The next morning Matt wakes up and winces, his body screams in pain from sleeping in the bath all night. He had eventually gone to sleep in the water after needing to wash himself off. Slowly he stands up and lets the water out, turning the shower on he stands under the warm spray letting his shivers subside. Tilting his head back he lets the cleansing water run down his face, washing away his dried tears. He sighs and faintly smiles, he wasn't in the club anymore. Life had finally dealt him a good card, the only bad thing was that was Jeff was on the other side of that door. Shrugging Matt carelessly washed himself and brushed his teeth before slinging a towel around his waist and walking out into the room.

He smiles at the sight of Jeff still in bed, taking his time he gets dressed before sprawling out on the bed next to Jeff. Tenderly he strokes his baby brother's cheek to wake him up.

Jeff slowly opens his eyes, relaxing into Matt's touch until he remembers last night. Moving as fast as he could, he jumps out of bed and warily looks at Matt.

"What?" Matt asks.

"What? WHAT?!" Jeff shouts, trying to control his breathing. "You raped me last night Matthew and you say what?!"

Matt frowns, not getting why Jeff was acting so irrational. "And?"

Jeff moves closer to Matt again, sensing that he wasnt going to do anything. He lowers himself back onto the bed and reaches out to cup Matt's chin and looks into his eyes. Softly stroking Matt's face with his thumb, Jeff feels tears spring to his eyes. All he could see in Matt's eyes was confusion, confusion as to why it was a big deal. A tear slips down his face, where was his Matty? The one that was to care? The one that would never hurt him? Who had broken him like this?

Matt reaches out to brush the tear away, he didn't like to see Jeff cry. It still tore a hole in a part of him buried deep inside him, and he didn't like it. "Don't cry," He whispers.

Jeff sniffs and tries to blink the tears away, "Do you love me Matt?" He asks suddenly, wanting to know the answer. Knowing it would all be worth it, if he did.

Matt frowns, did he love Jeff? He looks down at his hand resting on the bed and retreats into his own thoughts. He knew he cared about Jeff, that was for sure..but loved him? He knew he once did, but did he anymore? Could he love anymore?

"I love you," Jeff whispers, tears spilling down his face again. Matt had to love him, he HAD to. "Tell me, Matt. Please?"

"I love you," he responds automatically. He knew how to respond to orders, that was the only thing he was sure on. Sighing softly he lies down and whispers, "Jeffy, I'm tired, I'm so tired."

Jeff looks down and gently brushes his fingers over his older brothers eyes, shutting them. "Go to sleep baby. I'll still be here when you wake up."

Watching his sibling go to sleep Jeff goes round the other side of the bed and curls round him. Needing the warmth of Matt to let him know he was still there. It had been hell for him to live without his brunette haired lover. Even if Matt could never be the same again, Jeff didn't care. All he knew was that he wanted Matt near him always.

Possessively pulling him back into his body Jeff breathes in the scent of his hair. Smiling softly, he closes his eyes, Matt still smelt the same. Nothing had changed that. And nothing would change the fact that he loved him.

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