Blink
Chapter 1
**Wrestlers
Real Names Used & Mild Language**
Ever wake up one morning and
wish you could blink and only see the good things in life and not the rotten
shit life throws at you?
This is my story…From the very
beginning, my parents marriage was doomed…They were married at 18, had me at
20…and were divorced by 23…yup…dad always referred to it as being married to
the bitch from hell…which I really couldn’t argue with him on that one…mom was
practically married to her job instead of dad…the worst part is every night
when she got home, she’d dismiss the baby sister…and as soon as dinner was
started, she’d start drinking…Scotch, Brandy, Vodka, Beer, Margarita’s…what
ever it took to forget what happened at work that day…Since mom was a
lawyer…she argued her case to the judge during the divorce trial…and got
custody of me…I was allowed to see my father 3 days every month…
Dad eventually got tired of
trying to get more time with me…and took off with his leggy, big busted, blonde
secretary, that he’d been “banging” as mom put it…He moved to Alaska…or
Hawaii…I forget…I was only 7 when he stopped coming around…I got two phone
calls from him a year…birthday and Christmas…I learned to live with it…but of
course, after dad took off permanently she started drinking worse…if that was
at all possible…believe me…it was…
When I was 10…I was playing
dress up with the baby sitter…and we were in the bathroom…she was putting moms
make up on my face…when we heard mom stumble in the front door, dropping her
brief case by the couch and shuffling into the bathroom where we were…Mom said,
“Okay Nina…you’re free to go.” Nina nodded and said, “Yea, Mrs. Berg…See you
tomorrow Aly…” I smiled and said, “Okay, bye Nina.” It was a good thing Nina
was a slow walker…because, she heard mom start yelling at me…Her breath reeked
of booze…the last couple of months she had started up drinking before she even
got home, so by the time she got home, she was fairly toasted.
Mom kept yelling at me…it was
more like screaming, but I was trying to ignore her, she always took her bad
days out on a yelling match at me…I had been sitting on a wooden stool in front
of the vanity mirror…and I was looking pretty close to see the wild job Nina
had done with the eye liner…I looked like a really grown-up…the last thing I
heard mom say was “I have told you repeatedly not to play in my make up, and
yet you still insist on doing it…I think it’s time I taught you a lesson…” She
grabbed my hair in the back of my head…and slammed me face first into the
mirror…The mirror shattered into a million pieces…I was knocked unconscious
…and mom passed out.
Thank God for Nina or I would
have bled to death…
When I woke up at I’m
guessing hours later…I had a bandages around my head and eyes…and couldn’t see
through it…The nurse came in and said, “Alyssa Berg…is that correct?” I said,
“Most people call me Aly…” She said, “I’m Dr. Alexandra Hill…I’m sorry to have
to tell you this but after your mother slammed your head into the mirror…the pieces
of mirror shredded certain parts of your eyes…and it left you blind in both
eyes…there is an operation to have the process reversed…but you can’t have it
until you’re older…children don’t have this operation…”
It was kind of a mixture of
feelings…I was dumb founded…but pissed…but also sad. Mom went to prison…even
she couldn’t argue her way out of that one…I went to a private institution for
the blind in New York City…Through the years, I learned everything I needed…and
I even went to college to become a writer…I had a special laptop made for me…it
actually talked back to me…and read e-mails for me…and also ran off voice
commands. I loved writing…it was fun…
Chapter 2
**Same Warning**
Through the years me and my
best friend Jamie…had grown up together…we meet when we were 5…while I was in
New York City, she was in Manhattan…and her folks would bring her to see me on
the weekends…or they would come get me and I’d stay with them for the
weekend…Currently we are living in a 2 bedroom 1 bathroom apt. with my Male
Rotweiler Seeing Eye dog Sneaker Pimp…Cause he is always busted sleeping with
or eating our tennis shoes…
Okay so you know my name
Alyssa Berg…most people call me Aly…I’m 23 years old…5’10” and 125 lbs. I have
brownish-blonde hair to my waist and brown eyes…
Jaime and I had started
watching Monday Night WWE (World Wrestling Entertainment) wrestling
religiously…as of late…Well I listened more, then watched for obvious reasons.
On a hunch and a dare from Jamie, I applied for a writer’s position with the WWE…I
laughed the whole way to the post office to mail in my resume and application.
About a week later, we were
sitting in the living room…and Sneaker jumped up and started growling…while he
was leaning against me…I said, “James, someone must be coming to the door…” I
called Jaime, James all the time…She said, “Yea, I can hear a couple of
voices.” All of a sudden there was a knock on the door…Sneaker let out a couple
of barks as Jaime headed for the front door and said, “Oh pipe down Pimp.” She
opened the door and said, “Holy Shit.” I said, “James…what’s going on?” Jaime
said, “Uh…Aly you’re never going to believe this in a million years.” I said,
“Girl…Don’t make me send Sneaker over there after your ass…just tell me.”
Jaime said, “Well, for
starters…remember when you laughed your ass off all the way to the post office
last week…thinking you wouldn’t ever hear from the WWE?” I said, “Yes.” She
said, “Well, someone’s here from the WWE to I believe interview you for a job.”
I said, “Girl…Stop.” Jaime said, “I’m serious…we’ve known each other for 17
years…I highly doubt there here to interview me as a valet for someone…” I
said, “Well, don’t just stand there with your mouth hanging open…and doing your
best impression of a fish, invite who ever it is in…ya dork.” She said, “Please
do come in Ma’am…” The woman walked in…and Jamie showed her to the living
room…and as I stood up, Jamie said, “Alyssa Berg, I’d like you to meet Linda
McMahon.”
I grabbed Jamie’s arm because
I almost fell over…and said, “James…you didn’t tell me it was Mrs. McMahon…”
Linda spoke up and said, “Just call me Linda honey…this is just a very informal
meeting…we know we already want to hire you…we know about your disability…but
as soon as we started calling your contacts…they all reassured us, we’d be
getting one hell of a writer if we hired you…I just came to meet you…and invite
you to the Royal Rumble Pay Per-View tomorrow night, here in New York City, at
Madison Square Garden…You can bring whom ever you like…we have special seating
for you, a friend and also I’m assuming your seeing eye dog..”
I said, “Sneaker?” She said,
“Is that his name? He’s quite adorable…and quite friendly.” I said, “He can
tell if you’re nice or if you’re going to hurt me…otherwise he wouldn’t be
letting you touch him right now…” She said, “How did you know I was petting
him?” I said, “I can hear your bracelet jingle a little as you pet him…” Jamie
said, “His name is Sneaker Pimp…because he’s always running off with our tennis
shoes.” Linda giggled a little…and said, “So would you like to be our guest
tomorrow night?” I said, “Absolutely…”
Chapter 3
**Same Warning**
So the following evening…I
had on levis, black steel toed boots and a black tank top on that let an inch
of my bare mid-drift show…plus my navel ring and the circle I had tattooed
around my navel…and pulled my hair up into a pony tail…Jaime had on her Kane
t-shirt on, with levis and her steel toes also…she left her hair down…
I had Sneaker on his
leash…and we were walking around the outside of the arena…but where all the
fans were in line getting autographs from their favorite wrestlers…Jamie had
been begging me to stand in line with her for the last 45 minutes so she could
get Kane’s autograph…She said, “Please Aly…Pretty please…I didn’t decided to
look this hot for the other fans…I have got to see him once…”
I giggled and said, “Oh
alright…goodness…I’ve never seen any one put up a more determined fight to get
her own way…” We stood in line and Sneaker started whining…Jamie said, “Great timing
Sneaker…what a time to have to take a pee…” I said, “Don’t worry, we won’t get
out of line…” I took his leash off and said, “Okay boy…go pee but you better be
back here in 5 minutes…go on…” Sneaker took off fast…
About that time…Mark Callaway
and Glenn Jacobs…also known as Undertaker and Kane…were trying to get the
autograph session over fast…cause their hands were hurting from all the
signing…Mark said, “Man, I just got back from a 3 month vacation and I’m all
ready for another one…” Glenn said, “Stop…you know you missed this shit.” All
of a sudden Mark could hear someone laughing…and he looked up and there she
was…Mark poked Glenn with his signing pen and said, “Dude, look at those two
girls…they are hot...”
Glenn looked up and chuckled
and said, “Yea…the one on the left is cute…” Mark said, “Babies and puppies are
cute…women are gorgeous beautiful and in their case hot…” Glenn laughed at Mark
and said, “Man, get your hormones under control…what if they are married or
have boyfriends?” Mark said, “Please…like I couldn’t get any women I wanted?
Get real…you either dork…besides the one on the left has one of your t-shirts
on moron.”
As we were one person away
from the table I said, “So what is going to happen with you and Mr. Right now?”
Jamie said, “Please...I told Mr. Right, when he becomes Mr. I Can Keep My Dick
In My Pants and Away from other women who aren’t me…to give me a call but not
before then…” I couldn’t help but laugh…and said, “Geez, James you’re too
much.” She said, “Please…do you take that shit from guys?” I said, “No...”
She said, “Then I shouldn’t
have to either…I’m not going to have a boyfriend who can’t be happy having sex
with only me…that has to have his fingers in all the other pots around the
board.” I said, “Yea, but also…when’s the last time you saw me dating anyone?”
Jaime said, “Like a date and time?” I said, “Yea…”
She said, “Wow…the pressures
on now…” I laughed again…and said, “That’s because the last guy I actually
dated was that 8 year old boy with the eye problem that you used to make fun of
all the time…” Jaime said, “What guy?” I said, “Walter…remember he’d be taking
and all of a sudden his eyes would go crossed…and you’d say what’s the matter
with your eyes Wally?” I crossed my eyes and Jaime started laughing and I said,
“He would be all ‘there ain’t nuttin’ wrong wit my eyes’…” We both couldn’t
help but laugh…
Chapter 4
**Same Warning**
Jaime said, “No, you dated
that guy Scott a couple of months ago…” I said, “Yea…but he really sucked in
bed…and he smelled funny.” She said, “What do you mean smelled funny?” I said,
“Kind of like a mixture between wax, cat pee, and the evergreen cardboard car
air fresheners you hang on the mirrors in your car…that evergreen smell got
strong the more he sweat in bed…which was a total turn off…” By the time the
guy in front of us moved…we were rolling with laughter so hard, we had tears
sliding down our cheeks…
Mark and Glenn stood up and
Mark said, “Obviously there’s something funny about us…” Glenn said, “You think
these young ladies are laughing at us ‘Taker?” (Called him Taker cause their
not allowed to break character in front of fans.) Mark said, “Yea, Kane, I do
believe they are laughing at us…”
I straightened up and said,
“No, Sorry gentlemen…It’s just two old friends remembering too much about the
past.” Mark said, “Okay…So do you beautiful ladies have names…or do we get to
play a guessing game…” Jamie said, “I’m Jamie and this is Alyssa…” I said,
“Aly.” Irritated…she said, “Sorry Aly…This is Aly…She hates Alyssa.” Mark said,
“Any particular reason why?” I said, “Sure…my mother named me…that’s reason
enough…” As Glenn and Mark signed Jamie’s photo…she said, “What time are we
meeting Linda McMahon again?” I said, “Around 6…”
I whistled as loud as I
possibly could…and Sneaker came running over…and stood in front of me…I
squatted down…and said, “Good boy…did you find yourself a girlfriend yet…” He
barked a couple of times…and then licked my face…I walked away with Sneaker and
Mark said, “Your friend seems kind of mad…Did I say something wrong?” Jamie
said, “Nah…nothing you did…she’d explain if it didn’t piss her off so much…”
Jamie smiled at Glenn and
walked away…she came over to me and said, “You know something, I could really
marry that Glenn Jacobs…he’s one hunky piece of delicious meat…I could do
things to that boy that would frighten trees.” I laughed again…and said,
“You’re so bad James…” She said, “What’s the use of meeting Kane and looking
this damn good, if I can’t throw in a little bad…for the evening.”
After the autograph session,
We meet with Linda McMahon…and she had a body guard escort us to our seats…and
we settled in for the show…it was amazing…We watched the show and on our way to
the office to sign the contract with Mr. McMahon and Linda…we passed by Mark
and Glenn…I knew it had to be them…Jamie had a super grip on my hand…
I said, “Jamie is my hand
turning blue yet?” She said, “No why?” I said, “'Cause I was just trying to
figure out if you have a hold of my hand or did your hand suddenly turn into a
vise grip.” Jamie rubbed my hand and said, “I’m so sorry…” I said, “It was Mark
and Glenn huh.” She said, “How could you tell?” I said, “Other then the death
grip? I could smell them…Mark Callaway is the only one who smells like cologne
and worn leather…Mmm…very nice…”
Mark said, “There are those
two girls again…and they are with Steve…he doesn’t show fans around the back
area…unless he’s taking them to see Vince.” Glenn said, “Could be…You don’t
think they are related to Vince and Linda do you?” Mark said, “God I hope not…otherwise…how
else am I going to seduce Aly...” Glenn said, “Damn…moving a little fast aren’t
you?”
Mark said, “Don’t think I
don’t know you’re thinking the same thing about that little Jamie girl…I saw
how she smiled at you before she walked away from the table earlier.” Glenn
smiled and said, “Okay…I surrender…but I’d rather marry her then seduce her…I
could do things to her that would scare the shit right out of her.”
I meet with Vince…and in the
process of signing my contract…Vince gave Jamie a job as well…she was going to
be a valet…for one of the wrestlers…but wasn’t told which one yet.
Chapter 5
**Wrestlers Real Names Used
& Mild Language**
“So how have you been doing
since Sara’s funeral?” Glenn asked while putting his boots on. Mark let out a
heavy sigh and looked at the man he’d been best friends with for the last 10
years…since he was 25 and Glenn was 20…No one knew him like Glenn did…Mark took
a deep breathe and said, “I guess I’m fairing okay…I don’t know why I was
flirting with those little girls tonight…I feel like I was cheating on her.”
Glenn said, “Mark, Sara’s
been gone for 6 months…no one expects you to just go on like nothing
happened…You already know you have to put on a smile…or the Deadman face for
the fans…they don’t realize her death wasn’t scripted…they thought it was part
of the show…Page, has been asking about you.” Mark glared in Glenn’s direction
and said, “I don’t want that man’s name said around me…is that understood?”
Glenn said, “C’mon Mark…it wasn’t his fault…he tried to grab her before she
fell…”
Mark stood up and raised his
voice with a thundering… “No Glenn…I don’t want to hear it…I told her to stay
home…Page kept egging her on to come back on Raw and Smackdown for another feud
with him…she didn’t want to but some how he talked her into it…I don’t know how
or why…but she wanted to do it…God Damn Glenn…she was 8 weeks pregnant…when she
fell off the top of that fucking cage…that she shouldn’t have been on top of in
the first place.”
Mark ran this hand through
his short dark auburn hair. Glenn said, “Mark…I’m sorry…but Sara chose to go up
there…she knew what the consequences would have been…and if she could see the
way you’re behaving right now…she’d never accept the way you’ve been towards
Page…And you know that…” Mark glared at his own reflection in the mirror and
then did the dumbest thing possible…with full force behind it…he drove his fist
into the mirror…and shattered into pieces…and bloodied his hand…he gathered his
stuff and was going to go back to the hotel…
About that time…me and Jamie
were walking by their room on our way out to the limo that had picked us up and
was going to take us back home…All of a sudden…the door was flung open…and
Jamie stopped to tie her shoe…but she didn’t stop me…and Sneaker kept going…Mark
came bolting out of the dressing room and right into me…Knocking me on my ass…I
recognized his scent…leather and cologne…and he roughed out a, “Watch where the
hell your going…God Damn fans.” It scared the shit out of me…and Jamie ran over
and sat on her knees next to me…
Jamie said, “Oh my god, what
a bully…Aly, Are you okay honey?” I was kind of silent at first…and she said,
“Aly…” I moved a little and said, “Yea…I think I’m okay…My left wrist hurts
though…I landed wrong on my wrist and it hurts to the point where it is making
me nausea.” Jamie said, “You might have sprained it…” I said, “Great…I hate
hospitals…” She said, “You want to sit there…or get up…” I said, “Let me sit
here for a minute…I feel like my equilibrium is off...”
A deep voice said, “Probably
because you were taken off your feet so fast.” I jumped and grabbed onto
Jaime’s arm…She said, “It’s okay…its just Glenn…” I pulled my knees into my
chest and stood up with Jamie and Glenn walked over and said, “Are you guys
okay?” Jamie said, “Other then my best friend getting run over by the Deadman
Inc. Train…couldn’t be better…”
Glenn said, “I’m really
sorry…that was my fault…I’m the one who pissed him off.” I said, “And if he
acts this way every time he’s mad…I gotta know…why would you intentionally piss
him off?” Glenn said, “We were discussing something and the discussion got out
of hand…he actually punched out a mirror in the dressing room…and barrel out of
the room full steam ahead.” I said, “And yet I ask again…why would you want to piss
him off?” Glenn said, “Because I was trying to get him to talk to me about
something personal…and he was being stubborn…I figured if I pissed him off
enough he’d talk.”
Chapter 6
**Same Warning**
Glenn said, “So can I give you
guys a lift somewhere?” I said, “Right now…I’m going to the Emergency Room…for
the damage done by Steam Boat Mark…other then that…Linda McMahon has a limo
waiting out back for us…” Jaime said, “If you’d like to come…you’re more then
welcome…” I said, “James…stop flirting and let’s go…go…wait…where’s Sneaker?” I
was feeling around on the ground for his leash…but couldn’t find it…
Jaime said, “I don’t know…I
was so busy making sure you was okay…I didn’t see where he went.” We heard a
scream down the hall…and Jamie and I said, “Sneaker.” I whistled down the
hall…and Glenn was standing there…and saw this huge Rotweiler coming towards
us…and he backed behind us…Jamie said, “Problem?” Glenn smiled and said, “I
like big dogs…but for some reason…they don’t fancy me too much.” Jamie said,
“It’s because you’re so much bigger then them…they feel threatened…they think
if they see you around their female owners…that she will get rid of him…getting
a bigger model…” Glenn said, “Ooh…they still don’t like me…”
Sneaker bumped my knee with
his head…and I squatted down and said, “Just where have you been young man?” A
feminine voice said, “Down in my dressing room…I’m assuming that animal is
yours.” Jamie said, “It’s Trish Stratus.” I stood up and said, “Sorry Ms.
Stratus…Sneaker here…is a ladies dog…” Trish giggled and said, “It’s okay…I was
having my weekly honey full body massage, and he came in and was licking my
toes…it just scared me a little.” I said, “Sneaker…you know better then that…I
really am sorry about the scare…honey is his weakness…” She said, “No…really
it’s okay…I don’t mind a scare every once in a while…Hey…aren’t you the new
writer that Linda and Vince are bringing in?”
I said, “Yes…Aly Berg.” I
shook her hand…and she said, “Nice to meet you…when are you starting?” I said,
“In about 3 days, when you guys leave…me, Jamie and Sneaker will be going with
you.” Trish said, “I really hate to pry…but someone said you was…well…Kind
of...” I said, “Blind?” Trish said, “Yea.” I said, “Yes…I am…no big deal
though…I still got the job…just cause I can do the job.” She said, “Cool.”
Jamie said, “Aly…are you ready to go?” I said, “Sure…it was nice meeting you
Trish.” She said, “Yea…same here…talk to you later.” I said, “Okay.”
I turned and walked with
Jamie and Glenn…who couldn’t stop sneaking looks at each other…While we were
sitting in the limo…I shoved Jamie on the same side as Glenn…and I laid down on
the other side…with Sneaker on the floor board by me…I was laying there…and
Glenn said, “I didn’t know you was blind Aly.” I said, “Yea…one of life’s
unfortunate ‘gotcha’ jokes.” Glenn said, “Was you born with out your vision?” I
said, “Nope…I had it until I was 10…and then it was gone…”
Glenn said, “Without a
reason?” I said, “No…there was a reason…I really don’t wish to discuss it…Jamie
you can tell him if you’d like…I’m sleepy.” Jamie said, “Take a nap…it’s going
to be about another 30 minutes…until we hit the ER…with all this friggin
traffic.” I turned over and faced the back of the seat I was laying in and
actually fell asleep in 3 minutes…
Jamie heard my breathing get
slower and slower so she knew I was sleeping…Jamie said, “Aly was 10…and her
mother in her drunken shambles found Aly playing in her make up after work…and
well pretty much pitched a big ass fit…it ended with her mom grabbing her head
and slamming her face first into the vanity mirror…and it shattered...some
major damage was done to her, because shattered pieces of mirror shredded her
corneas…no other damage came from it…the retina’s, pupils and lens’s were all
in tact…the corneas have a major amount of scar tissue on them…not to mention a
few slivers of broken mirror still in it…there was too much damage to save her
sight…” Glenn said, “Jesus Christ…how awful…what kind of mother would do
that…Will she ever get her vision back?”
Jamie said, “Yea, the doctors
said once she hit 18, she’d be able to have a cornea transplant for both
eyes…and it would restore her vision…so she’s been on the waiting list for 2
corneas since she was 18…she’s at the point now where she doesn’t care if she
ever gets to see again…I think she might be liking not having to see the world
any more.” Glenn said, “I can’t imagine going through something like that…I
think maybe Mark should apologize for knocking her over.” Jamie said, “Only if
he wants to…don’t force him to…cause if she finds out you made him…well she can
get pretty temperamental.”
Chapter 7
**Same Warning**
When we got to the ER…Jamie
was right my wrist had been sprained…the doctor put a brace on it…and sent us
on our way…When we dropped off Glenn at the hotel…He climbed out and said,
“Would you like to come in for some dinner?” Jamie said, “It’s up to Aly…” I
smiled and said, “I don’t mind…” We emerged from the limo and went inside…Glenn
said, “Go ahead and make yourselves comfortable at a table…or would you rather
eat in my room?” Jamie said, “You’re room…some people give Aly shit about
Sneaker…” Glenn said, “Okay…C’mon up…” We rode on the elevator and went into
Glenn’s hotel room…he kept it nice and clean…
I sat on the couch, while
taking my jacket off…Sneaker laid by my feet…Glenn ordered room service and
while Jamie and Glenn ate at the table…I stayed on the couch, listening to the
TV…to give them some time to talk alone. Glenn and Jamie talked a lot about
things…Glenn said, “It’s a shame that only Aly is coming with us…I was hoping
to get to know you better...” Jamie smiled and said, “Wish granted…I signed a
contract tonight with Aly…I’m going to be a valet.” Glenn said, “Really?” All
the while…thinking he really needed to talk with Vince about assigning Jamie to
him.
They talked a little more…and
before they realized it…it was 2 a.m. and I had fallen asleep on the couch.
Jamie decided to just let me sleep…and her and Glenn retired into his
bedroom…the little hussy…she just didn’t want to wake me up…that and she
decided she wanted to get to know Glenn better…yea I’m sure..
In the morning, I woke up…and
was a little on the groggy side…I could hear Glenn and Jamie laughing and what
sounded like wrestling in the bedroom…someone knocked on the door…and When
Glenn didn’t leave the bedroom to answer it…I figured he didn’t hear…so I
walked over after running my fingers through my hair a little…Sneaker right by
my side…I unlocked the door and opened it…the familiar smell of Cologne and
Leather came at my face…and Sneaker immediately remembering it was Mark who
knocked me down the night before…started growling so deep it scared me…
Mark walked pasted me and
into the hotel room and said, “Great…first fans now ring rats…” OH NO HE DIDN’T…I
whipped around to follow the sound of his voice and said, “Excuse me? I know
you don’t remember…or probably don’t care who I am…but you’d better watch your
mouth sir…I have never been nor will I ever be a ring rat…and if you address me
as one again…though I may be blind…It doesn’t mean I won’t knock you on your
ass for a change.” Sneaker’s growling was getting on my nerves “Sneaker…Zip
it.” I snapped at him…he lay down with a little whine.
Mark said, “Lady, who the
hell do you think you are? Do you even know who the hell I am?” I bowed and
said, “Oh forgive me wise one…Like I didn’t know my presents was graced by Mark
Callaway, the fearless Undertaker…Well, I have to be honest with you…you and
your ring persona…neither of them impress me very much…especially when you are
rude and arrogant…and even more so when you knock people on the ground and
don’t apologize for being in the wrong.”
Mark said, “I’m a guy who
came a long way from lunch.” I said, “Oh please, then don’t let me keep you
from the slop buckets (Fancy way of saying Pig Pin).” Mark said, “Look lady, I
don’t know who you are…and at this point I really don’t give a shit…I had a
really bad night…so stay out of my way you fucking ring rat.”
I had pretty much had
enough…I felt around on the ground with my foot and stomped on it as hard as I
could…as Mark was bouncing around and cussing…
Chapter 8
** Same Warning**
As soon as Mark started
bellowing about his foot…Glenn and Jamie ran out of the bedroom…fully dressed
to my surprise…which the only way I knew that was because Jamie ran over and
grabbed me…and I grabbed her back…she was still clothed…and if she wasn’t
before…then that was the fastest dressing job in the history of being naked.
Glenn said, “What the hell is
going on out here?” Mark said, “That God Damn Ring Rat, pounced on my foot…” I
said, “That’s the third time he’s called me a ring rat…do it again and I’m
sicking Sneaker on you…Mr. American Bad Ass.” Glenn said, “Mark…you dumbass
she’s not a ring rat…this is Jamie and Aly…remember them from last night…Jamie
came and got our autographs…Aly is the new writer for the WWE…and Jamie is
going to be a valet for one of the wrestlers. Aly is also the same one you
knocked on the ground last night and thought she was a fan.”
Mark said, “Oh SHIT!” Glenn
said, “Yea…would you like me to get the Jaws of Life now…you know to dislocate
your foot from your extremely big mouth?” Mark said, “Yes…please.” I couldn’t
help but giggle…Mark said, “Oh I know she’s laughing at me now…” I smiled and
said, “And…you expected me not too?” Jamie said, “He didn’t hurt you again did
he?” I said, “No, James I’m okay…” She said, “Aly…I wish you’d stop getting
yourself into trouble…goodness one outing with you…and you got hit on by Triple
H, Flirted with by Undertaker…signed a contract for a job…got me a job…then got
yourself knocked down by the runaway Deadman train…sprained your wrist…picked a
fight with a guy whose fairly larger then you…and then you laugh about all of
it…One of these days girl…you’ll get your sight back and then you’ll see all
the damage you’ve done.”
I cracked up laughing and
said, “Yea…but it’s not today Jamie…it’s not today…”
Mark said, “Well, I feel like
a big ole loser…I just got my ass beat by a blind lady.” I said, “Oh…don’t make
it sound so bad…all I did was stomp on your toes with the heel of my boot…don’t
be such a baby.” Mark said, “But it hurt.” I said, “Yea…giving you something to
remember before you go calling someone a ring rat…especially when I warned you
once prior to actually taking physical action.”
Jamie said, “See that’s where
he messed up…that’s all you get from Aly…one warning…and then POW…physical
contact, sidelines you with some pain from her…free of charge…but of course you
deserved it…you’re the one who knocked her down, causing her to sprain her
wrist.”
Mark said, “That was you?” I
knew he was pointing to me and I nodded and said, “Yep.” Mark said, “I’m
sorry…well I’m double sorry…once for the sprained wrist and once for the ring
rat comment…Will you let me make it up to you?” I said, “Someday…”
Mark thought ‘Well, that’s
something.’
Chapter 9
**Wrestlers Real Names Used
& Mild Language**
After a few months on the
road with the Wrestling tour…Jamie and Glenn were pretty cozy with each other…and
chances are if they were fogging up the windows of Glenn’s rented SUV…it was
not because someone locked them in there…Me and Mark on the other hand…had
really started to enjoy each others company…talking after the shows every
night…the two subjects we avoided with each other without realizing it was why
I was blind…and the fact that Mark had been married and his wife had been
accidentally killed during a wrestling show…I didn’t know about his Wife…and he
didn’t know why I was blind…
We would meet in the middle
of the ring after the shows…after the crew took the ropes down…and would sit or
lay in the middle and he’d talk with me while I was writing up a new
script…something to make the censors crazy…Mark loved to read my work and we
were very comfortable with each other…I think in my own way I was having
feeling for Mark that I shouldn’t have been…and I just kept them to myself…I
didn’t even tell Jamie…and I told that girl everything…
One night, I had finished the
script so we were just sitting there laughing about the way a few of the
writers kept making Glenn’s character Kane funny…they had him kissing girls,
talking and having fun…which Glenn really enjoyed…and with Jamie by his
side…the duo was unstoppable…Yup you guessed it, Glenn got a hold of Vince and
practically begged to let him have Jamie as his valet.
Mark said, “So, I know we
never talk about it…but…” I stopped him and said, “You want to know how I
became blind...right?” Mark said, “Yea…how’d you know?” I said, “Someone always
does…” Mark said, “You don’t have to tell me…you can always tell me it’s none
of my damn business…I don’t mind.” I smiled and said, “No…I don’t mind…I’d been
avoiding the subject for a while…I guess now is as good a time as any to talk
about it right…” Mark said, “Sure…As long as you want to.”
I settled and got
comfortable…and breathed in and out heavy a couple of times and said, “Well…I
was 10…and it had been 7 years since my parents divorced…and my mother was
heavily into drinking anything alcohol she could get her hands on…it didn’t get
really bad until my dad moved out of the states with his big breast blonde
secretary, who he’d been cheating on my mother with when they were still
married…and that last year she had started to drink before she even got home…so
by the time she got home that night she was fairly shit faced…”
I moved around a little and
my body temperature went cold every time I told the story…I touched my lips
with my freezing cold finger tips trying to remember all the details…I let out
a heavy sigh and continued, “So, Mom let the baby sitter go home…when she
walked into the bathroom she saw me playing in her make-up and started yelling
and screaming at me about it…but after living with her for those 7 years, you
learn how to tune drunks out…and well the last thing I remember hearing her say
was ‘I have told you repeatedly not to play in my make up, and yet you still
insist on doing it…I think it’s time I taught you a lesson’…she grabbed my hair
at the back of my head and slammed my face into the vanity mirror…the baby
sitter hadn’t fully left the house…she called the cops and an ambulance…but the
shattered pieces of mirror had done damage to my corneas, for some strange
reason, it didn’t damage my lens’s, pupils or anything else…just my corneas…so
doctors said I’d have to wait until I was at least 18 for a double cornea
transplant to get my vision back…so I’ve been on a waiting list since I was
18.”
Mark said, “Jesus…How do you
come back from something like that?” I said, “Not easily…obviously I have a lot
of hate towards my mother…She was a lawyer and even she couldn’t argue her way
out of child abuse and attempted murder…which is what the courts threw at
her…she’s still in prison…and I lived in a private institution for the blind in
up state New York…Jamie’s parents brought her up there or took me to stay with
them every weekend…I stayed in that place until I was 17…and me and Jamie got
an apt…the same one we live in right now…”
Chapter 10
**Same Warning**
Mark said, “So I guess you
and Jamie are pretty close.” I said, “Yea…we’ve been best friends for the last
18 years…we meet when we were five…it was friendship at first sight…I think
she’s a saint…I honestly think she’s the one reason I never lost it in the last
13 years…I think that’s why I love hearing her with Glenn…he seems to like her
an awful lot…and I know she’s deserved this kind of love and affection from a
guy whose interested in her and not her money…” Mark said, “Money? She doesn’t
give off the impression of having money.”
I said, “Her parents died
about 2 years ago and left her an obscene amount of money…I was sitting next to
her when their wills had been read…it was nothing but a bunch of great stock
exchanges and business deals that just turned out to be worth…oh…I’d say anywhere
between 16.5 and 20 billion dollars…So believe me you may see her in a pair of
levis with holes in the ass and knees…but believe me…that’s just her saying
‘Hey…I might have money…but from the way I dress…it hasn’t gone to my
head…yet.’ And believe me…she always adds that yet in there…she keeps saying
one of these days she’s going to take the money and buy a small country with it
and fix it up and make it Jamie World…”
We started laughing…and then
Mark got really quiet…I said, “Mark…Are you still here?” I didn’t hear
anything…so I moved around and crawled on my hands and knees over to him and
slightly touched his chest with my hand…and said, “Mark, are you okay?” Mark
came out of his trance and said, “Yea…I’m fine…” I said, “Try again…I can tell
your lying.” Mark said, “Oh…it’s nothing…you just remind me of someone who used
to laugh and smile like you…”
I touched the bottom of his
neck and said, “I remind you of Sara don’t I?” Mark sat up fast and said, “How
do you know about her?” I said, “Glenn…he didn’t tell me the whole story just
that you had lost someone you’d once loved with everything you had…and her name
was Sara and that it was tattooed on the nape of your neck. Don’t worry, he
didn’t tell me anything personal…I promise…”
Mark stood up and said, “God
Damn it…” I jumped to me feet and could hear him stalking around on the mat of
the ring…and I caught his arm just by chance and stopped him dead in his tracks
and said, “Please…Mark…don’t be mad at Glenn…I asked him if something bad had
happened to you…cause you always seem to be holding something back…and I just
got this sad vibe from you…I can always tell when someone’s sad just by the
tone of their voice…” Mark grabbed my wrist and pulled my hand off his arm and
leaned over and ran my fingers across this throat…I’m assuming where his Sara
tattoo was…and he said, “This is off limits…don’t go poking around in my
business Alyssa…That’s the fastest way to piss me off…Sara was and is none of
your business…”
I said, “I’m sorry Mark…I
never meant to upset you…I swear.” Mark said, “All you damn woman think the
same thing and say the same thing…I never meant to do this…I never meant to do
that…well you never mean to do anything…but yet you always seem to do it.” Mark
threw my wrist away…like he was trying to throw me away…then got out of the
ring and stalked back to the back…I’m sure to either yell at Glenn…or to just
go back to the hotel…
I walked over and picked up
my laptop and grabbed Sneaker and we walked to the back…and I went back to the
hotel…I wanted to cry...but nothing would come out and couldn’t imagine why he
was touchy about the subject…I was mad at myself for even saying anything…I was
really hoping if he yelled at Glenn…that Glenn wouldn’t be mad with me…I called
Glenn’s cell-phone and warned him ahead of time…Glenn said it was okay…and
understood…
While I was sitting in my
hotel room when my cell phone went off...and I answered it was my eye
specialist…I said, “Hello Dr. Beckman, How are you?” He said, “Just fine Alyssa
dear…I’ve got some news for you…” I said, “Really…good or bad, cause I could
really use good right now…” He chuckled over the phone line and said, “Yes…It’s
great news Aly…We got two cornea donors…we need to get you to Chicago…cause
that’s where they are…and I’ll meet you there and we’ll do the surgeries
there.” I said, “Are you serious…please tell me you’re not joking…” He laughed
again and said, “No Alyssa I’m serious…how about we set this up for tomorrow
morning at 6 a.m.” I said, “You’ve got it.”
We hung up and I called the
airlines for a ticket…and then called Jamie and let her know…she wouldn’t be
able to get time off…but Vince knew I had been waiting for that call…so he gave
me two months off…Jamie and Glenn gave me a ride to the air port…and before I
got on the plane, I gave both of them a hug and said, “Glenn…do me a favor.” He
said, “Sure, Aly…what is it?” I said, “Tell Mark I’m sorry…but don’t tell him
why I left…I figure it’s no ones business but the three people standing here…”
Glenn said, “You go it…” I hugged each of them again and got on the plane
leaving for Chicago.
I had the surgeries the next
morning…as Mark was sitting down to breakfast with Jamie and Glenn…He said, “Do
you guys know where Alyssa is…I wanted to talk to her this morning…but she’s
not answering her phone in her room.” Jamie said, “She decided to take a
vacation…a 2 month one to be exact…Had a few things with Sneaker to get done.”
Glenn said, “But she did want us to tell you, she’s sorry...” Mark said, “Damn
it…I was kind of rough on her last night and I wanted to apologize for it.”
Glenn said, “Well…you could probably call her cell phone…but she’s going to
have it shut off for about the first week she’s gone…other then that…you should
apologize for your behavior…you big bully.”
Chapter 11
**Same Warning**
After two months of having my
vision back…Certain things still came in a bit blurry when I was trying to see
in the dark…but everything else was great…colors, lights…everything…It felt so
great to finally have it all back…everything I had been missing. I took a plane
to California to catch up with the wrestling tour…I didn’t tell Jamie when I’d
be returning…I knew if I walked down the hallway in the arena…she’d see me…I
had on levis, black steel toed boots and a black sleeveless t-shirt on that said,
“Naughty Angel” in Red letters across the chest…and showed off a little
mid-drift…I left my hair down…and also had returned Sneaker to the SPCA for the
Blind…so they could give him to someone new who was blind.
I was walking back stage and
all these familiar voice came flooding back to me…I didn’t recognize them by
face…but their voices I knew…I stopped and talked to a few of them…and they
were pretty happy for me about having the surgery to get my vision back…but I
really wanted to see Jamie…I ran into Jeff Hardy and he said, “Hey sweets…I
heard the great news…” He gave me a kiss on the cheek and a big bear hug…Jeff
Hardy was someone I had frequent talks with about his scripts…he was a sweet
guy with too many girlfriends…
I said, “Thanks…have you seen
Jamie?” He said, “Yea…her, Glenn and Mark are down in the ring…practicing for
their match tonight with Marc (Bub-Buh Dudley) & Devon (D-Von Dudley)…” I
smiled and said, “Thanks.” We hugged again and I went towards the ring area…
I walked out and stood on the
ramp looking around and taking it all in…thinking wow…I’ve missed seeing so
much…I bet the area looks awesome filled to it’s capacity…I started walking
down the ramp and I said, “Excuse me…Does anyone know where James is at?”
Jamie’s head popped up she knew that voice…then she squealed… “ALY!!!” She took
off running and practically tackled me with a huge bear hug…I said, “Jesus
girl…you’d of thought I’d been gone for years.” She said, “It feels like it…so
did it work…did it?” I said, “You can see me can’t you?” She said, “You smart
ass…you know exactly what I’m talking about.” I said, “Yea...it worked…”
Jamie said, “I’m so glad
Aly…How does it feel?” I said, “Well…it feels kind of funny…I mean…I have
someone else’s corneas in my eyes…in order to get them…that person is dead…so
it’s feels even weirder.” Jamie said, “Yuck…Aly.” I said, “Well…there’s
actually no engross way to say it…” Jamie giggled and said, “True…” We turned
around and stared at the guys in the ring and I said, “Okay…so whose who?”
Jamie said, “Well…Black Deadman Inc t-shirt…Mark…obviously…White T-shirt is
Glenn…”
I said, “Damn…they are
friggin giants…OH god…the boy is covered in tats…you didn’t tell me that.” She
said, “I didn’t think I had to…you can usually smell a tat at 16, 000 miles…Anyways…the
two camouflage wearers are Marc and Devon.” I said, “I’m so going to down play
having my eye sight back…Don’t you say anything…just sort of nudge Glenn and
let him know…”
Jamie said, “You’re terrible…but
that’s why were best friends.” We laughed as I took her arm and walked down to
the ring and she sat me down…I didn’t even have to see or smell if Mark was
around…I automatically knew who he was by his Sara tattoo…I know I was probably
pushing it…but I was really hoping he’d talk to me about her…you know the whole
open up thing…but Mark didn’t really strike me as the type of guy who was
really into opening up to the touchy feely stuff…
When it was Glenn’s turn to
bounce in the ring, Mark came over and leaned down and whispered in my ear,
“Can I talk to you for a few minutes?” I turned towards him and said,
“Sure…Now…or later?” Mark said, “Well, preferably now…and some where private…”
So Mark took my hand and placed it on his elbow…cause he knew that’s what I
usually grabbed for people to lead me somewhere…I went with him and we just
walked to the back into the hall a good ways from the ring…
Mark sat on one of the big
trunks and said, “You wanna sit?” I said, “No thanks…jet lag from the plane…if
I sit it’ll make it worse.” Mark said, “I just wanted to get you alone and
apologize for going off the deep end the last time we talked…I know it wasn’t
your fault…and I know you didn’t mean any harm…I was just wound up a little
tight…”
I said, “Listen Mark…I know
you’re uncomfortable with talking about Sara…I get that now…but hey if you ever
need someone to talk to…let me know I’m all ears…If you ask Jamie she can tell
you I’m a good listener…I may not have all the answers…but I can help you look
if you’d like.” Mark said, “Right now…a new friendship is welcome…and is much
needed…I realize on the Sara subject…I’m still touchy about it…it’s almost been
8 months…and I know eventually I’ll need to talk about it…but just not yet.”
I said, “Fully understood.” I
leaned over and wrapped my arms around his neck…and we hugged…Mark hugs tight
for a big guy…I said, “Mark…Let the air flow through the lungs again…” Mark
laughed and said, “Sorry…I forget you’re just a little girl…” Now see that
statement bothered me…but I wasn’t going to fight with him, especially on my
day back…
I said, “I’ll see you later
Mark.” He said, “Yea…Later.” I turned around and got half way down the hallway
when I stopped and turned around and said, “Oh by the way Mark…” Mark looked up
from the ground and said, “Yea?” I said, “You have the most unbelievable green
eyes I’ve ever seen.” Mark said, “Thanks…” Not getting it at first…Then I left
to go back down to the ring…when it finally clicked in him that I had just
dropped a hint about seeing and plus walked all the way back to the ring by
myself…He ran after me…I was just about to go back through the curtain and down
to the ring and join Jamie again when someone grabbed my arm…
Mark spun me around and
looked in my eyes and said, “You’re eyes…They used to be brown…now their
blue…what gives?” I giggled and said, “I was wondering how long it was going to
take you to notice…” Mark said, “You had your transplant didn’t you…why didn’t
you tell me?” I said, “It was supposed to be a surprise…Are you surprised?”
Mark said, “Hell yes.” Mark picked me up and swung me around in circles…and
then quickly put me down…every time me and him would talk or have any type of
contact…he would always have that same feeling that he was cheating on Sara…We
went our separate ways.
Chapter 12
**Wrestlers Real Names Used
& Mild Language**
Jamie and Glenn both started
noticing some different things between me and Mark…Jamie finally decided to get
nosy and ask me…We were sitting in the lunch area in the back of the arena one
night at one table and Mark and Glenn were across the room at another table
with a few other guys there laughing it up…pretty much the only way guys can…
Jamie touched my hand and
said, “Girl…what’s up with you and Mark? You guys seem a little distant lately…and
usually you two are quite the talkative pair.” I half smiled and said,
“Honestly…I don’t know…I think it has something to do with his wife…” Jamie
said, “I thought she was dead?”
I said, “Yea…that’s what I
understood from Mark and Glenn…but there’s just something there that he’s
wanting to hold onto…and I’m not in love with the guy or anything…so he
deserves to grieve a little…I mean it hasn’t even been a year since she
died…and he won’t tell me how she died…like it’s some kind of top secret
story…you know…the whole ‘The story no one knew’ type of scandal…I don’t know…I
don’t honestly blame him for wanting to grieve…but ever since we got into that
fight a couple of months ago…he’s been really distant…which isn’t like him…but
it’s expected to someone who loses a loved one.”
Jamie said, “Maybe you should
try bringing it up again…maybe it would go over smoother then last time.” I
said, “I really don’t suggest anyone do that…I nearly lost a hand for it…and he
blew his top big time…He’s either got some pent up angry aggression towards
someone on this tour…or he’s just in a deeper depression then he’s willing to
admit.” Jamie said, “Well…is there any kind of preference for writing
scripts…like limitations or wrestlers he refuses to get in the ring with?” I said,
“A few…but none really seem to hit home…I mean he doesn’t talk about not liking
any of them…I think I’ll start writing him into matches that will force him to
face his demons…whatever they may be…”
Jamie said, “Lord help who
ever he’s hiding from.” I said, “I don’t think he’s really hiding…I think maybe
it goes deeper than that…but I couldn’t really say much beyond that.” I
happened to look up and across the room and saw…Glenn had Mark laughing his ass
off…Jamie looked over to see what I was staring at…and she said, “It’s a shame
he’s hung up on the memory of his wife…he’s got a really great smile…and he’s a
lot of fun to talk with when he’s around me and Glenn…” I smiled and said,
“Yea…he does have a really great smile…and an even better laugh, if and when
you can get him to laugh that is…”
Jamie threw her hands up and
smacked then on top of the table to wake me out of my daze…and said, “I KNEW
IT…I KNEW IT!!!” She jumped to her feet…and moved closer to me…I was taken back
for her making a scene…and said, “What’s your major malfunction James?”
She said, “I knew it…You are
falling in love with him…why didn’t you tell me…you fall for that smile
question every time…it wouldn’t matter if he had 17 teeth missing, and oblong
shaped head… and florescent orange hair…if you’re falling in love with him…he
always has a nice smile…Girl…you’re such a dead give away…” I looked at her
like she had just grown 3 heads…realizing she was positively correct…
After a few minutes…of me
giving her the evil eye and glaring my ass off at her…the subject was finally
dropped…Then out of the silence I said, “I’m not really in love with him…I
mean…the man is old enough to be my father…well not really my father…but maybe
an extremely older brother…Oh hell I don’t know…All I know is I enjoy his
company…We have had some great talks…but that’s all…I honestly don’t believe I
feel anything more then that for him.”
Oh Yea…BIG FAT LIE!
Chapter 13
**Same Warning**
About 4 months later, somehow
after the Smackdown taping one night…Me and Mark ended up on the same elevator
at the hotel…the only two there…Riding up to our rooms…Mark broke the silence
first and said, “So little girl…how have you been doing?” I said, “I’m not a
little girl…and I’m doing fine.” Mark chuckled a little and said, “You’re a
little girl to me…cause I’m so much older then you…”
I said, “Mark, I’m 23…you’re
35…there’s not a real big leap there…” Mark said, “Yea…but I feel older then
that around you and Jamie…and all those other young ones.” I said, “Yes, well
if you wouldn’t stalk around like you hate everyone…I’m pretty sure…you could
have a normal conversation with someone and get to know they are no different
then you are.”
Mark was leaning against the
elevator wall and said, “Oh really?” I said, “Yea…oh really…Can I ask you a
personal question…I mean really personal…” Mark was kind of hesitant at first
and then finally said, “Sure…go for it.” I reached up and touched his SARA
tattoo…and said, “What was she like?”
I could automatically feel
Mark’s blood run cold…and said, “She was beautiful….and loving…and you remind
me a lot of her…not with the way you look…but you have the same mannerisms that
she had…you have the same smile and you laugh like her…” I said, “Is that why
you seem to give off that hate vibe towards me…because I remind you of your
wife?” Mark said, “What hate vibe?”
I said, “Sometimes when I’m
around you, Glenn and Jamie…and if I laugh or say certain things…you look at me
like you’re shooting daggers into my heart…Is it because I remind you of Sara?”
Mark said, “I certainly never meant to give off that type of vibe…I promise if
you feel that way I’m truly sorry…It’s just hard to talk with you…when I know
we can’t get through an entire conversation without me or someone else making
you laugh…and all the pain just comes back…”
When the elevator stopped I
went to walk off and stopped…Turned around and said, “Mark…I’m sorry you lost
Sara…I wish you’d let me help you deal with it…I know it’s not easy…but then
again…nothing is…but don’t forget…when you’re ready I’m here…I have to be
honest…I miss you Mark…I know it sounds silly…but I miss our conversations
after the shows…it’s not the same without you…”
Mark said, “Silly little
girl…they were just talks…not like we were divulging military secrets.” I said,
“Maybe not…but I still miss you and our silly little conversations…they weren’t
all that little or silly to me.” Just for some strange reason…I ran my thumb
over both of Mark’s eye brows…I said, “You’re really tense tonight…go get some
sleep…you’ll feel better in the morning.” I reached over and pushed the button
for the 6th floor…Mark’s floor…and started for my room…as I smiled
and walked away.
About five seconds later,
someone grabbed my arm between my elbow and shoulder…I was spun around and was
face to face with Mark…and said, “What’s wrong Mark?” He said, “How did you do
that?” I said, “Do what?” He said, “You just did something Sara used to do all
the time…she’d run her thumb over my eye brows then she could tell I was tired
and tensed up and then tell me to go to sleep that I’d feel better in the
morning.”
I said, “I can always tell
when people are tired…it’s more prominent in men then anything…they always have
this look on their face. And if you’ve been thinking about Sara as much as I
know you have…then you’ve got to be tired and have way too much tension…tension
shows through your eye brows more then anything…from scowling, to crying, to
anger, to sadness…it’s all there…the eyes are always the give away point.”
Chapter 14
**Same Warning**
Mark said, “Come with me.”
And started taking me with him before I even answered…we got back on the
elevator and went up to his room…when we got there he closed and locked the
door…Mark sat me down on the couch…and handed me a picture of a beautiful blonde
with brown eyes…(that’s not genetically possible…she had to be bottled
blonde)…Mark was pacing back and forth in front of me like a caged animal ready
to pounce…I stayed perfectly still just looking at the picture…
I said, “This is Sara isn’t
it?”
Mark said, “Yup…4 years ago…I
met and fell in love with that woman…we got married after a very short 3 week
romance…but we were happy…13 months ago, she comes to me and tells me she’s
pregnant…I’m going to be a father…no surprise…it’s not the first time…I have two
other sons I rarely see from my previous marriage…I was ecstatic…I couldn’t
believe fatherhood was gracing me again…but this time it was with a woman I
loved more then anything in my life…including my career…If at any point in my
life Sara wanted me to quit…I was fully prepared to hand Vince McMahon my
walking papers…Sara had been involved with a story line with Diamond Dallas
Page a month in advanced to her finding out she was pregnant…writers assured me
it was done and over…there wouldn’t be a sequel…but three days after she found
out she was 6 weeks pregnant…they decided to give it one more tussle…I was
against it and thought Sara was too…but she changed her mind…said she’d do this
one last Pay Per-View…and then that would be it until she had the baby…unless
it was just to make an appearance…no fighting or getting physical…”
Mark took a deep breath and
paced a little more…and continued, “So we went to the Pay Pre-view…it called
for her to climb up on the cage during my hell in a cell match with Page…she
didn’t care she was a tom boy…it didn’t bother her a bit…and I figured if it
didn’t bother her and she was comfortable…I’d go with it…towards the ending
point of the match…both me and page were on top of the cage…and so was Sara…Now
the script called for Page to be chasing after her…and me stalking after
Page…so that’s what we were doing…I grabbed him...socked him…he bumped into
Sara…and as she was falling over we both tried to grab her…but she fell 20 feet
off the cage to the steel ramp below us…”
Mark sat down on the coffee
table with his head in his hands and let out a heavy ass sigh and said, “She
was dead before she even got to the hospital…but the doctors still tried
everything they could to help…but it was no use…both her and the baby were
dead.”
I looked over and Mark had
slow tears sliding down his cheeks…I crawled over to the coffee table and
touched his knee…he never moved…I said, “Mark I’m so sorry…Why didn’t you tell
me?” Mark stood up and walked away whipping his tears away like they were never
there and said, “Why…so you could feel sorry for me…and pity me…I don’t need
that shit …”
I stood up and said, “I don’t
feel sorry for you…and I don’t pity you…but you’ve been going through something
the last couple of months…and you didn’t want to talk about it…but Mark you’ve
got to let it out sometimes…because if you hold it in…it’s going to get worse
and worse…and you’ll go from being depressed, to being angry…to eventually self
destruct mode…and I don’t want to see that happen…I watched my mother go through
it for 7 years…I will not stand by and watch someone else I care for…slowly
kill themselves without realizing it…the only difference between you and my
mother, is she tried to take me with her…And sometimes I’d like to thank
her…because I didn’t have to see the bad things going on around me…but
sometimes I hate her…cause I missed all the good things.”
Mark said, “It’s just life
little girl…that’s the hand God dealt me and Sara…that’s it…” I said, “Stop
calling me that…I’m not a little girl…I’m far from it…I saw more in the last 13
years then I could ever imagine…and I didn’t need my vision for any of it.”
Mark said, “What do you want from me…you want me to break down crying and tell
you everything happens for a reason? You want me to confide in you because you
remind me of Sara…We’ll you’re not her and you could never replace her.”
I said, “I don’t want to be
her…and I don’t want to replace her Mark…I’m just a girl standing here telling
a guy she’s trying to be his friend…Why would I ever want to replace Sara…it’s
obvious when you think about her she brings you nothing but pain and
heartache…If I’m going to be that big of a burden on you…then hell no I don’t
want to be her…”
Chapter 15
**Same Warning + Sexual
Content**
It got quiet and I walked
over and touched Mark’s cheek and said, “I’m just trying to make you understand
there is so much more to life…then pain and heartache.” Mark said, “What the
hell do you know…you’re still a fucking kid.” I walked past him and said, “I
give up…you’ll never see me as anything more then a child…and that really
pisses me off…I haven’t been a child since I was 10…” Mark said, “It’s because
you are still a kid…” I said, “Yea…well you tell me…what does it take to prove
to you I’m not a kid anymore…huh…you tell me…”
I think at this point we were
pretty well frustrated with each other whether it be
sexually…physically…mentally…or whatever…I stood there…and Mark walked over and
jerked me into his arms like I was a damn rag doll…and laid the roughest kiss
on me…but it got softer and more intense the longer we stood there kissing…
Mark grabbed onto my ass and
picked me up…and I wrapped my legs around his waist…Mark held onto my
waist…while he pulled my shirt off and then my bra…he had my senses
reeling…when he had his tongue shoved in my mouth while his fingers were
totally pinching and tweaking my sensitive nipples…Mark walked with me into his
bed room and laid me on the bed and start kissing down my breast…stopping to
lick, suck, bite and kiss my nipples…Great extra torture, while he stripped me
of my levis and panties…I pulled his t-shirt off of him…he lost his pants and
anything else he had on really fast.
Mark crawled up my body on
his hands and knees…and settled himself right between my thighs…and slowly slid
his erection into me…and I was ready to either bite my bottom lip off or his
ear…Mark started thrusting in and out of my body it was unbelievable…I was
slowly going over the edge…he could tell by the way my body was responding that
I hadn’t had sex in a while…we were both coming closer and closer and then we
fell over the edge when we climaxed at the same time…I moaned out Mark’s name
and he growled out Sara’s…just as he spilled his seed inside me…
I was mortified…needless to
say…as soon as Mark pulled out of me and rolled over on his side…I got out of
the bed, Mark laid there and watched me…Mark said, “Aly…where are you going?” I
was almost in tears…and Mark could hear my voice cracking under pressure…I had
all my clothes on except my levis…I pulled them on and said, “I’m not staying
here…that’s for damn sure.” Mark sat up and said, “Why not…what we just did…it
was amazing…it was beautiful.” I said, “No…what we just did was beautiful and
amazing for you and Sara…” I grabbed my red hooded sweat shirt I dropped by the
door…and pulled it on…
Mark came out of the bed room
into the living room after me…and had his Levis on now…He said, “What’s going
on? Alyssa talk to me…” I said, “Don’t call me that…It’s simple…Aly…Hell, I’ll
even go for little kid…but don’t call me Alyssa ever again…” Mark grabbed me by
the shoulders and sat me still…and said, “Aly…C’mon I want you to stay…” I
said, “Mark…you don’t want me to stay…you want Sara to stay…it wasn’t me you
just fucked in there…you fucked Sara…I don’t know why I was dumb enough to let
myself lose control like that…I’m so stupid.” Mark said, “Aly, what in the
world are you talking about? You’re not stupid.”
I pulled away from Mark and
stood by the door and said, “Yes, I am Mark…I thought what we did was beautiful
and amazing to and thought for some reason, if I did that…that I could get
through to you on how I feel about you…but even if I was to stand here right
now and tell you I love you…it wouldn’t even make a difference…it wouldn’t be
nearly enough…somewhere in the middle of us being friends and trying to
maintain a friendship without bring Sara’s name up…I fell in love with you…I
don’t know why or how…but I did…and the more you called me a little girl…the
more it hurt…but I figured you’d eventually come around right?…wrong…”
I got quiet as a few lone
tears slid down my cheeks…Mark took a step towards me and I took one away from
him…and said, “I’m not a ghost…and I’m not Sara…and I’m not a little girl…I
have feelings just like everyone else…but you know what the worst part is Mark…We
could go back in that bedroom right now…and fuck each others brains out
again…but in the end…you’d end up calling out Sara’s name again…and wanting me
to be Sara…and I still won’t be her…and you still won’t see me any other way.”
I walked out the door and
closed it behind me…Mark went down to my hotel room…but I wasn’t there...Jamie
answered and told him I never came home from Smackdown tapings…I was probably
out clubbing with the Hardys and few other’s. Mark went back to his room and
was looking out the window…he saw me walk out into the pouring rain…and start
off down the block…I looked back at the hotel…I knew he was watching me…I could
feel his eyes on me. I put my earphones in and turned my MP3 player on…and
Avril Lavigne’s I’m with you came up right away…Kind of fitting for a rainy
night…kind of fitting for any one who just had a night like I did…
Avril Lavigne
CD: Let Go
I'm With You
I'm standing on the bridge
I'm waiting in the dark
I thought that you'd be here by now
There’s nothing but the rain
No footsteps on the ground
I'm listening but there's no sound
Isn’t anyone trying to find me
Wont somebody come take me home
It's a damn cold night
Trying to figure out this life
Wont you take me by the hand
Take me somewhere new
I don’t know who you are but I
I'm with you…I’m with you
I'm looking for a place
I'm searching for a face
Is anybody here I know
Coz nothings going right
And everything’s a mess
And no one likes to be alone
Isn’t anyone trying to find me
Wont somebody come take me home
It's a damn cold night
Trying to figure out this life
Wont you take me by the hand
Take me somewhere new
I don’t know who you are but I…
I'm with you…I’m with you
Why is everything so confusing
Maybe I'm just out of my mind
It's a damn cold night
Trying to figure out this life
Wont you take me by the hand
Take me somewhere new
I don’t know who you are but I
I'm with you…I'm with you…
Take me by the hand
Take me somewhere new
I don’t know who you are but I
I'm with you…I'm with you…
Take me by the hand
Take me somewhere new
I don’t know who you are but I
I'm with you…Oh, I'm with you…I'm with you…
Chapter 16
**Wrestlers Real Names Used
& Mild Language**
A couple of days later…I
finally turned my cell-phone back on…I had turned it off, cause I didn’t want to
speak with no one…and I do mean no one…especially Mark…for obvious reasons…When
Monday Night Raw came around a few days later…I ran into Jamie and Glenn…Jamie
said, “Hey girl…I left a few messages on your voice mail…why haven’t you called
me back?” I said, “I’m sorry Jamie…I’ve had a few things on my mind.” Jamie
smiled at Glenn and said, “It wouldn’t have to be a certain 6’10”…325lb…long
haired, tattooed, piercing green eyed man…would it?”
I looked at the ground and
thought…**they didn’t know…I would of thought Mark would have told Glenn what
happened**
I said, “No not
especially…I’ve just been thinking about some things…no biggie…” Jamie
automatically knew something was wrong with Me…she said, “Glenn, would you
excuse us…I think it’s time for a girl talk.” Glenn kissed the top of her head
and said, “Sure…I need to go talk with Mark anyway…” And he turned and
left…Jamie pulled me into my office, then closed and locked the door behind
her…I sat on my desk and she came over and sat next to me and said, “Okay
Aly…spill it.” I couldn’t hold it in anymore…I immediately broke into
tears…Jamie said, “Oh…Aly…what happened?” I said, “I finally did it…I told Mark
how I feel about him…of course it was after we made love…and he grunted out
Sara’s name…but I told him.”
Meanwhile, Glenn walked into
Mark’s dressing room…and Mark was laying down on the couch with his right arm
over his eyes, shielding the light…Glenn said, “Mark, what’s up with you…you’ve
been acting really weird for the last could of days…” Mark said, “Man…I do not
want to talk about it…”Glenn said, “C’mon…tell me…what did you do now…Did you
piss off someone…did you and Aly have another fight…” Mark looked over at Glenn
and said, “No neither…I hurt Alyssa…in a way that is so bad…I may not be able
to ever apologize for. And I know she’ll never forgive me in a million years.”
Glenn said, “C’mon it
couldn’t be that bad.” Mark sat up and rested his elbows on his knees, as Glenn
sat beside him on the couch…Mark kept looking between Glenn and the floor
beneath him…and said, “I made love to her, last week after Smackdown…I was
pretty rough about it…but she seemed to really enjoy it…and didn’t say anything
about me hurting her…but she did hold on for deal life…Glenn man, I swear if
you tell anyone this…I’ll kill you.” Glenn put his hands up and said, “Don’t
look at me…I know better then to piss you off…” Mark sighed heavy and said, “It
was beautiful with her…I finally started feeling like I was over the loss of
Sara…and I must have been thinking about saying good-bye to Sara too much
because when we both started cumming…she yelled out my name…in that sexy sort
of way that only women can do…and it makes any man crazy…”
Glenn nodded and said, “Fully
agreed…so what’s so bad about that? You’re over losing Sara…you made love to a
beautiful lady…and you climaxed together and she moaned your name…I don’t think
I’m picturing the dilemma…” Mark took a deep breath and said, “Well…I didn’t
exactly moan out Aly’s name…” Glenn said, “Oh no…Just exactly what did you
say?” Mark said, “Exactly?” Glenn nodded and Mark said, “Sara.” Glenn jumped to
his feet and said, “Oh My GOD…Are you completely out of your MIND? Mark! Holy
Shit.”
Mark stood up and said, “I
know…Glenn…believe me I know…it was the stupidest thing I could of done in all
my life…I finally find love after Sara…and I go and do something like
that…she’ll never forgive me…I left 15 voice mails on her cell phone but she
won’t call me back…If I could just talk to her for 5 minutes…I would apologize
and tell her I love her…” Glenn said, “You love her?” Mark said, “I’ve loved
her since I met her that day when her and Jamie walked up to get your
autograph…but it scared the shit out of me…I was mad at myself for letting
myself feel like that for someone so soon after Sara’s death. I didn’t think I
could after she died…and I always felt like I was cheating on Sara, with the
feelings and thoughts I had about Alyssa running through my heart and mind.”
Chapter 17
**Same Warning**
Glenn said, “Mark, you have
to tell Aly all this…If you tell her, she’d probably understand why you said
what you said…when you said it.” Mark said, “I tried already…it won’t work…she
won’t even talk to me about my script…she sent me to one of the other
writers…she doesn’t write my scripts anymore either…remember she was the one
handling them before….Man, I really fucked up…I never meant to hurt her…and the
worst part is…I didn’t even realize I said it until after she pointed it out to
me…as she was leaving.” Glenn said, “Mark, don’t stress…I’ll see what I can do…I
can’t promise much…but I promise I’ll talk to Aly…and see how she feels…” They
sat there in silence for a while…
- -Back in my office- -
Jamie nearly went through the
roof…She said, “HE WHAT?!?!?!?” I cried harder and said, “It was so rough and animalistic…but
in a way it was really passionate…and I couldn’t help but fall more in love
with him and then we both did something I thought was so beautiful…we had an
orgasm together…which you know is usually really hard to syncopate…And I called
out Mark’s name and he called out……Sara’s.” I cried harder. Jamie held me while
I cried…she kept handing me tissues…
After I calmed down, Jamie
jumped off the desk and started pacing in the room like a Male lion looking for
food…she said, “I’ll kill the son of a bitch.” I said, “No, Jamie it’s my
problem not yours.” Jamie said, “I don’t care…I’m still gonna kill him…Oh
god…there isn’t even another name I could possibly use other then Son of a
bitch…Maybe asshole…but that’s to nice…I swear I’m going to punch his lights
out when I see him…How dare he treat you that way…he’s got no right…absolutely
none. I can’t even believe he would do or say something like that…I don’t know
if I’m more pissed off…or more in shock….” I said, “I was mortified…” Jamie
stopped and said, “Maybe that’s it…Mortified…not shocked…just mortified…” Jamie
was trying to calm herself…she said, “Stay here…I’ll be right back…I’m going to
the ladies room and splash a little cold water on my face…”
I nodded in agreement and she
left…I sat behind my desk and was trying to work on a script that was for next
month.
Jamie lied.
Jamie marched down to Mark’s
dressing room…and swung the door open…the guys wouldn’t have even known she was
in the room…if the door hadn’t cracked against the wall as loud as it did…They
both jumped to their feet…and Jamie stalked towards Mark…and said, “You son of
a bitch…how could you do that to Aly…She’s in love with you…you…you…asshole.”
Jamie started to take a swing at Mark and he backed off but fell over some
stuff as she stalked after him around the dressing room…Glenn stood there, he
was enjoying this view of Mark re-treating from a female…at Mark’s expense of
course…When Jamie finally landed a punch it was right in the nose…
At the same time I knew Jamie
had really gone after Mark and I opened the door and he had just received the
hardest fist in the nose in a long time…Mark’s nose instantly poured blood out
of it…And Glenn threw Jamie over his shoulder and carried her across the hall
to his dressing room…I went into the bathroom and grabbed two towels…and got
one wet…I walked back in and Mark was still on the floor…but he’d moved around
and had his back against the wall sitting up…with right leg stretched out in
front of him and the left knee bent with his elbow resting on it…
Chapter 18
**Same Warning**
I walked over and knelt down
on his right side, and he was trying to get his nose to stop bleeding, I pushed
his hands away and cleaned the blood off him with the wet rag and said, “Hold
that there.” I got up and left with the dry towel and came back with ice
wrapped in it…I knelt down again and moved the wet towel and said, “Here…it
stopped bleeding…It doesn’t look broken…” Mark said, “It hurts like hell…Damn
she’s got one hell of a right hook…she should think about becoming a boxer.” I
said, “Don’t be such a baby…That was mild compared to what she’s done before.”
We were quiet for a while…and I was just staring at the floor…
Mark touched my knee…and I
looked up and he said, “I really fucked up didn’t I?” By now I had tears sliding
down my cheeks and I nodded…it was all I could do to keep from going over the
edge…Mark said, “I really want to talk to you about it…I know you might not
feel like it right now…and you might not believe me…but I’m really sorry about
what happened…I’m not sorry I made love to you…because I am in love with
you…with as hard as it is to believe…especially after I said Sara’s name…I know
it was the lowest thing a guy could do…but I never meant to say it…I hadn’t
even realized I said it until you pointed it out to me.”
I just kept looking at the
floor…I was kind of shocked to hear Mark tell me he was in love with me…but I
still couldn’t say anything for fear of bawling in front of him…Mark said, “I
have to say something and I want you to listen to everything I have to say…then
you can either talk back or you can leave which ever…it’s your choice.” I
nodded in agreement.
Mark said, “Aly, I love
you…I’m in love with you…I’ve been in love with you since the very first day I
saw you standing in line with Jamie for our autographs…I didn’t notice you for
any other reason…other then your laugh…you have this laugh that has the ability
to make every one drop what they’re doing and look for the person whose
laughing and when they find you…they fall completely in love with you and your
laugh…and that’s exactly what happened to me…I looked up and there you
were…with the smile plastered across your face and a laugh that would make the
devil give up all his bad habits just to get to you…I wanted to make love to
you that night…and I loved every minute of it…you was beautiful and you were
glowing all over…it made me love you even more when you moaned out my name…I
think when I said Sara’s name I was actually just saying good-bye to her…”
I looked up into his eyes and
knew he was telling the truth…Mark continued, “For the longest time I was mad
at myself for letting myself fall in love with you so fast after Sara’s death…I
should have just told you how I felt from the beginning…but I couldn’t…I don’t
know why…but I just couldn’t…I didn’t like feeling like I was cheating on
Sara…Alyssa…all I know is that since Sara’s death, when I’m around you, you
make me happy…I know you’re not Sara…and I know you can’t replace her and don’t
want to…because you’re you…you’re something special…you’re the first woman I
gave my heart too since she died…I know I hurt you…but I never meant to…I would
never hurt you intentionally…How could I hurt someone I love so much…I’m so
sorry Alyssa…I love you.”
We sat there a couple of
minutes…and I wiped my tears away and Mark said, “That’s all I had to say…thank
you for listening…you can leave now if you want to.” I stood up and headed
towards the open dressing room door…looking across the hallway I noticed
Glenn’s dressing room door was still closed and I could only imagine what was
going on in the middle of those 4 walls…
Mark was looking down into
his lap when he heard the door to his dressing room close…All of a sudden saw
two feet…one on each side of his thighs…he looked up as I sat down straddled on
his lap. Mark said, “Aly…what are you….” Before he could finish, I placed my
index finger over his gorgeous red lips and silenced him…I said, “You’ve got
one shot Deadman…make it count.”
Chapter 19
**Same Warning + Strong
Sexual Content**
I leaned over and kissed his
lips softly…Mark was a little shocked but kissed me back…His tongue slowly slid
into my mouth and caressed every inch of my mouth including my tongue. His huge
strong hands slid all over my body…giving me chills up and down my spine…Mark
started kissing down my neck and sucked on my ear lobes making me crazy with
desire…He pulled my sweater off with my bra…and was slowly inching my skirt
up…I pulled his shirt off…and could feel him pull me closer and my cold breast
pressed against his warm chest…as our kissing got more intense…
Mark moved us around to where
I was laying on the floor under him…good thing the floor was comfortable…After
Mark got my skirt pushed up where he wanted it…he slid my panties off…and stuffed
them in his pocket and said, “I’ll hold on to these for later.” I couldn’t help
but giggle a little…Mark leaned back on me…but not putting all of his weight on
me…he didn’t want to crush me…Mark started a sexual assault on my poor
nipples…he was licking and sucking and biting and would go between both of
them…while his free hand slid down between us…and he thumb started to massage
my clit…I was so close to insane ecstasy I wouldn’t of heard a bombing going
off…even if it was in the room with us.
Mark moved down my body after
assaulting my nipples…and as he started licking and massaging my clit with his
tongue…he entered me with two fingers and started a huge sexual assault on the
lower half of my body…not that I was complaining or anything. I was so close to
going over the edge…and Mark knew it…Mark said, “Alyssa…cum for me baby…” I
said, “No.” Mark said, “Are you challenging me?” I said, “Yes.” Mark said,
“C’mon Aly…I want you to cum for me…I know you need the release…cum for me
baby…” I started to buck my hips and Mark held them down…
I found Mark’s hand and we
laced our fingers together…while I could still feel his two fingers working in
and out of me fast…I was so ready to go…but I looked down at Mark and said, “Do
you really want me to cum?” Mark said, “So, Bad…we can both taste it…” I said,
“Then fuck me…” Mark wasn’t sure if he should be shocked or not…He didn’t
realize the hornier I was getting the dirtier my language got when it was
directed towards him. Cause I was saying a few other choice things to him at
the time…and he was a little bit of a WOW to him…he always seemed to think I
was so innocent…he didn’t realize that he couldn’t tease me while playing…it
brought something different out of me.
Mark didn’t say anything…he
pulled his fingers out of me…licked them clean and moved up my body, he leaned
over and kissed me long hard and passionate…I could taste myself on his tongue
and lips…and it turned me on even more….I don’t know what it is about the sound
of a man’s zipper….but when you’re in the moment…horny and really ready for the
romp of your life…I heard Mark’s zipper go down and it…drove me absolutely
insane…Mark pushed my thighs apart even further and pushed his erection into my
dripping wet center…and started thrusting in and out of me…
Mark said, “Oh my god…Alyssa
you feel so good baby…I love being inside of you…” My hips were meeting every
one of his thrusts and I said, “I love feeling you inside of me…” I could feel
my orgasm building and building…I had my head thrown back and said, “I’m so
close Mark…Make me cum for you.” Mark said, “I know baby…I’m going to make you
cum this time…” Mark started thrusting, harder…faster…Mark, moved my thighs a
little and went deeper inside of me…and I went over the edge as I felt my
orgasm rock through my whole body into Mark as his orgasm hit him just as hard
into my body… “Oh God Mark I love you…” Mark growled a few times and as I felt
him empty himself into me he said, “I love you too…Alyssa…I love you too.”
After we calmed…Mark pulled
out and rolled over onto his back…we laid there totally spent…Mark said, “So
did my one shot count?” Mark pulled me over and I had my head on his chest and
looked up into his green eyes and said, “You better fucking believe it.”
Chapter 20
**Wrestlers Real Names Used
& Mild Language**
As we were both trying to
steady our breathing from the earth shattering triple whammy orgasm we had just
had…Mark was running his had up and down the middle of my back…someone knocked
on the door and then a voice said, “Mark, C’mon man…it’s time to go practice
before the match tonight.” It was Glenn…I could hear Jamie’s mouth going….she
still wanted to kill Mark…both of them not realizing…what we had just done.
Mark looked at me and said, “Do you think I should tell them to come in?” I smiled
and said, “I don’t think that would be a wise decision…unless you want your
best friend to see you and your woman half naked.” Mark said, “Oh so you’re my
woman now…” I stood up and said, “Fine…you decided what we are then…then let me
know.”
Mark jumped to his feet…Levis
still undone…and his so called ‘Mini Mark’ was still hanging in the breeze…I
crossed my arms over my bare chest and gave Mark a look and he saw the look and
said, “What?” I couldn’t help but laugh and said, “Babe…could you put your little
soldier away…I can’t take looking at it when you’re supposed to be all big and
bad…it’s just funny looking.” Mark looked down and said, “I thought it was kind
of sexy…I don’t seem to remember hearing you complain a minute ago…” I said,
“Nope…no complaints…And thinking about making you miss your match tonight to
give your little soldier another work out…” Mark fixed himself and said, “I
don’t know…I’m getting kind of old…you might give me a heart attack after
another one of those…”
I walked closer after I had
put my bra and shirt back on and rubbed up against his body and said, “Believe
me…you could handle it…you’re not that old baby.” Mark said, “The hell you
say…I’m 35…that’s old…” I said, “Whoopee…I’m 23.” Mark said, “You’re awful
young…damn…I didn’t realize how young you were.” I said, “Get over it…” We
finished fixing ourselves…and Mark opened the door and said, “C’mon in…I was
just having a discussion with little girl there.” Jamie and Glenn walked in and
Glenn said, “Okay…why does it smell like sex in here?” I started laughing
hard…and Jamie said, “Damn…Aly…you little hussy…right here in the dressing
room…okay…Glenn don’t sit on any of the furniture…”
I felt the blush creep into
my cheeks as I turned and buried my face in Mark’s chest…He put his hand on my
head and said, “Sorry…If I knew my best friend was going to ask that…we could
of done it in the locker room.” I said, “Why?…I picked the place…not like I
really gave you a choice where to do me babe.” Jamie said, “Oh god…I’m taking
you guys made up…” I said, “Yea…you could say I gave him one shot…he just
choose to do it the little soldier way.” Mark said, “No…it wasn’t a little
soldier it was a gun…and it’s called a stick up…”
As I was walking away and
said, “Well…with as old as you keep claiming to be…are you sure it wasn’t more
of a hold up then a stick up?”…Glenn and Jamie were rolling with laughter and
Mark said, “Ouch.” Mark reached over and smacked my ass and I just remember he
still had my panties in his pocket…I turned around and smiled and walked over
and pulled him down a little and whispered in his ear…Mark laughed from the
back of his throat a little and turned around and handed them to me…I retreated
into the bathroom and pulled my panties on…Re-adjusted my skirt and came back
out…
Mark said, “Okay?” I smiled
and said, “Yea…Much better.” Mark leaned down and kissed my lips a few
times…And Glenn said, “Okay…let’s get to the ring…” All four of us walked out
to the ring…and ever time Glenn would look towards Jamie’s direction, she would
start blushing furiously…I looked between the two of them and said,
“Okay…what’s going on with you two…you’re hiding something…what is it?”
Chapter 21
**Same Warning + Sexual
Talk**
Jamie gave me a coy look and
said, “Nothing.” I pinched her arm…she let out a squeal and said, “Ouch…what
was that for?” I said, “For lying to me…what is it…don’t make me ask Glenn in
front of all these people.” Jamie looked horrified and said, “You wouldn’t
dare?” I said, “Are you challenging me?” I stood up and she grabbed my hand and
pulled me back down and said, “Okay…okay…you win.” I smiled and said, “Thank
you…I love winning.”
Jamie said, “Can we walk for
a little while…this is so embarrassing…if anyone else here’s this…other then
you…and of course Glenn knowing…I’ll just die…I swear…” I laughed a little and
said, “Okay, let’s go…” We walked up the steps to the second tear of seats in
the arena and made our selves comfortable sitting on the steps in the isle…I
said, “Okay James…spill it.” Jamie started blushing and hadn’t even started the
story.
Jamie said, “I can’t believe
I’m about to tell you this…it’s so humiliating…if you tell anyone I’ll kill
you…I swear to God and everything that is Holy.” I smiled and said, “Okay…I
promise…what’s going on?” Jamie said, “Okay…here goes nothing…” Jamie took a
couple of deep breaths and said, “Here’s the deal…me and Glenn were both horny
as hell last night and we decided some sort of foreplay before we got into sex
would be good for us…that way after we cam the first time…when we got to sex, we
would both last a little bit longer…So Glenn said he was dying to 69 with me…I
had no objection…so Glenn threw me on top of him and we both went to town…now
you know I don’t normally have gas or at least not when I’m in the middle of
anything intimate…god me and Glenn don’t even fart in front of each other yet…”
I looked at Jamie and said,
“Oh no...” Jamie nodded and said, “Yea…oh no is right…I decided I really had to
fart…but I didn’t think it would be that bad…so I squeezed my butt cheeks
together and let it slowly creep out…I was relieved to hear it was
soundless…which you know what that means…” We looked at each other and said at
the same time, “Silent but deadly.” I said, “What did Glenn say?” Jamie said,
“At first nothing…but then the smell started radiating in the room…and I
thought I was going to pass out…Glenn moved me off of him and got up…my face
was the same shade of red as his costume…Glenn said, ‘Man, what the hell was
that?’ I was…how did you put it earlier? Mortified?…I was a mix between mortified
and horrified.”
I was really trying not to
laugh and said, “What happened?” She said, “Well…I explained myself to him and
we laughed a little after I got the blushing embarrassment out of the way…he
started getting dressed…and I said, ‘I thought you wanted to 69…’ he said,
‘Man, did you smell that…I’m not sticking around for 68 more of those.’ I was
still mortified…he went down to the bar and got drunk…and I sat in the bath tub
for a while…and actually fell asleep in the tub…this morning…he acted as if
nothing happened…I honestly don’t know what to say or do around him now…I
imagine this leaves me wide open for him to start farting around me now…God
knows he deserves a little retribution after last night.”
Chapter 22
**Same Warning**
By the end of the story I was
laying down on the step laughing so hard…my laugh was echoing though the
arena…The guys in the arena with Glenn and Mark could hear me…Glenn said, “Who
is that laughing that hard…” Mark said, “It’s Alyssa…I know that laugh
anywhere…it’s the sweetest sound anyone could hear.” Glenn immediately knew
what I was laughing about and just decided to keep his thoughts and comments to
himself…
As we walked back down to the
ring area…Jamie said, “You’re such a bitch…I can’t believe you thought it was
that funny…” I said, “Hey…it’s only funny cause it didn’t happen to me.” Jamie
laughed a little and said, “God…only you would laugh at something that I told
you…that hard…I haven’t heard you laugh like that in a long time…” I said, “It
felt good to laugh…I think I lost about 20 pounds…but it was worth it…if you
ever feel like telling me that story again…warn me first…I need to pee now…let
Mark know I’m going to the ladies room…” Jamie said, “Yea...sure.”
I walked away to the ladies
room…as Mark took a break…he said, “Where did Aly go?” Jamie said, “She’s in
the bathroom…apparently I sent her laughing so hard she nearly wet herself.”
Mark laughed a little and went looking for me…As I walked out of the
bathroom…Mark jumped behind me…grabbing my waist…and said, “HEY YOU!” I nearly
jumped through to Africa…and turned around and smacked Mark’s arm and said,
“Mark…you scared the shit out of me…” Mark said, “Yea…well…I heard Jamie made
you laugh until you peed…so I figured if she can do that…I can scare the shit
out of you.”
I faked a laugh and rolled my
eyes at him…Mark pulled me to his body tight and said, “I’ve had just about
enough of your sass…young lady…” I said, “Yea…I can tell…are you trying to
stick me up again?” Mark looked down and said, “Well…he has a mind of his
own…what ever you did to him earlier…he must of enjoyed it…and must be ready
for round 2…” I said, “Hmm…must be a mutual feeling…cause I know I’m ready for
round 2…” Mark said, “I bet you are…but it will definitely have to wait until
after my match tonight…” I said, “Yea…I don’t want your thigh muscles turning
to jelly on you later during your match…you’d lose in a heart beat.”
Mark said, “True…plus…once we
get to the hotel…I’m not letting you leave my bed for nothing…and I do mean nothing…so
rest up and be fully prepared for tonight…cause were going for more then one
round.” I said, “If you can handle it Deadman…I know I can…” Mark said, “I
ain’t that dead.” I said, “I know I can feel it…unless that’s Riga mortise
setting in…” Mark said, “Oh I highly doubt that Darlin’.” Mark leaned down and
kissed my lips softly…and slowly slid his hands down my body and picked me up…I
moved my skirt around a little and wrapped my legs around his waist…
I said, “Excuse me Mr.
Callaway…but I could of sworn we both just agreed not to be doing this until
after your match tonight..” Mark smiled and said, “I lied…I’m not about to
waist a perfectly good hard on when you are right here…and I can use it on
you…” Mark made a small turn around and took us back into the ladies room…and
he locked the door behind us…good thing no one was there…Mark set me on my feet
and turned me around to face the sink…He took my hands and placed them on the
sink and as he kissed my neck he said, “Don’t move.” I said, “I wouldn’t dream
of it…”
Mark moved around and pulled
my skirt up over my hips…as I was bent over with my butt in the air…while he
was looking…I shook my ass for him…he said, “Do that again and we’re both going
to be in trouble.” You know I couldn’t resist it…I shook my ass again…and Mark
said, “Okay…time for trouble baby…”
Chapter 23
**Same Warning + Sexual
Content**
Mark pulled my panties off
and stuffed them in his pocket yet again…I said, “You just love my panties in
your pocket don’t you?” Mark said, “It’s only because I can smell you…” Mark
moved up behind me…and spread my legs apart with his knee…I was pretty calm and
then I heard it ladies…that sound that just makes you want to go completely
insane…
Mark unbuttoned his pants and
down that zipper came…and I also cam right along with it…Mark rubbed his
erection again my ass…and then against my dripping wet center…Mark said, “What
did you say to me earlier about cumming?” I smiled coyly into the mirror at his
reflection…and I said, “I believe it was…if you want to make me cum…then fuck
me…” Mark got his evil little look on his face and said, “Hold on to that sink
darlin’…I think it’s time for a ride…” Mark slowly slid his erection into
me…and grabbed my hips and then like a wild man started thrusting in and out of
me…he was pulling me back against him and slamming into me so hard…I didn’t
have time to think straight…I started pushing back hard every time he would
thrust forward into me…
Mark waited on making me cum…he
didn’t like the idea of me facing away from him…so he pulled out…much to my
disappointment…Mark laughed and said, “Just hold on there little girl…I’m not
finished with you yet.” I smiled as he lifted me up and I wrapped my legs
around his waist and his erection slid right into place and Mark smashed me
against the wall and we started going at it like crazy…I was holding on to his
forearms for leverage…and thought I was going to explode…which after a couple
more powerful thrusts and I totally fell over the edge with Mark…I felt him
explode into me…and it was amazing as we both started coming down from our
orgasm…
My senses were totally
off…Mark placed me on my feet against him and I rested against the wall…and
almost fell over…Mark grabbed my hips and steadied me so I wouldn’t fall…After
we both calmed down and fixed ourselves…Mark helped me put my panties back on
and I just laughed at him…
When we went back down to the
ring…I sat next to Jamie and she said, “Okay…why do you have that freshly
fucked look…” I smacked Jamie’s arm and said, “Jamie Rea…Don’t be so foul when
you ask me a question like that.” Jamie laughed hard and said, “I know why you
have that look on your face…it’s because you guys just had sex didn’t you?” I
smiled and laughed she knew it was true…Me laughing was an immediate admission
of guilt. Jamie said, “You little hussy…but I guess it’s okay since you guys
are officially a couple…” I said, “I wouldn’t say that…Mark hasn’t decided it
yet…”
Jamie looked at my with her
left eye brow cocked up and said, “Excuse me…why is Mark decided this? Should
you guys just automatically be wanting to do this?” I said, “Well, you know my
answer…I’m just waiting to see if Mark can commit to me…I know he loves me
there’s no doubt it about…but…there’s still Sara…I don’t think he’ll ever fully
love me as much as he loves her…and I know he still loves her…which is
understandable…I just don’t think there is a full commitment there to be
had…Sara will always have his heart.” Jamie said, “So why wait…Is this some
sort of form of personal torture you like to put yourself through…if he can’t
commit right now…then you know he’ll never be able to give you his heart…and
you know it.”
I said, “I’m hopeful…” Jamie
said, “Hopeful…and stupid…” I said, “Jamie don’t…I’m handling this…Don’t
start.” Jamie said, “Okay…but if you want my offer to punch his lights out
earlier…still stands…” I giggled and said, “Okay deal.” We shook hands and
laughed.
Chapter 24
**Same Warning**
Well after 2 months of
waiting for Mark to make up his mind…he noticed I was having a bigger attitude
then normal…and he wanted to get to the bottom of it…so one night while we were
in the dressing room talking to Glenn and Jamie who had recently gotten
engaged…I was really happy for them…We were waiting for Monday Night Raw to
start…Mark came over and said, “Can we talk privately for a few minutes?” I
looked at Jamie and we were both thinking Mark was ready for a commitment…Boy
was we ever both wrong. We couldn’t have been more wrong about it…
I followed Mark into the
locker room while he was getting ready for his match…and I braided his
hair…Mark finally spoke and said, “What’s going on with you lately?” I said,
“What do you mean?” He said, “You know exactly what I mean…lately you’ve had
this big attitude towards me…why? I’m getting tired of it…I’m old enough to
know better then to get involved with someone as young as you…but against my
better judgment I fell in love with you.”
I stood there with my hands
on my hips and said, “You sure have a funny way of showing it…” Mark said, “Oh
I see what this is…” I said, “Oh really wise one…what is it?” Mark said, “Don’t
start getting an attitude little girl…I’m just trying to get to the bottom of
this attitude of yours…you’re mad because I won’t call you my girlfriend yet. I
told you I’d let you know when I was ready for a relationship…”
I said, “No Mark…you know
what I’m really tired of?” Mark said, “No…but I’m sure you’re going to let me
know.” I glared at him and said, “I’m tired of being your fuck buddy…we walk around
holding hands…we have these great conversations like…oh I don’t know…like
adults…you hold me…and kiss me and tell me you love me…we sleep in the same bed
at night…we have sex like a normal couple would…but the only thing people see
me as…is your fuck buddy…every single person on this tour knows I’m not your
girlfriend…well it also doesn’t help that if someone calls me you’re girlfriend
when they are talking to you…you over correct them…with the ever popular deep
seated Undertaker voice of ‘she’s not my girlfriend’…Believe me when I say I
know this isn’t a relationship…you know what I want out of life…I just want a
man who is going to love me…and who I can love back…and who will eventually
love me enough to want to marry me and have tons of babies with…About a month
ago I started wandering what it would be like to be Sara…married to this great
man who loves her to pieces in life and in death…but then I thought about it…I
don’t want to be her…cause I’m not her…I could stand here and tell you I love
you all day…but it wouldn’t make a difference at the end of the night…Cause in
the morning…I’d wake up in your arms after we made love all night…I’d still be
in love with you…but Sara would still have your heart.”
Mark said, “Why do you always
bring her up? You keep saying you don’t want to be her…but I think deep down
you really do want to be her…Don’t you Alyssa…Just admit it…you do want to be
Sara…because I love her and had a marriage with her…and I’ll never stop loving
her…you’re right you never could be her…At least Sara didn’t try and force me
into a relationship…You will never give up until I give in to you…well you can
forget it cause I’ll never be ready for a relationship with any one other then
her…feel like dying your hair blonde now?”
A couple of tears rolled down
my cheeks and I said, “What’s so wrong with wanting to be Sara? The only reason
I would ever want to be her is because she had you…not Undertaker, or the
American Bad Ass…or the Phoneme…but you Mark Callaway…If I let you…you would
sit here and shit all over my feelings and heart cause you could care less
about anyone other then yourself and your precious Sara…Mark Sara’s not here
any more…she’s dead…she’s never coming back…But you are still alive…I wish
you’d act like it…you’re sitting here dumping on someone who is wanting to love
you until the day you die…but you don’t care…I’m not going to stand here and
let you treat me like this…I may love you…but obviously it isn’t enough…” I
whipped the tears away and started to walk away…
Mark grabbed my arm and drug
me over to stand in front of the mirror with my back to his chest he looked at
me in the mirror and his mouth was close to me ear and he said, “You want a
husband…I’m not it…you want babies….You’re not getting them from me…look at
us…do we look like were the perfect couple…I’d never be able to have a serious
relationship with you…you’re too God Damn young…and I’m took fucking old…Go
find some other guy your own age to force into marriage…cause I’m not him…”
I looked in the mirror and
saw the same look in his eyes that was in my mothers eyes just before she
slammed my head into the mirror…I had a huge flash back and freaked out…and
slammed my fist into the mirror shattering it…I pulled away from Mark and it
kind of shocked him…he looked down and my hand was bleeding…
Chapter 25
**Same Warning**
I couldn’t keep the tears
from falling down my cheeks…and I just started backing away from Mark…He
started to come towards me…and I put my hand up and said, “Stay away from
me…Just leave me alone…I don’t need you…I never will.” Mark said, “You’re
bleeding Alyssa…let me help you…” I said, “Stop calling me Alyssa…I don’t need
your help Mark…I don’t need anything from you…I hate you.” I turned and walked
out of the locker room…and grabbed my jacket…
Jamie said, “What was that I
heard break in there?” I said, “My heart. Jamie I gotta go…” Jamie jumped up
and came over and said, “No wait…what’s going on…you can’t leave…” I said, “I
have too…I don’t want to be here right now…I don’t feel good…” Jamie said, “What
about Vince?” I said, “I’ll call him and let him know…” Jamie grabbed my hand
and felt the blood…she looked down and said, “Oh my god…Aly…you’re bleeding…”
Glenn heard that and came
over and said, “What happened?” I said, “I had the fight of my life…I couldn’t
even tell you if I won or not…” Glenn said, “Let us take you to see the company
doctor he’s down the hall…” I backed away and said, “No…I’m fine…Jamie…I
promise I’ll call you in the morning…” I hugged her and kissed her cheek and I
took off down the hall…running as fast as I could to get out of the arena…I
didn’t even want to breathe the same air as Mark…
Thank god for small
favors…when I ran out the back doors of the arena…there was a limo waiting…I
got in and the driver took me back to the hotel…when I got there…I went about a
million miles a minute, packing up all my stuff and getting it sent down stairs
to the limo…I called and told Vince I was going to have to quit…when he asked
me why…I told him it was a personal and professional decision…he just
agreed…and said he’d keep my position open and if I ever wanted to come back I
could…I thanked him and then left Mark a note and e-mailed Jamie…I knew she
wouldn’t check it until Mark had confirmed I left permanently…
I looked at the room one more
time and then grabbed my backpack as I walked out and closed the door behind
me…the limo took me to the airport…I had called ahead and reserved a seat on
the next plane to New York…I was going home…I got situated on the plane and
turned off my cell phone…I wanted nothing more then a peacefully silent trip
back to New York to just keep my sanity intact with my thoughts.
Mark didn’t talk to anyone
and was a complete bear for the rest of the night…Jamie and Glenn just let Mark
go on about his business and didn’t ask him about anything, figuring he’d talk
when he wanted too… Mark got back to the hotel that night after the taping and
when he walked in he found the letter I left him on the night stand he sat down
on the bed and slowly read it…It said:
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Mark,
I knew this would happen some
day…you’ll never look at me as anything other then a little girl…you know something…our
age difference was never a problem…and I know it was never your problem…my
problem was that I fell in love with you too fast, when I should of just walked
away when I knew about you and Sara…but I couldn’t…I wanted you to be in my
life…but I didn’t want it bad enough and I finally figured out I could have you
the rest of my life…but it wouldn’t matter because I wouldn’t have all of
you…I’d only have pieces…and I don’t want pieces of someone I love…I want it
all…including your heart…which would be virtually impossible to get from you,
because you gave it away when you met Sara…and she kept it with her when she
died…too bad you can’t get it back from her…because you could really make
someone happy…and someone could make you happy as well…if you’d only give them
half a chance…I wish you would of given me a half a chance…
~Aly
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Mark folded up the letter and
stuck it in his wallet…The next morning when Jamie asked where I was…Mark just
told her I left…and he didn’t know if I was coming back…hell he didn’t even
know where I had gone…
Jamie got my e-mail and knew
where I was…but decided to give me my space…she knew I would need it…
When I got home…I went and
dropped off my bags and then went to the ER and had my hand checks…it didn’t
need stitches but they did bandage it up…I went home and sat on the balcony
watching the dark thundering clouds roll in…I put the canopy down and stayed on
the balcony as the rain poured down around me…I loved the rain…but it would
always remind me of Mark…I missed him…I know it had only been a few hours since
I left…but if I was going to get over him…I knew it would have to be like this
for a while…I started writing some things down on a big yellow tablet…listening
to my radio and the rain…
The DJ came over the radio
and said, “This song is for everyone who loved someone and gave them up because
it was the right thing to do.” I looked at the radio and thought…’Yea…but how
do they know it was the right thing?’.
I Love You, Good-bye
Celine Dion
Wish I could be the one
The one who could give you
love
The kind of love you really
need
Wish I could say to you
That I’ll always stay with
you
But baby that’s not me
You need someone
Willing to give their heart
and soul to you
Promise you forever
Baby that’s something I can’t
do
Oh I could say that I’ll be
all you need
But that would be a lie
I know I’d only hurt you
I know I’d only make you cry
I’m not the one you’re
needing
I love you, good-bye
I hope someday you can
Find some way to understand
I’m only doing this for you
I don’t really wanna go
But deep in my heart I know
This is the kindest thing to
do
You’ll find someone who’ll be
the one
That I could never be
Who’ll give you something
better
Than the love you’ll find
with me
Oh I could say that I’ll be
all you need
But that would be a crime
I know I’d only hurt you
I know I’d only make you cry
I’m not the one you’re
needing
I love you, good-bye
Leaving someone
When you love someone
Is the hardest thing to do
When you love someone
As much as I love you
Oh I don’t wanna leave you
Baby, it tears me up inside
But I’ll never be the one
you’re needing
I love you, good-bye
Baby it’s never gonna work
out
I love you, good-bye
The End…Look for Sequel ‘I
Love You’.