moved her panties and slid a couple of fingers into her…She pushed her legs apart for him and moaned at the sensations flowing through her body…He did like to make her make sexual noises.

He told her to slouch down in the car seat and put her feet on the dash board…She did as requested…he slipped on finger out of her over worked sex as he trailed it down further and was trying to push it into her anal passage…She’d never even thought about trying anything like that…and he was starting to hurt her…

She started trying to push his hand away from her…but he was stronger then her…His finger slipped into her anal passage as she cried out in pain and yelled for him to stop…He pulled his hand out and back handed her…she fell against the window and felt blood trickle out of her nose and mouth…He pulled the car into an alley and threw the car into park and grabbed her by the hair and forced his tongue into her mouth putting his fingers back into both holes.

He pulled his tongue from her mouth he said, “Go ahead cry for me slut…You should be use to being used like a fuck toy…I’ve paid you enough…If I wanna finger your cunt you let me…If I wanna finger your asshole you let me…I fucked your pussy enough and stretched it out…I’m tired of it feeling like a wet rag around my cock…I want to fuck your ass…and I want to fuck it now.” He back handed her a few more times…

Christina being a thinker 24/7…knew eventually he would try something like this…she wasn’t stupid…she was prepared. Fully prepared. As he wasn’t watching her hands she put them behind her back and pulled a pair of pliers out of her purse…And not Just any pliers…Vise Grips…Which once clamped onto something they locked into place…She noticed his free hand had been undoing his pants as he pulled his erection out…

She found her opened and as fast as she could locked the vise grip pliers around his erection…He screamed out in pain like a girl…While he was trying to claw the vise grips off his pain filled penis, she kicked him in the face grabbed his wallet and got the rest of his cash…grabbed her purse and got out of the car…locking the doors. Once out…she pulled the screw driver out of her purse and punctured two of his tires and took off running down the long alley as fast as she could…It was a huge building of some kind…but she had no clue where she was.

Somehow she was able to pick the lock of a back door with a couple of paper clips and got inside…She was walking down the hallway soaking wet from head to toe…shivering…She seen a bunch of black trunks lining the walls and couldn’t imagine where she was…

Suddenly a loud clap of thunder hit…

She jumped and the lights in the whole building went out. She pulled her little flashlight key chain out and walked down a little further and found an open room…She walked in and it was empty with the exception of a few lockers. She slid down the wall holding her knees to her chest as she figured she’d wait out the storm and hoped the power would come back on.

Chapter 3


John looked at his cousin and his girlfriend Trina and shook his head…They would both forget their brains if they weren’t planted in their heads. They’d forgotten their bags at the arena. Naturally they had been too busy playing kissy face to notice it until they had reached the hotel…so now they were back at the arena.

John said, “If you two are finished…Let’s go in there and get your shit…remember that…not my shit…I got all my shit….Your shit…And let’s get out of here.” Marc Predka looked over and saw the pitch black arena and said, “I think the storm knocked out the power.” Trina said, “I ain’t going in there without a flash light.” John said, “Awww…You scared of a little darkness.”

Trina said, “No just things that go bump in the darkness without a damn good explanation.” Marc said, “She’s not really scared of the things that go bump…she’s just scared the one eyed monster is going to bump her in the dark…it can be scary as hell too…It’s a pretty good size.” Trina smacked Marc’s arm and said, “Knock it off pervert.”

John laughed at their lover’s antics as he handed them both a flashlight as they turned them on and entered the Madison Square Garden arena. Marc said, “Naturally you’re dressing room would have to be the very last one at the end of the hallway.” John said, “Yea well we wouldn’t of had to come back had you not been suckin face with Trina long enough to remember all your shit…So cut your bitchin’…It’s your own fault dumb ass.”

Christina could hear voice as her head popped up…she had to get out of here…if anyone caught her she was a goner for sure…she walked out of the room and stood in the middle of the hallway as three beams of light landed on her and a voice said, “Hey you’re not supposed to be in here.”

John, Marc and Trina, nearly died of freight as their lit flashlights all landed on the same face in front of John’s dressing room…John yelled out and watched as the girl in the skimpy clothes took off running towards the back door. John ran after her as Trina grabbed the bags and Marc went after John.

Christina busted out the back door and she could hear the foot steps behind her…she’d semi dried off, but was now soaking wet yet again…She stopped and turned to face her pursuer with the screwdriver in her hand. He stopped in front of her equally as soaked now as well.

Trina had gone back in front and got the SUV and floored it to the back of the arena…

John came to a stop and saw the girl was armed with a screw driver, but he’d suddenly noticed she had a blood nose and a black eye…John held up his hands and said, “I’m not going to hurt you, I swear.” In a shaky voice she said, “Leave me alone…Just turn around and go back…” John said, “You’re hurt…Let me help you please.” She said, “I’m fine…Just leave me alone.”

Suddenly, Marc grabbed her from the back and got the screw driver out of her hand…and tightened his arms around her not wanting her to get away…John was running towards her and could hear her screaming…but it was high pitched and in short spurts…she was starting to fight back…as she slammed her heel down on Marc’s sneaker cover toes he, pushed her away as John ran up and she punched John in the face full force and kicked him in the stomach.

John was bent over as Marc bounced around on one foot holding his smashed toes and watched as she took off running down the alley again…They regained their composure and ran after her…just as she came to a main cross street she stopped frozen and screamed as she jumped up and hit the bumped of an SUV and hit the pavement out cold.

John and Marc caught up and noticed it was their SUV and Trina was driving. John said, “God Damn…I didn’t want you to run her over.” Trina said, “Hey…I didn’t see you guys doing that hot of a job…I figured what the fuck, I might as well stop her…You know…Since you guys couldn’t get the job done.”

Christina hit the hood and bumper of the huge SUV and fell back and hit the back of her head on the pavement and felt the darkness slip in.

Chapter 4


John, Marc and Trina were sitting in the hospital…They’d stayed all night with the girl Trina hit with the car…The doctor’s checked her out and said she’d either had rough sex or was raped, because she had a hand print bruise on her inner thigh. Her face was bruised from the smacks she took, but nothing was broken…which was a good thing…she had a couple of fractured ribs from hitting the SUV and a mild concussion from hitting her head on the pavement.

Christina could feel the ache in her head and ribcage before she opened her eyes as she slowly started waking up. She could hear voices as she laid there and let herself wake up a little more.

John said, “I hope she doesn’t sue us.” Marc said, “C’mon man…She ain’t gonna sue us…Hell she could have amnesia and won’t remember anything…we could get off Scott free.”

Trina was standing behind Marc and decided he deserved a smack for that comment and popped him up side his big bald head. Marc rubbed the side of his head and said, “I’m thinking logically.” John shook his head at his cousin and said, “It’s hard to believe we’re even from the same blood line…I swear.”

A voice said, “Well…Rest easy…I don’t have amnesia.”

Three heads popped up to see the girl sitting up…She looked around and her eyes landed on John and she said, “You just couldn’t leave me alone could you?” John shrugged his shoulders and said, “What was I supposed to do…Let you walk away in the pouring rain and bleed to death?” She sighed as she glared at all of them and said, “Better then being here…I hate hospitals.”

They watched as she untapped the back of her hand and pulled the IV out of the back of both of her hands...John stood up and said, “What are you doing?” She looked at him like he’d grown 6 heads and said, “Duh genius…What do you think I’m doing? Getting the hell out of here.”

John walked over and said, “You shouldn’t be going anywhere…You’ve got a couple of fractured ribs…and a mild concussion…you shouldn’t even be getting up for 24 hours.” She scooted off the bed and pulled her gown closed in the back and said, “Yea well…I ain’t waiting for 24 hours.” John watched as the girl grabbed her clothes out of the closet and slipped into the bathroom locking the door behind her.

Marc said, “We can’t force her to stay here…She’s gonna leave one way or another. We might as well take off. She ain’t gonna let us near her.” John said, “So what? We just leave and pretend it never happened and just let a girl walk out of a hospital with a concussion and fractured ribs?” Trina touched John’s arm and said, “John…Marc is right…There is no way she’s going to let us help her…It seems she’s just about as stubborn as you.”

John watched as the girl emerged from the bathroom fully clothed…He never realized how cute she was until she came out clothed in her clothes that had dried. They all turned towards the window when there was a knock. They watched as the girl walked over and opened the window and a torso popped into the window and pulled the girl into a huge hug.

Christina smiled as Derek grabbed her in a hug and said, “Do you realize how many hospital’s we had to call to find you…you damn near scared the shit out of Cali and Sam. I should whip your ass Chris.” Christina said, “Chill Deeker…I’m okay.”

Christina looked back at the 3 some in the hospital room and said, “Nice to not meet you…Hope we can do it again some time. Later.” Christina grabbed her purse as Derek reached through the window and picked her up and pulled her through the window and took her hand as they ran off through the trees and bushes next to the hospital across the street and caught the bus.

Chapter 5


John said, “Fine…she doesn’t want help…I’ll make her …Let’s go…Now.”

John stalked out of the hospital with Marc and Trina hot on his heels. They jumped in the SUV as John sped off down the street and started following the bus, he’d seen the girl and guy get on. John noticed the bus stopped a few blocks away from the arena. Marc said, “There’s only one house around here and it’s that old abandoned one…They just walked into it…” Trina said, “That thing hasn’t been lived in for at least a couple of years.”

Christina was met with hugs from Sam and Cali as she explained what had happened to her…everything that had happened including the whole Mitch situation. Sam had figured out how to turn the water on and Christina took a shower and put on her sleep pants and tank top as she joined the others in the main room downstairs.

They were just sitting down to talk when someone came crashing through the door. Christina looked up and saw the 3 some from the hospital and the earlier nights confrontation…Christina stood up with her hands on her hips and said, “Why am I so not surprised…I told you to leave me alone earlier and you wouldn’t and now you won’t even let me be at peace in my own home.”

John stood there and said, “This isn’t a home…This is a run down old house that hasn’t been lived in for years…” She glared at him and said, “Home is where ever you can make it when you live on the streets asshole.” John couldn’t believe what he’d just heard and said, “You should be in the hospital…You could make your concussion worse.” She said, “I know how to take care of myself…I told you once before to leave me alone…Learn how to leave people the hell alone.”

John said, “You need to be under the care of a physician…and I swear if it’s the last thing I do, I’m gonna make sure I damn well get your ass back to the hospital.” She walked up and looked him in the eyes and said, “Look…I’m tired of being nice…Get the fuck out and leave me the fuck alone…I don’t need a doctor…I know how to take care of myself…” Christina started to walk away as the guy said, “How in the world could you possibly know?” Christina let out a small growl as she spun around and said, “LOOK! I know how to take care of myself because I was 12 months from graduating college with a fuckin PHD…Now fuck off!”

John was taken back as he watched her pick up a flash light and ran up the stairs and slammed a door. Everyone jumped when they heard her slam the door. John said, “Okay so maybe I should go talk with her.” Derek said, “I’m sorry but are you really that stupid?” John said, “On the contrary, I was smart enough to graduate college.” Cali stood up and said, “Did you ever stop to think that maybe there was a REASON that she couldn’t finish college…instead of thinking she’s stupid for not finishing…By the way…Just who the fuck are you people? And I don’t mean the same people who chased her and gave her the concussion and broken ribs either.”

John said, “I’m John Cena, this is my cousin Marc Predka and his girlfriend Trina Somer. I’m a wrestler with the World Wrestling Entertainment company…We were in town tonight for a show…We had a run in with miss attitude there when we caught her in the arena when we went back to get Marc’s bag when he left it there.” Cali said, “Oh, I know who you are…I seen you two years ago at MSG…My boyfriend took me to see the show the night before he left me here with 50 bucks.”

John said, “Jesus Christ…Please tell me you are definitely not with him anymore.” Cali said, “If I would’ve been given a chance to get home…I’d be in prison or on America’s Most Wanted for strangling him with my bare hands.” John said, “Yup…That’s a definite no.” Marc said, “So who are all of you?” Cali said, “Cali Wright, Sam Dennison, Derek Smith and Miss Attitude is Christina Welch. She’s got reason to be pissed at the world…If anyone had her past…I’d be worried if they weren’t a little pissed off.”

Trina said, “So what’s the story with all of you?” Cali, Derek and Sam told how they’d all came to be living on the streets in an abandoned house and became friends.” John said, “What about Christina?” Cali held up her hands in defense and said, “You’ll have to ask her about that you’re self…It’s not our place to tell you.” John nodded his head as he said, “Aight…Be right back.” They watched as John started up the stairs with a flash light…

Sam said, “Does he ever give up?” Marc said, “Get real…He wanted to be a wrestler or a rock star since he was 5…Look where he’s at now…Not to mention we just released a rap album a few months back.” Cali said, “Damn…Well too bad he’s already taken.” Marc laughed and said, “John ain’t dating anyone.” Cali pointed her thumb behind her and said, “He doesn’t have to be with anyone…His eyes gave him away for lookin at Miss Attitude the way he was.”

They all laughed as they got comfortable ready to watch the sparks fly when Christina would see John again.

Chapter 6


Christina was leaning against the wall while sitting on her bed as usual…Staring out the window as the rain continued to come down some more…She couldn’t stop the tears now even if she tried…She got used to the crying thing…It was a nightly ritual…or so it seemed.

She falls apart by herself
No ones there to talk or understand
Feels sustained, dries here eyes
Finds herself, opens the door inside
People see right through you
Everyone who knew you well
Falls apart, might as well
Day is long and nothing is wasted

Runaway - runaway (runaway - runaway)
Hold, hold you but your going away
Runaway - runaway (runaway - runaway)
(Want) Hold (Want) you tomorrow but your leaving today

Christina hadn’t noticed that John had walked into the room…She’d heard all the introductions…She suddenly felt someone touching her hand…She looked over and John’s heart broke…Someone who was so quiet was crying…he couldn’t tell if it was because she looked so defeated or because he could hear her tears…

You walk along by yourself
There's no sound, nothing is changing
Been gone away, left you there
Emptiness is nothing you can't share
All those words that hurt you
More than you would let it show
Comes apart, by yourself
All is well and everything is wasted

Runaway - runaway (runaway - runaway)
(Want) Hold (Want) hold you but your going away
Runaway - runaway (runaway - runaway)
(Want) Hold (Want) you tomorrow but your leaving today

Sometimes we'll feel around
And this dance instead can't be down
All the sound of me on my own
Any sound of me again
It's time away surround around a friend
I know where I know where no where to runaway

John did the only thing he could think of…He pulled her over and wrapped his arms around her tiny Framed body. She was so small…She couldn’t have weighted more then 100 lbs…She buried her face in his t-shirt and he could feel her body shaking with sobs. John rubbed her back and let his hands run from the top of her head down her long braided hair.

She falls apart, no one there
Hold her hand, it seems to disappear
Falls apart, might as well
Day is long and nothing is wasted

Runaway - runaway (runaway - runaway)
(Want) Hold (Want) hold you but your going away
Runaway - runaway (runaway - runaway)
(Want) Hold (Want) you tomorrow but your leaving today
Runaway - Runaway
Hold (Want) hold you (Want) but your going away
But your leaving today, but your leaving today

After about 30 minutes…John looked down…Christina had fallen asleep. He wasn’t about to wake her…He leaned against the wall and carefully lifted her head and placed a pillow on his lap and put her head on the pillow.

John wondered if she ever felt like running away from it all…He’d have to remember to ask her in the morning…as he leaned his head against the wall and fell asleep.

Chapter 7


When the sunshine started coming through the windows of the old abandoned house…Christina could feel the warmth on her face…She slowly opened her eyes and noticed she was laying with her head in someone’s lap…Then she saw the pump sneakers…She moved around a little bit and slowly sat up…She looked over and blue eyes were staring back at her green ones.

Christina blinked a couple of times and said, “You didn’t have to stay last night…I’m sure you are used to better accommodations, Mr. Cena.” John smiled and said, “You know who I am?” Christina laughed as she stood up and said, “Of course…One doesn’t like in New York and not hear about the WWE superstars that come to town every 3 months.”

John stuck his hand out and said, “Nosey gotta help everyone, general pain in the ass, John Cena.” Christina laughed as she shook John’s hand and said, “Snobby stuck up bitch, almost doctor, Christina Welch.”

John couldn’t help but be mesmerized by her smile and laugh.

Christina moved around to where she was facing John with her knees pulled into her chest. John was still leaning against the wall…Christina said, “I bet you’re wondering what an almost doctor is doing living on the streets now huh?” John pulled his left leg up and rested his elbow on his knee and said, “Yea…The thought has crossed my mind a thousand times since last night.”

Christina said, “Well…I guess it started 2 and a half years ago…My father died when I was 12 and left me a trust fund for college…Mom remarried 4 months later…like it wasn’t obvious she’d been screwing around…I grew up with a step father and a step brother…I finally got out of the house and into a dorm for college…I worked my ass off…I wanted to be a pediatrician so bad I could taste it…I loved working with children…Anyways…I made the mistake of coming home one weekend to see my mom…but she was out of the country like always with Jerry.”

Christina sighed as she closed her eyes remembering that weekend. John could see stray tears slide down her cheeks and she continued, “It was probably the worse 72 hours I’ve ever lived through in my life…When I got to the house, my step brother Jack had two of his friends there…they were so coced up and drunk it took me telling all 3 of them to kiss me ass to piss them off within a matter of seconds. I spent 3 days, handcuffed naked to a bed…while Jack and his buddies raped me over and over and over again.”

John took Christina’s hand and he said, “You don’t have to finish.” Christina wiped her tears on the back of her hand and said, “Yes I do…I was mortified…I went to my mother and told her everything that happened…I cried…I poured my heart out to her…My step father heard all of it and went after Jack…him and his friends claimed they weren’t even in the house that weekend and that I was just trying to make up lies about him…My step dad convinced my mother I was nothing but a liar and a slut trying to play off having a party in the house with 3 other guys…She believed every word that bastard said.”

Christina ran a shaky hand through her hair and said, “My mother cut off my trust fund…Legally, she can’t do it…but she had her lawyer claim I wasn’t really her child…that her and my father adopted me and I wasn’t really supposed to get the money…The courts listened to her because I didn’t have a lawyer. When I tried to defend myself in court, I was nearly thrown in jail for contempt…I lived in my dorm for as long as I could and then they threw me out…when I walked off the campus, I had two garbage bags and a backpack full of clothes…Everything else I had to leave there. No telling what happened to it…I’ve been on my own ever since…2 years of sleeping on the streets, in broke down cars, and meeting up with Cali, Sam and Derek…They’ve kept me sane.”

Christina said, “I wasn’t always so stubborn about life…Of course that was before I had to have sex with guys for money to keep myself and my friends alive. Us finding this abandoned house was probably the best thing we could’ve done…It’s not the Hilton…but for now its home.”

John said, “What if I told you I could get you all jobs, but that you’d have to go to Boston to get them.” Christina laughed and said, “That would be nice…except…we have little cash and no way of getting there…Besides won’t your girlfriend be missing you?” John said, “What makes you think I got a girlfriend?” Christina laughed and said, “A hottie like you? No girlfriend…Get real…I’m living in the real world…where are you located?”

John said, “Okay, so I have a girlfriend…but no ones knows about her…we’ve been dating on and off for the last 2 years…but decided to just keep it quiet she’s a wrestler like me…either way…If I take time off to help you and the other’s get to Boston…She can deal with it…She’s on the road just as long as me…”

Christina said, “I don’t know John…I don’t know you that well and I’m not about to take advantage of you.” John laughed and said, “You’re not taking advantage of me…I’m OFFERING to help you out…There is no reason 2, 25 year old girls and 2, 23 year old guys should be on the streets, when they could have nice warm beds and good paying jobs…you know solid roof over their heads that don’t leak…with heating for winter so you don’t freeze to death and air conditioning for the summers so you don’t have heat strokes. C’mon it’s a good offer…It’s totally on the up and up…I swear.”

Christina said, “And in return you want?” John laughed and said, “You think I’m workin an angle…that’s cute…Actually the only thing I want in return is…Dinner with the 4 of you occasionally, when my tired board ass comes off the road…This you can handle pizza and beer with me and my cousin and his girlfriend every other week?”

Christina laughed and said, “I think I can handle that.” John stood up and pulled Christina up to her feet and he said, “Good…Let’s go tell the others to pack their shit…we’re leaving tomorrow morning.” Christina nodded as she watched John walked out of the room…She looked out the window and up at the sky…

What a waste on her mind…Every time…all the time…

Now it’s gone…finally.

Chapter 8


The following morning found John driving the 4 person crew to Boston…Marc and Trina had caught a plane the night before to get things ready and get paper work taken care of before John got there.

Christina was sitting in the front seat while John drove the Ford Expedition…while Derek, Sam and Cali sat in the back. Derek said, “I could definitely use a nap.” Sam said, “Me too…” Christina laughed and said, “Is this a hint?” Cali said, “I believe so.”

John said, “We’ve got at least a 10 hour drive…Sleep and nap all you want.” Sam said, “Please Chris…Pretty please.” John looked at Christina and said, “What does he want?” Christina said, “They won’t go to sleep without Cali and I singing to them. It’s an old song my mom sang when I was a baby and a young girl.” John said, “Oh really?” Christina nodded and said, “Afraid so.” John reached over and shut the radio off and said, “This I have to hear.”

Christina laughed and said, “Ready Cali?” Cali said, “Yup.”

go to sleep little babe
go to sleep little babe

your momma's gone away and your daddy's gonna stay
didn't leave nobody but the baby

go to sleep ya little babe
go to sleep ya little babe

everybody's gone in the cotton and the corn
didn't leave nobody but the baby

you're a sweet little babe
you're a sweet little babe

honey in the rock and the sugar don't stop
gonna bring a bottle to the baby

John couldn’t believe his ears as the harmonizing feminine voices came sliding through the SUV…

don't you weep pretty babe
don't you weep pretty babe

she's long gone with her red shoes on
gonna need another lovin’ babe

go to sleep little babe
go to sleep little babe

you and me and the devil makes three
don't need no other lovin' babe

go to sleep little babe
go to sleep little babe

come lay your bones on the alabaster stones
and be my ever lovin’ baby

Christina looked in the back and saw Derek and Sam fast asleep and said, “Worked like a charm.” John said, “That was amazing…You know…You should lay back too and get some rest…well be a while.”

Christina kicked her seat back and said, “Hey John?” John looked back and forth from the road to Christina and said, “Yea?” Christina smiled as she sat up for a second and leaned over and kissed John’s cheek and said, “If I forgot to tell you earlier or forget to tell you later…Thanks.”

John smiled and said, “You’re welcome.” Christina melted…Oh those adorable dimples of his…They were going to be the death of her yet…She fell asleep with John’s dimples on her mind…Hoping the car ride would end fast and they’d be in Boston the next time she opened her eyes.

Chapter 9


Christina’s eyes slowly fluttered open as she was slowly nudged awake…Her eyes opened to a pair of blue ones staring back at her…She smiled and knew it was John and said, “Are we there yet?” John said, “Yea…Are you awake enough to walk into the house?” Christina absentmindedly nodded as she slowly sat up. She noticed it was night time…and she checked the clock and it was around 10pm.

John helped her out of the SUV and held onto her arms and steadied her until she was fully awake. Christina looked over and saw a huge house and said, “Holy shit…Where are we?” John laughed and said, “Well…I got a place for you guys to stay, but unfortunately my bonehead cousin and his woman didn’t get the lights or water turned on for you…so tonight were staying at my folks house.”

Christina stopped half way up the sidewalk…John noticed Derek, Sam and Cali were already being greeted at the front door by his parents and Christina was missing. John turned around and noticed she was sitting on the curb. John jogged up and handed the bags he was carrying over to his old man and asked them to go ahead and get the others fed and he’d be right back.

John jogged all the way back down to the curb and took a seat next to Christina…She wasn’t making a sound, but in the moonlight he could see the silent tears sliding down her cheeks. John said, “Christina?” She looked at John and said, “This is so foreign to me.”

John smiled and said, “What? Moving or sitting on a dirty curb?” Christina cracked a smile and said, “No…someone actually showing they have a heart for human beings…I’m still amazed at the things you’ve done for me and my friends…and yet…some how…I don’t think I’ll ever be able to say thank you enough or even repay you.”

John said, “The only thing that can be close to repayment is seeing you smile…Damn girl…has no one ever told you what an amazing smile you’ve got?” Christina smiled and said, “I like smiling…I just haven’t had much to smile about in my life…Oh My GOD…You’re parents don’t know do they? I mean…About my folks or the…oh ya know…prostitution?” John said, “I wouldn’t tell anyone…unless you gave me the okay…I promise…I imagine it’s not something you want announced on the 5 o’clock news.” Christina said, “Hell no.”

John stood up and held out his hand and said, “C’mon…Food awaits…I haven’t eaten in 6 hours…You should be luck my tape worm hasn’t gotten out of hand and tried to eat you.” Christina couldn’t help but laugh and said, “Bottomless pit eh?” John said, “Well…It’s not often I get mother home cooked food…so when I know I’m coming home, I call ahead and mom makes all of my favorites…which means she could either feed me or a large village in Africa.”

Christina was laughing so hard she couldn’t stand up but took John’s hand as he pulled her to her feet…She faced him and he used the bottom of his jersey to wipe the tears off her cheeks and eyes.

John watched as she laughed at him some more and she said, “Oh God not the sacred jersey!” John said, “It’s salty tears…Not like I’m offering to let you blow your nose on it.” Christina laughed and said, “Ewww…I definitely wouldn’t take you up on that offer…Sorry…even for someone who’s been home less…I can’t blow my nose on anything but tissue.” John said, “Oh thank God…I’d hate to have snot on the inside of my shirt for the rest of the night…Besides…Snot is a bitch to get out of the fabric these jersey’s are made from.”

There was a moment of silence and Christina threw her arms around John’s neck and shoulders and John wrapped his arms around her knowing it’s what she needed and he said, “You’re not going to cry again are you? Cause I’ll have to use the back of my jersey this time.” Christina laughed against his body and said, “No…Thank you John…You know…For everything.” John said, “Well, it ain’t the fuckin Hilton…but what the fuck…It works…And you’re very welcome…”

They laughed as they walked into the house as Christina was greeted by John’s mom, Catherine and Dad, John. Nothing stays the same…Thank God.

Chapter 10


The next morning, John drove Christina, Cali, Sam and Derek, down the street and pulled up in front of a big grey house.

Christina said, “Okay…Now where are we?”

John smirked and said, “You’re house.”

Christina said, “No…See I don’t have a house…None of us do.”

John said, “You do now.”

Christina got out as did the rest and followed John up the walk way into the big house…It was gigantic…Marc and Trina were sitting at a dining room table laughing at each other, when the 5 people walked in.

John handed each of them a key to the front door and said, “Go look around.”

The other took off as Christina looked at John and said, “What did you do?”

John held out his hand and said, “C’mon…Look at the house…pick out a room…then questions will be answered.”

Christina chewed her bottom lip and finally gave in and let John take her through the house…They got to one of the 5 bedrooms and John said, “I figured you’d go for this one…It’s got a good view but yet it’s kind of secluded from the rest of the house…Plus…” John pulled a manila envelope down from a shelf in the room and handed it to Christina.

Christina took the envelope as she sat on the bed in the room and John sat next to her as she opened it up…It was information on every college within 20 minutes of the house. Christina said, “What is this?”

John said, “You can go to any of those colleges and they will test all your knowledge of medicine and send you to a medical college here in Boston to get your last 12 months credits to be a doctor.”

Christina’s eyes swelled up with tears as she looked down at the information at back up to John…He laughed and said, “I knew you were gonna cry…I came prepared.” John reached in his pocket and pulled out a mini packet of tissue and handed it to Christina…

She laughed but the tears still slid down her cheeks as she pulled a tissue out and wiped her eyes. She said, “John you’re unbelievable you know that…I can’t believe you went to all this trouble…Now tell me about the house.”

John said, “Well, my uncle is in the real estate business and this house is one of his…but I decided to rent it technically it’s yours now.”

Christina said, “I saw there were 5 bedrooms…why?”

John said, “Hell, I barely live in my place here so, I got rid of it…and moved my shit into the room next to yours…You guys will hardly see me for a while anyways…I’m gonna be recording my first album on my days off and some time at the end of the year the company has me going to Australia for a movie.”

They talked for a few more minutes and then pulled their bags into the house and slowly started making it their own.

Chapter 11


For the next months that followed, Christina barely saw any of her room mates especially John…She’d actually thrown herself into the last 12 months of medical school she needed into order to graduate and become a doctor…Not to mention her internship at Boston Memorial Hospital during the afternoon was just as time consuming. Cali had meet and started dating a Doctor from the same hospital…He’d been great to her and was so understanding and loving to her…

Sam and Derek had been doing exceptionally well with their jobs as well…Derek had become a photographer for a local magazine…and Sam…well Sam being Sam opened his own flower shop.

John had been in Australia shooting the WWE movie…He’d call Christina’s cell phone but she never answered…so he was always leaving messages to check on her and the others in the house…he knew they all were working their asses off…He’d since cut things off with the girl he’d secretly been dating on the road, because they wanted their relationship to go into two different directions…And it just wasn’t working out the way either of them wanted it too.

It had been 7 months, since John had brought them to Boston for a change in life…For the last 2 months Christina hadn’t been feeling well at all…When her doctor had given her a complete physical examination, he didn’t find anything, but when her blood work came back he saw some things in there that just didn’t seem right…So he referred her to a specialist infact that was at Boston Memorial…same place she was doing her internship.

So here she was sitting in the Specialist office…Christina hated it…She felt like she was being punished for something she didn’t do…Like she was sitting in the principals office for being a bad girl. The tests had gone further into her body and as it was her White blood cell count and her T cell count was too low for a normal 25 year old female. Not to mention she also had an iron deficiency.

Her knee was bouncing and her heel was tapping on the floor…She was jittery because she had a small thought of what they found…but was just checking to see if the doctor would confirm it. Why did being an adult have to be so complicated in life...? Because that’s the way life goes…That’s just the way life is and was at least for her it was.

Christina often caught herself missing her mother…but then she couldn’t help but remember what the woman had done to her when she needed her mother the most in her life…she turned her back on her…she left her out in the cold and didn’t even look back to make sure she’d survived…Her mother even went as far as court and letting the whole state of New York think she was some adopted girl who no one wanted.

Christina had one thing her mother didn’t and that was her birth certificate. Christina had gotten a hold of it, before she left the house the last time she’d gone to see her mom to try and get her to understand what Jack had done…but no amount of cussing, yelling and persisting worked in her favor…She’d kept her birth certificate and it was sitting in her top drawer at home…

Home…even after 7 months it still felt like a foreign word to her. All the love and caring her, Cali, Sam and Derek had received from the Cena and Predka family was amazingly warm and welcoming…it was as if the four of them were specifically made for the two large families. John’s brothers Stephen, Matt, Dan and Sean were as crazy as he was.

Family cook out consisted of John’s mom and dad cooking, while the rest of the family sat around with a beer talking or even John, his brothers and cousins playing football, baseball…wrestling around in the back yard trying to figure out who was stronger no matter how much muscle…or the lack there of they all had one thing in common…Love.

Christina was pulled from her thoughts as Dr. Laura Williams came in with her crisp white lab coat on and sat down behind her desk…She opened Christina’s file up and looked everything over and looked Christina in the eyes and said, “It’s not good…But…It’s not untreatable.” Christina felt the stray tears sliding down her cheeks and she said, “Its Ovarian Cancer…isn’t it?”

Dr. Williams said, “Yes…”

Chapter 12


Dr. Williams continued, “But…I think that with strong Chemotherapy and a few other things we can fight this…You do you want to fight it, right?”

Christina said, “Absolutely…I watched my aunt’s life deteriorate from Ovarian Cancer because she thought God was going to heal her magically…I refuse to believe God has anything to do with illness at least not when it comes to taking, giving and treating cancer. Ovarian Cancer runs rampant in my family…I watched it take at least a dozen of my family members…I’m not about to stand by and let it do the same to me…I refuse to.”

Dr. Williams said, “Okay…You wanna start immediately or have sometime to let it sink in?”

Christina said, “How soon is immediately?”

Dr. Williams said, “Well…I’ve got an opening for surgery right now…because we need to put a chemotherapy port in for you.”

Christina said, “A what?”

Dr. Williams said, “It’s a port-a-cath that is inserted in your upper chest wall the space between your collarbone and your breast to make chemotherapy easier and more comfortable for you…It is a simple, same-day procedure that doesn't require general anesthesia. You will have a chest X-ray to confirm that the port is positioned correctly. When you’re completely finished with chemotherapy, the port can be removed quickly in another same-day procedure.”

Christina said, “Okay…Tell me more.”

Dr. Williams said, “Well the port is about the size of a quarter, only thicker, and will show only as a bump underneath the skin. There are several benefits to having the port…No need to find a vein every time you receive chemo. A special needle fits right into the port, so all you feel is the stick—not the poking, prodding, and false tries in your arm. The nurse may numb the skin first with ice or a cream, to lessen any feeling at all.”

Christina said, “Okay…What else?”

Dr. Williams smiled…she knew Christina was weighting all options…and said, “The medication goes right into the main blood supply entering the heart, so it can be sent quickly and efficiently to all parts of the body…Some types of chemotherapy can be very uncomfortable if injected into a vein just under your skin. The port avoids this potential discomfort…Getting blood for blood tests can usually be done through the port, decreasing the number of times you need to have a vein stuck….so to speak.”

Christina said, “Okay…Let’s do it.” Dr. Williams pushed away from her desk and said, “Okay sweetie…Let’s go.”

An hour later, Christina walked out to her car with the port in her and was scheduled for her first treatment on the following Friday. As she was driving home…she knew she couldn’t tell anyone…she didn’t want the pity…and she definitely didn’t want anyone feeling sorry for her…She would just get through it.

Christina could do it…She didn’t need anyone’s help.

Chapter 13


It had been 2 months since Christina had started chemotherapy. Thank God she wasn’t losing her hair or people would’ve definitely known something wasn’t right. John was coming back from Australia today and his parents had cooked up a huge BBQ for his welcome back into the states.

Christina looked at herself in the mirror…She was tired…and thin…but she was surviving. She had on brick red (cotton) fleece draw string pants that sat low on her waist with drapey legs, a white cotton cami tank top and she made sure the strap on her right side over the bump on her skin where the port was…plus she had on a red fleece hooded zip up jacket…only zipped up half way…plus her white sneakers. She pulled her hair up into a pony tail.

Christina walked down the hall and grabbed her little backpack purse and then grabbed her car keys as she took off and knew she’d have to break it to the families that Cali, Derek and Sam were working…but would be there sometime after 7.

Christina walked out onto the deck and after she made her way around the grown ups with a round of hugs she went over and sat at one of the tables set up and was talking with Trina, John’s Mom Catherine and his dad John. Christina looked out into the huge back yard and saw John and Marc playing football with their brothers and cousins.

John and Marc were in a huddle as John’s eyes looked over and scanned the deck and he saw the red hair and thought he was going to come unglued as he said, “Hey cuz…who’s the girl with the red hair?” Marc laughed and said, “Man…That’s Christina…Shit…you didn’t recognize her without her braids…she had them taken out and the black washed out of her hair…come to find out she’s got deep red hair…You should go say hi man.”

John said, “Well…I’m gonna make a touch down first…And then I can go be sweaty around her.” Marc laughed, but that’s exactly what he did…John stole the ball and ran it in for a touch down and then every one called a half time for water. When John walked up on the deck Christina was missing. John went over and hugged his mom and asked where Christina had gone off too. Catherine said she’d excused herself to the restroom.

John grabbed a bottle of water and decided to take a minute to go in the house to pee real fast, but was stopped when he heard something beeping. He walked closer and His mom said it was coming from Christina’s purse…John picked it up and the beeping got louder as he put his hand in her purse and found it was the alarm on her cell phone going off. He shut it off and went to throw it back into her purse and noticed about 7 bottles of prescriptioned medications in her purse…They all had her name on them.

John wasn’t sure what they were all needed for, but decided against saying anything when everyone seemed to be having a nice time. John took Christina’s purse and went in the house in search for her…he walked by the down stairs bathroom and heard some weird sounds that he thought sounded like someone throwing up…he knocked on the door and heard the toilet flush…the water ran for a few seconds and the door opened and a smiling Christina stood in front of him.

John smiled and Christina melted from the dimples as they slowly approached each other and wrapped their arms around each other and softly hugged one another…When Christina pulled away John said, “You’re phone was beeping…I turned it off.” As John handed her the purse. Christina smiled and said, “Thank you.” As Christina walked away John noticed how she was kind of thin…He was curious as to what was going on with her.

A couple of days later, Christina was sitting in house thankful it was Saturday…The weekends were her time when she didn’t have school or work…She was relaxing on the couch when someone knocked on the door. She walked over and opened the door and John was standing there with his hands pushed into the front pockets of his jean shorts.

Christina said, “John…Why are you knocking…you live here too.” John said, “No…I’m coming as a friend not a room mate…We need to talk.” Christina moved to the side as John walked past her…she closed the door and followed him back into the den. John leaned against the back of the couch with his arms folded in front of his chest.

Christina stood 5 feet from him with her hands to her side and said, “So you wanted to talk…Talk.”

John said, “I’ve not been around for a few months while I was gone doing the album and movie and I know when you were living on the streets things were different and you did things for money…but I need to know right now…Did you bring drugs into this house?” Christina said, “Yea.” John sighed and said, “What was it?” Christina smiled and said, “The usual…Cough syrup, Tylenol…Excedrin.”

John said, “You know that’s not what I’m talking about…You know I turned your phone off the other day when it was beeping…so you know I saw those bottles of pills in your purse…What is it?” Christina said, “Oh…That’s easy…None of your business.” John watched as she walked out of the den.

Obviously...It was so not the answer he was looking for...

Chapter 14


Christina walked into the kitchen…She knew there was only so many times she could push John off the track…When he didn’t leave the first time she told him it wasn’t any of his business…she knew eventually he’d follow her and she’d have to be ready for round two.

Christina lined up all her meds on the island counter and had all the caps off as she flipped the 7 lids up on her long pill case and was getting ready to fill them up as John walked into the kitchen…and he was so not looking happy. John said, “Christina, I pulled you guys off the streets to help you…You’re living in a house you’re not even paying for. I will not have you doing drugs in my house…I refuse to let anyone bring drugs into the place I live.”

Christina said, “So you’re going to throw that in our face every time one of us does something you don’t like...Gee I feel like I’m living at home again.” John said, “No…But I’ll say it to someone who used to fuck guys for money and God only knows what else.”

Christina said, “Oh you wanna get cute now huh…What’s the matter you afraid I’ll be too cracked out to wanna fuck you sometime for money…I’m not proud of my past, but until you’ve walked a mile in my shoes and lived through what I lived through…don’t you DARE stand there and judge me…Because you think you know everything, when in reality you know NOTHING!.”

Christina walked out of the room for a minute and John got pissed his temper flared major and he walked over and picked up the 5 pill bottles, walked over and dumped them all in the garbage disposal he reached over and turned the water on and then flipped the switch. They were all gone within seconds.

Christina walked back in and John was drying his hands…She walked over and said, “Where are they?” John tossed the towel on the counter and said, “Gone.” Christina felt sick to her stomach and said, “John this isn’t funny…Where are they?” John said, “Did you see me laughing? They are gone. They are half way through the garbage disposal system of Massachusetts.” John watched as Christina’s hand came up and touched her forehead as she was thinking over what he’s just said to her.

Christina said, “Please tell me you’re joking John…Please.” John said, “No afraid not.” Christina said, “Did you ever stop to think for 2 seconds that someone who is taking prescriptioned drugs…was…I don’t know…Taking them for a reason.” John said, “But why? You’re perfectly healthy…Just admit to me you were using them to get high…I can’t get you help if you don’t figure out you’ve got a problem to begin with.”

Christina said, “Just because someone looks healthy on the outside, doesn’t mean they are on the inside.”

Christina sighed heavy as she reached over and grabbed her cell phone as she walked over and pulled one of her little zip up jackets on…she could feel herself getting chilled and it was 80 degrees outside. She was supposed to take her medicine, but because all of it was down the drain she wasn’t sure she could get refills before Monday which was a day and a half away.

Someone on the other end of the phone picked up and she said, “Yes, This is Christina Welch…I need to speak with Dr. Laura Williams…Yes it’s an emergency…” A few minutes later, Dr. Williams came on the phone and said, “What’s up Chris?” Christina said, “My purse was stolen and all my meds were in the bag…What am I gonna do…I can already feel my body reacting with not having them in my system.”

Dr. Williams said, “Okay…I want you to sit down…Pull a couple of blankets on yourself and keep warm…I’m going to have my assistant go down to the hospital pharmacy and refill all your scripts and bring them to you.” Christina sighed with relief and said, “Thanks Laura.” Christina hung up the phone and sat on the couch wrapped in her jacket with a blanket over her.

John walked into the living room and sat next to Christina…and said, “Chris…What’s going on with you? I heard you puking at my folks house, the drugs, I noticed your losing weight…You just told me you were basically sick…Tell me…Please.”

Chapter 15


Christina looked at John and big tears slid down her cheeks as she said, “Every family has one illness that sweeps through the bloodline and takes most of your relatives…In my family it just happens to be Ovarian Cancer.”

John said, “You’ve got cancer…Ovarian cancer…Why didn’t you tell me?” Christina looked down and said, “I watched my aunts life go down the drain because she believed God could heal her…and I watched my family do nothing but pity her, because they all knew God could’ve save her…I believe in God…but when it comes to cancer…I think it’s just one illness even God can’t cure without a Doctor’s help. I don’t like pity…I don’t want someone feeling sorry for me because I’m sick. I don’t want every one to treat me like I’m made of glass…I just wanna live my life…If I die from it then so be it…but if not just lemme survive.”

John said, “When did you find out about it?” Christina said, “I’ve been going to Chemotherapy every Friday for the last 2 months…And before you ask…Cali, Derek and Sam don’t know…I don’t want to tell them…They are my very best friends…and I don’t want to see them in an unnecessary pain if they don’t have to be in it.” John touched Christina’s hand and it was freezing cold…John put her hands between his big ones and rubbed some warmth into them.

Christina enjoyed the warmth. John said, “So are you keeping yourself in school?” Christina smiled and said, “Yea…I graduate in 3 months…Boston Memorial has already offered me a position as a Pediatric Doctor…I already accepted it…I can’t wait to finish out my last 3 months and get in there.” John said, “That’s really great.” Christina smiled.

Silence filled the room and then Christina said, “Did anyone ever tell you…when you’re not around life is boring…” John laughed and said, “No…Where did that come from?” Christina said, “Because…you were gone for 5 months…It was so boring around the house without hearing you freestyle in your room or listening to you and Marc argue while playing PS2 in the living room…even your nasty off key singing in the shower…I missed it…all of it…And I know I argued with you so much today that I pissed you off quite a bit, which sorry for that…I missed you.”

John smiled sweetly and said, “I missed you too.” John caressed her cheek…his hand was so warm and she leaned against it and relished the feeling. John wanted to kiss her…He wanted to kiss her so bad…And was about to when there was a knock on the front door.

John walked over and a small woman walked in and over to Christina…Christina smiled and said, “Thanks for coming Marie.” Marie smiled and said, “No prob…Laura said, you were already starting to feel the effects of not having your meds in you, so I brought shots so we can get it into your system now, instead of waiting for the pills to work.

John watched as Christina shed her jacket and pulled her t-shirt and bra strap off her shoulder. Marie said, “Okay…Where’s you’re port honey…I’ll numb it first.” Christina could always feel the port, but was thankfully never in pain from it…Christina pointed it out as Marie rubbed some numbing cream over it while she took the caps off all the syringes. Marie said, “Is it numb?” Christina nodded yes and looked away as Marie gave her all 5 shots…She didn’t care if she could feel it…she just never wanted to see it.

Marie turned to John and said, “She’s going to get groggy in a few minutes cause the shots make anyone tired, but pills don’s…and she’ll probably sleep for the rest of the day…Take care of her please.” John nodded as he saw Marie to the door and saw the brown paper bag on the couch.

John walked back into the living room and Christina was standing up…John said, “What the hell are you doing girl?” Christina sat back down and said, “Well…I was going to go upstairs…but I don’t think I can make it…I hate those shots…Every time.” John leaned down and scoped her small framed body up into his arms and held her against his chest and said, “Going up?” Christina smiled and said, “Yes please.”

John carried her upstairs to her room and laid her across the bed and she grabbed his hand and pulled him in with her and flipped the TV on and said, “Relax a little…you’ve been on the go for the last 5 months.” John relaxed and Christina laid her head on his chest and slowly drifted to sleep. John wrapped his arm around her protectively and was soon falling asleep as well…wishing and praying for her to be okay.

Chapter 16


The next morning when John woke up…He noticed he was still in Christina’s bed, but he was there alone. John sat up and moved around a little for the life of him he kept getting the feeling that something was wrong…but he just couldn’t figure out what it was.

He pushed himself out of the bed and saw a trail of clothes that led into the bathroom. They were the clothes Christina had been wearing the night before. He rubbed his hands over his face trying to wake himself up as he walked into the bathroom…No water was running and the curtain to the tub was closed…John said, “Morning Chris…” Nothing came back…John said, “Chris?” A few minutes later, “Christina.” John saw something out of the corner of his eyes as he looked over at the mirror above the bathroom sink and his heart fell into his stomach…

Written in blood on the mirror it said ‘What a Life…I quit.’ John could feel his whole body shaking from head to toe as his attention was drawn back to the bathtub. John gripped the plastic curtain in his hand and slowly pulled the curtain back and the tub was filled with nothing but gallons of blood…a box of opened razors were sitting in the corner of the tub.

John didn’t know what to do as panic set into his body and mind. His heart was beating so hard he was sure it was going to bust out of his chest at any minute. John hit his knees as he shoved his hands into the blood filled tub, searching for Christina’s body…it felt as if there was no bottom to the tub…he was up to his biceps in blood…it was coating his hands, forearms…and he suddenly found a hand and it grabbed his hand…he started pulling and finally got Christina’s head and torso above the red liquid.

John was holding onto her body because he didn’t want her to slip below the liquid again. “HELP…SOMEONE HELP!!!”

He propped her against the back wall of the tub and ran out of the bathroom looking for Cali, Derek or Sam…but none of them were there. John ran back up to the bathroom and went to grab Christina’s body, but it had been too late; she’d slipped back under the warm red liquid. John wasn’t about to give up as he threw his hands and arms back into the tub…and suddenly two hands shot out from the tub and grabbed his shirt and started pulling on him…

Suddenly John bolted upright…

He was sitting in bed…

Christina’s bed to be more exact…

It had all been a dream…Thank God…

He started getting his breathing under control…Christina was missing from the bed…but a few minutes later, she walked into her room, with nothing but a towel around her body.

Christina looked over at John and said, “Morning sleepy head.” And disappeared into her walk in closet…5 minutes later, she re-emerged in jeans, sneakers and a t-shirt. She was running a brush through her hair and walked over and sat on the bed facing John and touched his cheek. Christina said, “What’s the matter big man? You don’t look like you slept that well.”

John shook his head and said, “I just had a weird dream is all…What time is it?” Christina looked at her clock and said, “9 am…You still want to come with me for my doctor’s appointment?” John watched as Christina got up and walked out of the room and heard her blow dryer which meant she was drying her hair.

John suddenly realized it had been 3 months since the night Christina told him about the cancer…and he’d become quite accustom to sleeping in her room with her when he was home from the road. Not that either of them were complaining or anything…they seemed to enjoy each others company…and since Christina still hadn’t told the others about the cancer and her treatments…John was the only one she could talk with.

When John would come home from being on the road with the WWE, they’d lay in her room watching TV and talking and eventually would fall asleep in each others arms…John liked her…he liked her a lot…and he was dying to make a move on her, but he didn’t want her thinking he was attracted to her out of pity or something.

Chapter 17


An hour and half, 10 vials of blood, 3 X-rays and 5 bottles of water later, John and Christina were sitting in the waiting room…John had been fidgety since he’d woken up…and now his knee was bouncing around like a smoker having nicotin withdrawal. Christina was flipped through a magazine. When she noticed John’s leg had the jitters. She started to say something when her pager went off.

She looked at it…Every since she’d graduated college 2 weeks ago, she was a full time Pediatric Doctor for the hospital…She said, “I have to go down to Peds for a minute…Come walk with me…It will do you some good.” John nodded as he stood up from his seat and Christina informed the nurse at the desk that she’d be back to the Oncology floor as soon as she could, and if Dr. Williams needed her sooner to page her.

John and Christina walked down the hall and stepped on the elevator…Christina waited for the last person to get off the elevator and when it started going to her floor she pushed the stop button and John said, “Why’d you do that?” Christina set her purse down and said, “What’s going on with you today? Ever since you woke up you’ve been acting weird.”

John said, “Shit…I have not…I’m just being myself.” Christina gave John a knowing look and he said, “Don’t try to analyze me Doctor Welch. Stick with what you know children.” Christina said, “Apparently I am…Not stop behaving like a 5 year old and tell me what the hell is wrong.” John mumbled something and then finally said, “You…okay…You are what’s wrong.”

Christina said, “Why me? I didn’t do anything.” John said, “You’ve been through absolute hell for the last 5 months and yet you still finished college, and you’ve always got a smile on your face…like fuckin life could be worse.” Christina said, “That’s because life could be worse.” John said, “No it couldn’t…Look around you Chris…You’re working with children who are dying, or could potentially be dying and at the same fuckin time you’re getting chemotherapy treatments that could potentially kill you.”

Christina shrugged her shoulders and said, “What am I supposed to do John? Sit around feeling sorry for myself…That’s not how I work…and you know it…Why waste time feeling sorry for myself when I could save one of those potentially dying children from death itself? You know how you always tell me how much you love wrestling and loved making the movie and the album, but if you had to absolutely choose…it would be wrestling…because that’s all you ever wanted to do with your life.”

John said, “Yea…So?” Christina said, “All I’ve ever wanted to be was someone important to other people…someone who if life or death depended on someone dying I would be there to save the day…And I’m doing that now…I’ve wanted to be a doctor since I was 10…Because My mother and I were in a horrible accident when I was 10 and I remember this lady doctor coming into the ER and telling me, everything was going to be okay…She took care of me…John what’s this really all about?”

John said, “I’ve just been having these really terrible dreams about you…and I’m scared one of these times I’m going to wake up only to find out it came true.” Christina touched John’s arm and he grabbed her hand…she looked in his eyes and knew he was seriously scared for her…she took a step forward and threw her arms around his shoulders and buried her face in the side of his neck and she said, “I’m not going anywhere John…I refuse to give up…I promise.” John held her close to him…he heard her pager going off again and hit the button for the elevator to continue to the Peds unit.

After Christina finished her business in her office her and John went back to Oncology…They were sitting in Dr. Williams’s private office and Chris felt like she was in the principal’s office yet again for being in trouble. John took her hand and laced his fingers with hers…Just letting her know he was there for support.

Laura walked in and sat down and read through Christina’s chart as she looked up and said, “Well…”

Chapter 18


Laura sighed and then extremely full of emotion said, “All your tests came back negative!” Christina said, “But wait…Does that mean what I think it does?” Laura smiled and said, “Yes…There’s no more traces of cancer in your body…We got all of it!”

Christina and John both jumped up to their feet and John yanked Christina into his arms and hugged her so tight he never wanted to let go. Christina looked at Laura and said, “You’re sure right…Like completely 190 percent sure of this?”

Laura smiled and said, “I had them run the test 5 times Chris…If it was going to be a false negative it would’ve showed up in at least one test…but all 5 tests came back negative…You’re completely cancer free.”

Christina breathed a sigh of relief…


It was over.

John and Christina walked out of the hospital in silence. As soon as they were in the parking lot…Christina stopped walking and closed her eyes as she looked up and felt the sun on her face. It felt warm and inviting. John had been talking and didn’t notice Christina had stopped…When she didn’t respond to his question he looked back and saw her in the middle of the parking lot just staring at the sky.

John walked back over and stood in front of Christina and said, “Chris, are you okay?” Christina looked into John’s eyes and smiled the biggest smile he’d ever seen on her face since he’d met her. Christina said, “I’m fuckin ok.” And threw her arms around John as he hugged her tight and lifted her off the ground and spun her around in circles. Her laugh was enough to let him know she was about as happy as she had been her whole life.

Later that night John had gone out with Marc while Christina, Trina and Cali stayed at the house and made 3 different home made pizzas…While they were cleaning up the kitchen Sam and Derek came home from their romantic dinner date…The girls had put a CD on and had the stereo bumping the entire house…and the girls were dancing around the kitchen.

Baby you pretend that
Things ain’t what they seem
All this tension tellin me just
Exactly what we should be
now I don’t mind us
Bein some kinda casual thing
Listen all I want to do for now is
Have you come and take all of me.
Can you

Put your hands on my waistline
Want your skin up against mine
Move my hips to the baseline
Let me get mine you get yours.
Hang a please don’t disturb sign
Put my back into a slow grind
sending chills up and down my spine
Let me get mine you get yours

About that time Marc and John walked into the house and were wondering what the hell was going on, because they could hear the stereo outside. As they got into the kitchen arms, legs and bodies were dancing all over the room. Trina turned and saw Marc and John and ran over and jumped on Marc…He was laughing at her so hard he fell back with her in his arms and she was sitting straddled on his lap.

Christina hadn’t heard them come in yet and when a hand touched her waist…she knew it was John just be the softness of the touch and by the size of the hand. She held his hand on her hip as she turned around and said, “Dance.” And winked at him.

How could he say no?

If you see me with a man
Understand that you can’t question me
The feelin’ s that you caught
Ain’t my fault can’t help your jealousy
If you can handle the fact that
What we have has get to be commitment free
Then we can keep this undercover lovin`
Comin` hidden underneath the sheets
Can you

Put your hands on my waistline
Want your skin up against mine
Move my hips to the baseline
Let me get mine you get yours
Hang a please don’t disturb sign
Put my back into a slow grind
sending chills up and down my spine
Let me get mine you get yours

So come on and freak my body
We can get nasty, naughty
All night a private party
Gotta hit that spot just right
Work me like a 9 to 5

It ain’t about the kissin` and huggin`
Cause this is a physical lovin`
Straight sweatin`, our bodies are rubbin`
Gotta hit that spot just right
Work me like a 9 to 5

John gripped Christina’s hand and spun her around so her back was against his chest as they continued dancing…Cali, Sam, Derek, Trina and Marc didn’t even notice them…It was as if they were in their own little world.

Christina was really enjoying the feel of John’s hands on her as they danced to the beat of the music.

John loved every minute of having Christina in his hands and having her so close to his body…if he wasn’t careful she’d definitely notice John’s body responding to hers.

We have a physical thing
We make love, but don’t fall in love
Let me get mine you get yours
We spend time…Just enough so
You get yours and I get mine
No strings attached
I want your body…Not your heart

Put your hands on my waistline
Want your skin up against mine
Move my hips to the baseline
Let me get mine you get yours.
Hang a please don’t disturb sign
Put my back into a slow grind
sending chills up and down my spine
Let me get mine you get yours

Put your hands on my waistline
Want your skin up against mine
Move my hips to the baseline
Let me get mine you get yours.
Hang a please don’t disturb sign
Put my back into a slow grind
sending chills up and down my spine
Let me get mine you get yours

Come here
Don’t be shy
I won’t bite
Let me get mine, you get yours

Too bad they couldn’t get the guts to just tell each other they liked one another…Wimps!

Chapter 19


About 2 months later, Christina found herself at John’s parent’s house for another BBQ. She also found herself sitting in the grass watching the boys play football…Trina was sitting next to her and they naturally had been cheering for the team opposite John and Marc.

John had been eyeballing Christina since she’d sat down in the grass with Trina. She had on short red shorts and a white halter top that tied around her neck…Her long tan legs were stretched out in front of her with her feet in white socks and red sneakers…her long hair was pulled back into a pony tail as he watched her laugh about something Trina had said.

Trina said, “All this testosterone around and I may have to go to the doctor tomorrow for an estrogen shot.” Christina laughed and said, “Not as bad as living with the man of all men John. You think living with Marc is bad…Please he ain’t got nothing on his cousin. John and his working out, cooking meals, blah, blah, blah…And he seems to think that only women should clean, so Cali and I have decided to stage a protest until he learns to clean the same toilet seat he likes to not remember to put down and also pees on.”

Trina said, “Oh I trained Marc the first month we were together…I woke up at 2 am to pee and because he didn’t put the seat back down I nearly fell into the toilet bowl…From then on I would yell every time…or take his stupid PS2 games away from him.” Christina said, “Oh Thanks! You just gave me a few great ideas. The only thing sacred to John is his vehicle and his PS2…Finally a break!” As they both began to laugh

John looked up from his position in the line and said, “If you women can’t keep the noise level down to a minimum well have to throw a couple of penalties at the team your cheering for…which just happens to not be us…Look at that Marc, your own woman isn’t even cheering for you…That’s sad.” Marc just nodded and said, “Welcome to my life cuz.”

Christina stood up with Trina and said, “No…What’s sad is that you think running a few feet for a touch down at medium speed is awesome…” Trina couldn’t help but laugh. John walked over and looked at Christina and said, “What? You can do better?” Christina squinted a glare at John and said, “A lot better then your fat heels could move you.”

John said, “Fine…Trina you wanna throw your 2 cents in?” Trina gave John the finger as she walked over to the opposite team of John and Marc as John’s brothers Dan and Matt sat on the sidelines and just waited to watch Trina and Chris smoke their brother and cousin.

John and Marc watched as Christina and Trina took their place in a huddle and talked with the guys in the team…John said, “Are we gonna play ladies or play Barbie’s all day?” Christina poked her head out and said, “Stuff it hoodrat.” Matt and Dan’s laughter could be heard through the entire back yard.

When they came out of the huddle and lined up…Christina and Trina were on the end. John watched as Christina moved her feet around and knees…Christina winked at him as John’s brother yelled, “Hut!” Trina ran over and tackled Marc as Christina ran into the middle and Sean threw the ball…It spiraled through the air as Christina jumped up and caught it and took off running down the sideline. John tried catching her but as proved before she was definitely faster then him and left him in the dust.

Matt and Dan were dying laughing on the sideline as they watched their brother get his ass whipped by a female. John stood there with his hands on his hips breathing hard as Christina walked by and wasn’t breathing hard and didn’t even have a hair out of place as she tossed the ball to John and said, “I believe that was a touch down.”

John said, “You mind telling me what the hell you just did?” Christina smiled and said, “Scored for my team…and left you breathless.” She winked at him again and said, “Oh look…I think it’s time for a break.” Both teams scattered for water, bathroom breaks, and food before even attempting to go back.

Chapter 20


John tossed the ball over his shoulder as he followed Christina into the house and to the kitchen.

Christina filled two glasses with water and handed one to John as she pushed herself up to the counter…John stood next to her leaning against her legs and the bare skin rubbed against his forearms…Christina’s senses were heightened when John’s arm brushed against her leg and she stared at his back…His baseball cap was on backwards and he was shirtless in his cargo jean shorts…She couldn’t help but admire his shirtless back and shoulders…She’d admire his chest if he had been facing her.

She pulled his hat off his head and he turned around and gave her that cute glare he’d used on TV…Christina pulled his hat on her head as she hopped down from the counter…and faced John and said, “Guess what?” John said, “What?”

He watched as she moved closer to him…he was so close, he could just lean down and kiss her…Christina bit her lip and said, “I think you’re all wet.” He was thinking dirty thoughts but wasn’t about to say something to earn him a slap…so he just said, “How?” Christina pulled on the belt of his shorts and dumped the cold water from her glass down the front of his jean shorts and said, “That’s how…” As she took off out the back door.

Marc and Trina watched as Christina ran out of the house laughing…They had been rough housing since the football game took an intermission…Then suddenly saw John run out of the house and stopped at the ice chest and pulled out a couple of bottles of water…as he took off after Christina…They noticed the front of his shorts was soaked like he’d peed himself…

After running from John for a good 10 minutes…she was getting tired…and stopped. That would be the time John grabbed her and dumped the bottles of water on her. After a few minutes of wrestling back and forth with Marc and Trina. John’s father went over and hosed all four of them down with the house hose.

It was a good thing they all brought a spare change of clothes. They all got dried off and changed into dry clothes…Most of the other family members had left but since the four of them were going to stay the night and watch movies with John’s parents…they weren’t really going anywhere. A few hours later…they’d gotten through a couple of movies and Christina had volunteered to make popcorn so she was gliding her way through the kitchen…John walked in to check on her and he said, “How are you feeling?” Christina turned and smiled and said, “Not too bad.”

John moved a piece of stray hair from Christina’s face and said, “You look tired.” Chris nodded and said, “I feel a little tired…I’ve never had so much fun…Just running around and doing stupid stuff all day…Acting like a child…playing football with you guys and the water fight was fun.” John said, “For whom? I’m the one that got ice cold fridge water down the front of my shorts…Thanks.” Christina couldn’t help but laugh and said, “Oh c’mon you enjoyed it…you know it…It’s the most action you’ve seen for a while.”

As she walked out of the kitchen with two bowls of popcorn and when went back in for more. John was still standing there with his mouth open…She said, “You do a great impression of a fish.” She started to walk away again, when John’s hand on her arm stopped her. He turned her to face him as he took the bowls of popcorn from her and set them on the counter and turned back to her.

John cupped Christina’s face and leaned down and captured her lips. When they separated Christina said, “That was…nice.” John could tell by the tone of her voice and said, “But?” Christina said, “But…I’m not ready for a relationship yet John…I’ve only been cleared of caner for 2 months…I don’t even have all my strength back…As much as I want to continue what you just made very clear to me…I want to get my health at 100 percent before I jump into something that I’m not ready for.”

John said, “No, I fully agree…It’s just…I’ve been wanting to kiss you since that day at the house when we got into a fight and I dumped your meds…Don’t ask me why then, cause even I don’t know.” Christina smiled and said, “Well…Hell, you kiss me like that every time…and you can kiss me when ever you want to.” John couldn’t help it as he pulled her closer and kissed her again.

Pulling away they grabbed the popcorn and Christina said, “Any more of those kisses and it we could very well get ourselves into trouble…But I’m willing to risk it.” John just smiled as he shut the light off and followed Chris into the living room to resume movies…Hopeful about a dating future with Christina.

Chapter 21


A couple of weeks later, Christina was sitting at home on a Sunday Night. She’d watched the PPV and was cleaning up the house busy worrying about John…She’d seen the I quit match he had that night and he was so tore up it wasn’t funny…From top to bottom he was covered in blood. Not just his own but the other guys as well too…John Bradshaw Layfield.

Christina was fighting the urge to call and check up on John…She was walking down the stairs to go do a load of laundry when she heard the front door clothes as she looked over she saw John standing there with his bloody clothes on he dropped his bag on the ground. Christina’s eyes met John’s as she took off down the stairs and tossed her laundry basket to the side…She ran over to John and threw her arms around him.

John held onto Christina and said, “I told you not to watch.” Christina sniffled and said, “I’m sorry, I couldn’t help it…I turned the TV off about 15 times…but I kept coming back to turn it back on.” John said, “Are you okay?” Christina stepped away and took in his appearance…And said, “You’re asking me that…when you’re covered in head to toe blood.” John said, “Well yea…I just want to make sure.”

Christina held out her hand and John took it as she led him upstairs into the bathroom and started the shower for him. She looked at him and tugged his sweatshirt and t-shirt off, and he kicked his shoes and socks off and she handed him a couple of towels and said the toss his jean shorts and boxers out the door and she’d wash it all.

Christina left the bathroom and John stripped down and handed her his things with the door between them as he stepped into the shower and let the nights events wash down the drain. Christina started the load of laundry and then made her way back upstairs.

As she was about to walk by the bathroom…the door flew open and John stepped out and actually looked more like himself…well if looking more like himself meant he had water drops running down his chest with a white towel secured around his waist…Then sure, he looked more like himself. Christina looked up and said, “C’mon you’re bandage is soaked.” She took his hand and led him into her bedroom where her bathroom was and sat him on the toilet lid as she gently pulled the bandage off…And made a face.

John smiled softly and said, “What?” Christina said, “It looks awful…” She walked over and pulled a q-tip out with peroxide and cleaned the stitches up and then put liquid band aid on it and held his head still as she leaned down and blew across the wet liquid to dry it faster. She stood up straight and said, “There…That will hold better then a band aid and you can shower and won’t have to worry about it getting wet.” John stood up and said, “Thanks Chris.”

Christina looked up from her hands and finally noticed how close John was to her…She smiled softly and said, “I’m glad you’re okay…The match looked really bad.” John said, “I told you not to watch it for a reason…I knew you’d worry.” Christina smiled and said, “Yea, but I wouldn’t be me if I didn’t worry at least a little.”

Christina looked down and noticed he had some purple and blue bruises forming around his ribs…her hands slowly went out and touched his discolored skin…John sucked in a breath…He loved feeling her hands on his body…the skin on skin contact was something that always got to him. Her soft fingers and hands were caressing him. John couldn’t stand it anymore as he leaned down and captured her lips. John’s arm went around her waist as he pulled her closer to his body.

Chapter 22


John lifted Christina into his arms as he carried her into her bedroom after making sure the door was closed and locked, he slowly laid down on the bed next to her.

Christina leaned over and kissed him…and surprisingly enough he kissed her back…his hand went to her hip and then around her waist and pulled her closer…John’s hand slid down her thigh to the back of her knee…and he pulled her leg around his thigh…and was rubbing the back of her thigh as the kissing got a little more intense…John’s hand traveled up the back of her panties to her booty…his hand was so warm on her skin…Christina was running her fingers through his hair…

John rolled over until he was situated half on her and half off of her…his free hand slowly crept up her body to the bottom of her bra, undoing the clasp…and he slowly started sliding it off…he looked up at her and just stared at her eyes like he was asking permission to remove her bra…Christina smirked a little and then nodded her approval of him removing her bra…so he finished sliding it all the way up and off her arms…he tossed it next to the bed…the first thing her now naked cold breasts came in contact with was his warm chest…her nipples were hard enough to cut out someone’s eye…but soon softened up under his body heat…

John started to slowly lick and kiss his way down her neck across her collar bone, and down in the valley between her breast…then soon started a full out assault on her nipples, lick, sucking, nipping between his teeth but not too hard…just enough to get her aroused by it…which she will admit…it was working. Then he kissed and licked down to her navel where he pulled on her navel ring with his teeth for a few minutes…and then went a little lower…he was placing kisses all along her hips, legs, knees, calves, then went back up and grabbed the string of her panties that was across one of her hips with his teeth and started pulling them off with his teeth…and dispose of them…

His erection had been present the whole time…Christina could feel it being rubbed all over her body any time he moved…John crawled back up to face her…and he pushed her knees apart…Christina’s hands slowly slid down his body as she gripped the towel that had been placed around his hips after his shower and she pulled it loose from his body and dropped it to the floor…

John looked at her with smoke filled blue eyes and in the sweetest softest voice he said, “Christina…Tell me you want this too…Please…Tell me what you want.” Christina moaned as her warm breath caught John on the side of the neck and she said, “I want you…Please John…I want you inside of me.”

John positioned his the head of his erection at the opening of her wet center…and he kissed her as he started sliding his erection into her…Christina could feel her walls expanding and expanding…John took one of her hands and laced their fingers together…as he slowly pushed himself all the way into her...he could tell by how tight she was, she hadn’t had sex in a long time.

Once John had sheathed himself all the way in her…he laid there perfectly still for a few minutes, letting her get used to his size…He slowly started moving in and out of her…She was moaning when he’d push in from all the pleasure…and groan when he’d pull out, cause she felt empty…

Pretty soon, John grabbed her hips and rolled them over to where Christina was sitting straddled on him and he said, “Ride me baby.” Christina smiled and that’s exactly what she started doing…John had a firm grip on her hips…helping her glide up and down his erection…Christina leaned down and kissed him and he sat up while still working her up and down him…John wrapped his arms around her and said, “Jesus…girl you are tight…” John growled a little and said, “Damn, baby, you feel so good on me…it feels like you were made especially for me…” Christina said, “Well…Maybe I was…”

Christina threw her head back and her long hair trickled over John’s arms…as his one hand found her butt and was trying to pull her closer…as if that could happen…you couldn’t have gotten a single strand of hair between them as it was…then he suddenly stood up with her still on him and moved around and laid back down with her under him again…Christina wasn’t complaining…she liked him being between her thighs…John’s thrusts were getting harder, faster and definitely deeper…much, much deeper…Christina was going crazy out of her mind…

John could feel her walls starting to shutter around him….tightening and releasing…and he knew her obviously building orgasm was approaching fast…he started going deeper…Christina thought if he went much deeper…he’d never find his way out with out a wet suit and a mining helmet…

Christina started grinding her hips into his as his thrusts were so wonderful…John said, “That’s it…c’mon…just let yourself go…I want you to cum for me…c’mon Chris…I want to hear you cum for me…c’mon baby girl.” Christina said, “Oh god JJJJJooooohhhhhhnnnnn.” As she called his name her climax hit her…which as soon as he felt her release…he soon followed and growled out a furious climax as well…as she felt him explode deep inside of her…

John didn’t collapse on top of her…cause he didn’t want to crush her…he pulled out and laid next to her…pulling her over and Christina laid her head on his chest, listening to his breathing and heart beating slow down…as hers slowed down with his…They both ended up falling asleep.

Chapter 23


- -5 Months Later- -

Christina was slowly waking up and should feel a hand on her outer thigh moving…It slowly moved up across her bottom to her waist as her eyes slowly fluttered open as she noticed John’s blue eyes staring back at her…

John leaned over and pushed his forehead against Christina’s and said, “What the hell did we do last night?” Christina laughed and said, “What you don’t remember?” As her laughter filled the bedroom.

The night before everyone in the house had gone out and celebrated Cali’s birthday and engagement to the doctor.

John scoffed and said, “Yea obviously.”

As he leaned in and captured her lips. John nearly came unglued when Christina moaned into his mouth. John slowly pulled back and looked at Christina and said, “Maybe we should get up, before we can’t.” Christina’s hands slowly slid up his stomach and abs as she kissed his lips softly and said, “Why? I’m content staying here all day.”

John looked at her and said, “You really are…aren’t you? I’ve never seen you this relaxed before.” Christina said, “It’s not often when we can relax like this.”

John couldn’t help but agree with her as he rolled over onto his back as he stretched out and was suddenly aware he was still naked under the sheets…he looked over and noticed Christina was looking at him and that she also had on black lace shorts and a matching tank top.

John laughed and said, “When did you get dressed?” Christina smiled and stifled a laugh and said, “I had to pee in the middle of the night…As soon as the cold hit me, I knew I needed something on…Besides it’s just my panties and tank top…I always sleep in it.”

John turned over on his sides as he gripped Christina’s hips and pulled her closer to him and said, “Yea but now you look so sexy, I’m gonna have to get you naked again.” As he started kissing on her neck as she started laughing, because he was tickling her neck.

A few hours later they both decided to finally get up. John sat in the living room with his jean shorts and socks on and a blue t-shirt. Soon Christina followed him down the stairs, but was on her cell phone talking with Derek and Sam about making it home okay, but John not remembering anything from the night before. John could hear them laughing on the cell and shook his head as he was flipping through the ESPN channels…trying to find anything about his damn Boston teams.

Christina was laughing when she heard a guttural growl come from John as he was trying to find the station he wanted…She hung up only to have her cell ring a second later…It had been Cali…she was talking frantically and told her to find a news channel and fast…there was something there she’d want to see…and NOW.

Christina hung up and leaned over the couch and took the remote from John as she stood there watching the news about a man named Jerry Wellington…who was the owner of the NFL’s New York Giants…He’d died in his sleep from a heart attack…Christina could feel the tears brimming on her eyes lids. John got up and stepped over the back of the couch and touched her hand…

Christina looked over at John and he said, “What is it? Who is that guy?” Christina blinked as the tears slid down her cheeks slowly…It pained John to see her like that…but he wasn’t sure what to do. Christina wiped the stray tears away and said, “That’s my step-father…” John pulled her into his arms and let her cry…she needed it…

Part of her life time nightmare was over…but in some ways that no body knew about…A new nightmare was just about to begin.

Chapter 24

Standing in the cemetery, Christina was far enough away from the funeral cade that she couldn’t be seen. She had on black satin pants and black open toed heels. Plus a white satin blouse and a black long knee length sweater with a hood which she had up…New York was cold this time of year…even though the sun was out it was getting close to winter…

She stood under the tree with her arms folded in front of her chest, her dark black sunglasses hiding her red blood shot eyes…she couldn’t hear what the minister was saying, but she could see her mother crying…she knew it was a distinct possibility that her mother never loved her biological father.

Christina looked over in the same cemetery and saw the lone tombstone with the last name Welch across it. A few more tears slid down her cheeks as she thought about how much she missed her father…he’s been gone for 14 years now…and it still felt like she’d lost him yesterday. The drunk driver who’d taken his life was still doing his time up at New York State Prison.

Christina saw the people slowly giving her grieving mother their sympathy as they slowly walked back to their vehicles and left. Christina said a silent prayer as she walked over and knelt down in front of her biological father’s grave. A few minutes later a voice said, “Excuse me do you know Christopher Welch?” Christina recognized the voice as she stood from the ground and as she turned around let her hood down from her head and pulled her hair out and said, “I should…He was my father.”

Christina was staring back at Nancy, her mother who had a shocked look on her face…Like she was never expecting to see her own flesh and blood daughter again. Her mother said, “Christina?” Chris said, “Nope…The Easter bunny…her body was just my disguise.” Nancy scoffed in disgust and said, “I’m in no mood for your smart mouth Christina…I buried my husband today.”

Christina said, “Yea I saw it on the news and decided to come pay my respects to the deceitful old bastard.” Nancy stood their in shock and said, “You came to be a hateful person Christina there’s no reason to be that way…Don’t you even have a hug for your mother.” Christina scoffed and laughed a little then said, “I would if my mother was here. But since she’s not…I came to pay my respects to my real father and well…to that asshole in the ground over there.” Nancy said, “You’re still my daughter Christina.”

Christina laughed and said, “You’re kidding right? No you can’t act this dumb and forget everything…It’s only been 3 ½ years Nancy. My real mother Nancy Welch was a loving caring person and when my father Christopher Welch died…I think she went ahead and died right along with him. You’re not my mother because she had me declared legally dead, because her bastard of a second husband convinced her I was lying to her.”

Christina sighed and said, “But you see something Nancy…I ain’t dead…on the contrary…I’m about as alive as one person could be. I’m happy with my life…And you’ll never know who I became because you screwed up the old part of my life…The new part of my life doesn’t involve you. And after the way you treated me…How could anyone blame me.”

Nancy said, “I’m sorry you feel that way Chris.”

Christina said, “Don’t call me Chris like were old friends or even acquaintances…because were not…were nothing…You’re nothing to me, just like I was nothing to you…I came to you 3 ½ years ago…and poured my heart out to you…I was hand cuffed to a bed and raped for 3 days straight…3 DAYS! You have NO clue what that feels like…to be used and abused by someone I considered my family…and Jerry just turned around and turned you against me…and you just blew me off in court…You just walked away…from me…Your own flesh and blood…off to join your rich dick of a husband just cause you wanted the money more then you wanted your own daughter.”

Christina wiped her tears as she pulled out a bunch of folded up papers…and said, “Well…you got your money…except now I can get mine…I went to your attorney yesterday and handed him the one thing that proved I was Christopher Welch’s daughter…My birth certificate…in some ways you’re as stupid as you ever was MOM…The money in my trust fund was transferred to my bank in Massachusetts…and in tomorrows New York Post…and every other Newspaper from here to Hawaii will have the story of Nancy Wellington, widow of Christopher Welch and his business partner Jerry Wellington. And how she maliciously had her daughter declared dead for 3 ½ years just so she couldn’t get her trust fund.”

Nancy held her chest and said, “You wouldn’t…I’m your mother!”

Christina said, “No you’re not my mother…You might have been at one point…but Dr. Christina Welch doesn’t have a mother…Her mother died in the same car accident as her father.”

Christina pulled the hood back up and said, “It was nice meeting you Nancy Wellington…Let’s not meet again like this in the future.”

A smirked played on Christina’s lips as she walked away to get in the Lincoln Navigator that John was waiting for her in…She got in and John said, “Are you ok?” Christina smiled softly and said, “No…But I will be now.”

Chapter 25


A couple of weeks later, John and Christina had been together officially 6 months and were laying on the bed in each others arms talking and just enjoying each others company. John took both of Christina’s hands in his as he rolled them over and situated himself between her legs as she wrapped them around his waist. John let go of her hands and was propped up on his elbows as they were talking about her day at the hospital.

John was shirtless and Christina was tracing patterns on John’s left shoulder and right forearm as she was talking with him as he listened intently to her. John loved her little idiosyncrasies when she was talking and would start absentmindedly doing things to his skin with her finger tips.

Christina said, “Ey yo…53 kids in 8 hours…that has be some kind of world record…The flu is going around so bad and those poor kids were so miserable. I had to admit some of them to the hospital cause they had fevers spiking over 104…I felt so bad for the poor things…I just wanted to bring them home and help make them better.”

John said, “You did what you could for them baby…You can’t heal the world…Only the patients you see day to day.” He leaned down and lifted her t-shirt a little and kissed her navel. Christina pulled his backwards hat off and tossed it to the side of the bed and touched the band aid on his head where the 10 stitches were…as she cringed inwardly and said, “How’s your head?”

John said, “Still hard as ever…It’s okay, nothing is damaged that can’t repair itself…I promise.” Christina started to sit up as John backed up and sat on his knees…Each one of Christina’s long legs were draped over one of his thighs…She reached up and brought John’s head forward as she softly kissed over the band aid.

John’s hands slid up and pulled her tank top off and he helped her wiggle out of her shorts and panties as his hands slid under her read-end and picked her up and she rapped her legs around his waist as he moved his legs from behind him to in front of him as he sat Indian style with her. He could feel her hands working inside of his jean shorts and boxers going for what they both craved at the moment…sexual release.

John kissed along her neck and jaw line as he felt her free his erection…he lifted her slightly and almost as if his erection had a mind of it’s own as soon as he was putting her back down his hard on slid right into her. Both moaning at the contact. John slowly pushed off from the bed as he walked her over to the wall.

John grabbed her hands and held them against the wall as he started thrusting in and out of her body, listening to her moaning...Begging him to go faster, deeper and harder. John couldn’t stop himself as he started snapping his hips forward and slamming into her warm welcoming body. As fast as the sex session had started it ended just as fast with them both crying out when their orgasms swept over them.

John pressed his forehead against Christina’s and said, “I love you Chris.” Christina caught her breath and said, “I love you too John.”

Naturally their moment had to be ruined when the door bell rang. John placed Christina on her feet and kissed her lips softly and said, “You expecting someone?” Christina suddenly felt the blush creep into her cheeks and said, “I completely forgot your mom was supposed to come by today and bring me some of your baby pictures.”

John started laughing…He couldn’t help it. He watched as Christina flew around the room pulling her panties and shorts back on and the yanked on her tank top and smacked him in the ass a good one as he laughed…She was like…I think you should fix yourself before you go down to see your mother.” John looked down and hadn’t noticed when he stood up from the bed his shorts and boxers had fallen down around his ankles.

John laughed some more as he pulled his pants up and watched Chris take off out the door and bounded down the steps, John hot on her heels. She got 6 steps from the door and John jumped over the banister and got to the door before her and opened it. Christina slid under John’s arm and John grabbed her waist to keep her from falling.

They were both laughing…and John stopped once he saw Christina’s laughter had stopped. John looked over to the gentleman on the other side of the threshold and he said, “Is there something we can do for Mr…?”

Christina said, “Jack Wellington…”

Chapter 26


Christina stood there in front of John staring at her step-brother…John said, “Jack Wellington…You mean…He’s the guy who…” Before John could finish his sentence he tried to push past Christina but she was expecting it as she planted her feet on the floor and her hands gripped the door frame. Jack took a couple of steps back.

Christina pushed back against John as did a quick turn around as she put her hands against John’s chest and started pushing as hard as she could…He wasn’t moving too much but she got him back at least a foot and closed the door and said, “John…It won’t solve anything. He’s got enough money to bury you in court and jail if you touched him…It’s not worth it…I’m gonna go tell him to get the hell out of here…you go calm down please.”

Why, you wanna tell me how to live my life
Who, are you to tell me if it's black or white
Mama, can you hear me? Try to understand
Is innocence the difference between a boy and a man
My daddy lived the lie, it's just the price that he paid
Sacrificed his life, just slavin' away

John looked at Christina’s pleading eyes as he kissed her forehead softly and said, “I’ll be in my room if you need something.” Christina nodded and leaned up and kissed his cheek and said, “Thank you my white knight.” As she winked at him and turned and went out the door.

John didn’t like letting her go alone with the same creep who raped her with his 3 friends…but he knew what ever demons she had to face she had to do it alone. John rubbed the back of his head and neck and headed upstairs and decided to shower first and then would lay across his bed…and let Christina come to him.

Meanwhile outside, Christina walked over to the black stretch limo where Jack was standing with his hands in his pockets, and she said, “I don’t know what the hell you’re trying to pull by being here Jack…But I suggest you leave…I paid my respects to your father at his funeral…I don’t owe him you or Nancy anything else…I lost 2 years of my life because of you, Byron, Tim, Henry and Nick…I’m not about to let you come walking back in to try and fuck with me more.”

Jack smirked as he walked over and stood so close to her she could smell the alcohol on his breath, the cologne on his neck and shampoo he used in his hair as he said, “C’mon Christina…you know you enjoyed that as much as we did…I mean I always wanted to try incest…why not on my step-sister…she was and still is a hot piece of ass.”

Ohh, if there's one thing I hang onto
That gets me through the night
I ain’t gonna do what I don't want to
I'm gonna live my life
Shining like a diamond, rolling with the dice
Standing on the ledge, show the wind how to fly
When the world gets in my face
I say…Have A Nice Day
Have A Nice Day

Christina said, “Yea…I loved it so much that you had to handcuff me to the fuckin bed to enjoy it. I’m warning you…Stay away from me, or you’ll wish you had.” Jack walked around her and smelled the air around her and said, “I bet your fucking the big guy huh…You smell of pussy juice…of course I’ve smelled you before…that’s your own smell…So I’m willing to bet you had to give macho man in there a nice piece of pussy so he’ll continue to let you live in his house…otherwise you’d still be living on the street with your 3 trailer trash friends.”

Christina couldn’t believe how much he knew about her…but then again…for some reason…she really wasn’t surprised at all. Jack stood to the side of her, she was biding her time as his hand cupped her breast and then ran down and groped her panty and shorts covered crotch and said, “What do you say for old time sake, I bend you over the trunk and give that pussy of yours a nice stretching…of course if macho man there has stretched you out too much…Maybe I’ll have to drill my way into that cut ass of yours…I’ve always wanted to try anal sex with someone…who better then you.” As he groped her ass.

Take a look around you, nothings what it seems
We're living in a broken home of hopes and dreams
Let me be the first to shake a helping hand
Anybody, brave enough to take a stand
I knocked on every door, on every dead end street
Looking for forgiveness
what's left to believe

Christina looked at Jack and said, “You know what your problem is right now Jack?” Jack scoffed and said, “No but I’m sure you’re going to tell me…” Christina turned to face him and said, “You didn’t handcuff me this time.”

All of a sudden she pulled back her arm and punched him right in the nuts…as he was groaning forward she brought her knee up and slammed it into his face as hard as she could. And he flew back and landed on his back as blood poured out of his nose while he was holding his crotch.

Christina stood over him and said, “I’m not some little girl who took your shit back then…I let you use me once…You will NOT do it again…I refuse to let you…Now get your sorry ass off this property or I swear to GOD…I’ll let John come out here and beat the fuck out of you while I call the police and have you arrested for trespassing. And if you come back again…What you got today will be nothing compared to what will happen next time…I SWEAR on it.”

Ohh, if there's one thing I hang onto
That gets me through the night
I ain't gonna do what I don't want to
I'm gonna live my life
Shining like a diamond, rolling with the dice
Standing on the ledge, show the wind how to fly
When the world gets in my face
I say…Have A Nice Day
Have A Nice Day

She walked away and back into the house and closed, locked the door and set the alarm…she watched from the window as Jack got up slowly and limped back to his limo.

John got out of the shower and got redressed and went into his room and Christina was laying across his bed…she’d fallen asleep…He couldn’t help but feel bad…The stuff that had to of been going through her mind as he slowly slipped into bed and without moving her or saying anything she rolled over and buried her face in his chest as he wrapped his arms around her…as he let sleep take over his body.

Ohh, if there's one thing I hang onto
It gets me through the night
I ain’t gonna do what I don't want to
I'm gonna live my life
Shining like a diamond, rolling with the dice
Standing on the ledge, show the wind how to fly
When the world gets in my face
I say…Have A Nice Day
Have A Nice Day

When The world keeps trying
To drag me down
I've gotta raise my hands
Gonna stand my ground
I say…Have A Nice Day
Have A Nice Day

Chapter 27


A couple of weeks later, John was sitting outside waiting for Christina too get off work, cause as usual the Cena and Predka clans were doing the barbeque thing at his parents place. And for once he wasn’t showing up before everyone else…he was waiting for the one thing that seemed to make sense in his Movie making, rap artist thriving, wrestling career. If nothing else made sense then at least Christina and him being together did.

They were from two separate worlds…He was a hoodrat from the streets of Massachusetts who’d made a career out of throwing people around the professional wrestling ring…and she was a sophisticated lady who came from money, had it all taken away from her, but remained the only intelligent life form other then her father to come from the Welch family…Who made herself into a Pediatric doctor.

John had been in the garage filling up the cooler with water, because he and Christina weren’t big on drinking at the BBQ’s anymore because when they would run around while playing football…Beer in the stomach never had a good effect…so they stuck with water. John popped the back gate on his Lincoln Navigator and then dropped the tailgate as he lifted the cooler into the back and slid it in.

John heard a car door close…he figured it was Christina finally getting home, but when he turned around he was faced with Jack Wellington.

John said, “What? You didn’t get enough of an ass beating from Chris last time, so you decided to come piss me off and we can have 12 rounds of throw down?”

Jack held up his hands and said, “Look…I just wanted to come get my wife…I’m tired of her missing from my life.”

John stopped in his tracks and said, “What did you just say?”

Jack smirked on the inside, but kept a straight face the entire time and said, “I just came to get my wife back…She disappeared 3 ½ years ago…I figured she just needed to blow off some stem…Which it had been normal for her and her 3 delinquent friends to pose as homeless people in a junky ass hotel in New York…for weeks at a time. And when she didn’t come back right away, I went looking for her…I had a dozen people looking for her…But I never found her.”

John said, “How is it possible you two are married?”

Jack said, “Naturally My father is married to her mother…We’d dated secretly…but when our parents found out we had to tell them we had fallen in love…and it just happened. So we got married. I never thought I was going to see her again…Then she showed up for my father funeral…and I figured I’d get her back at last…but when I came here two weeks ago…I wanted to bring her back then or get her to sign divorce papers…but she got violent and I figured I’d leave and come back when it was a better time.”

John wasn’t sure what his face read. He wasn’t sure if he was shocked or hurt…He didn’t know what to think or feel…It had been 30 minutes since Jack came over and pleaded his case and left…John heard the front door to the house open as he broke from his thoughts and saw Christina walk into the house…She looked completely defeated…Obviously she’d had an insane day.

Wait a damn minute…What the hell was John thinking…She’d been lying to him all this time…she was married to Jack…he’d never raped her…she lied about the entire thing and what made it worse was that Cali, Sam and Derek were in on it too…John thought he was helping them off the streets and here they were all lying to him about their lives and pasts.

They all had to of been sitting back having a really nice hard laugh at John’s expense…

John stood up from the couch as Christina walked towards him and said, “Hey sweetie…Gimmie 3 minutes to shower and change and I’ll be ready to head over to your parents.” She kissed his cheek and disappeared upstairs. John didn’t say anything…What the hell could he say?

True to her word 3 minutes later, she was lacing her fingers with his and pulling him out the front door in her jeans and a blue halter top with socks and sneakers on.

They got to his parents place and the whole time John was supposed to be playing football, he was really watching Christina with Cali and her fiancée doctor laughing it up on the back porch. John couldn’t take it anymore…every time he saw her laugh, he just felt like she was laughing at him…John walked out of the game as he walked onto the porch, grabbed Christina’s hand and pulled her behind him into the kitchen.

Christina came to an abrupt stop as John whipped around and said, “I had an interesting visitor tonight before you got home.” Christina said, “Okay?” Not sure where John was going with this. John said, “Jack Wellington…Why don’t you tell me the story you’ve got with Jack.” Christina said, “I told you the whole story the 2nd day I knew you…What else is to tell?” John said, “Oh I don’t know…how about the fact you’re fuckin’ married to him?”

Chapter 28


Christina was taken back by John’s raised voice and said, “Are you high John? Because only someone who is stoned would ask a woman if she was married to the man who raped her with his friends…Have you completely lost your mind John!”

Christina had a hold of John’s arms and he jerks his arms away from her and said, “I haven’t lost my mind, but I’m close to realizing now why it was so easy to get you to leave New York and sell moving to Massachusetts to you…You were trying to get away from Jack…” Christina said, “Of course I was trying to get away from him…I was running from a lot of things if you hadn’t noticed John…My life was a total fuck up since that fuckin prick and his father came into my life…Why on earth would you believe something Jack told you over me?”

John said, “He was awful convincing…I have to tell you…the look on his face when he stood there and looked in my eyes and said all he wanted was his wife back…He wasn’t lying…he wasn’t even bluffing.” Christina said, “It’s called a poker face John…Has no one ever used one on you before? Jack Wellington is the poster child, President and CEO for Bullshitters Anonymous. He can stand here and look in your eyes and tell you a bullshit story like it was no bodies business. He should be a lawyer or a politician because he has a Bachelor’s Degree in Lying.”

John stayed quiet as he just looked at Christina trying to determine is she was lying or if it was Jack who was lying.

Christina knew what his silence meant…John believed Jack…all the way…Christina ran a shaky hand through her hair and said, “I don’t believe this…You think he’s telling the truth and that I’ve been lying to you all along…right? Its true isn’t…ISN’T IT? You think I’ve done nothing but lie to you for nearly 2 years, because you found me on the streets…and because Jack came to you as some kind of standup lonely heart guy…you believe ever word of his lie to you.”

John watched as Christina blinked and tears slowly slid down her face…Christina said, “I can’t believe you…After all the time it took me to fully trust you, you stood by me during the cancer and when I went back to school for my degree…there was no one who was cheering me on louder then you…be it at home or over the phone when you was on the road…”

Christina sniffled trying to control the tears…but it wasn’t working as she continued, “All the time I spent letting you in my life and becoming your friend and then even now falling in love with you…You’re looking at me like I’m a piece of garbage and I love you…God help me I do…But I don’t want to be with you anymore…Not if you don’t know how to put your full trust into someone who has done nothing but love you. I refuse to let you treat me like I’m nothing, because a monster from my past came out of nowhere and lied to you and then just disappeared back into nowhere.”

Christina held her hand out and said, “Key’s.” John looked at her and started to say something when Christina said, “Give me the fuckin keys…I’m taking myself back to you place and getting my things and I’m getting myself out of the fucked up house…”

John said, “I don’t want you to leave…And I want to believe you.” Chris said, “Oh…You want to believe me…How fuckin generous of you…I don’t have to prove anything to you…NOTHING…” John placed the keys in her hand and as she started to walk out the front door she stopped and turned back to John and said, “Oh by the way…I suggest you practice safe sex John…Go fuck yourself.”

John watched as she walked out the door…letting it close behind her. John walked over and watched her out the window…He watched as she got in the navigator and broke down against the steering wheel…John was suddenly aware the old saying was true…

Sad eyes never lie.

Christina left notes for Cali, Sam and Derek…She cleared out her entire room of her clothing in a bunch of matching suit cases she’d gone and bought after she left John’s parents house…packing everything in 3 big suitcases…Clothing in two and shoes in the 3rd one. The only stuff left was the bed, dresser and night stand that had been there when she moved in.

She packed down her convertible Mustang while she had the top down…She had stopped by the hospital and talked with her supervisor briefly and he was very understanding with everything she’d requested as she hit the freeway and started driving. She couldn’t help but start crying…Once again Jack had managed to fuck up her life…She was curious as to when she could be fully allowed to live her life the way she wanted to…Apparently the time wasn’t now.

I know somebody
And they cry for you
They lie awake at night
And dream of you
I bet you never even know they do
But somebody's crying
I know somebody
And they called your name
A million times
And still you never came
They go on loving you just the same
I know that somebody's trying

So please, return the love you took from me
Or please, let me know if it can't be me, I know when
Somebody's lying,
I know when somebody's lying

I know that somebody's lying
I know that somebody's lying
Give me a sign
And let me know we're through
If you don't love me
Like I love you
But if you cry at night the way I do
I'll know that somebody's lying

So please, return the love you took from me
Or please, let me know if it can't be me
I know when somebody's lying
I know when somebody's lying
Oh I, oh I......

Chapter 29


It had been 6 months since Christina fell off the face of the earth…At least to John that’s what had happened. He couldn’t find her anywhere…He’d even got to the hospital the following morning and asked for her, but her boss had said she’d asked for a transfer out of state and that she was probably on her way there.

You never looked so good
As you did last night
Underneath those city lights
There walking with your friend
Laughing at the moon
I swear you looked right through me
But I'm still livin' with your goodbye
And you're just goin' on with your life

Cali had all but ripped John a new asshole for the way he’d treated Christina…of course naturally she had to rub salt in the wound as she explained about her getting pregnant from the guys who raped her and her brother beat the shit out of her so bad she lost the baby, which was the definite turning point to where John now understood exactly why Christina didn’t want to be found by anyone in her family.

John was sitting at his kitchen table going through and paying his bills…he’d come across an envelope with nothing but his name across the front of it…which he thought was stranger, cause most of the fans didn’t have his home address…He couldn’t imagine what it was as he opened the envelope and looked inside of it.

How can you just walk on by
Without one tear in your eye
Don't you have the slightest
Feelings left for me
Maybe that's just your way
Of dealing with the pain
Forgetting everything
Between our rise and fall
Like we never loved at all

There was something in it as John pulled it out…He felt his heart drop into his stomach. It was a check for $5,600 to John from Christina…The memo on the bottom said ‘Re-payment of school tuition and books’. John didn’t know what to do with it…He didn’t want the money…He honestly didn’t want anything but Christina back in his arms. He pushed the check back into the envelope and stuffed it under the socks in his dresser.

Honestly what did he expect would happen after the way he’d treated her…?

You, I hear you're doin' fine
Seems like you're doin' well
As far as I can tell
Time is leaving us behind
Another week has passed
And still I haven't laughed yet
So tell me what your secret is
To letting go like you did, like you did

6 Months later, a year after Christina had left…She couldn’t stop herself from watching wrestling…more specifically John. She tried to stop herself so many times, but nothing was working. She’d even go out with her friends on Monday nights…but somehow in the middle of the night would get scared cause she’d miss seeing him and would excuse herself and drive all the way back home just so should wouldn’t miss Monday Night Raw.

As luck would have it…Raw came to Christina’s new home town Sacramento California. Christina had been working at UC Davis for the last year and couldn’t have been happier with the research hospital. Even when she was at work, she could never get John out of her mind. She was even dreaming of him…She felt pathetic. By all accounts she was too.

How can you just walk on by
Without one tear in your eye
Don't you have the slightest
Feelings left for me
Maybe that's just your way
Of dealing with the pain
Forgetting everything
Between our rise and fall
Like we never loved at all

Christina had her normal days off Sunday and Monday. She went to the Arden Mall in downtown Sacramento and was talking with a few cell phone dealers…her old cell was starting to go out and she was definitely in the market for a new one…She’d stopped to talk to a dealer when she heard a laugh that sounded extremely familiar. Christina turned and saw John and his friend Randy Orton walking through the mall carrying a couple of bags and signing autographs for the fans that had stopped them.

She watched them for a couple of minutes…And then John looked up and met her eyes. When he opened his mouth as if he was going to say something…Christina turned around and walked away…She’d left the mall after that…she couldn’t make herself stay there. Christina stopped by the hospital on her way home to pick up her schedule and then went home. She had a message on her answering machine, so as she kicked off her shoes and locked up the front door she hit play.

Did you forget the magic
Did you forget the passion
Did you ever miss me
Ever long to kiss me......

Maybe that's just your way
Of dealing with the pain
Forgetting everything
Between our rise and fall
Like we never all......

It was John’s voice…he said, “Hey Christina…I wish you wouldn’t have run off today…I know you’re really mad at me, and I can’t blame you for that…I have to blame myself all the way around…The whole thing was my fault, you leaving us fighting…me believing Jack was my first mistake…and I wish I could take it back…because if I had everything to do over I would’ve believed you…and not just because I know what it’s like being without you now…but because I love you…I loved you then and I still love you now…and from the bottom of my heart I’m sincerely sorry about the whole thing…I really hope some day you can forgive me…and I hope you come back to be…I doubt I have a prayers chance in hell…but can’t blame a guy for trying to get back the one thing in his life he loved more then his own life…Were leaving town tomorrow…I hope to hear from you in the near future…even though I don’t deserve a second chance…I would love one.”

The line went dead as Christina stared at the little black answering machine.

Chapter 30


Christina sat up straight in bed as she looked around her room…She looked at the clock and it was 5 am. She knew when John would be leaving for home usually the flight left at 5:30 or 6…depending on the airport and weather. She laid back down against her pillows.

Standing still but still moving
Lying down but not resting
Breathing air, suffocating
All the while, I'm debating

Life was never what I thought
Never what I wanted it to be

She desperately wanted to call John…Just call him and hear his voice…she’d practically worse the tape out on her answering machine listening to John’s message over and over and over again…She couldn’t get enough of his smooth deep voice. She CRAVED to hear it.

She thought back to everything that had happened in her life…Beginning with the rape from Jack and his friends…Obviously not one of her fondest memories…then of course there was sex with men for money to keep her and her 3 homeless friends alive…Definitely not one of her finer moments in life.

Had a plan, couldn't follow
Had a dream, it was hollow
Everywhere felt like nowhere
Everything was so boring

Life was never what I wanted
Never what I thought
Until you came and turned it all around

Oh, you found the piece of me
It was missing; it was broken
You put soul into it
Oh, you found the whole of me
I was empty, now I'm better
All my piece is back together

She turned onto her side and the red numbers from the clock were staring back at her the red glow was the only thing lighting the room. She could feel her breathing pick up…she closed her eyes trying to get her breathing and emotions under control.

‘Jesus Christ, Christina Marie Welch…Get yourself under control…He’s just a man’ She berated herself. She couldn’t believe she was letting some man she met off the streets effect her this much…He was nothing without her…she was everything with or without him…she had to keep reminding herself of that.

Restless ways for a living
Fitting in 'cause I was driven
Saying yes when I meant no
Holding on, should've let go

I was scattered all around
Left shattered on the ground
You picked me up

Christina finally couldn’t take it anymore as she jumped up from the bed and ran and jumped in the shower…She pulled on jeans, sneakers and a black hooded pull over sweatshirt. Yanking her hair into a ponytail as fast as she could. She took off out the door…she was driving through the streets of Sacramento as fast as she could without getting stopped for speeding.

It was a good thing it was early in the morning…Cops usually didn’t really hit the streets until 6 or 7…she looked down at the clock in her car and it read 5:47 am. The airport was only 10 blocks from her house, and for some reason she hit every green like in between. She parked as fast as she could and took off running into the airport. She ran over and found the only flight at 5:50 am, on American Airlines that would’ve been taking John to Boston, Massachusetts.

All I wanted was a little bit of hope
Couldn't find it
You showed me something
That I never knew I owned
You put a light to it

Oh, you found the piece of me
It was missing; it was broken
You put soul into it
Oh, you found the whole of me
I was empty, now I'm better
'Cause you pieced me back together

Christina was stopped and had to go through the metal detectors…the security guard said, “You don’t have bags miss? Are you getting on a flight?” Christina smiled and said, “No…If I’m extremely lucky…I’m gonna stop someone from getting on a flight.” The guard said, “Why would you do that?” Christina smiled and said, “Because I love him.” The guard gave her the go ahead and wished her luck as he watched her take off running.

Christina turned the corner and came to a stop…The wrestlers that were left were all sitting towards the middle of the seats of all the terminals. Christina stepped up onto one of the seats and looked through the guys and didn’t see him, she looked towards the American Airlines boarding counter and saw John standing in line…his jean cargo shorts, baseball jersey and hat. Backpack slung over his shoulder waiting for board.

Christina cupped her mouth and yelled, “JOHN!”

What a life…Always tried
What a life…Lived without you

Don't leave me
And I won't…fall apart
I won't leave you
And it's cold
And I'm blind
And I would
And it feels good

What a waste…On my mind
Every time…All the time

John heard someone call his name he turned around and looked and thought he was going to have a heart attack…Christina was stepping over the seats and chairs in the lobby trying to get to him. John stepped over the black velvet separator and tossed his bag to someone as he ran over to her. He stopped about 3 feet from her…She was breathing heavy like she’d just ran a marathon. John said, “What are you doing here?”

Christina jumped down off the seats and said, “I don’t care what Jack said to you…He died 4 months ago when he got hit by a drunk driver…I got the driver a really good lawyer and he plead out to involuntary manslaughter and is only doing 8 months on a work farm…Anyways…My point is…Since then I’ve been trying to convince myself I didn’t need you…That I could make it with or with out you…but the truth is…I don’t want to continue living without you…I don’t even want to convince myself anymore…I’m over the whole damn thing…John I love you so much that if you don’t touch me right now, I might die right here on this spot.”

John watched her blink as stray tears slid down her cheeks…He didn’t even need a second to think about it as he stepped forward and yanked her into his arms, holding her as close to him as he could listening to her cry telling him how much she loved him and missed him. John pushed her back and captured her lips. The other wrestlers standing around watching them couldn’t believe they’d finally made it back to each other…and couldn’t help but clap, whistle and cheer for them.

Ooh, Oh – oh, oh-oh
Oh – Oh
Yea, Yea-Yea
Oh Yea – yea
Oh, Oh- oh, oh-oh

Oh, you found the whole of me
It was missing; it was broken
You put it back together
Oh, you found the whole of me

I was empty, now I'm better
'Cause you pieced me back together

That was 6 months ago; John and Christina had since then got her moved back to Massachusetts with him and married immediately. They are expecting their first child in 7 months.

Laying in bed John said, “I never imagined I’d be married to a girl who had so many pieces of herself missing and broken.”

Christina said, “I was empty…Now I’m better, cause you pieced me back together."

The End.