Rating: R - implied incest

Spoiler: None

Disclaimer: The characters dont belong to me, they belong to themselves and their respective companies. This is purely fiction. The song Sin is owned by Nine Inch Nails.

I've changed so much since I last looked out of this window. My life has took some unexpected turns. Whoever would have guessed that this year I would be fucking my brother? A harsh way to put it yes, but it's true. Well that's how it is for him, i'm a cheap fuck that he can come home to after every night. And I hate myself for it. I can't live without him, I couldn't live without touching him, feeling him, being inside him.

You give me the reason
You give me control
I gave you my purity
My purity you stole

I'll always remember that night, the night you seduced me. I didn't stand a chance. Who does against you? Your full pouty lips, your sultry smile, seductive laugh. Everything about you projects sex and you know it. You use it to your advantage.

You came in that night, a little drunk but not too much. You knew full well what you were doing didn't you? You had a shower, i didn't take any notice. I mean how many showers have you took with me in the same room? But then you came out with a tiny towel around your waist and approached me, whispering my name. I looked at you and was immediately captured by your gaze. You started to crawl on the bed, crawled up my body, seductively licking your lips. That's the point I knew I was lost.

Did you think I wouldn't recognize this compromise
Am I just too stupid to realize
Stale incense old sweat and lies lies lies

For a week it was perfect, just you and me. I knew it was wrong, I mean we were brothers. But it didn't matter. Nothing mattered but you. But after that you started to wander, but I couldn't stay angry with you. All you had to do was look at me in a certain way and i'd turn to putty in your hands. Does it make you feel powerful to command me? To have me at your beck and call?

It comes down to this
Your kiss
Your fist
And your strain
It gets under my skin
Within
Take in the extent of my sin

The week after it all changed again didn't it? You came in one night totally pissed and started to shout at me. I cowered away like I was supposed to but then you hit me. That's what changed things. I raped you that night and you loved it didn't you? Afterwards you were smiling, but I was crying. I had just raped my own brother...how much more sick could you get?

You give me the anger
You give me the nerve
Carry out the sentence
I get what I deserve

You know how to push all my buttons now don't you? You know how to make me rape you, even though I hate it. I should learn to control myself, but I can't...Not with you...never with you.

I'm just an effigy to be defaced
To be disgraced
Your need for me has been replaced And if I can't have everything well then just give me a taste

You're changing me, changing me against my will and I can't do a damn thing about it. I need you, want you...love you. And you know it, you use it against me, to get what you want. But I can't give you up, i would die without you...so i take what I can get. Even though it is slowly killing me inside.

It comes down to this
Your kiss
Your fist
And your strain
It gets under my skin
Within
Take in the extent of my sin