It Was Missing; It Was
Broken
Chapter 1
Christina looked at herself in the mirror…Life was never what she
thought…Never what she wanted it to be.
She had on a red plaid skirt that barely came to mid-thigh with a black corset
that laced up the front with red laces. Her waist length red and black hair was
in tiny little braids…the black eye liner outlined her eyelids and eyes, with
the thick mascara, gave her green eyes the smoky effect she liked. She had in
her small red nose ring, and navel ring. Plus her 2 inch heeled lace up, knee
high combat boots.
She figured…Well this is as good as it’s gonna get. She sighed as her friend
Cali walked over and took her hand and they took off out of the abandoned
house…Meeting up with Sam and Derek down stairs they all headed out to the
nearest bar…hoping to either get someone to give them money or food.
The foursome had been living together the last 2 years on the streets of
Cali 25, had been forced into the streets when her and her boyfriend had come
to New York for vacation, but he was just going there to ditch her…He left the
hotel before she woke up one morning, with 50 bucks on the night stand…She
hadn’t left since…She had nowhere to go.
Derek and Sam both 23 and were both gay, and when their families had found out
about them being lovers, their families completely cut them off and they wound
up on the streets and met
Christina 25, on the other hand…Her story is a little more complicated. Her
parents were extremely wealthy…she was in her last year of medical school, when
her step brother and 3 of his friends raped her repeatedly one weekend…They
kept her hand cuffed to a bed naked…Her mom and step dad were out of the
country…When Christina had told them…Her Step brother denied the whole thing
and got his friends to lie about where they were…
Then her Step dad convinced her mother she was a liar and cancelled all the
tuition they’d paid for her college…She stayed until they literally threw her
out of the dorm…All she had was 1 backpack and 2 garbage bags full of her
clothes…most she’d sold for money for food. Usually she’d been able to work to
get food…but every once in a while she’d get a guy who wanted to have sex with
her for money.
Apparently tonight was no different. She could feel the guys hand on her inner
thigh before she even seen his face. She knew exactly what he wanted, and when
she turned around and saw him in a navy blue Armani suit…she knew he was
willing to pay big money. She told
After tossing the guy a condom, flashing her tits and ass, the guy did his
business with her…afterwards, she was getting ready to leave and he pulled her
over and slide what she thought was a 100 dollar bill in her bra as he pinched
her nipple one last time…but once she was outside…she pulled the cash out and
it wasn’t just 1, 100 bill…it was 10…the man gave her a thousand bucks…She
could only hope he’d be back next month.
As promised a couple hours later Christina walked through the door with 2
pizza’s and munchy foods, soda and water. She had a couple of pieces of pizza
and some water and bid her fellow friends G’night. She slipped her skirt off,
kicked her boots off, pulled her corset off and pulled on her sleep pants and
tank top…she leaned against the wall as she sat on the dirty mattress covered
with a couple of clean blankets and pillows…
She looked around the dark room only light with the moon light from outside.
She felt the tears sliding down her cheeks…every night was the same…she
should’ve been a doctor by now…she’d be in an apartment in Manhatten…working at
a practice or in a hospital…
Every time she thought about what her step brother did to her she got so mad
she couldn’t do anything but cry. She couldn’t wait for the day when a steady
job came around for her and her friends and they could get off the streets…She
knew she had piece’s of herself scattered all over New York. She was sure her
soul had left a long time ago.
Not sure where it was…but it was definitely missing.
Chapter 2
Different Night…Same old shit…Restless ways for a living…Saying yes
when she meant no.
Christina was with the Armani suit wearer again…Mitch…At least that’s what he
wanted her to call him…This had been the 4th month he’d been back to see her
again…Every time she left him, he’d given her a little bit more money…She’d
been keeping track and he’s given her at least 25,000 dollars so far…and he was
only having sex with her for an hour…two at the most. Tonight it was no
different as usual…He’s handed her the money…only this time, he’d offered to
take her home…Tonight was particularly bad weather…it had been pouring down
rain and windy all damn day.
Mitch really enjoyed her plaid skirts…tonight she had on royal blue plaid
pleated skirt with a matching tank top, her boots of course…on the drive to the
house the foursome had called home for the last 2 years…Mitch was rubbing her
thigh…as his hand slid further and he moved her panties and slid a couple of fingers
into her…She pushed her legs apart for him and moaned at the sensations flowing
through her body…He did like to make her make sexual noises.
He told her to slouch down in the car seat and put her feet on the dash
board…She did as requested…he slipped on finger out of her over worked sex as
he trailed it down further and was trying to push it into her anal
passage…She’d never even thought about trying anything like that…and he was
starting to hurt her…
She started trying to push his hand away from her…but he was stronger then
her…His finger slipped into her anal passage as she cried out in pain and
yelled for him to stop…He pulled his hand out and back handed her…she fell
against the window and felt blood trickle out of her nose and mouth…He pulled the
car into an alley and threw the car into park and grabbed her by the hair and
forced his tongue into her mouth putting his fingers back into both holes.
He pulled his tongue from her mouth he said, “Go ahead cry for me slut…You
should be use to being used like a fuck toy…I’ve paid you enough…If I wanna
finger your cunt you let me…If I wanna finger your asshole you let me…I fucked
your pussy enough and stretched it out…I’m tired of it feeling like a wet rag
around my cock…I want to fuck your ass…and I want to fuck it now.” He back
handed her a few more times…
Christina being a thinker 24/7…knew eventually he would try something like
this…she wasn’t stupid…she was prepared. Fully prepared. As he wasn’t watching
her hands she put them behind her back and pulled a pair of pliers out of her
purse…And not Just any pliers…Vise Grips…Which once clamped onto something they
locked into place…She noticed his free hand had been undoing his pants as he
pulled his erection out…
She found her opened and as fast as she could locked the vise grip pliers
around his erection…He screamed out in pain like a girl…While he was trying to
claw the vise grips off his pain filled penis, she kicked him in the face
grabbed his wallet and got the rest of his cash…grabbed her purse and got out
of the car…locking the doors. Once out…she pulled the screw driver out of her
purse and punctured two of his tires and took off running down the long alley
as fast as she could…It was a huge building of some kind…but she had no clue
where she was.
Somehow she was able to pick the lock of a back door with a couple of paper
clips and got inside…She was walking down the hallway soaking wet from head to
toe…shivering…She seen a bunch of black trunks lining the walls and couldn’t
imagine where she was…
Suddenly a loud clap of thunder hit…
She jumped and the lights in the whole building went out. She pulled her little
flashlight key chain out and walked down a little further and found an open
room…She walked in and it was empty with the exception of a few lockers. She
slid down the wall holding her knees to her chest as she figured she’d wait out
the storm and hoped the power would come back on.
Chapter 3
John looked at his cousin and his girlfriend Trina and shook his
head…They would both forget their brains if they weren’t planted in their
heads. They’d forgotten their bags at the arena. Naturally they had been too
busy playing kissy face to notice it until they had reached the hotel…so now
they were back at the arena.
John said, “If you two are finished…Let’s go in there and get your
shit…remember that…not my shit…I got all my shit….Your shit…And let’s get out
of here.” Marc Predka looked over and saw the pitch black arena and said, “I
think the storm knocked out the power.” Trina said, “I ain’t going in there
without a flash light.” John said, “Awww…You scared of a little darkness.”
Trina said, “No just things that go bump in the darkness without a damn good
explanation.” Marc said, “She’s not really scared of the things that go
bump…she’s just scared the one eyed monster is going to bump her in the dark…it
can be scary as hell too…It’s a pretty good size.” Trina smacked Marc’s arm and
said, “Knock it off pervert.”
John laughed at their lover’s antics as he handed them both a flashlight as
they turned them on and entered the
Christina could hear voice as her head popped up…she had to get out of here…if
anyone caught her she was a goner for sure…she walked out of the room and stood
in the middle of the hallway as three beams of light landed on her and a voice
said, “Hey you’re not supposed to be in here.”
John, Marc and Trina, nearly died of freight as their lit flashlights all
landed on the same face in front of John’s dressing room…John yelled out and
watched as the girl in the skimpy clothes took off running towards the back
door. John ran after her as Trina grabbed the bags and Marc went after John.
Christina busted out the back door and she could hear the foot steps behind
her…she’d semi dried off, but was now soaking wet yet again…She stopped and
turned to face her pursuer with the screwdriver in her hand. He stopped in
front of her equally as soaked now as well.
Trina had gone back in front and got the SUV and floored it to the back of the
arena…
John came to a stop and saw the girl was armed with a screw driver, but he’d
suddenly noticed she had a blood nose and a black eye…John held up his hands
and said, “I’m not going to hurt you, I swear.” In a shaky voice she said,
“Leave me alone…Just turn around and go back…” John said, “You’re hurt…Let me
help you please.” She said, “I’m fine…Just leave me alone.”
Suddenly, Marc grabbed her from the back and got the screw driver out of her
hand…and tightened his arms around her not wanting her to get away…John was
running towards her and could hear her screaming…but it was high pitched and in
short spurts…she was starting to fight back…as she slammed her heel down on
Marc’s sneaker cover toes he, pushed her away as John ran up and she punched
John in the face full force and kicked him in the stomach.
John was bent over as Marc bounced around on one foot holding his smashed toes
and watched as she took off running down the alley again…They regained their
composure and ran after her…just as she came to a main cross street she stopped
frozen and screamed as she jumped up and hit the bumped of an SUV and hit the
pavement out cold.
John and Marc caught up and noticed it was their SUV and Trina was driving.
John said, “God Damn…I didn’t want you to run her over.” Trina said, “Hey…I
didn’t see you guys doing that hot of a job…I figured what the fuck, I might as
well stop her…You know…Since you guys couldn’t get the job done.”
Christina hit the hood and bumper of the huge SUV and fell back and hit the
back of her head on the pavement and felt the darkness slip in.
Chapter 4
John, Marc and Trina were sitting in the hospital…They’d stayed all
night with the girl Trina hit with the car…The doctor’s checked her out and
said she’d either had rough sex or was raped, because she had a hand print
bruise on her inner thigh. Her face was bruised from the smacks she took, but
nothing was broken…which was a good thing…she had a couple of fractured ribs
from hitting the SUV and a mild concussion from hitting her head on the
pavement.
Christina could feel the ache in her head and ribcage before she opened her
eyes as she slowly started waking up. She could hear voices as she laid there
and let herself wake up a little more.
John said, “I hope she doesn’t sue us.” Marc said, “C’mon man…She ain’t gonna
sue us…Hell she could have amnesia and won’t remember anything…we could get off
Scott free.”
Trina was standing behind Marc and decided he deserved a smack for that comment
and popped him up side his big bald head. Marc rubbed the side of his head and
said, “I’m thinking logically.” John shook his head at his cousin and said,
“It’s hard to believe we’re even from the same blood line…I swear.”
A voice said, “Well…Rest easy…I don’t have amnesia.”
Three heads popped up to see the girl sitting up…She looked around and her eyes
landed on John and she said, “You just couldn’t leave me alone could you?” John
shrugged his shoulders and said, “What was I supposed to do…Let you walk away
in the pouring rain and bleed to death?” She sighed as she glared at all of
them and said, “Better then being here…I hate hospitals.”
They watched as she untapped the back of her hand and pulled the IV out of the
back of both of her hands...John stood up and said, “What are you doing?” She
looked at him like he’d grown 6 heads and said, “Duh genius…What do you think
I’m doing? Getting the hell out of here.”
John walked over and said, “You shouldn’t be going anywhere…You’ve got a couple
of fractured ribs…and a mild concussion…you shouldn’t even be getting up for 24
hours.” She scooted off the bed and pulled her gown closed in the back and
said, “Yea well…I ain’t waiting for 24 hours.” John watched as the girl grabbed
her clothes out of the closet and slipped into the bathroom locking the door
behind her.
Marc said, “We can’t force her to stay here…She’s gonna leave one way or
another. We might as well take off. She ain’t gonna let us near her.” John
said, “So what? We just leave and pretend it never happened and just let a girl
walk out of a hospital with a concussion and fractured ribs?” Trina touched
John’s arm and said, “John…Marc is right…There is no way she’s going to let us
help her…It seems she’s just about as stubborn as you.”
John watched as the girl emerged from the bathroom fully clothed…He never
realized how cute she was until she came out clothed in her clothes that had
dried. They all turned towards the window when there was a knock. They watched
as the girl walked over and opened the window and a torso popped into the window
and pulled the girl into a huge hug.
Christina smiled as Derek grabbed her in a hug and said, “Do you realize how
many hospital’s we had to call to find you…you damn near scared the shit out of
Christina looked back at the 3 some in the hospital room and said, “Nice to not
meet you…Hope we can do it again some time. Later.” Christina grabbed her purse
as Derek reached through the window and picked her up and pulled her through
the window and took her hand as they ran off through the trees and bushes next
to the hospital across the street and caught the bus.
Chapter 5
John said, “Fine…she doesn’t want help…I’ll make her …Let’s go…Now.”
John stalked out of the hospital with Marc and Trina hot on his heels. They
jumped in the SUV as John sped off down the street and started following the
bus, he’d seen the girl and guy get on. John noticed the bus stopped a few
blocks away from the arena. Marc said, “There’s only one house around here and
it’s that old abandoned one…They just walked into it…” Trina said, “That thing
hasn’t been lived in for at least a couple of years.”
Christina was met with hugs from Sam and
They were just sitting down to talk when someone came crashing through the
door. Christina looked up and saw the 3 some from the hospital and the earlier
nights confrontation…Christina stood up with her hands on her hips and said,
“Why am I so not surprised…I told you to leave me alone earlier and you
wouldn’t and now you won’t even let me be at peace in my own home.”
John stood there and said, “This isn’t a home…This is a run down old house that
hasn’t been lived in for years…” She glared at him and said, “Home is where
ever you can make it when you live on the streets asshole.” John couldn’t
believe what he’d just heard and said, “You should be in the hospital…You could
make your concussion worse.” She said, “I know how to take care of myself…I
told you once before to leave me alone…Learn how to leave people the hell
alone.”
John said, “You need to be under the care of a physician…and I swear if it’s
the last thing I do, I’m gonna make sure I damn well get your ass back to the
hospital.” She walked up and looked him in the eyes and said, “Look…I’m tired
of being nice…Get the fuck out and leave me the fuck alone…I don’t need a
doctor…I know how to take care of myself…” Christina started to walk away as
the guy said, “How in the world could you possibly know?” Christina let out a
small growl as she spun around and said, “LOOK! I know how to take care of
myself because I was 12 months from graduating college with a fuckin PHD…Now
fuck off!”
John was taken back as he watched her pick up a flash light and ran up the
stairs and slammed a door. Everyone jumped when they heard her slam the door.
John said, “Okay so maybe I should go talk with her.” Derek said, “I’m sorry
but are you really that stupid?” John said, “On the contrary, I was smart
enough to graduate college.” Cali stood up and said, “Did you ever stop to
think that maybe there was a REASON that she couldn’t finish college…instead of
thinking she’s stupid for not finishing…By the way…Just who the fuck are you
people? And I don’t mean the same people who chased her and gave her the concussion
and broken ribs either.”
John said, “I’m John Cena, this is my cousin Marc Predka and his girlfriend
Trina Somer. I’m a wrestler with the World Wrestling Entertainment company…We
were in town tonight for a show…We had a run in with miss attitude there when
we caught her in the arena when we went back to get Marc’s bag when he left it
there.” Cali said, “Oh, I know who you are…I seen you two years ago at MSG…My
boyfriend took me to see the show the night before he left me here with 50
bucks.”
John said, “Jesus Christ…Please tell me you are definitely not with him
anymore.”
Trina said, “So what’s the story with all of you?”
Sam said, “Does he ever give up?” Marc said, “Get real…He wanted to be a wrestler
or a rock star since he was 5…Look where he’s at now…Not to mention we just
released a rap album a few months back.”
They all laughed as they got comfortable ready to watch the sparks fly when
Christina would see John again.
Chapter 6
Christina was leaning against the wall while sitting on her bed as
usual…Staring out the window as the rain continued to come down some more…She
couldn’t stop the tears now even if she tried…She got used to the crying
thing…It was a nightly ritual…or so it seemed.
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She falls apart by herself
No ones there to talk or understand
Feels sustained, dries here eyes
Finds herself, opens the door inside
People see right through you
Everyone who knew you well
Falls apart, might as well
Day is long and nothing is wasted
Runaway - runaway (runaway - runaway)
Hold, hold you but your going away
Runaway - runaway (runaway - runaway)
(Want) Hold (Want) you tomorrow but your leaving today
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Christina hadn’t noticed that John had walked into the room…She’d heard all the
introductions…She suddenly felt someone touching her hand…She looked over and
John’s heart broke…Someone who was so quiet was crying…he couldn’t tell if it
was because she looked so defeated or because he could hear her tears…
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You walk along by yourself
There's no sound, nothing is changing
Been gone away, left you there
Emptiness is nothing you can't share
All those words that hurt you
More than you would let it show
Comes apart, by yourself
All is well and everything is wasted
Runaway - runaway (runaway - runaway)
(Want) Hold (Want) hold you but your going away
Runaway - runaway (runaway - runaway)
(Want) Hold (Want) you tomorrow but your leaving today
Sometimes we'll feel around
And this dance instead can't be down
All the sound of me on my own
Any sound of me again
It's time away surround around a friend
I know where I know where no where to runaway
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John did the only thing he could think of…He pulled her over and wrapped his
arms around her tiny Framed body. She was so small…She couldn’t have weighted
more then 100 lbs…She buried her face in his t-shirt and he could feel her body
shaking with sobs. John rubbed her back and let his hands run from the top of
her head down her long braided hair.
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She falls apart, no one there
Hold her hand, it seems to disappear
Falls apart, might as well
Day is long and nothing is wasted
Runaway - runaway (runaway - runaway)
(Want) Hold (Want) hold you but your going away
Runaway - runaway (runaway - runaway)
(Want) Hold (Want) you tomorrow but your leaving today
Runaway - Runaway
Hold (Want) hold you (Want) but your going away
But your leaving today, but your leaving today
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After about 30 minutes…John looked down…Christina had fallen asleep. He wasn’t
about to wake her…He leaned against the wall and carefully lifted her head and
placed a pillow on his lap and put her head on the pillow.
John wondered if she ever felt like running away from it all…He’d have to
remember to ask her in the morning…as he leaned his head against the wall and
fell asleep.
Chapter 7
When the sunshine started coming through the windows of the old
abandoned house…Christina could feel the warmth on her face…She slowly opened
her eyes and noticed she was laying with her head in someone’s lap…Then she saw
the pump sneakers…She moved around a little bit and slowly sat up…She looked
over and blue eyes were staring back at her green ones.
Christina blinked a couple of times and said, “You didn’t have to stay last
night…I’m sure you are used to better accommodations, Mr. Cena.” John smiled
and said, “You know who I am?” Christina laughed as she stood up and said, “Of
course…One doesn’t like in
John stuck his hand out and said, “Nosey gotta help everyone, general pain in
the ass, John Cena.” Christina laughed as she shook John’s hand and said,
“Snobby stuck up bitch, almost doctor, Christina Welch.”
John couldn’t help but be mesmerized by her smile and laugh.
Christina moved around to where she was facing John with her knees pulled into
her chest. John was still leaning against the wall…Christina said, “I bet you’re
wondering what an almost doctor is doing living on the streets now huh?” John
pulled his left leg up and rested his elbow on his knee and said, “Yea…The
thought has crossed my mind a thousand times since last night.”
Christina said, “Well…I guess it started 2 and a half years ago…My father died
when I was 12 and left me a trust fund for college…Mom remarried 4 months
later…like it wasn’t obvious she’d been screwing around…I grew up with a step
father and a step brother…I finally got out of the house and into a dorm for
college…I worked my ass off…I wanted to be a pediatrician so bad I could taste
it…I loved working with children…Anyways…I made the mistake of coming home one
weekend to see my mom…but she was out of the country like always with Jerry.”
Christina sighed as she closed her eyes remembering that weekend. John could
see stray tears slide down her cheeks and she continued, “It was probably the
worse 72 hours I’ve ever lived through in my life…When I got to the house, my
step brother Jack had two of his friends there…they were so coced up and drunk
it took me telling all 3 of them to kiss me ass to piss them off within a
matter of seconds. I spent 3 days, handcuffed naked to a bed…while Jack and his
buddies raped me over and over and over again.”
John took Christina’s hand and he said, “You don’t have to finish.” Christina
wiped her tears on the back of her hand and said, “Yes I do…I was mortified…I
went to my mother and told her everything that happened…I cried…I poured my
heart out to her…My step father heard all of it and went after Jack…him and his
friends claimed they weren’t even in the house that weekend and that I was just
trying to make up lies about him…My step dad convinced my mother I was nothing
but a liar and a slut trying to play off having a party in the house with 3
other guys…She believed every word that bastard said.”
Christina ran a shaky hand through her hair and said, “My mother cut off my
trust fund…Legally, she can’t do it…but she had her lawyer claim I wasn’t
really her child…that her and my father adopted me and I wasn’t really supposed
to get the money…The courts listened to her because I didn’t have a lawyer.
When I tried to defend myself in court, I was nearly thrown in jail for
contempt…I lived in my dorm for as long as I could and then they threw me
out…when I walked off the campus, I had two garbage bags and a backpack full of
clothes…Everything else I had to leave there. No telling what happened to
it…I’ve been on my own ever since…2 years of sleeping on the streets, in broke
down cars, and meeting up with Cali, Sam and Derek…They’ve kept me sane.”
Christina said, “I wasn’t always so stubborn about life…Of course that was
before I had to have sex with guys for money to keep myself and my friends
alive. Us finding this abandoned house was probably the best thing we could’ve
done…It’s not the Hilton…but for now its home.”
John said, “What if I told you I could get you all jobs, but that you’d have to
go to
John said, “Okay, so I have a girlfriend…but no ones knows about her…we’ve been
dating on and off for the last 2 years…but decided to just keep it quiet she’s
a wrestler like me…either way…If I take time off to help you and the other’s
get to Boston…She can deal with it…She’s on the road just as long as me…”
Christina said, “I don’t know John…I don’t know you that well and I’m not about
to take advantage of you.” John laughed and said, “You’re not taking advantage
of me…I’m OFFERING to help you out…There is no reason 2, 25 year old girls and
2, 23 year old guys should be on the streets, when they could have nice warm
beds and good paying jobs…you know solid roof over their heads that don’t
leak…with heating for winter so you don’t freeze to death and air conditioning
for the summers so you don’t have heat strokes. C’mon it’s a good offer…It’s
totally on the up and up…I swear.”
Christina said, “And in return you want?” John laughed and said, “You think I’m
workin an angle…that’s cute…Actually the only thing I want in return is…Dinner
with the 4 of you occasionally, when my tired board ass comes off the road…This
you can handle pizza and beer with me and my cousin and his girlfriend every
other week?”
Christina laughed and said, “I think I can handle that.” John stood up and
pulled Christina up to her feet and he said, “Good…Let’s go tell the others to
pack their shit…we’re leaving tomorrow morning.” Christina nodded as she
watched John walked out of the room…She looked out the window and up at the
sky…
What a waste on her mind…Every time…all the time…
Now it’s gone…finally.
Chapter 8
The following morning found John driving the 4 person crew to
Christina was sitting in the front seat while John drove the Ford
Expedition…while Derek, Sam and
John said, “We’ve got at least a 10 hour drive…Sleep and nap all you want.” Sam
said, “Please Chris…Pretty please.” John looked at Christina and said, “What
does he want?” Christina said, “They won’t go to sleep without
Christina laughed and said, “Ready
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go to sleep little babe
go to sleep little babe
your momma's gone away and your daddy's gonna stay
didn't leave nobody but the baby
go to sleep ya little babe
go to sleep ya little babe
everybody's gone in the cotton and the corn
didn't leave nobody but the baby
you're a sweet little babe
you're a sweet little babe
honey in the rock and the sugar don't stop
gonna bring a bottle to the baby
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John couldn’t believe his ears as the harmonizing feminine voices came sliding
through the SUV…
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don't you weep pretty babe
don't you weep pretty babe
she's long gone with her red shoes on
gonna need another lovin’ babe
go to sleep little babe
go to sleep little babe
you and me and the devil makes three
don't need no other lovin' babe
go to sleep little babe
go to sleep little babe
come lay your bones on the alabaster stones
and be my ever lovin’ baby
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Christina looked in the back and saw Derek and Sam fast asleep and said,
“Worked like a charm.” John said, “That was amazing…You know…You should lay
back too and get some rest…well be a while.”
Christina kicked her seat back and said, “Hey John?” John looked back and forth
from the road to Christina and said, “Yea?” Christina smiled as she sat up for
a second and leaned over and kissed John’s cheek and said, “If I forgot to tell
you earlier or forget to tell you later…Thanks.”
John smiled and said, “You’re welcome.” Christina melted…Oh those adorable
dimples of his…They were going to be the death of her yet…She fell asleep with
John’s dimples on her mind…Hoping the car ride would end fast and they’d be in
Boston the next time she opened her eyes.
Chapter 9
Christina’s eyes slowly fluttered open as she was slowly nudged
awake…Her eyes opened to a pair of blue ones staring back at her…She smiled and
knew it was John and said, “Are we there yet?” John said, “Yea…Are you awake enough
to walk into the house?” Christina absentmindedly nodded as she slowly sat up.
She noticed it was night time…and she checked the clock and it was around
John helped her out of the SUV and held onto her arms and steadied her until
she was fully awake. Christina looked over and saw a huge house and said, “Holy
shit…Where are we?” John laughed and said, “Well…I got a place for you guys to
stay, but unfortunately my bonehead cousin and his woman didn’t get the lights
or water turned on for you…so tonight were staying at my folks house.”
Christina stopped half way up the sidewalk…John noticed Derek, Sam and
John jogged all the way back down to the curb and took a seat next to
Christina…She wasn’t making a sound, but in the moonlight he could see the
silent tears sliding down her cheeks. John said, “Christina?” She looked at
John and said, “This is so foreign to me.”
John smiled and said, “What? Moving or sitting on a dirty curb?” Christina
cracked a smile and said, “No…someone actually showing they have a heart for
human beings…I’m still amazed at the things you’ve done for me and my
friends…and yet…some how…I don’t think I’ll ever be able to say thank you
enough or even repay you.”
John said, “The only thing that can be close to repayment is seeing you
smile…Damn girl…has no one ever told you what an amazing smile you’ve got?”
Christina smiled and said, “I like smiling…I just haven’t had much to smile
about in my life…Oh My GOD…You’re parents don’t know do they? I mean…About my
folks or the…oh ya know…prostitution?” John said, “I wouldn’t tell
anyone…unless you gave me the okay…I promise…I imagine it’s not something you
want announced on the
John stood up and held out his hand and said, “C’mon…Food awaits…I haven’t
eaten in 6 hours…You should be luck my tape worm hasn’t gotten out of hand and
tried to eat you.” Christina couldn’t help but laugh and said, “Bottomless pit
eh?” John said, “Well…It’s not often I get mother home cooked food…so when I
know I’m coming home, I call ahead and mom makes all of my favorites…which
means she could either feed me or a large village in Africa.”
Christina was laughing so hard she couldn’t stand up but took John’s hand as he
pulled her to her feet…She faced him and he used the bottom of his jersey to
wipe the tears off her cheeks and eyes.
John watched as she laughed at him some more and she said, “Oh God not the
sacred jersey!” John said, “It’s salty tears…Not like I’m offering to let you
blow your nose on it.” Christina laughed and said, “Ewww…I definitely wouldn’t
take you up on that offer…Sorry…even for someone who’s been home less…I can’t
blow my nose on anything but tissue.” John said, “Oh thank God…I’d hate to have
snot on the inside of my shirt for the rest of the night…Besides…Snot is a
bitch to get out of the fabric these jersey’s are made from.”
There was a moment of silence and Christina threw her arms around John’s neck
and shoulders and John wrapped his arms around her knowing it’s what she needed
and he said, “You’re not going to cry again are you? Cause I’ll have to use the
back of my jersey this time.” Christina laughed against his body and said,
“No…Thank you John…You know…For everything.” John said, “Well, it ain’t the
fuckin Hilton…but what the fuck…It works…And you’re very welcome…”
They laughed as they walked into the house as Christina was greeted by John’s
mom, Catherine and Dad, John. Nothing stays the same…Thank God.
Chapter 10
The next morning, John drove Christina,
Christina said, “Okay…Now where are we?”
John smirked and said, “You’re house.”
Christina said, “No…See I don’t have a house…None of us do.”
John said, “You do now.”
Christina got out as did the rest and followed John up the walk way into the
big house…It was gigantic…Marc and Trina were sitting at a dining room table
laughing at each other, when the 5 people walked in.
John handed each of them a key to the front door and said, “Go look around.”
The other took off as Christina looked at John and said, “What did you do?”
John held out his hand and said, “C’mon…Look at the house…pick out a room…then
questions will be answered.”
Christina chewed her bottom lip and finally gave in and let John take her
through the house…They got to one of the 5 bedrooms and John said, “I figured
you’d go for this one…It’s got a good view but yet it’s kind of secluded from
the rest of the house…Plus…” John pulled a manila envelope down from a shelf in
the room and handed it to Christina.
Christina took the envelope as she sat on the bed in the room and John sat next
to her as she opened it up…It was information on every college within 20
minutes of the house. Christina said, “What is this?”
John said, “You can go to any of those colleges and they will test all your
knowledge of medicine and send you to a medical college here in
Christina’s eyes swelled up with tears as she looked down at the information at
back up to John…He laughed and said, “I knew you were gonna cry…I came
prepared.” John reached in his pocket and pulled out a mini packet of tissue
and handed it to Christina…
She laughed but the tears still slid down her cheeks as she pulled a tissue out
and wiped her eyes. She said, “John you’re unbelievable you know that…I can’t
believe you went to all this trouble…Now tell me about the house.”
John said, “Well, my uncle is in the real estate business and this house is one
of his…but I decided to rent it out...so technically it’s yours now.”
Christina said, “I saw there were 5 bedrooms…why?”
John said, “Hell, I barely live in my place here so, I got rid of it…and moved
my shit into the room next to yours…You guys will hardly see me for a while
anyways…I’m gonna be recording my first album on my days off and some time at
the end of the year the company has me going to Australia for a movie.”
They talked for a few more minutes and then pulled their bags into the house
and slowly started making it their own.
Chapter 11
For the next months that followed, Christina barely saw any of her
room mates especially John…She’d actually thrown herself into the last 12
months of medical school she needed into order to graduate and become a
doctor…Not to mention her internship at Boston Memorial Hospital during the
afternoon was just as time consuming.
Sam and Derek had been doing exceptionally well with their jobs as well…Derek
had become a photographer for a local magazine…and Sam…well Sam being Sam
opened his own flower shop.
John had been in Australia shooting the WWE movie…He’d call Christina’s cell
phone but she never answered…so he was always leaving messages to check on her
and the others in the house…he knew they all were working their asses off…He’d
since cut things off with the girl he’d secretly been dating on the road, because
they wanted their relationship to go into two different directions…And it just
wasn’t working out the way either of them wanted it too.
It had been 7 months, since John had brought them to Boston for a change in
life…For the last 2 months Christina hadn’t been feeling well at all…When her
doctor had given her a complete physical examination, he didn’t find anything,
but when her blood work came back he saw some things in there that just didn’t
seem right…So he referred her to a specialist infact that was at Boston
Memorial…same place she was doing her internship.
So here she was sitting in the Specialist office…Christina hated it…She felt
like she was being punished for something she didn’t do…Like she was sitting in
the principals office for being a bad girl. The tests had gone further into her
body and as it was her White blood cell count and her T cell count was too low
for a normal 25 year old female. Not to mention she also had an iron
deficiency.
Her knee was bouncing and her heel was tapping on the floor…She was jittery
because she had a small thought of what they found…but was just checking to see
if the doctor would confirm it. Why did being an adult have to be so
complicated in life...? Because that’s the way life goes…That’s just the way life
is and was at least for her it was.
Christina often caught herself missing her mother…but then she couldn’t help
but remember what the woman had done to her when she needed her mother the most
in her life…she turned her back on her…she left her out in the cold and didn’t
even look back to make sure she’d survived…Her mother even went as far as court
and letting the whole state of New York think she was some adopted girl who no
one wanted.
Christina had one thing her mother didn’t and that was her birth certificate.
Christina had gotten a hold of it, before she left the house the last time
she’d gone to see her mom to try and get her to understand what Jack had
done…but no amount of cussing, yelling and persisting worked in her favor…She’d
kept her birth certificate and it was sitting in her top drawer at home…
Home…even after 7 months it still felt like a foreign word to her. All the love
and caring her, Cali, Sam and Derek had received from the Cena and Predka
family was amazingly warm and welcoming…it was as if the four of them were
specifically made for the two large families. John’s brothers Stephen, Matt,
Dan and Sean were as crazy as he was.
Family cook out consisted of John’s mom and dad cooking, while the rest of the
family sat around with a beer talking or even John, his brothers and cousins
playing football, baseball…wrestling around in the back yard trying to figure
out who was stronger no matter how much muscle…or the lack there of they all
had one thing in common…Love.
Christina was pulled from her thoughts as Dr. Laura Williams came in with her
crisp white lab coat on and sat down behind her desk…She opened Christina’s
file up and looked everything over and looked Christina in the eyes and said,
“It’s not good…But…It’s not untreatable.” Christina felt the stray tears
sliding down her cheeks and she said, “Its Ovarian Cancer…isn’t it?”
Dr. Williams said, “Yes…”
Chapter 12
Dr. Williams continued, “But…I think that with strong Chemotherapy
and a few other things we can fight this…You do you want to fight it, right?”
Christina said, “Absolutely…I watched my aunt’s life deteriorate from Ovarian
Cancer because she thought God was going to heal her magically…I refuse to
believe God has anything to do with illness at least not when it comes to
taking, giving and treating cancer. Ovarian Cancer runs rampant in my family…I
watched it take at least a dozen of my family members…I’m not about to stand by
and let it do the same to me…I refuse to.”
Dr. Williams said, “Okay…You wanna start immediately or have sometime to let it
sink in?”
Christina said, “How soon is immediately?”
Dr. Williams said, “Well…I’ve got an opening for surgery right now…because we
need to put a chemotherapy port in for you.”
Christina said, “A what?”
Dr. Williams said, “It’s a port-a-cath that is inserted in your upper chest
wall the space between your collarbone and your breast to make chemotherapy
easier and more comfortable for you…It is a simple, same-day procedure that
doesn't require general anesthesia. You will have a chest X-ray to confirm that
the port is positioned correctly. When you’re completely finished with
chemotherapy, the port can be removed quickly in another same-day procedure.”
Christina said, “Okay…Tell me more.”
Dr. Williams said, “Well the port is about the size of a quarter, only thicker,
and will show only as a bump underneath the skin. There are several benefits to
having the port…No need to find a vein every time you receive chemo. A special
needle fits right into the port, so all you feel is the stick—not the poking,
prodding, and false tries in your arm. The nurse may numb the skin first with
ice or a cream, to lessen any feeling at all.”
Christina said, “Okay…What else?”
Dr. Williams smiled…she knew Christina was weighting all options…and said, “The
medication goes right into the main blood supply entering the heart, so it can
be sent quickly and efficiently to all parts of the body…Some types of
chemotherapy can be very uncomfortable if injected into a vein just under your
skin. The port avoids this potential discomfort…Getting blood for blood tests
can usually be done through the port, decreasing the number of times you need
to have a vein stuck….so to speak.”
Christina said, “Okay…Let’s do it.” Dr. Williams pushed away from her desk and
said, “Okay sweetie…Let’s go.”
An hour later, Christina walked out to her car with the port in her and was
scheduled for her first treatment on the following Friday. As she was driving
home…she knew she couldn’t tell anyone…she didn’t want the pity…and she
definitely didn’t want anyone feeling sorry for her…She would just get through
it.
Christina could do it…She didn’t need anyone’s help.
Chapter 13
It had been 2 months since Christina had started chemotherapy. Thank
God she wasn’t losing her hair or people would’ve definitely known something
wasn’t right. John was coming back from
Christina looked at herself in the mirror…She was tired…and thin…but she was
surviving. She had on brick red (cotton) fleece draw string pants that sat low
on her waist with drapey legs, a white cotton cami tank top and she made sure
the strap on her right side over the bump on her skin where the port was…plus
she had on a red fleece hooded zip up jacket…only zipped up half way…plus her
white sneakers. She pulled her hair up into a pony tail.
Christina walked down the hall and grabbed her little backpack purse and then
grabbed her car keys as she took off and knew she’d have to break it to the
families that Cali, Derek and Sam were working…but would be there sometime
after 7.
Christina walked out onto the deck and after she made her way around the grown
ups with a round of hugs she went over and sat at one of the tables set up and
was talking with Trina, John’s Mom Catherine and his dad John. Christina looked
out into the huge back yard and saw John and Marc playing football with their
brothers and cousins.
John and Marc were in a huddle as John’s eyes looked over and scanned the deck
and he saw the red hair and thought he was going to come unglued as he said,
“Hey cuz…who’s the girl with the red hair?” Marc laughed and said, “Man…That’s
Christina…Shit…you didn’t recognize her without her braids…she had them taken
out and the black washed out of her hair…come to find out she’s got deep red
hair…You should go say hi man.”
John said, “Well…I’m gonna make a touch down first…And then I can go be sweaty
around her.” Marc laughed, but that’s exactly what he did…John stole the ball
and ran it in for a touch down and then every one called a half time for water.
When John walked up on the deck Christina was missing. John went over and
hugged his mom and asked where Christina had gone off too. Catherine said she’d
excused herself to the restroom.
John grabbed a bottle of water and decided to take a minute to go in the house
to pee real fast, but was stopped when he heard something beeping. He walked
closer and His mom said it was coming from Christina’s purse…John picked it up
and the beeping got louder as he put his hand in her purse and found it was the
alarm on her cell phone going off. He shut it off and went to throw it back
into her purse and noticed about 7 bottles of prescriptioned medications in her
purse…They all had her name on them.
John wasn’t sure what they were all needed for, but decided against saying
anything when everyone seemed to be having a nice time. John took Christina’s
purse and went in the house in search for her…he walked by the down stairs
bathroom and heard some weird sounds that he thought sounded like someone
throwing up…he knocked on the door and heard the toilet flush…the water ran for
a few seconds and the door opened and a smiling Christina stood in front of
him.
John smiled and Christina melted from the dimples as they slowly approached
each other and wrapped their arms around each other and softly hugged one
another…When Christina pulled away John said, “You’re phone was beeping…I
turned it off.” As John handed her the purse. Christina smiled and said, “Thank
you.” As Christina walked away John noticed how she was kind of thin…He was
curious as to what was going on with her.
A couple of days later, Christina was sitting in house thankful it was
Saturday…The weekends were her time when she didn’t have school or work…She was
relaxing on the couch when someone knocked on the door. She walked over and
opened the door and John was standing there with his hands pushed into the
front pockets of his jean shorts.
Christina said, “John…Why are you knocking…you live here too.” John said,
“No…I’m coming as a friend not a room mate…We need to talk.” Christina moved to
the side as John walked past her…she closed the door and followed him back into
the den. John leaned against the back of the couch with his arms folded in
front of his chest.
Christina stood 5 feet from him with her hands to her side and said, “So you
wanted to talk…Talk.”
John said, “I’ve not been around for a few months while I was gone doing the
album and movie and I know when you were living on the streets things were
different and you did things for money…but I need to know right now…Did you
bring drugs into this house?” Christina said, “Yea.” John sighed and said,
“What was it?” Christina smiled and said, “The usual…Cough syrup,
Tylenol…Excedrin.”
John said, “You know that’s not what I’m talking about…You know I turned your
phone off the other day when it was beeping…so you know I saw those bottles of
pills in your purse…What is it?” Christina said, “Oh…That’s easy…None of your
business.” John watched as she walked out of the den.
Obviously...It was so not the answer he was looking for...
Chapter 14
Christina walked into the kitchen…She knew there was only so many
times she could push John off the track…When he didn’t leave the first time she
told him it wasn’t any of his business…she knew eventually he’d follow her and
she’d have to be ready for round two.
Christina lined up all her meds on the island counter and had all the caps off
as she flipped the 7 lids up on her long pill case and was getting ready to
fill them up as John walked into the kitchen…and he was so not looking happy.
John said, “Christina, I pulled you guys off the streets to help you…You’re
living in a house you’re not even paying for. I will not have you doing drugs
in my house…I refuse to let anyone bring drugs into the place I live.”
Christina said, “So you’re going to throw that in our face every time one of us
does something you don’t like...Gee I feel like I’m living at home again.” John
said, “No…But I’ll say it to someone who used to fuck guys for money and God
only knows what else.”
Christina said, “Oh you wanna get cute now huh…What’s the matter you afraid
I’ll be too cracked out to wanna fuck you sometime for money…I’m not proud of
my past, but until you’ve walked a mile in my shoes and lived through what I
lived through…don’t you DARE stand there and judge me…Because you think you
know everything, when in reality you know NOTHING!.”
Christina walked out of the room for a minute and John got pissed his temper
flared major and he walked over and picked up the 5 pill bottles, walked over
and dumped them all in the garbage disposal he reached over and turned the
water on and then flipped the switch. They were all gone within seconds.
Christina walked back in and John was drying his hands…She walked over and
said, “Where are they?” John tossed the towel on the counter and said, “Gone.”
Christina felt sick to her stomach and said, “John this isn’t funny…Where are
they?” John said, “Did you see me laughing? They are gone. They are half way
through the garbage disposal system of
Christina said, “Please tell me you’re joking John…Please.” John said, “No
afraid not.” Christina said, “Did you ever stop to think for 2 seconds that
someone who is taking prescriptioned drugs…was…I don’t know…Taking them for a
reason.” John said, “But why? You’re perfectly healthy…Just admit to me you
were using them to get high…I can’t get you help if you don’t figure out you’ve
got a problem to begin with.”
Christina said, “Just because someone looks healthy on the outside, doesn’t
mean they are on the inside.”
Christina sighed heavy as she reached over and grabbed her cell phone as she
walked over and pulled one of her little zip up jackets on…she could feel
herself getting chilled and it was 80 degrees outside. She was supposed to take
her medicine, but because all of it was down the drain she wasn’t sure she could
get refills before Monday which was a day and a half away.
Someone on the other end of the phone picked up and she said, “Yes, This is
Christina Welch…I need to speak with Dr. Laura Williams…Yes it’s an emergency…”
A few minutes later, Dr. Williams came on the phone and said, “What’s up
Chris?” Christina said, “My purse was stolen and all my meds were in the
bag…What am I gonna do…I can already feel my body reacting with not having them
in my system.”
Dr. Williams said, “Okay…I want you to sit down…Pull a couple of blankets on
yourself and keep warm…I’m going to have my assistant go down to the hospital
pharmacy and refill all your scripts and bring them to you.” Christina sighed
with relief and said, “Thanks Laura.” Christina hung up the phone and sat on
the couch wrapped in her jacket with a blanket over her.
John walked into the living room and sat next to Christina…and said,
“Chris…What’s going on with you? I heard you puking at my folks house, the
drugs, I noticed your losing weight…You just told me you were basically
sick…Tell me…Please.”
Chapter 15
Christina looked at John and big tears slid down her cheeks as she
said, “Every family has one illness that sweeps through the bloodline and takes
most of your relatives…In my family it just happens to be Ovarian Cancer.”
John said, “You’ve got cancer…Ovarian cancer…Why didn’t you tell me?” Christina
looked down and said, “I watched my aunts life go down the drain because she
believed God could heal her…and I watched my family do nothing but pity her,
because they all knew God could’ve save her…I believe in God…but when it comes
to cancer…I think it’s just one illness even God can’t cure without a Doctor’s
help. I don’t like pity…I don’t want someone feeling sorry for me because I’m
sick. I don’t want every one to treat me like I’m made of glass…I just wanna
live my life…If I die from it then so be it…but if not just lemme survive.”
John said, “When did you find out about it?” Christina said, “I’ve been going
to Chemotherapy every Friday for the last 2 months…And before you ask…Cali,
Derek and Sam don’t know…I don’t want to tell them…They are my very best
friends…and I don’t want to see them in an unnecessary pain if they don’t have
to be in it.” John touched Christina’s hand and it was freezing cold…John put
her hands between his big ones and rubbed some warmth into them.
Christina enjoyed the warmth. John said, “So are you keeping yourself in
school?” Christina smiled and said, “Yea…I graduate in 3 months…
Silence filled the room and then Christina said, “Did anyone ever tell you…when
you’re not around life is boring…” John laughed and said, “No…Where did that
come from?” Christina said, “Because…you were gone for 5 months…It was so
boring around the house without hearing you freestyle in your room or listening
to you and Marc argue while playing PS2 in the living room…even your nasty off
key singing in the shower…I missed it…all of it…And I know I argued with you so
much today that I pissed you off quite a bit, which sorry for that…I missed
you.”
John smiled sweetly and said, “I missed you too.” John caressed her cheek…his
hand was so warm and she leaned against it and relished the feeling. John
wanted to kiss her…He wanted to kiss her so bad…And was about to when there was
a knock on the front door.
John walked over and a small woman walked in and over to Christina…Christina
smiled and said, “Thanks for coming Marie.” Marie smiled and said, “No
prob…Laura said, you were already starting to feel the effects of not having
your meds in you, so I brought shots so we can get it into your system now,
instead of waiting for the pills to work.
John watched as Christina shed her jacket and pulled her t-shirt and bra strap
off her shoulder. Marie said, “Okay…Where’s you’re port honey…I’ll numb it
first.” Christina could always feel the port, but was thankfully never in pain
from it…Christina pointed it out as Marie rubbed some numbing cream over it
while she took the caps off all the syringes. Marie said, “Is it numb?”
Christina nodded yes and looked away as Marie gave her all 5 shots…She didn’t
care if she could feel it…she just never wanted to see it.
Marie turned to John and said, “She’s going to get groggy in a few minutes
cause the shots make anyone tired, but pills don’s…and she’ll probably sleep
for the rest of the day…Take care of her please.” John nodded as he saw Marie
to the door and saw the brown paper bag on the couch.
John walked back into the living room and Christina was standing up…John said,
“What the hell are you doing girl?” Christina sat back down and said, “Well…I
was going to go upstairs…but I don’t think I can make it…I hate those
shots…Every time.” John leaned down and scoped her small framed body up into
his arms and held her against his chest and said, “Going up?” Christina smiled
and said, “Yes please.”
John carried her upstairs to her room and laid her across the bed and she
grabbed his hand and pulled him in with her and flipped the TV on and said,
“Relax a little…you’ve been on the go for the last 5 months.” John relaxed and
Christina laid her head on his chest and slowly drifted to sleep. John wrapped
his arm around her protectively and was soon falling asleep as well…wishing and
praying for her to be okay.
Chapter 16
The next morning when John woke up…He noticed he was still in
Christina’s bed, but he was there alone. John sat up and moved around a little
for the life of him he kept getting the feeling that something was wrong…but he
just couldn’t figure out what it was.
He pushed himself out of the bed and saw a trail of clothes that led into the
bathroom. They were the clothes Christina had been wearing the night before. He
rubbed his hands over his face trying to wake himself up as he walked into the
bathroom…No water was running and the curtain to the tub was closed…John said,
“Morning Chris…” Nothing came back…John said, “Chris?” A few minutes later,
“Christina.” John saw something out of the corner of his eyes as he looked over
at the mirror above the bathroom sink and his heart fell into his stomach…
Written in blood on the mirror it said ‘What a Life…I quit.’ John could feel
his whole body shaking from head to toe as his attention was drawn back to the
bathtub. John gripped the plastic curtain in his hand and slowly pulled the
curtain back and the tub was filled with nothing but gallons of blood…a box of
opened razors were sitting in the corner of the tub.
John didn’t know what to do as panic set into his body and mind. His heart was
beating so hard he was sure it was going to bust out of his chest at any
minute. John hit his knees as he shoved his hands into the blood filled tub,
searching for Christina’s body…it felt as if there was no bottom to the tub…he
was up to his biceps in blood…it was coating his hands, forearms…and he
suddenly found a hand and it grabbed his hand…he started pulling and finally
got Christina’s head and torso above the red liquid.
John was holding onto her body because he didn’t want her to slip below the
liquid again. “HELP…SOMEONE HELP!!!”
He propped her against the back wall of the tub and ran out of the bathroom
looking for
Suddenly John bolted upright…
He was sitting in bed…
Christina’s bed to be more exact…
It had all been a dream…Thank God…
He started getting his breathing under control…Christina was missing from the
bed…but a few minutes later, she walked into her room, with nothing but a towel
around her body.
Christina looked over at John and said, “Morning sleepy head.” And disappeared
into her walk in closet…5 minutes later, she re-emerged in jeans, sneakers and
a t-shirt. She was running a brush through her hair and walked over and sat on
the bed facing John and touched his cheek. Christina said, “What’s the matter
big man? You don’t look like you slept that well.”
John shook his head and said, “I just had a weird dream is all…What time is
it?” Christina looked at her clock and said, “9 am…You still want to come with
me for my doctor’s appointment?” John watched as Christina got up and walked
out of the room and heard her blow dryer which meant she was drying her hair.
John suddenly realized it had been 3 months since the night Christina told him
about the cancer…and he’d become quite accustom to sleeping in her room with
her when he was home from the road. Not that either of them were complaining or
anything…they seemed to enjoy each others company…and since Christina still
hadn’t told the others about the cancer and her treatments…John was the only
one she could talk with.
When John would come home from being on the road with the WWE, they’d lay in
her room watching TV and talking and eventually would fall asleep in each
others arms…John liked her…he liked her a lot…and he was dying to make a move
on her, but he didn’t want her thinking he was attracted to her out of pity or
something.
Chapter 17
An hour and half, 10 vials of blood, 3 X-rays and 5 bottles of water
later, John and Christina were sitting in the waiting room…John had been
fidgety since he’d woken up…and now his knee was bouncing around like a smoker
having nicotin withdrawal. Christina was flipped through a magazine. When she
noticed John’s leg had the jitters. She started to say something when her pager
went off.
She looked at it…Every since she’d graduated college 2 weeks ago, she was a
full time Pediatric Doctor for the hospital…She said, “I have to go down to
Peds for a minute…Come walk with me…It will do you some good.” John nodded as
he stood up from his seat and Christina informed the nurse at the desk that
she’d be back to the Oncology floor as soon as she could, and if Dr. Williams
needed her sooner to page her.
John and Christina walked down the hall and stepped on the elevator…Christina
waited for the last person to get off the elevator and when it started going to
her floor she pushed the stop button and John said, “Why’d you do that?”
Christina set her purse down and said, “What’s going on with you today? Ever
since you woke up you’ve been acting weird.”
John said, “Shit…I have not…I’m just being myself.” Christina gave John a
knowing look and he said, “Don’t try to analyze me Doctor Welch. Stick with
what you know children.” Christina said, “Apparently I am…Not stop behaving
like a 5 year old and tell me what the hell is wrong.” John mumbled something
and then finally said, “You…okay…You are what’s wrong.”
Christina said, “Why me? I didn’t do anything.” John said, “You’ve been through
absolute hell for the last 5 months and yet you still finished college, and
you’ve always got a smile on your face…like fuckin life could be worse.” Christina
said, “That’s because life could be worse.” John said, “No it couldn’t…Look
around you Chris…You’re working with children who are dying, or could
potentially be dying and at the same fuckin time you’re getting chemotherapy
treatments that could potentially kill you.”
Christina shrugged her shoulders and said, “What am I supposed to do John? Sit
around feeling sorry for myself…That’s not how I work…and you know it…Why waste
time feeling sorry for myself when I could save one of those potentially dying
children from death itself? You know how you always tell me how much you love
wrestling and loved making the movie and the album, but if you had to
absolutely choose…it would be wrestling…because that’s all you ever wanted to
do with your life.”
John said, “Yea…So?” Christina said, “All I’ve ever wanted to be was someone
important to other people…someone who if life or death depended on someone
dying I would be there to save the day…And I’m doing that now…I’ve wanted to be
a doctor since I was 10…Because My mother and I were in a horrible accident
when I was 10 and I remember this lady doctor coming into the ER and telling
me, everything was going to be okay…She took care of me…John what’s this really
all about?”
John said, “I’ve just been having these really terrible dreams about you…and
I’m scared one of these times I’m going to wake up only to find out it came
true.” Christina touched John’s arm and he grabbed her hand…she looked in his
eyes and knew he was seriously scared for her…she took a step forward and threw
her arms around his shoulders and buried her face in the side of his neck and
she said, “I’m not going anywhere John…I refuse to give up…I promise.” John
held her close to him…he heard her pager going off again and hit the button for
the elevator to continue to the Peds unit.
After Christina finished her business in her office her and John went back to
Oncology…They were sitting in Dr. Williams’s private office and Chris felt like
she was in the principal’s office yet again for being in trouble. John took her
hand and laced his fingers with hers…Just letting her know he was there for
support.
Laura walked in and sat down and read through Christina’s chart as she looked
up and said, “Well…”
Chapter 18
Laura sighed and then extremely full of emotion said, “All your
tests came back negative!” Christina said, “But wait…Does that mean what I
think it does?” Laura smiled and said, “Yes…There’s no more traces of cancer in
your body…We got all of it!”
Christina and John both jumped up to their feet and John yanked Christina into
his arms and hugged her so tight he never wanted to let go. Christina looked at
Laura and said, “You’re sure right…Like completely 190 percent sure of this?”
Laura smiled and said, “I had them run the test 5 times Chris…If it was going
to be a false negative it would’ve showed up in at least one test…but all 5
tests came back negative…You’re completely cancer free.”
Christina breathed a sigh of relief…
Finally.
It was over.
John and Christina walked out of the hospital in silence. As soon as they were
in the parking lot…Christina stopped walking and closed her eyes as she looked
up and felt the sun on her face. It felt warm and inviting. John had been
talking and didn’t notice Christina had stopped…When she didn’t respond to his
question he looked back and saw her in the middle of the parking lot just
staring at the sky.
John walked back over and stood in front of Christina and said, “Chris, are you
okay?” Christina looked into John’s eyes and smiled the biggest smile he’d ever
seen on her face since he’d met her. Christina said, “I’m fuckin ok.” And threw
her arms around John as he hugged her tight and lifted her off the ground and
spun her around in circles. Her laugh was enough to let him know she was about
as happy as she had been her whole life.
Later that night John had gone out with Marc while Christina, Trina and Cali
stayed at the house and made 3 different home made pizzas…While they were
cleaning up the kitchen Sam and Derek came home from their romantic dinner
date…The girls had put a CD on and had the stereo bumping the entire house…and
the girls were dancing around the kitchen.
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Baby you pretend that
Things ain’t what they seem
All this tension tellin me just
Exactly what we should be
now I don’t mind us
Bein some kinda casual thing
Listen all I want to do for now is
Have you come and take all of me.
Can you
Put your hands on my waistline
Want your skin up against mine
Move my hips to the baseline
Let me get mine you get yours.
Hang a please don’t disturb sign
Put my back into a slow grind
sending chills up and down my spine
Let me get mine you get yours
*****************************
About that time Marc and John walked into the house and were wondering what the
hell was going on, because they could hear the stereo outside. As they got into
the kitchen arms, legs and bodies were dancing all over the room. Trina turned
and saw Marc and John and ran over and jumped on Marc…He was laughing at her so
hard he fell back with her in his arms and she was sitting straddled on his
lap.
Christina hadn’t heard them come in yet and when a hand touched her waist…she
knew it was John just be the softness of the touch and by the size of the hand.
She held his hand on her hip as she turned around and said, “Dance.” And winked
at him.
How could he say no?
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If you see me with a man
Understand that you can’t question me
The feelin’ s that you caught
Ain’t my fault can’t help your jealousy
If you can handle the fact that
What we have has get to be commitment free
Then we can keep this undercover lovin`
Comin` hidden underneath the sheets
Can you
Put your hands on my waistline
Want your skin up against mine
Move my hips to the baseline
Let me get mine you get yours
Hang a please don’t disturb sign
Put my back into a slow grind
sending chills up and down my spine
Let me get mine you get yours
So come on and freak my body
We can get nasty, naughty
All night a private party
Gotta hit that spot just right
Work me like a 9 to 5
It ain’t about the kissin` and huggin`
Cause this is a physical lovin`
Straight sweatin`, our bodies are rubbin`
Gotta hit that spot just right
Work me like a 9 to 5
*****************************
John gripped Christina’s hand and spun her around so her back was against his
chest as they continued dancing…Cali, Sam, Derek, Trina and Marc didn’t even
notice them…It was as if they were in their own little world.
Christina was really enjoying the feel of John’s hands on her as they danced to
the beat of the music.
John loved every minute of having Christina in his hands and having her so
close to his body…if he wasn’t careful she’d definitely notice John’s body
responding to hers.
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We have a physical thing
We make love, but don’t fall in love
Let me get mine you get yours
We spend time…Just enough so
You get yours and I get mine
No strings attached
I want your body…Not your heart
Put your hands on my waistline
Want your skin up against mine
Move my hips to the baseline
Let me get mine you get yours.
Hang a please don’t disturb sign
Put my back into a slow grind
sending chills up and down my spine
Let me get mine you get yours
Put your hands on my waistline
Want your skin up against mine
Move my hips to the baseline
Let me get mine you get yours.
Hang a please don’t disturb sign
Put my back into a slow grind
sending chills up and down my spine
Let me get mine you get yours
Come here
Don’t be shy
I won’t bite
Let me get mine, you get yours
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Too bad they couldn’t get the guts to just tell each other they liked one
another…Wimps!
Chapter 19
About 2 months later, Christina found herself at John’s parent’s
house for another BBQ. She also found herself sitting in the grass watching the
boys play football…Trina was sitting next to her and they naturally had been
cheering for the team opposite John and Marc.
John had been eyeballing Christina since she’d sat down in the grass with
Trina. She had on short red shorts and a white halter top that tied around her
neck…Her long tan legs were stretched out in front of her with her feet in
white socks and red sneakers…her long hair was pulled back into a pony tail as
he watched her laugh about something Trina had said.
Trina said, “All this testosterone around and I may have to go to the doctor
tomorrow for an estrogen shot.” Christina laughed and said, “Not as bad as
living with the man of all men John. You think living with Marc is bad…Please
he ain’t got nothing on his cousin. John and his working out, cooking meals,
blah, blah, blah…And he seems to think that only women should clean, so Cali
and I have decided to stage a protest until he learns to clean the same toilet
seat he likes to not remember to put down and also pees on.”
Trina said, “Oh I trained Marc the first month we were together…I woke up at 2
am to pee and because he didn’t put the seat back down I nearly fell into the
toilet bowl…From then on I would yell every time…or take his stupid PS2 games
away from him.” Christina said, “Oh Thanks! You just gave me a few great ideas.
The only thing sacred to John is his vehicle and his PS2…Finally a break!” As
they both began to laugh
John looked up from his position in the line and said, “If you women can’t keep
the noise level down to a minimum well have to throw a couple of penalties at
the team your cheering for…which just happens to not be us…Look at that Marc,
your own woman isn’t even cheering for you…That’s sad.” Marc just nodded and
said, “Welcome to my life cuz.”
Christina stood up with Trina and said, “No…What’s sad is that you think
running a few feet for a touch down at medium speed is awesome…” Trina couldn’t
help but laugh. John walked over and looked at Christina and said, “What? You
can do better?” Christina squinted a glare at John and said, “A lot better then
your fat heels could move you.”
John said, “Fine…Trina you wanna throw your 2 cents in?” Trina gave John the
finger as she walked over to the opposite team of John and Marc as John’s
brothers Dan and Matt sat on the sidelines and just waited to watch Trina and
Chris smoke their brother and cousin.
John and Marc watched as Christina and Trina took their place in a huddle and
talked with the guys in the team…John said, “Are we gonna play ladies or play
Barbie’s all day?” Christina poked her head out and said, “Stuff it hoodrat.”
Matt and Dan’s laughter could be heard through the entire back yard.
When they came out of the huddle and lined up…Christina and Trina were on the
end. John watched as Christina moved her feet around and knees…Christina winked
at him as John’s brother yelled, “Hut!” Trina ran over and tackled Marc as
Christina ran into the middle and Sean threw the ball…It spiraled through the
air as Christina jumped up and caught it and took off running down the
sideline. John tried catching her but as proved before she was definitely
faster then him and left him in the dust.
Matt and Dan were dying laughing on the sideline as they watched their brother
get his ass whipped by a female. John stood there with his hands on his hips
breathing hard as Christina walked by and wasn’t breathing hard and didn’t even
have a hair out of place as she tossed the ball to John and said, “I believe
that was a touch down.”
John said, “You mind telling me what the hell you just did?” Christina smiled
and said, “Scored for my team…and left you breathless.” She winked at him again
and said, “Oh look…I think it’s time for a break.” Both teams scattered for
water, bathroom breaks, and food before even attempting to go back.
Chapter 20
John tossed the ball over his shoulder as he followed Christina into
the house and to the kitchen.
Christina filled two glasses with water and handed one to John as she pushed
herself up to the counter…John stood next to her leaning against her legs and
the bare skin rubbed against his forearms…Christina’s senses were heightened
when John’s arm brushed against her leg and she stared at his back…His baseball
cap was on backwards and he was shirtless in his cargo jean shorts…She couldn’t
help but admire his shirtless back and shoulders…She’d admire his chest if he
had been facing her.
She pulled his hat off his head and he turned around and gave her that cute
glare he’d used on TV…Christina pulled his hat on her head as she hopped down
from the counter…and faced John and said, “Guess what?” John said, “What?”
He watched as she moved closer to him…he was so close, he could just lean down
and kiss her…Christina bit her lip and said, “I think you’re all wet.” He was
thinking dirty thoughts but wasn’t about to say something to earn him a slap…so
he just said, “How?” Christina pulled on the belt of his shorts and dumped the
cold water from her glass down the front of his jean shorts and said, “That’s
how…” As she took off out the back door.
Marc and Trina watched as Christina ran out of the house laughing…They had been
rough housing since the football game took an intermission…Then suddenly saw
John run out of the house and stopped at the ice chest and pulled out a couple
of bottles of water…as he took off after Christina…They noticed the front of
his shorts was soaked like he’d peed himself…
After running from John for a good 10 minutes…she was getting tired…and stopped.
That would be the time John grabbed her and dumped the bottles of water on her.
After a few minutes of wrestling back and forth with Marc and Trina. John’s
father went over and hosed all four of them down with the house hose.
It was a good thing they all brought a spare change of clothes. They all got
dried off and changed into dry clothes…Most of the other family members had
left but since the four of them were going to stay the night and watch movies
with John’s parents…they weren’t really going anywhere. A few hours
later…they’d gotten through a couple of movies and Christina had volunteered to
make popcorn so she was gliding her way through the kitchen…John walked in to
check on her and he said, “How are you feeling?” Christina turned and smiled and
said, “Not too bad.”
John moved a piece of stray hair from Christina’s face and said, “You look
tired.” Chris nodded and said, “I feel a little tired…I’ve never had so much
fun…Just running around and doing stupid stuff all day…Acting like a
child…playing football with you guys and the water fight was fun.” John said,
“For whom? I’m the one that got ice cold fridge water down the front of my
shorts…Thanks.” Christina couldn’t help but laugh and said, “Oh c’mon you
enjoyed it…you know it…It’s the most action you’ve seen for a while.”
As she walked out of the kitchen with two bowls of popcorn and when went back
in for more. John was still standing there with his mouth open…She said, “You
do a great impression of a fish.” She started to walk away again, when John’s
hand on her arm stopped her. He turned her to face him as he took the bowls of
popcorn from her and set them on the counter and turned back to her.
John cupped Christina’s face and leaned down and captured her lips. When they
separated Christina said, “That was…nice.” John could tell by the tone of her
voice and said, “But?” Christina said, “But…I’m not ready for a relationship
yet John…I’ve only been cleared of caner for 2 months…I don’t even have all my
strength back…As much as I want to continue what you just made very clear to
me…I want to get my health at 100 percent before I jump into something that I’m
not ready for.”
John said, “No, I fully agree…It’s just…I’ve been wanting to kiss you since
that day at the house when we got into a fight and I dumped your meds…Don’t ask
me why then, cause even I don’t know.” Christina smiled and said, “Well…Hell,
you kiss me like that every time…and you can kiss me when ever you want to.”
John couldn’t help it as he pulled her closer and kissed her again.
Pulling away they grabbed the popcorn and Christina said, “Any more of those
kisses and it we could very well get ourselves into trouble…But I’m willing to
risk it.” John just smiled as he shut the light off and followed Chris into the
living room to resume movies…Hopeful about a dating future with Christina.
Chapter 21
A couple of weeks later, Christina was sitting at home on a Sunday
Night. She’d watched the PPV and was cleaning up the house busy worrying about
John…She’d seen the I quit match he had that night and he was so tore up it
wasn’t funny…From top to bottom he was covered in blood. Not just his own but
the other guys as well too…John Bradshaw Layfield.
Christina was fighting the urge to call and check up on John…She was walking
down the stairs to go do a load of laundry when she heard the front door
clothes as she looked over she saw John standing there with his bloody clothes
on he dropped his bag on the ground. Christina’s eyes met John’s as she took
off down the stairs and tossed her laundry basket to the side…She ran over to
John and threw her arms around him.
John held onto Christina and said, “I told you not to watch.” Christina
sniffled and said, “I’m sorry, I couldn’t help it…I turned the TV off about 15
times…but I kept coming back to turn it back on.” John said, “Are you okay?”
Christina stepped away and took in his appearance…And said, “You’re asking me
that…when you’re covered in head to toe blood.” John said, “Well yea…I just
want to make sure.”
Christina held out her hand and John took it as she led him upstairs into the
bathroom and started the shower for him. She looked at him and tugged his
sweatshirt and t-shirt off, and he kicked his shoes and socks off and she
handed him a couple of towels and said the toss his jean shorts and boxers out
the door and she’d wash it all.
Christina left the bathroom and John stripped down and handed her his things
with the door between them as he stepped into the shower and let the nights
events wash down the drain. Christina started the load of laundry and then made
her way back upstairs.
As she was about to walk by the bathroom…the door flew open and John stepped
out and actually looked more like himself…well if looking more like himself
meant he had water drops running down his chest with a white towel secured
around his waist…Then sure, he looked more like himself. Christina looked up
and said, “C’mon you’re bandage is soaked.” She took his hand and led him into
her bedroom where her bathroom was and sat him on the toilet lid as she gently pulled
the bandage off…And made a face.
John smiled softly and said, “What?” Christina said, “It looks awful…” She
walked over and pulled a q-tip out with peroxide and cleaned the stitches up
and then put liquid band aid on it and held his head still as she leaned down
and blew across the wet liquid to dry it faster. She stood up straight and
said, “There…That will hold better then a band aid and you can shower and won’t
have to worry about it getting wet.” John stood up and said, “Thanks Chris.”
Christina looked up from her hands and finally noticed how close John was to
her…She smiled softly and said, “I’m glad you’re okay…The match looked really
bad.” John said, “I told you not to watch it for a reason…I knew you’d worry.”
Christina smiled and said, “Yea, but I wouldn’t be me if I didn’t worry at
least a little.”
Christina looked down and noticed he had some purple and blue bruises forming
around his ribs…her hands slowly went out and touched his discolored skin…John
sucked in a breath…He loved feeling her hands on his body…the skin on skin
contact was something that always got to him. Her soft fingers and hands were
caressing him. John couldn’t stand it anymore as he leaned down and captured
her lips. John’s arm went around her waist as he pulled her closer to his body.
Chapter 22
John lifted Christina into his arms as he carried her into her
bedroom after making sure the door was closed and locked, he slowly laid down
on the bed next to her.
Christina leaned over and kissed him…and surprisingly enough he kissed her
back…his hand went to her hip and then around her waist and pulled her
closer…John’s hand slid down her thigh to the back of her knee…and he pulled
her leg around his thigh…and was rubbing the back of her thigh as the kissing
got a little more intense…John’s hand traveled up the back of her panties to
her booty…his hand was so warm on her skin…Christina was running her fingers
through his hair…
John rolled over until he was situated half on her and half off of her…his free
hand slowly crept up her body to the bottom of her bra, undoing the clasp…and
he slowly started sliding it off…he looked up at her and just stared at her
eyes like he was asking permission to remove her bra…Christina smirked a little
and then nodded her approval of him removing her bra…so he finished sliding it
all the way up and off her arms…he tossed it next to the bed…the first thing
her now naked cold breasts came in contact with was his warm chest…her nipples
were hard enough to cut out someone’s eye…but soon softened up under his body
heat…
John started to slowly lick and kiss his way down her neck across her collar
bone, and down in the valley between her breast…then soon started a full out
assault on her nipples, lick, sucking, nipping between his teeth but not too hard…just
enough to get her aroused by it…which she will admit…it was working. Then he
kissed and licked down to her navel where he pulled on her navel ring with his
teeth for a few minutes…and then went a little lower…he was placing kisses all
along her hips, legs, knees, calves, then went back up and grabbed the string
of her panties that was across one of her hips with his teeth and started
pulling them off with his teeth…and dispose of them…
His erection had been present the whole time…Christina could feel it being
rubbed all over her body any time he moved…John crawled back up to face her…and
he pushed her knees apart…Christina’s hands slowly slid down his body as she
gripped the towel that had been placed around his hips after his shower and she
pulled it loose from his body and dropped it to the floor…
John looked at her with smoke filled blue eyes and in the sweetest softest
voice he said, “Christina…Tell me you want this too…Please…Tell me what you
want.” Christina moaned as her warm breath caught John on the side of the neck
and she said, “I want you…Please John…I want you inside of me.”
John positioned his the head of his erection at the opening of her wet
center…and he kissed her as he started sliding his erection into her…Christina
could feel her walls expanding and expanding…John took one of her hands and
laced their fingers together…as he slowly pushed himself all the way into
her...he could tell by how tight she was, she hadn’t had sex in a long time.
Once John had sheathed himself all the way in her…he laid there perfectly still
for a few minutes, letting her get used to his size…He slowly started moving in
and out of her…She was moaning when he’d push in from all the pleasure…and
groan when he’d pull out, cause she felt empty…
Pretty soon, John grabbed her hips and rolled them over to where Christina was
sitting straddled on him and he said, “Ride me baby.” Christina smiled and
that’s exactly what she started doing…John had a firm grip on her hips…helping
her glide up and down his erection…Christina leaned down and kissed him and he
sat up while still working her up and down him…John wrapped his arms around her
and said, “Jesus…girl you are tight…” John growled a little and said, “Damn,
baby, you feel so good on me…it feels like you were made especially for me…”
Christina said, “Well…Maybe I was…”
Christina threw her head back and her long hair trickled over John’s arms…as
his one hand found her butt and was trying to pull her closer…as if that could
happen…you couldn’t have gotten a single strand of hair between them as it
was…then he suddenly stood up with her still on him and moved around and laid
back down with her under him again…Christina wasn’t complaining…she liked him
being between her thighs…John’s thrusts were getting harder, faster and
definitely deeper…much, much deeper…Christina was going crazy out of her mind…
John could feel her walls starting to shutter around him….tightening and
releasing…and he knew her obviously building orgasm was approaching fast…he
started going deeper…Christina thought if he went much deeper…he’d never find
his way out with out a wet suit and a mining helmet…
Christina started grinding her hips into his as his thrusts were so
wonderful…John said, “That’s it…c’mon…just let yourself go…I want you to cum for
me…c’mon Chris…I want to hear you cum for me…c’mon baby girl.” Christina said,
“Oh god JJJJJooooohhhhhhnnnnn.” As she called his name her climax hit her…which
as soon as he felt her release…he soon followed and growled out a furious
climax as well…as she felt him explode deep inside of her…
John didn’t collapse on top of her…cause he didn’t want to crush her…he pulled
out and laid next to her…pulling her over and Christina laid her head on his
chest, listening to his breathing and heart beating slow down…as hers slowed
down with his…They both ended up falling asleep.
Chapter 23
- -5 Months Later- -
Christina was slowly waking up and should feel a hand on her outer thigh
moving…It slowly moved up across her bottom to her waist as her eyes slowly
fluttered open as she noticed John’s blue eyes staring back at her…
John leaned over and pushed his forehead against Christina’s and said, “What
the hell did we do last night?” Christina laughed and said, “What you don’t
remember?” As her laughter filled the bedroom.
The night before everyone in the house had gone out and celebrated Cali’s
birthday and engagement to the doctor.
John scoffed and said, “Yea obviously.”
As he leaned in and captured her lips. John nearly came unglued when Christina
moaned into his mouth. John slowly pulled back and looked at Christina and
said, “Maybe we should get up, before we can’t.” Christina’s hands slowly slid
up his stomach and abs as she kissed his lips softly and said, “Why? I’m
content staying here all day.”
John looked at her and said, “You really are…aren’t you? I’ve never seen you
this relaxed before.” Christina said, “It’s not often when we can relax like
this.”
John couldn’t help but agree with her as he rolled over onto his back as he
stretched out and was suddenly aware he was still naked under the sheets…he
looked over and noticed Christina was looking at him and that she also had on
black lace shorts and a matching tank top.
John laughed and said, “When did you get dressed?” Christina smiled and stifled
a laugh and said, “I had to pee in the middle of the night…As soon as the cold
hit me, I knew I needed something on…Besides it’s just my panties and tank
top…I always sleep in it.”
John turned over on his sides as he gripped Christina’s hips and pulled her
closer to him and said, “Yea but now you look so sexy, I’m gonna have to get
you naked again.” As he started kissing on her neck as she started laughing,
because he was tickling her neck.
A few hours later they both decided to finally get up. John sat in the living
room with his jean shorts and socks on and a blue t-shirt. Soon Christina
followed him down the stairs, but was on her cell phone talking with Derek and
Sam about making it home okay, but John not remembering anything from the night
before. John could hear them laughing on the cell and shook his head as he was
flipping through the ESPN channels…trying to find anything about his damn
Boston teams.
Christina was laughing when she heard a guttural growl come from John as he was
trying to find the station he wanted…She hung up only to have her cell ring a
second later…It had been Cali…she was talking frantically and told her to find
a news channel and fast…there was something there she’d want to see…and NOW.
Christina hung up and leaned over the couch and took the remote from John as
she stood there watching the news about a man named Jerry Wellington…who was
the owner of the NFL’s New York Giants…He’d died in his sleep from a heart
attack…Christina could feel the tears brimming on her eyes lids. John got up
and stepped over the back of the couch and touched her hand…
Christina looked over at John and he said, “What is it? Who is that guy?”
Christina blinked as the tears slid down her cheeks slowly…It pained John to
see her like that…but he wasn’t sure what to do. Christina wiped the stray
tears away and said, “That’s my step-father…” John pulled her into his arms and
let her cry…she needed it…
Part of her life time nightmare was over…but in some ways that no body knew
about…A new nightmare was just about to begin.
Chapter 24
Standing in the cemetery, Christina was far enough away from the
funeral cade that she couldn’t be seen. She had on black satin pants and black
open toed heels. Plus a white satin blouse and a black long knee length sweater
with a hood which she had up…New York was cold this time of year…even though
the sun was out it was getting close to winter…
She stood under the tree with her arms folded in front of her chest, her dark
black sunglasses hiding her red blood shot eyes…she couldn’t hear what the
minister was saying, but she could see her mother crying…she knew it was a
distinct possibility that her mother never loved her biological father.
Christina looked over in the same cemetery and saw the lone tombstone with the
last name Welch across it. A few more tears slid down her cheeks as she thought
about how much she missed her father…he’s been gone for 14 years now…and it
still felt like she’d lost him yesterday. The drunk driver who’d taken his life
was still doing his time up at New York State Prison.
Christina saw the people slowly giving her grieving mother their sympathy as
they slowly walked back to their vehicles and left. Christina said a silent
prayer as she walked over and knelt down in front of her biological father’s
grave. A few minutes later a voice said, “Excuse me do you know Christopher
Welch?” Christina recognized the voice as she stood from the ground and as she
turned around let her hood down from her head and pulled her hair out and said,
“I should…He was my father.”
Christina was staring back at Nancy, her mother who had a shocked look on her
face…Like she was never expecting to see her own flesh and blood daughter
again. Her mother said, “Christina?” Chris said, “Nope…The Easter bunny…her
body was just my disguise.” Nancy scoffed in disgust and said, “I’m in no mood
for your smart mouth Christina…I buried my husband today.”
Christina said, “Yea I saw it on the news and decided to come pay my respects
to the deceitful old bastard.” Nancy stood their in shock and said, “You came
to be a hateful person Christina there’s no reason to be that way…Don’t you
even have a hug for your mother.” Christina scoffed and laughed a little then
said, “I would if my mother was here. But since she’s not…I came to pay my respects
to my real father and well…to that asshole in the ground over there.” Nancy
said, “You’re still my daughter Christina.”
Christina laughed and said, “You’re kidding right? No you can’t act this dumb
and forget everything…It’s only been 3 ½ years Nancy. My real mother Nancy
Welch was a loving caring person and when my father Christopher Welch died…I
think she went ahead and died right along with him. You’re not my mother
because she had me declared legally dead, because her bastard of a second husband
convinced her I was lying to her.”
Christina sighed and said, “But you see something Nancy…I ain’t dead…on the
contrary…I’m about as alive as one person could be. I’m happy with my life…And
you’ll never know who I became because you screwed up the old part of my
life…The new part of my life doesn’t involve you. And after the way you treated
me…How could anyone blame me.”
Nancy said, “I’m sorry you feel that way Chris.”
Christina said, “Don’t call me Chris like were old friends or even
acquaintances…because were not…were nothing…You’re nothing to me, just like I
was nothing to you…I came to you 3 ½ years ago…and poured my heart out to you…I
was hand cuffed to a bed and raped for 3 days straight…3 DAYS! You have NO clue
what that feels like…to be used and abused by someone I considered my
family…and Jerry just turned around and turned you against me…and you just blew
me off in court…You just walked away…from me…Your own flesh and blood…off to
join your rich dick of a husband just cause you wanted the money more then you
wanted your own daughter.”
Christina wiped her tears as she pulled out a bunch of folded up papers…and
said, “Well…you got your money…except now I can get mine…I went to your
attorney yesterday and handed him the one thing that proved I was Christopher
Welch’s daughter…My birth certificate…in some ways you’re as stupid as you ever
was MOM…The money in my trust fund was transferred to my bank in
Massachusetts…and in tomorrows New York Post…and every other Newspaper from
here to Hawaii will have the story of Nancy Wellington, widow of Christopher
Welch and his business partner Jerry Wellington. And how she maliciously had
her daughter declared dead for 3 ½ years just so she couldn’t get her trust
fund.”
Nancy held her chest and said, “You wouldn’t…I’m your mother!”
Christina said, “No you’re not my mother…You might have been at one point…but
Dr. Christina Welch doesn’t have a mother…Her mother died in the same car
accident as her father.”
Christina pulled the hood back up and said, “It was nice meeting you Nancy
Wellington…Let’s not meet again like this in the future.”
A smirked played on Christina’s lips as she walked away to get in the Lincoln
Navigator that John was waiting for her in…She got in and John said, “Are you
ok?” Christina smiled softly and said, “No…But I will be now.”
Chapter 25
A couple of weeks later, John and Christina had been together
officially 6 months and were laying on the bed in each others arms talking and
just enjoying each others company. John took both of Christina’s hands in his
as he rolled them over and situated himself between her legs as she wrapped
them around his waist. John let go of her hands and was propped up on his
elbows as they were talking about her day at the hospital.
John was shirtless and Christina was tracing patterns on John’s left shoulder
and right forearm as she was talking with him as he listened intently to her.
John loved her little idiosyncrasies when she was talking and would start
absentmindedly doing things to his skin with her finger tips.
Christina said, “Ey yo…53 kids in 8 hours…that has be some kind of world
record…The flu is going around so bad and those poor kids were so miserable. I
had to admit some of them to the hospital cause they had fevers spiking over
104…I felt so bad for the poor things…I just wanted to bring them home and help
make them better.”
John said, “You did what you could for them baby…You can’t heal the world…Only
the patients you see day to day.” He leaned down and lifted her t-shirt a
little and kissed her navel. Christina pulled his backwards hat off and tossed
it to the side of the bed and touched the band aid on his head where the 10
stitches were…as she cringed inwardly and said, “How’s your head?”
John said, “Still hard as ever…It’s okay, nothing is damaged that can’t repair
itself…I promise.” Christina started to sit up as John backed up and sat on his
knees…Each one of Christina’s long legs were draped over one of his thighs…She
reached up and brought John’s head forward as she softly kissed over the band
aid.
John’s hands slid up and pulled her tank top off and he helped her wiggle out
of her shorts and panties as his hands slid under her read-end and picked her
up and she rapped her legs around his waist as he moved his legs from behind
him to in front of him as he sat Indian style with her. He could feel her hands
working inside of his jean shorts and boxers going for what they both craved at
the moment…sexual release.
John kissed along her neck and jaw line as he felt her free his erection…he
lifted her slightly and almost as if his erection had a mind of it’s own as
soon as he was putting her back down his hard on slid right into her. Both
moaning at the contact. John slowly pushed off from the bed as he walked her
over to the wall.
John grabbed her hands and held them against the wall as he started thrusting
in and out of her body, listening to her moaning...Begging him to go faster,
deeper and harder. John couldn’t stop himself as he started snapping his hips
forward and slamming into her warm welcoming body. As fast as the sex session
had started it ended just as fast with them both crying out when their orgasms
swept over them.
John pressed his forehead against Christina’s and said, “I love you Chris.”
Christina caught her breath and said, “I love you too John.”
Naturally their moment had to be ruined when the door bell rang. John placed
Christina on her feet and kissed her lips softly and said, “You expecting
someone?” Christina suddenly felt the blush creep into her cheeks and said, “I
completely forgot your mom was supposed to come by today and bring me some of
your baby pictures.”
John started laughing…He couldn’t help it. He watched as Christina flew around
the room pulling her panties and shorts back on and the yanked on her tank top
and smacked him in the ass a good one as he laughed…She was like…I think you
should fix yourself before you go down to see your mother.” John looked down
and hadn’t noticed when he stood up from the bed his shorts and boxers had
fallen down around his ankles.
John laughed some more as he pulled his pants up and watched Chris take off out
the door and bounded down the steps, John hot on her heels. She got 6 steps
from the door and John jumped over the banister and got to the door before her
and opened it. Christina slid under John’s arm and John grabbed her waist to
keep her from falling.
They were both laughing…and John stopped once he saw Christina’s laughter had
stopped. John looked over to the gentleman on the other side of the threshold
and he said, “Is there something we can do for Mr…?”
Christina said, “Jack Wellington…”
Chapter 26
Christina stood there in front of John staring at her
step-brother…John said, “Jack Wellington…You mean…He’s the guy who…” Before
John could finish his sentence he tried to push past Christina but she was
expecting it as she planted her feet on the floor and her hands gripped the
door frame. Jack took a couple of steps back.
Christina pushed back against John as did a quick turn around as she put her
hands against John’s chest and started pushing as hard as she could…He wasn’t
moving too much but she got him back at least a foot and closed the door and
said, “John…It won’t solve anything. He’s got enough money to bury you in court
and jail if you touched him…It’s not worth it…I’m gonna go tell him to get the
hell out of here…you go calm down please.”
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Why, you wanna tell me how to live my life
Who, are you to tell me if it's black or white
Mama, can you hear me? Try to understand
Is innocence the difference between a boy and a man
My daddy lived the lie, it's just the price that he paid
Sacrificed his life, just slavin' away
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John looked at Christina’s pleading eyes as he kissed her forehead softly and
said, “I’ll be in my room if you need something.” Christina nodded and leaned
up and kissed his cheek and said, “Thank you my white knight.” As she winked at
him and turned and went out the door.
John didn’t like letting her go alone with the same creep who raped her with
his 3 friends…but he knew what ever demons she had to face she had to do it
alone. John rubbed the back of his head and neck and headed upstairs and
decided to shower first and then would lay across his bed…and let Christina
come to him.
Meanwhile outside, Christina walked over to the black stretch limo where Jack
was standing with his hands in his pockets, and she said, “I don’t know what
the hell you’re trying to pull by being here Jack…But I suggest you leave…I
paid my respects to your father at his funeral…I don’t owe him you or Nancy
anything else…I lost 2 years of my life because of you, Byron, Tim, Henry and
Nick…I’m not about to let you come walking back in to try and fuck with me
more.”
Jack smirked as he walked over and stood so close to her she could smell the
alcohol on his breath, the cologne on his neck and shampoo he used in his hair
as he said, “C’mon Christina…you know you enjoyed that as much as we did…I mean
I always wanted to try incest…why not on my step-sister…she was and still is a
hot piece of ass.”
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Ohh, if there's one thing I hang onto
That gets me through the night
I ain’t gonna do what I don't want to
I'm gonna live my life
Shining like a diamond, rolling with the dice
Standing on the ledge, show the wind how to fly
When the world gets in my face
I say…Have A Nice Day
Have A Nice Day
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Christina said, “Yea…I loved it so much that you had to handcuff me to the
fuckin bed to enjoy it. I’m warning you…Stay away from me, or you’ll wish you
had.” Jack walked around her and smelled the air around her and said, “I bet
your fucking the big guy huh…You smell of pussy juice…of course I’ve smelled
you before…that’s your own smell…So I’m willing to bet you had to give macho
man in there a nice piece of pussy so he’ll continue to let you live in his
house…otherwise you’d still be living on the street with your 3 trailer trash
friends.”
Christina couldn’t believe how much he knew about her…but then again…for some
reason…she really wasn’t surprised at all. Jack stood to the side of her, she
was biding her time as his hand cupped her breast and then ran down and groped
her panty and shorts covered crotch and said, “What do you say for old time
sake, I bend you over the trunk and give that pussy of yours a nice
stretching…of course if macho man there has stretched you out too much…Maybe
I’ll have to drill my way into that cut ass of yours…I’ve always wanted to try
anal sex with someone…who better then you.” As he groped her ass.
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Take a look around you, nothings what it seems
We're living in a broken home of hopes and dreams
Let me be the first to shake a helping hand
Anybody, brave enough to take a stand
I knocked on every door, on every dead end street
Looking for forgiveness
what's left to believe
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Christina looked at Jack and said, “You know what your problem is right now
Jack?” Jack scoffed and said, “No but I’m sure you’re going to tell me…”
Christina turned to face him and said, “You didn’t handcuff me this time.”
All of a sudden she pulled back her arm and punched him right in the nuts…as he
was groaning forward she brought her knee up and slammed it into his face as
hard as she could. And he flew back and landed on his back as blood poured out
of his nose while he was holding his crotch.
Christina stood over him and said, “I’m not some little girl who took your shit
back then…I let you use me once…You will NOT do it again…I refuse to let
you…Now get your sorry ass off this property or I swear to GOD…I’ll let John
come out here and beat the fuck out of you while I call the police and have you
arrested for trespassing. And if you come back again…What you got today will be
nothing compared to what will happen next time…I SWEAR on it.”
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Ohh, if there's one thing I hang onto
That gets me through the night
I ain't gonna do what I don't want to
I'm gonna live my life
Shining like a diamond, rolling with the dice
Standing on the ledge, show the wind how to fly
When the world gets in my face
I say…Have A Nice Day
Have A Nice Day
*****************************
She walked away and back into the house and closed, locked the door and set the
alarm…she watched from the window as Jack got up slowly and limped back to his
limo.
John got out of the shower and got redressed and went into his room and
Christina was laying across his bed…she’d fallen asleep…He couldn’t help but
feel bad…The stuff that had to of been going through her mind as he slowly slipped
into bed and without moving her or saying anything she rolled over and buried
her face in his chest as he wrapped his arms around her…as he let sleep take
over his body.
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Ohh, if there's one thing I hang onto
It gets me through the night
I ain’t gonna do what I don't want to
I'm gonna live my life
Shining like a diamond, rolling with the dice
Standing on the ledge, show the wind how to fly
When the world gets in my face
I say…Have A Nice Day
Have A Nice Day
When The world keeps trying
To drag me down
I've gotta raise my hands
Gonna stand my ground
I say…Have A Nice Day
Have A Nice Day
*****************************
Chapter 27
A couple of weeks later, John was sitting outside waiting for
Christina too get off work, cause as usual the Cena and Predka clans were doing
the barbeque thing at his parents place. And for once he wasn’t showing up
before everyone else…he was waiting for the one thing that seemed to make sense
in his Movie making, rap artist thriving, wrestling career. If nothing else
made sense then at least Christina and him being together did.
They were from two separate worlds…He was a hoodrat from the streets of
Massachusetts who’d made a career out of throwing people around the
professional wrestling ring…and she was a sophisticated lady who came from
money, had it all taken away from her, but remained the only intelligent life
form other then her father to come from the Welch family…Who made herself into
a Pediatric doctor.
John had been in the garage filling up the cooler with water, because he and
Christina weren’t big on drinking at the BBQ’s anymore because when they would
run around while playing football…Beer in the stomach never had a good
effect…so they stuck with water. John popped the back gate on his Lincoln
Navigator and then dropped the tailgate as he lifted the cooler into the back
and slid it in.
John heard a car door close…he figured it was Christina finally getting home,
but when he turned around he was faced with Jack Wellington.
John said, “What? You didn’t get enough of an ass beating from Chris last time,
so you decided to come piss me off and we can have 12 rounds of throw down?”
Jack held up his hands and said, “Look…I just wanted to come get my wife…I’m
tired of her missing from my life.”
John stopped in his tracks and said, “What did you just say?”
Jack smirked on the inside, but kept a straight face the entire time and said,
“I just came to get my wife back…She disappeared 3 ½ years ago…I figured she
just needed to blow off some stem…Which it had been normal for her and her 3
delinquent friends to pose as homeless people in a junky ass hotel in New
York…for weeks at a time. And when she didn’t come back right away, I went
looking for her…I had a dozen people looking for her…But I never found her.”
John said, “How is it possible you two are married?”
Jack said, “Naturally My father is married to her mother…We’d dated
secretly…but when our parents found out we had to tell them we had fallen in
love…and it just happened. So we got married. I never thought I was going to
see her again…Then she showed up for my father funeral…and I figured I’d get
her back at last…but when I came here two weeks ago…I wanted to bring her back
then or get her to sign divorce papers…but she got violent and I figured I’d
leave and come back when it was a better time.”
John wasn’t sure what his face read. He wasn’t sure if he was shocked or
hurt…He didn’t know what to think or feel…It had been 30 minutes since Jack
came over and pleaded his case and left…John heard the front door to the house
open as he broke from his thoughts and saw Christina walk into the house…She
looked completely defeated…Obviously she’d had an insane day.
Wait a damn minute…What the hell was John thinking…She’d been lying to him all
this time…she was married to Jack…he’d never raped her…she lied about the
entire thing and what made it worse was that Cali, Sam and Derek were in on it
too…John thought he was helping them off the streets and here they were all
lying to him about their lives and pasts.
They all had to of been sitting back having a really nice hard laugh at John’s
expense…
John stood up from the couch as Christina walked towards him and said, “Hey
sweetie…Gimmie 3 minutes to shower and change and I’ll be ready to head over to
your parents.” She kissed his cheek and disappeared upstairs. John didn’t say
anything…What the hell could he say?
True to her word 3 minutes later, she was lacing her fingers with his and
pulling him out the front door in her jeans and a blue halter top with socks
and sneakers on.
They got to his parents place and the whole time John was supposed to be
playing football, he was really watching Christina with Cali and her fiancée
doctor laughing it up on the back porch. John couldn’t take it anymore…every
time he saw her laugh, he just felt like she was laughing at him…John walked
out of the game as he walked onto the porch, grabbed Christina’s hand and
pulled her behind him into the kitchen.
Christina came to an abrupt stop as John whipped around and said, “I had an
interesting visitor tonight before you got home.” Christina said, “Okay?” Not
sure where John was going with this. John said, “Jack Wellington…Why don’t you
tell me the story you’ve got with Jack.” Christina said, “I told you the whole
story the 2nd day I knew you…What else is to tell?” John said, “Oh I don’t
know…how about the fact you’re fuckin’ married to him?”
Chapter 28
Christina was taken back by John’s raised voice and said, “Are you high
John? Because only someone who is stoned would ask a woman if she was married
to the man who raped her with his friends…Have you completely lost your mind
John!”
Christina had a hold of John’s arms and he jerks his arms away from her and
said, “I haven’t lost my mind, but I’m close to realizing now why it was so
easy to get you to leave New York and sell moving to Massachusetts to you…You
were trying to get away from Jack…” Christina said, “Of course I was trying to
get away from him…I was running from a lot of things if you hadn’t noticed
John…My life was a total fuck up since that fuckin prick and his father came
into my life…Why on earth would you believe something Jack told you over me?”
John said, “He was awful convincing…I have to tell you…the look on his face
when he stood there and looked in my eyes and said all he wanted was his wife
back…He wasn’t lying…he wasn’t even bluffing.” Christina said, “It’s called a
poker face John…Has no one ever used one on you before? Jack Wellington is the
poster child, President and CEO for Bullshitters Anonymous. He can stand here
and look in your eyes and tell you a bullshit story like it was no bodies
business. He should be a lawyer or a politician because he has a Bachelor’s
Degree in Lying.”
John stayed quiet as he just looked at Christina trying to determine is she was
lying or if it was Jack who was lying.
Christina knew what his silence meant…John believed Jack…all the way…Christina
ran a shaky hand through her hair and said, “I don’t believe this…You think
he’s telling the truth and that I’ve been lying to you all along…right? Its
true isn’t…ISN’T IT? You think I’ve done nothing but lie to you for nearly 2
years, because you found me on the streets…and because Jack came to you as some
kind of standup lonely heart guy…you believe ever word of his lie to you.”
John watched as Christina blinked and tears slowly slid down her face…Christina
said, “I can’t believe you…After all the time it took me to fully trust you,
you stood by me during the cancer and when I went back to school for my
degree…there was no one who was cheering me on louder then you…be it at home or
over the phone when you was on the road…”
Christina sniffled trying to control the tears…but it wasn’t working as she
continued, “All the time I spent letting you in my life and becoming your
friend and then even now falling in love with you…You’re looking at me like I’m
a piece of garbage and I love you…God help me I do…But I don’t want to be with
you anymore…Not if you don’t know how to put your full trust into someone who
has done nothing but love you. I refuse to let you treat me like I’m nothing,
because a monster from my past came out of nowhere and lied to you and then
just disappeared back into nowhere.”
Christina held her hand out and said, “Key’s.” John looked at her and started
to say something when Christina said, “Give me the fuckin keys…I’m taking
myself back to you place and getting my things and I’m getting myself out of
the fucked up house…”
John said, “I don’t want you to leave…And I want to believe you.” Chris said,
“Oh…You want to believe me…How fuckin generous of you…I don’t have to prove
anything to you…NOTHING…” John placed the keys in her hand and as she started
to walk out the front door she stopped and turned back to John and said, “Oh by
the way…I suggest you practice safe sex John…Go fuck yourself.”
John watched as she walked out the door…letting it close behind her. John
walked over and watched her out the window…He watched as she got in the
navigator and broke down against the steering wheel…John was suddenly aware the
old saying was true…
Sad eyes never lie.
Christina left notes for Cali, Sam and Derek…She cleared out her entire room of
her clothing in a bunch of matching suit cases she’d gone and bought after she
left John’s parents house…packing everything in 3 big suitcases…Clothing in two
and shoes in the 3rd one. The only stuff left was the bed, dresser and night
stand that had been there when she moved in.
She packed down her convertible Mustang while she had the top down…She had
stopped by the hospital and talked with her supervisor briefly and he was very
understanding with everything she’d requested as she hit the freeway and
started driving. She couldn’t help but start crying…Once again Jack had managed
to fuck up her life…She was curious as to when she could be fully allowed to
live her life the way she wanted to…Apparently the time wasn’t now.
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I know somebody
And they cry for you
They lie awake at night
And dream of you
I bet you never even know they do
But somebody's crying
I know somebody
And they called your name
A million times
And still you never came
They go on loving you just the same
I know that somebody's trying
So please, return the love you took from me
Or please, let me know if it can't be me, I know when
Somebody's lying,
I know when somebody's lying
I know that somebody's lying
I know that somebody's lying
Give me a sign
And let me know we're through
If you don't love me
Like I love you
But if you cry at night the way I do
I'll know that somebody's lying
So please, return the love you took from me
Or please, let me know if it can't be me
I know when somebody's lying
I know when somebody's lying
Oh I, oh I......
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Chapter 29
It had been 6 months since Christina fell off the face of the
earth…At least to John that’s what had happened. He couldn’t find her
anywhere…He’d even got to the hospital the following morning and asked for her,
but her boss had said she’d asked for a transfer out of state and that she was
probably on her way there.
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You never looked so good
As you did last night
Underneath those city lights
There walking with your friend
Laughing at the moon
I swear you looked right through me
But I'm still livin' with your goodbye
And you're just goin' on with your life
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Cali had all but ripped John a new asshole for the way he’d treated
Christina…of course naturally she had to rub salt in the wound as she explained
about her getting pregnant from the guys who raped her and her brother beat the
shit out of her so bad she lost the baby, which was the definite turning point
to where John now understood exactly why Christina didn’t want to be found by
anyone in her family.
John was sitting at his kitchen table going through and paying his bills…he’d
come across an envelope with nothing but his name across the front of it…which
he thought was stranger, cause most of the fans didn’t have his home address…He
couldn’t imagine what it was as he opened the envelope and looked inside of it.
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How can you just walk on by
Without one tear in your eye
Don't you have the slightest
Feelings left for me
Maybe that's just your way
Of dealing with the pain
Forgetting everything
Between our rise and fall
Like we never loved at all
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There was something in it as John pulled it out…He felt his heart drop into his
stomach. It was a check for $5,600 to John from Christina…The memo on the
bottom said ‘Re-payment of school tuition and books’. John didn’t know what to
do with it…He didn’t want the money…He honestly didn’t want anything but
Christina back in his arms. He pushed the check back into the envelope and
stuffed it under the socks in his dresser.
Honestly what did he expect would happen after the way he’d treated her…?
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You, I hear you're doin' fine
Seems like you're doin' well
As far as I can tell
Time is leaving us behind
Another week has passed
And still I haven't laughed yet
So tell me what your secret is
To letting go like you did, like you did
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6 Months later, a year after Christina had left…She couldn’t stop herself from
watching wrestling…more specifically John. She tried to stop herself so many
times, but nothing was working. She’d even go out with her friends on Monday
nights…but somehow in the middle of the night would get scared cause she’d miss
seeing him and would excuse herself and drive all the way back home just so
should wouldn’t miss Monday Night Raw.
As luck would have it…Raw came to Christina’s new home town
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How can you just walk on by
Without one tear in your eye
Don't you have the slightest
Feelings left for me
Maybe that's just your way
Of dealing with the pain
Forgetting everything
Between our rise and fall
Like we never loved at all
*****************************
Christina had her normal days off Sunday and Monday. She went to the Arden Mall
in downtown Sacramento and was talking with a few cell phone dealers…her old
cell was starting to go out and she was definitely in the market for a new
one…She’d stopped to talk to a dealer when she heard a laugh that sounded
extremely familiar. Christina turned and saw John and his friend Randy Orton
walking through the mall carrying a couple of bags and signing autographs for
the fans that had stopped them.
She watched them for a couple of minutes…And then John looked up and met her
eyes. When he opened his mouth as if he was going to say something…Christina
turned around and walked away…She’d left the mall after that…she couldn’t make
herself stay there. Christina stopped by the hospital on her way home to pick
up her schedule and then went home. She had a message on her answering machine,
so as she kicked off her shoes and locked up the front door she hit play.
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Did you forget the magic
Did you forget the passion
Did you ever miss me
Ever long to kiss me......
Maybe that's just your way
Of dealing with the pain
Forgetting everything
Between our rise and fall
Like we never loved...at all......
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It was John’s voice…he said, “Hey Christina…I wish you wouldn’t have run off
today…I know you’re really mad at me, and I can’t blame you for that…I have to
blame myself all the way around…The whole thing was my fault, you leaving us
fighting…me believing Jack was my first mistake…and I wish I could take it
back…because if I had everything to do over I would’ve believed you…and not
just because I know what it’s like being without you now…but because I love
you…I loved you then and I still love you now…and from the bottom of my heart
I’m sincerely sorry about the whole thing…I really hope some day you can
forgive me…and I hope you come back to be…I doubt I have a prayers chance in
hell…but can’t blame a guy for trying to get back the one thing in his life he
loved more then his own life…Were leaving town tomorrow…I hope to hear from you
in the near future…even though I don’t deserve a second chance…I would love
one.”
The line went dead as Christina stared at the little black answering machine.
Chapter 30
Christina sat up straight in bed as she looked around her room…She
looked at the clock and it was
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Standing still but still moving
Lying down but not resting
Breathing air, suffocating
All the while, I'm debating
Life was never what I thought
Never what I wanted it to be
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She desperately wanted to call John…Just call him and hear his voice…she’d
practically worse the tape out on her answering machine listening to John’s
message over and over and over again…She couldn’t get enough of his smooth deep
voice. She CRAVED to hear it.
She thought back to everything that had happened in her life…Beginning with the
rape from Jack and his friends…Obviously not one of her fondest memories…then
of course there was sex with men for money to keep her and her 3 homeless
friends alive…Definitely not one of her finer moments in life.
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Had a plan, couldn't follow
Had a dream, it was hollow
Everywhere felt like nowhere
Everything was so boring
Life was never what I wanted
Never what I thought
Until you came and turned it all around
Oh, you found the piece of me
It was missing; it was broken
You put soul into it
Oh, you found the whole of me
I was empty, now I'm better
All my piece is back together
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She turned onto her side and the red numbers from the clock were staring back
at her the red glow was the only thing lighting the room. She could feel her
breathing pick up…she closed her eyes trying to get her breathing and emotions
under control.
‘Jesus Christ, Christina Marie Welch…Get yourself under control…He’s just a
man’ She berated herself. She couldn’t believe she was letting some man she met
off the streets effect her this much…He was nothing without her…she was
everything with or without him…she had to keep reminding herself of that.
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Restless ways for a living
Fitting in 'cause I was driven
Saying yes when I meant no
Holding on, should've let go
I was scattered all around
Left shattered on the ground
You picked me up
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Christina finally couldn’t take it anymore as she jumped up from the bed and
ran and jumped in the shower…She pulled on jeans, sneakers and a black hooded
pull over sweatshirt. Yanking her hair into a ponytail as fast as she could.
She took off out the door…she was driving through the streets of
It was a good thing it was early in the morning…Cops usually didn’t really hit
the streets until 6 or 7…she looked down at the clock in her car and it read
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All I wanted was a little bit of hope
Couldn't find it
You showed me something
That I never knew I owned
You put a light to it
Oh, you found the piece of me
It was missing; it was broken
You put soul into it
Oh, you found the whole of me
I was empty, now I'm better
'Cause you pieced me back together
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Christina was stopped and had to go through the metal detectors…the security
guard said, “You don’t have bags miss? Are you getting on a flight?” Christina
smiled and said, “No…If I’m extremely lucky…I’m gonna stop someone from getting
on a flight.” The guard said, “Why would you do that?” Christina smiled and
said, “Because I love him.” The guard gave her the go ahead and wished her luck
as he watched her take off running.
Christina turned the corner and came to a stop…The wrestlers that were left
were all sitting towards the middle of the seats of all the terminals.
Christina stepped up onto one of the seats and looked through the guys and
didn’t see him, she looked towards the American Airlines boarding counter and
saw John standing in line…his jean cargo shorts, baseball jersey and hat.
Backpack slung over his shoulder waiting for board.
Christina cupped her mouth and yelled, “JOHN!”
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What a life…Always tried
What a life…Lived without you
Don't leave me
And I won't…fall apart
I won't leave you
And it's cold
And I'm blind
And I would
And it feels good
What a waste…On my mind
Every time…All the time
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John heard someone call his name he turned around and looked and thought he was
going to have a heart attack…Christina was stepping over the seats and chairs
in the lobby trying to get to him. John stepped over the black velvet separator
and tossed his bag to someone as he ran over to her. He stopped about 3 feet
from her…She was breathing heavy like she’d just ran a marathon. John said,
“What are you doing here?”
Christina jumped down off the seats and said, “I don’t care what Jack said to
you…He died 4 months ago when he got hit by a drunk driver…I got the driver a
really good lawyer and he plead out to involuntary manslaughter and is only
doing 8 months on a work farm…Anyways…My point is…Since then I’ve been trying
to convince myself I didn’t need you…That I could make it with or with out
you…but the truth is…I don’t want to continue living without you…I don’t even
want to convince myself anymore…I’m over the whole damn thing…John I love you
so much that if you don’t touch me right now, I might die right here on this spot.”
John watched her blink as stray tears slid down her cheeks…He didn’t even need
a second to think about it as he stepped forward and yanked her into his arms,
holding her as close to him as he could listening to her cry telling him how
much she loved him and missed him. John pushed her back and captured her lips.
The other wrestlers standing around watching them couldn’t believe they’d
finally made it back to each other…and couldn’t help but clap, whistle and
cheer for them.
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Ooh, Oh – oh, oh-oh
Oh – Oh
Yea, Yea-Yea
Oh Yea – yea
Oh, Oh- oh, oh-oh
Oh, you found the whole of me
It was missing; it was broken
You put it back together
Oh, you found the whole of me
I was empty, now I'm better
'Cause you pieced me back together
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That was 6 months ago; John and Christina had since then got her moved back to
Massachusetts with him and married immediately. They are expecting their first
child in 7 months.
Laying in bed John said, “I never imagined I’d be married to a girl who had so
many pieces of herself missing and broken.”
Christina said, “I was empty…Now I’m better, cause you pieced me back
together."
The End.