I Disappear
Chapter 1
I’ve been modeling for the last 5
years with my best friend Heidi…We met a long time ago in Los Angeles,
California…our home town…we now spend 6 months in New York and 6 months in
LA. If we weren’t one place we were at
the other…
My name is Karen Martini…I’m 5’9” and
125 lbs…I have gray eyes and Brownish-blonde hair 3 inches past my waist…Heidi
was 5’6” 120lbs, with long curly red hair and green eyes…
Lately we had been modeling swimsuits
for Sports Illustrated in Hawaii…but then while we were on our way back to LA,
we got a call from our agent Jack…he said that there was a New designer in LA
who wanted us to model clothes for the catalog that was getting ready to come
out. We were both excited and couldn’t
wait to get started…
The morning of the shoot I was driving
my Bright red
Heidi said, “Wow…someone is in an
awfully pissy mood…what happened did Jon not return
your call?” She would be referring to
Jon from Bon Jovi…I smacked the steering wheel as we
stopped at the red light and I glared at Heidi…
I said, “Okay hello? I gave the man everything he could possibly
want…I was in love with the man for God’s sake…We dated for 2 years…then
all of suddenly he goes back on tour with Richie and the rest of the
morons…and all of a suddenly he’s calling me and telling me it’s over one night
after a concert…Then I find out through the grape vine the same night he broke
up with me over a tacky Cell-phone call…he instantly starts dating some fan he
had a romp with that night…She’s a God damn college student…Shari something or
other…I graduated from college…I’m supposed to be a fuckin’ nurse…and I ditched
that to become a model…how stupid was I…Why is it the good looking guys with
great careers always go for the air headed school students?”
Heidi laughed and said, “That’s a way
to get your man back…insult the woman he’s in love with now…” I said, “It’s not love Heidi…it’s lust…And believe me, if Jon came crawling back on his
hands and knee’s begging me to go back to him…I
wouldn’t.” Heidi said, “Yes you
would…” I said, “I wouldn’t even piss on
him if his mouth was on fire…” Heidi
giggled a little.
As the light turned green, Heidi
grabbed the ‘Oh shit’ handles and closed her eyes tight…I slammed my foot on
the gas, let off on the clutch and ripped through the gears of my 5 speed, and
cut off 4 lanes of traffic just to turn into the parking lot of the studio
warehouse…I heard a few cuss words being thrown at me and as I got out was giving
every one a double shot of the finger, while Heidi
walked around to my side and was grabbing the crotch of her jeans at the
motorists…we were a bad influence on each other…plus we loved to shock the hell
out of people, two beautiful girls, making lewd actions towards people…I set
the alarm and we walked inside.
We checked in at the front desk and
the receptionist gave us directions to the stage where we would be doing our
photo shoot…as we were walking down the hallway…it got narrow…and Heidi stepped
in front of me, cause we saw a group of guys coming our way…I was carrying a
bottle of water…and just by some chance the last guy in the line, bumped my
hand and I dropped my water.
I didn’t notice but we both squatted
down to retrieve the bottle…but his had picked it up and said, “I’m sorry…I
wasn’t paying attention to where I was going.”
I smiled…he was cute…and said, “It’s okay…no
harm done.” We stood up and he handed
the bottle to me…my fingers brushed against his and I felt an electrical shock
go up my arm. Heidi’s voice brought me
back down to reality when she came over and said, “Karen let’s go…”
I said, “Heidi don’t you know who this
is?” She said, “No…should I?” I giggled and said, “This is James Hetfield from Metallica…The band I got you hooked on…James
this is Heidi Combs…” James smiled and
shook her hand and said, “Well…since you know who I am…Can I have your
name?” I said, “Karen Martini.” James said, “Karen Martini? The model from Sport illustrated?” I smiled and said, “Guilty.” Kirk Hammett from James band ran up and said,
“James, c’mon Lars is looking for you.”
James said, “Ladies it was nice meeting you…Karen, I hope I see you
again real soon.” I smiled and as they
walked away I got another smile from James and under my breath I said, “Oh you
will…Believe me.”
Chapter 2
James couldn’t concentrate through the
run down of the damn song…he had a few calls into
Karen’s agent to see if she would call him back or not…maybe he was wrong…maybe
the vibe he got from her wasn’t the same one he was sending out…he could of
sworn she was interested…that smile of hers was beautiful…if she would have
smiled one more time he was gonna jump her in the middle of the hallway… ‘Okay
James you’re not a barbarian…lord…’ he thought.
Lars chimed in and said, “Hey
man…where is your head today? You’ve
missed that chorus 4 times now.” James
shook his head completely empty on thoughts of Karen and said, “I dunno man…I get right to the point and I just want to jump
over it for some reason.” Kirk smiled
and said, “He’s thinking about Karen again.”
James gave Kirk the finger and said,
“Thanks dude…that helps…” Lars said,
“Man, you need to get laid.” James said,
“Man that’s not even the subject right now…”
Lars laughed and said, “Maybe it should be…” James said, “Dude…I don’t even think of her
that way…I mean C’mon Kirk you saw her she was gorgeous…” Kirk smiled mischievously and said, “Actually
I wasn’t paying attention to her I was sort of checking out her little
friend.”
James laughed and said, “You mean
Heidi Combs…dude if you don’t learn anything else know this…they are Karen
& Heidi…the Sports Illustrated swimwear girls…I read they are best of
friends…they have a condo in LA…and a huge apartment in New York…they are
living together until they get married and get settled…” Kirk said, “I could see myself getting
married to Heidi…she’s cute…and she’s about an inch shorter then I am…I always
end up dating the women who are 2 feet taller then
me. And I have to get a step ladder to kiss them at the end of the night.”
The guys started laughing so hard…Kirk
said, “I see nothing funny about that.”
James said, “Yea well…you’re last girlfriend was 6 foot 2…Us picturing
you on a step ladder kissing her…is funny to us…”
Kirk said, “Okay that’s fine…I got
something for you guys.” Kirk put his
hand in his front shirt pocket and when he pulled his hand out he was giving
all the guys who were laughing at him the finger…and said, “Have you seen it
enough…no really…cause I don’t want to put it away before you’ve seen all of
it.” He put his finger back in his
pocket and said, “I don’t know why you guys make me be mean to you.”
Bob Rock walked into the studio and
said, “Gentlemen…if you guys are quite finished…we are paying for the studio
time ya know…Let’s quit screwing around and get some work done.” Bob got a round of ‘
Meanwhile, in
I said, “Move on I guess…I just want
to find a really good boyfriend and just rub it in Jon’s face.” Heidi said, “Oh yea, you’re not bitter or
anything.” I said, “Honestly I wouldn’t
be so bitter, if he wouldn’t have broken up with me over a damn cell phone…I
mean he could have respected our relationship enough to at least tell me in
person…I’m really not bitter...but it does hurt. I thought we were going good…but I guess…I
guess we weren’t as good as I had hoped.”
Heidi said, “It would be for the fact
that you guys dated for 2 years…and you was living in New York and LA, while he
stayed in Jersey…You guys had cross country dating…you only saw each other
around 4 times a month…if you would have at least stayed in New York longer
then what you usually do…you guys could have been closer.” I said, “Yea, Yea…I know.”
As we were walking out of the museum,
my cell phone started ringing, I flipped my purse open and pulled it out and
said, “This is Karen.” A familiar deep
voice said, “Do you know how hard you are to get a hold of?” I smiled and said, “Yea…well so are
you.” James laughed and said, “So where
are you?” I said, “
James said, “Feel like going to
dinner?” I said, “What did you have in
mind?” James said, “Well…how about we
drive down to
Chapter 3
Heidi and I made it back to LA in
record time and was actually back in our place by 3:30…I showered and waited
for James to call…and right at 6 he called and said, “So I assume you’re
home?” I said, “Correct…You ready to
go?” James said, “Absolutely…you want me
to drive?” I said, “Sure.” I rattled off my address and directions on
how to get to the condo. About 30
minutes later…a 65 Black convertible mustang, that sounded about ready to tear
the head off something pulled up in front of the condo…
I had on a black cotton skirt that had
a pocket on each outer thigh, and it came to just above my knees…plus black 2½
inch heeled, knee-high boots…my red tank top and matching cardigan over it…I
had left my hair down with tons of spiral curls throughout it.
I came running down the stairs and
Heidi was curled up in sweats and a t-shirt…I said, “How do I look?” She said, “A really cheap hooker in expensive
clothes.” I said, “Really? Well their you’re
clothes…” Heidi’s mouth dropped open and
said, “I thought that skirt and shirt looked familiar.” I smiled and said, “But they look much better
on TALLER people.” Heidi glared at me
and said, “I hope the heel of your boot breaks off and you trip and fall over
James.”
James came up and knocked on the
door…I glared back at Heidi and said, “Keep your frumpy ass on the couch…if he
sees you in sweats and a t-shirt I’ll die of embarrassment…” Heidi said, “Oh that alone would be enough
for me.” We always bantered back and
forth like that…that’s the way we’ve been since we’ve been best friends…I
walked over and before I opened the door I looked at Heidi and said, “Bitch.”
I opened the door and James looked
really good…he had on Black dress pants…like chinos, black steel toed boots, a
white wife beater, with a black button up short sleeve shirt on. He looked so good.
James was looking down when the door
opened, he looked up and there she was…she was absolutely beautiful. James was standing with his hands behind his
back…He pulled his hands out and handed her, a long stem red rose…and seen the
smile instantly appear on her face.
I smiled and said, “Thank you…” James said, “You’re welcome…ready?” I said, “Absolutely.” He held out his arm and I took it as we
walked out I closed the door behind me and we walked over to his car and he
opened the door for me. I stepped in and
once in, he closed the door. As we drove
to
James said, “So I heard you say you
got Heidi hooked on our music…how did that come
about?” I said, “Well…she was into
pretty much any kind of music…but one day we were driving down the street and I
popped in the Load album and she was like ‘what the hell…who is that’…I started
explaining to her who you guys were…when we got back she went online and
checked out your Metallica website…and she’s been hooked ever since…then when
you guys came around doing the Load tour, I bought tickets and took her…she had
a great time.”
James said, “Which show?” I said, “It was the Sacramento, Arco Arena
show…We knew some friends who were going to it, so we drove up and went with
them…she’d never been to a metal concert, and was trying to wear a pink
designer sun dress…I was like ‘nuh-huh’ I dragged her
into my room and slapped some black jeans, boots, and a Metallica t-shirt on
her…then re-did her cutesy make-up into
a rock beauty…when we got there…and she saw how every one
else was dressed…she couldn’t believe she’d almost wore that stupid dress…and
thanked me for saving her ass.” James
was laughing.
After dinner we went walking on the
boardwalk / pier…I said, “So is my Uncle getting any easier to work with?” James said, “Whose you’re uncle?” I smiled and said, “Robert Rock.” James said, “No shit…Bob is your uncle…” I smiled and nodded yes…he said, “Have you
ever worked with him?” I said, “Nope…but
I know he can be rather relentless.”
James laughed and said, “You got that right.” I laughed and said, “I know he’s a proverbial
pain in the ass…don’t worry about him…he’s actually really easy to please..”
James said, “Okay, this sounds really
5th grade, but can I hold your hand?” I laughed and said, “I’d like that.” James took my hand in his and laced our
fingers together and we continued walking the board walk. I could feel his thumb rubbing against my
hand…James took me home around 2 am…we were standing on the front porch…and I
said, “Thanks I had a really nice time.”
James said, “Yea me too…we should do this again…” I smiled and said, “I think that’s a great
idea.” James said, “How about I give you
a call in a couple of days…we’re going to be in the studio cause
we’re trying to get another album done.”
I said, “Sounds good.”
James wrapped his arm around my waist
and pulled me close and captured my lips with his…his tongue snaked its way
into my mouth and caressed every place in my mouth…then he caressed my tongue
with his…the feel of his mustache and go-tee rubbing against my lips was almost
my undoing…he pulled away and said, “Talk to ya soon.” I smiled and said, “Have a safe drive
home.” I walked in the house as James
walked away…I collapsed against the door…My head was spinning…
Chapter 4
Heidi turned the light on and said,
“You hooker, you had sex with him didn’t you?
All I have to say is…I want my clothes dry cleaned and free of any of
his little swimmers and back in my room by the end of the week.” I stood up and said, “No, we didn’t have
sex. But after that kiss, the thought
did cross my mind a few hundred times…” Heidi said, “You hoochie.” I said, “I’m not a hoochie…James
is a very sweet guy…he also told me that Kirk thought you was pretty
cute.”
Heidi perked up and said, “Kirk…which
one is Kirk again?” I laughed and said, “The
one with the long black curly hair.”
Heidi groaned a little and said, “I’d give my back teeth to have him
shove his tongue down my throat.” I
couldn’t help but giggle at my best friend…as we walked upstairs and into her
room…I plopped down on the bed next to Heidi and said, “Well, fear not…I gave
your cell phone number to James…he’s going to hand it over to Kirk tomorrow
morning when they get to the studio. So
be expecting a call hon.”
Heidi jumped up and said, “You didn’t did you?” She looked
and the smile on my face and said, “You did!”
I laughed and said, “Yes I did…you need to get laid as bad as I do…and
if you get a boyfriend out of it…it’s just a bonus.” Heidi said, “True…I can’t believe Kirk
thought I was cute.” I said, “Please…he
thought more then that, but apparently James didn’t
want to elaborate on the subject.” I got
up and went to bed.
The following few weeks were spent
with James…I had never had so much fun…we even doubled with Heidi and Kirk…they
were both pretty shy when it came to dating each other. They started off dating pretty slowly…they
would just go out once a week, I couldn’t get over how shy each other them
were…James and I were trying to see each other as much as possible.
6 Months later, James and I were
pretty serious and were seen out in public constantly…and sometimes we’d have
Kirk and Heidi with us…but usually we were by ourselves…we liked the alone time
we got…I didn’t spend nearly as much time in New York, cause I could never wait
to see James. Every moment I was awake,
I was either with James or I was on the phone with him.
One day, I was in jean shorts, a white
tank top that said ‘Naughty Angel’ above the naughty there were devil horns and
above the angel was a halo…plus my ankle socks and tenny
shoes. Heidi went with her white and
blue summer dress… with white sandals that had the long strings that wrapped up
and around to the knees…it wasn’t summer yet…but it was nice enough to wear
summer clothes. We were walking down the
hallway of the studio where we had actually met them…
Uncle Robert let us in while the guys
were trying to finish up recording their very last song for the new album. We were standing there listening…it sounded
great. I gave my Uncle a hug and stood
with my head on his shoulder…He looked at us and said, “James and Kirk have
been treating you both really good right.”
Heidi said, “Kirk is such a gentlemen.” I smiled and said, “Yes of course…James is so
wonderful.” He said, “So where are you
coming from?” Heidi said, “We had a
shoot about 3 blocks down and finished up so we decided since we were this
close…we might as well come on over and see how the guys were coming along.”
When they were finished, Kirk grabbed
Heidi and took off to have a couple of days away…and then James got in the car
with me and I drove us over to his huge apartment. When we got there, we were laying on his bed,
just watching a movie…nothing big…I had my head on his chest and I could feel
him running his fingers through my hair…We watched probably about an hour of
the movie…I looked up at James and he said, “What?” I smiled and leaned
up and kissed his lips. James hand slid
down my back and pulled me closer…My hand snaked it’s way up his stomach and across his 6-pac…
James turned over to face me, and we
started slowly undressing each other…James found the bottom of my shirt and
pulled it up and over my head and started slowly kissing down my neck and
across my throat to my chest and down the valley between my breasts…his warm
soft hands reeked havoc touching my skin driving me
insane…I pulled his shirt off and we kicked out shoes off…I reached down and
was unbuttoning his jeans and slid my hand down inside of his pants…as I
suspected his erection was painfully pressed against the zipper of his jeans…as
I freed his erection, James groaned a little…probably from the incredible
relief.
James slid my shorts and panties from
my body and then sat back and was taking a minute to take in what my body
looked like without clothes…James said, “Even more beautiful then I
imagined.” I smiled and pulled him back
down for another kiss…James pushed my legs apart with his knee and rested the
tip of his erection at my entrance and said, “Are you sure you wanna do this?” I said, “You be able
to stop if I said No?” James said, “I
highly doubt it.” I said, “Then I’m
sure…I need you James.” That one little
four word sentence of me telling him I need him…was totally his undoing…
James pushed his erection into me and
we both moaned from the pleasure we were receiving…he started slowly moving in
and out of me…it felt so good…My hips were meeting his with every movement he
made…I licked around his ear and sucked his ear lobe into my mouth and begged
him to go faster…James not wanting to be the one to ever say no to me…started
working his erection in and out of my dripping core faster and faster and
harder and harder with every stroke…I swore if he got in any deeper, he’s have
to camp out inside of me for the night…I ran my nails down his back and he
could feel my walls started to clamp down around his erection…which made him
piston in and out of me faster and harder…
After a few more thrusts I was thrown
over the edge…and one deep thrust James was thrown also…our orgasms ripped
through our body…and I felt James spill his seed deep into me…while we were
trying to get out breathing under control…and get our senses to come back…James
kissed my lips and said, “I love you.” I
smiled and said, “I love you too.” We
were both pretty spent…James pulled the covers up and over us and then wrapped
me in his arms and we fell asleep.
Chapter 5
Heidi and Kirk actually made it back
to the condo, before James and I even saw the light of day…we spent the 2 extra
days in bed…we never left once, unless it was to shower go to the bathroom or
eat…and then it was right back in bed.
When we got back to the condo…James dropped me off, and picked Kirk up
and they would be taking off to finalize their album the next morning.
Heidi saw me walk through the door and
said, “You slut…you got laid finally.” I
smiled and said, “You better fuckin’ believe it…and it felt great! So uh…what did you and Kirk do for the last 2 days?”
Heidi smiled and said, “Just basically talked and did a lot of kissing
and exploring…” I said, “You little hoochie…you fucked him didn’t you?”
Heidi walked up the stairs and said,
“No…you cow…I got to know him…I’m not like you…I don’t need to fuck every one I date immediately.” I said, “HEY!…I
waited for 6 months…this weekend it just felt right. And James was amazing…he had my eyes rolling
in the back of my head for the last 2 days…I swear it was like a 48 hour long
orgasm…My body tingled the whole time…Jon could never do that to me.”
I followed Heidi up stairs I went
towards the bathroom and Heidi said, “So is James your soul mate?” I said, “Girl…you know I don’t believe in all
that soul mate bullshit…but if I did…I would think he is…I’m gonna take a
shower really fast…I’m beat.” Heidi
smiled and said, “Okay.” And walked on
down the hallway into her bedroom and hopped into bed. Heidi waited…she knew Karen would be joining
her for their before bed talk like they’d done since they were younger…and they
lived across the street from each other and would talk for 10 minutes on
walky-talkies…
I took my shower and then went back into
Heidi’s room and smiled and said, “Soul mate huh? I love the sound of that for some reason…it
makes me almost giddy.” Heidi laughed
and said, “You love James don’t you?” I
smiled and said, “Yea…does it show that much?”
Heidi said, “Actually yes it does.”
I said, “Damn, I was so trying to hide it too.” We both busted out laughing…
A couple of weeks later, I was sitting
next to James while he was writing the liner noted for the CD cover…I got up to
use the restroom and left my purse on the table next to James…While I was in
the bathroom, my cell phone started ringing, so James like any other time,
picked it up and said, “Hello?” The male
voice on the other line said, “Yes…Let me speak to Karen right now.” James scoffed and said, “Damn, ever heard of
please?”
The man said, “Are you having fun with
my wife? Because since she’s been
missing in my life I’m sure she’s fucking her way through yours. You know she does this every year…she picks
up some unsuspecting band member whose the flavor of
the week…and finds a suitable member to fuck…and then when she’s done, she just
brushes them off…When you see Karen please let her know her husband is looking
for her.”
James hung up and then went down the
hall and waited for me to come out of the bathroom…I walked out and James had
my purse, he grabbed my arm and pulled me into a side room…and slammed the
door. I jumped a little and James thrusted me purse in my hands and said, “I just had an
interesting conversation…” I said,
“Really…who with?”
James cleared his throat and yelled
“YOUR HUSBAND…apparently he knows about us…he informed me that you do this once
a year…pick out some poor unsuspecting member of a famous rock band, fuck the
guy for a few months and then your back to hubby…he said he’s tired of you
messing around…he wants you back home.”
I was shocked and stunned and finally
said, “James, I’m not married…I’ve never been married.” James said, “After everything I told
you…you’re just gonna stand here and lie to me?
He called your cell phone…he told me everything…you and me are over…I
can’t believe you’re fuckin’ married.” I
said, “I’m not MARRIED!” James opened
the door and said, “Get out.” I just
looked at him and he shouted “GET OUT!”
I looked at James and looked at the
floor…and walked out.
Chapter 6
**Ring-Ring** **Ring-Ring**
Jonathan was half dead to the world
sleeping in bed when he reached over out from under the blankets and grabbed
the phone…and slowly pulled it back under the covers with him…mumbling to
himself “C’mon man, I just got off a 6 month tour…I need me some sleep
people…bug someone else.”
He clicked the cordless on and a groggy voice said, “Hello?”
A familiar sobbing voice came back on the other end that said,
“Jonathan…He yelled at me and he was mean to me…” Jonathan sat right up…well as much as he
could with 12 blankets on…he said, “Who was?”
The distraught voice said, “James…”
Jonathan’s over head light bulb
finally kicked on and he said, “Karen is that you?” The voice sobbed a little more and said,
“Yes…” Jonathan said, “Karen are you at your place?”
he heard a whimpering yes in there somewhere
and said, “Don’t move honey…I’ll be right over I promise.”
I have known Jonathan Davis for as
long as I can remember, almost as long as I’d known Heidi…Jonathan was the lead
singer of the Rock band Korn. I knew him before he was a singer…we’ve
always been close…we tried the dating things when we were both younger, but
nothing ever came of it…and then he started the band and we never did have much
time together…So all we do is talk on the phone and have a few movies night
when he’d not on tour or in the studio.
Jonathan jumped out of bed and into
the shower then got dressed and ran down stairs and jumped into his Black Ford
Expedition. And took
off to Karen and Heidi’s condo.
As soon as he got to the front door he didn’t even have to knock…Heidi
opened the door and Jonathan said, “What the hell happened…I left here 6 months
ago and Karen was cheer and happy and now she calls me crying her eyes
out?”
Heidi said, “She’s hurting bad
Jon…James really hurt her…he answered her cell phone and some wise ass on the
other end was telling him that he was Karen’s husband and she picks a lead
singer from a famous back once a year to be her play toy…he believed the
asshole, and broke everything off with her…he yelled at her…and cussed and
raised hell…he was a total dick to her.”
Jonathan looked up the stairs and
said, “Bedroom?” Heidi said, “Yea…the
room is pitch black, she’s been there for the last 3 weeks.” Jonathan made a face and said, “Shit 3
weeks? This ain’t good…” Heidi said, “Nope…and she didn’t want to call
you while you was on tour…so she waited until this
morning.” Jonathan said, “I wish she
would have called me when it happened…I don’t like to see her like this…” Heidi said, “Yea, you and me both…”
Jonathan took the stairs 2 at a time,
until he reached the top and went into my room.
He walked in and closed the door behind him…he got in bed under the
covers I was laying on my side so, he laid on his side facing me…I opened my
eyes and Jonathan saw how blood shot my eyes were from crying and not getting
enough sleep. Jonathan touched my cheek
with his hand and tears slid out of my eyes and down my cheeks…Jonathan pulled
me over and wrapped his arms around me…I buried my face in his chest and
couldn’t help but let the tears go again…they wouldn’t stop.
I finally fell asleep with Jonathan…he
stayed with me…he was so tired also, so he just fell asleep with me wrapped up
in his arms for the rest of the day and night.
Chapter 7
We actually both slept for 20
hours. When I woke up, I had forgotten
all about Jonathan holding me while I fell asleep. I started to stir and felt arms around me…My
hand slid up the arm and to the shoulder and the head behind me…and found the
eyebrow ring…
A groggy
recognizable voice said, “Please don’t pull that out…it would hurt like a
bitch.” I couldn’t help but laugh…I
said, “Jonathan is that you?” I turned
over to face who ever was laying behind me…and then
reached up and turned the light on above my bed…
Jonathan squinted at first and then
focused and said, “Well, Sleeping beauty, we’ve been asleep for 20 hours. Do you know how lazy I feel?” I said, “Why?
If you wouldn’t have slept here, your lazy ass would be sleeping at
home…” Jonathan smiled and said, “Yea,
that’s true too.” We couldn’t help but
laugh…
We talked for a couple of hours, while
just laying in bed…Jonathan said, “Why didn’t it ever work between us?” I scoffed and said, “You’re career blew up
and so did mine…you went on tour and when you came back you had a
girlfriend. That’s just the way it was supposed to
happen.”
Jonathan said, “I must’ve been out of
my mind at the time. Cause I’ve cared
about you since we met and you know that…I never did lose the feelings I had
for you…Hell, we’ve watched each other go through some miserable relationships
in the last few years.”
I looked in his eyes and ran my thumb
across his red lips…I leaned over and ran my tongue across his bottom lip, and
he opened his mouth…I slowly snaked my tongue into his mouth…and caressed his
tongue with mine, and he groaned in my mouth…My hands slide down and grazed his
flat nipples…and he groaned a little more…
Jonathan slowly slid his legs apart,
which in turn was opening my legs wider…Jonathan’s hand slid between us, and he
grabbed his already painfully expanded erection and started sliding it in
me…after he was fully sheathed in my wet center…
He grabbed the straps of my night gown
and pulled them down enough to expose my breasts and nipples to him…while he
was waiting for me to get fully adjusted to his size, he started an assault on
my nipples…sucking, nipping, licking…touching, rolling…but he did it to both
nipples, which was just double torture for me.
Jonathan grabbed on to me…and I
wrapped my legs around his waist…and Jonathan started thrusting in and out
slow…but he couldn’t stay slow…he was over heated like me…and started thrusting
like a wild man…we were both being pretty quiet…I nipped his shoulder and neck
and slowly slid my teeth off his ear lobe and that was his undoing…as soon as I
felt Jonathan’s orgasm rip through him and Empty himself deep inside me…it
triggered my orgasm…Jonathan kissed me to keep from screaming.
We ended up falling asleep in each others arms for another 8 hours…obviously we were more
tired then we thought…
Chapter 8
8 Hours later, I woke up and looked
over and Jonathan was staring at me…
I said, “Okay…Was it just my
imagination or did we have sex?”
Jonathan got this shit eating grin on his face and said, “Nope…it wasn’t
your imagination…and it wasn’t sex baby…it was making love.” I had to laugh and said, “You always did hate
it when I said having sex…you was always the making
love king.”
Jonathan said, “Well…can you really
blame me…having sex sounds so barbaric…like we were obligated so we can
reproduce. Why aren’t we together
again?” I said, “It just didn’t work out
that way…We hardly saw each other…you know we see more of each other now…then
we did then…we talk more too.”
Jonathan pulled me over to him and
said, “I have a great idea…why don’t we try again.” I said, “I don’t know Jonathan…we really
fucked things up last time…and plus I just got out of the relationship with
James…and I’m still trying to figure out why we made love.” Jonathan said, “How about this…how about we
wait for a couple of weeks…and see how we both feel then?”
I smiled and said, “Okay…you got
yourself a deal.”
We laid in
bed for a couple more days, before Jonathan had to head back to the recording
studio with the rest of his band.
Jonathan was walking through the hallways of the huge recording studio
and actually ran into James…Jonathan stopped in the middle of the hallway as
James passed him and said, “Ya know you was totally
wrong.”
James stopped and looked back at
Jonathan and said, “About what?”
Jonathan said, “About Karen.”
James said, “Karen is an old subject
and something that is not in my life right now.”
Jonathan said, “Yea…well I think it’s
time you re-evaluate your life…because you was wrong…Karen isn’t married…she’s
been my best friend as longer then Heidi has known her…we used to date…but I’m
telling you now…my best friend wouldn’t get married without me being there or
knowing about it.”
James said, “Then you’re wrong about
your best friend…because I talked to her husband myself on the phone…he called
her cell phone…so either I’m really that stupid or Karen is nothing but a
whore.” Jonathan said, “You’re just that
stupid…cause no one called Karen a whore.”
Jonathan pulled back and socked James
right in the face…and watched as James limp body hit the floor with a
resounding THUD!
Lars, Kirk and Jason ran over and
Jonathan said, “When the prince here wakes up you tell him he owes Karen an
apology…for being such a dick head.”
The 3 remaining members of the band
watched wide eyed as Jonathan stalked off to one of the studios.
Chapter 9
Heidi and I went to see our agent
Jack. We walked into the office and Jack
came around the desk all smiled like he was selling some kind of teeth
whitener…arms wide open…we walked over and he gave us each a hug and a kiss on
the cheek.
Jack looked at me and said, “So I see
you’ve come out of hiding Karen…how does it feel to be back in the land of the
living again?” I smirked and said, “I
don’t know I’ll have to let you know in a few days.” Jack laughed his annoying little laugh he’s
got…and he said, “So how did James like my little husband prank?”
I quirked my head to the side and
said, “Excuse me?” Heidi said, “Oh HELL no…Jack tell us you
didn’t do that.” Jack’s smile faded and
he said, “Yea…it was me…I called your cell and I knew it was James immediately
by the sound of his voice…I figured I could fuck with him a little bit…so I
made up this bullshit story…and he sounded like he really believed it.”
Heidi said, “Why do you think Karen
spent the last 3 weeks in bed you stupid ass?”
Jack said, “You said it was because she was sick.”
I said, “Yea…too sick with heart break
to even move…James believed you…he chewed me out and yelled at me, then cussed
at me…he said some hurtful things to me…and then broke up with me, because of
your weasely ass.
Jack, I can’t believe you did this…I’ve never been so happy in all my
life as I was with James…and you totally fucked up my life.” I threw my purse at Jack and then pulled back
and smacked him repeatedly in the arms and upper body with it…
Heidi watched as Karen welded her
purse by the thin little strap…she didn’t even miss a smack when the strap
broke. Karen was cussing and yelling and
practically beating the crap out of Jack…
It was a good thing she had switched
purses to her smaller one this morning…other wise
Jack would have bruises all over his body when Karen finished with him…in her
bigger purses she carried everything but the kitchen sink practically…Smaller
purses held cell phone drivers license and insurance cards.
I finally got control over my emotions
and I looked up at Jack and said, “You son of a bitch…you either fix this…or As
Heidi and God as my witnesses I swear I will come back with a couple of fuckin’
bricks in my purse and re-beat the shit out of you.” Jack backed up…obviously taking me seriously.
I pulled my cell phone out and it was
in a million pieces…I left the pieces on Jacks desk and said, “That’s a reminder to you that you either fix the fuck
up you made or I’m firing you as my agent and I will go to your competition…and
don’t fuckin’ think I won’t.”
I turned on my heels and walked
out…Heidi said, “You realize if she goes I do to.” Jack nodded and she said, “Then I suggest you
fix it.” As Heidi took
off after me. We got in the
vehicle and I let her drive…I didn’t think I was going to be calm enough to
drive…she took off to the studio I wanted to talk to Jonathan.
Chapter 10
- -2 Months Later- -
Heidi walked into the recording studio
and back to studio 115…she watched through the glass as Kirk, James, Lars and
Jason banged out their next record…It had been 2 months since Karen’s little out burst in Jacks office…she’d been pretty distant for the
last 8 weeks…
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When it's love you give
I'll be a man of good faith
Then in love you live
I'll make a stand
I won't break
I'll be the rock you can build on
Be there when you're old
To have and to hold
When there's love inside
I swear I'll always be strong
Then there's a reason why
I'll prove to you we belong
I'll be the wall that protects you
From the wind and the rain
From the hurt and pain
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Karen spent most of her time up in the
apartment in
Heidi had fired Jack before
Karen…cause he tried to say her relationship with Kirk was hurting her modeling
career…Heidi said she didn’t care…Kirk was worth more then
any modeling job she could have gotten…not long after that Heidi started her
own clothes line…
Karen fired Jack…and decided she was
going to go to
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Let's make it all for one…and all for
love
Let the one you hold be the one you want…the one you need
'Cause when it's all for one…it's one for all
When there's someone that should know
Then just let your feelings show
And make it all for one…and all for love
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Karen wasn’t too big on believing at
love at first sight…but then again she’d been proven wrong on being in love
twice now…once with Jonathan and then with James.
Heidi watched as the guys came out of
the studio coming down from the adrenaline rush…James said, “Heidi…did Karen
have her cell phone number changed or shut off?” Heidi said, “James, She had it shut off…she’s
leaving for
James said, “Why didn’t someone tell
me…I’ve been trying to get a hold of her for the last 2 weeks. Jack came by my place and told me what
happened…said he’d been threatened by Karen and Jonathan to tell me the
truth…said something about believe Jonathan a little
more then Karen…but knew both of them would inflict
numerous amounts of pain if he didn’t follow their directions. I wanted to apologize to her…I was stupid for
even listening to the jack off on the phone.
I knocked out Jack…much the same way Jonathan did me.”
Heidi said, “She’s at LAX you better
run if you want to stop her…” James
said, “I don’t know…do you think she’ll stay if I asked her too?” Heidi said, “Honestly James I don’t
know…Karen has been pretty unpredictable the last 8 weeks…but the only thing
you can do it try…especially if you think she’s worth it.” James said, “Oh she’s worth it alright.” James took off in his mustang towards the
airport.”
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When it's
love you make
I'll be the fire in your night
Then it's love you take
I will defend…I will fight
I'll be there when you need me
When honor's at stake
This vow I will make
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James drove at top speeds and was
chased by two cop cars…until he lost both of them…he ran into rush hour traffic
and when he got to the airport it was and hours and 45 minutes later…he had 15
minutes to find her flight and her and convince her to stay…he loved her he
wasn’t going to be stupid enough to let her leave his life twice.
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That it's all for one…and all for love
Let the one be the one you want…the one you need
'Cause when it's all for one…it's one for all
When there's someone that should know
Then just let your feelings show
And make it all for one…and all for love
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James left his car parked in the loading
and unloading zone and when the rent-a-cop saw who James was and recognized him
from the band he said he’d watch to make sure the car wasn’t towed. James ran over and found her flight and took
off...zipping through the halls, around people and through metal
detectors. He heard her flight being
called and instantly started looking for her.
I was sitting at the airport…I heard
them call me flight number and I stood up slinging my back pack over my
shoulder…I walked over and waited for them to board every one…before me…When
they called my row of seats I walked over and just as I handed my ticket to the
flight attendant…I heard “KAREN!”
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Don't lay our love to rest
'Cause we could stand up to you test
We got everything and more than we had planned
More than the rivers that run the land
We've got it all in our hands
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I looked over and saw James running
straight at me…I sat my backpack down and as he got to me…he grabbed my hands
and said, “Please don’t go…I don’t want you a continent away from me…Karen I
love you…I never stopped loving you…I know I said hurtful things…and I was a
stupid jack ass for it…Jack told me what happened…I’m sorry I didn’t believe
you…please don’t go.”
I could feel the tears welling up in
my eyes and said, “James…I have to go…I can’t stay here.” James said, “Fine…then I can blame the break up of Metallica on you.” My eyes widened and said, “What? how?” James said,
“Because if you leave…I’m leaving with you…I’m not letting you leave my life a
second time because of my stupidity…I love you Karen…I want to marry you…have
babies with you…I want us to grow old together.”
James got quiet and just watched me to
see what my reaction would be…I couldn’t say anything…I threw my arms around is neck and kissed him with a fevered pitch…I backed off
and we rested our foreheads against each others…I
said, “I love you.” James said, “I love
you too…” And we went back to kissing.
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Now it's all for one…and all for love
It's all for love
Let the one you hold be the one you want…the one you need
'Cause when it's all for one…it's one for all
It's one for all
When there's someone that should know
Then just let your feelings show
When there's someone that you want
When there's someone that you need
Let's make it all…all for one
And all for love
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While we were walking out of the airport hand
in hand…James said, “I’m really glad you didn’t disappear for 2 years.” I smiled and said, “Oh yea why?”
James said, “Cause…You
disappear…I disappear.”
The End