Chapter 22
Jami sat in her hotel room, listening to the conversation
going on around her. Lita turned to her. "Hey, guess who
challanged us to a three-way tag team match?" she prodded.
"who?" Jami asked, thinking but coming up blank. "Stacy,
Jaded and Angel." Lita answered. Jami smirked at that. "When?"
she asked. "Summerslam, but get this. It's not a
regular tag team match...it's a triple bra and panties tag team match."
Lita concluded.
Traci began to choke on her tongue. "They
challenged you three to a bra and panties tag team match? I can't
believe it. You guys aren't going to do that, are you?" Traci
asked when she found her voice.
"Why not?" Jami smirked, raising her
eyebrows at the group before her. "You want to do it?" Tasha
asked. "Sure. I'll do anything to beat on Stacy for
awhile. And it's not like we'll be naked or anything. Plus, I'll
be back by then. In fact, that can be my first match back
'officially'." Jami replied.
Matt shook his head as he listened. Then he looked
at Edge who had a huge smile on his face. The guys would definately be
taping that match, as well as being at ringside.
***
A few hours later Jami was wandering through the hotel,
not sure where she was going. Just walking. Tasha, Edge, Matt and
Lita had left her room an hour earlier, and then she had left, showing the
note Jeff had written to her sister.
Jami rounded a corner and ran right into Edge. "What
are you doing out here?" she asked him. "Tasha
is talking to Lita in their room, and Matt is singing in our room, so I went
on a walk to save my sanity. What about you?" he asked.
Jami sighed and showed Edge the note from Jeff. "So,
you're on your way there? You are going the wrong way." he
told her. "Well, I'm not quite on my way there yet. I'm
walking around, trying to think." Jami confessed.
Edge looked at her expectantly and Jami leaned against
the wall, sliding down to sit on the floor. "I don't know what
I'm going to say to him. I love him more than anything, and I want to be
with him. But I know that when I show up at his door, he's going to
expect me to be the Jami I use to be. But, E., I can't be. That
Jami died along with Joshua Moore Hardy. She can't be brought back to
life. I still hurt so much over our baby's death. And I can't
stand to see Jeff in pain. And he's in pain when I show I'm in pain.
But if I don't show my pain, I lose it like I did, and who knows what stupid
thing I'll do next time. So, I'm in a lose-lose situation." Jami
poured her heart out to Edge.
Edge kneeled down in front of her. "Jami,
you are underestimating Jeff. He knows you're hurting. And you
need to remember one thing...Jeff lose a baby too. A part of HIM died
with Joshua Moore Hardy. Not only that...he's been thinking he's lost
you at the same time."
Jami looked up into Edge's eyes, letting his words sink
in. "Oh God E., you're right. I've been so selfish
thinking that I lost more than him. How are we going to get through
this?" Jami asked outloud, more to herself than Edge.
Edge quickly stood and pulled Jami up with him. He
grabbed her face in his hands and forced her to look at him. "You're
going to get through this together. You'll share the pain. You'll
love each other back together. You need each other. Go."
he told her gently, before walking off in the opposite direction.
Jami took a few deep breaths to calm her nerves.
Then she quickly walked to Jeff's room. She stood outside it, trying to
convince herself to knock. Then she heard something coming from his
room. She leaned closer and heard him strumming his guitar. And
then she heard his rich voice singing along with it. She immediently
recognized the song as one that had been played a lot over the radio.
"Can't Say" by 5th Ring was the song.
Nothing ever stops the way I feel
I try to get sleep but then you speak to me
From the deep unknown
Suddenly you've gone away
I know I'm out here on my own
In the afterglow.
Something in your mind was cold as ice
It was so unfeeling
Something in my heart was saying
Don't go away.
I can't say why you left me
Don't know why you went away
But I try to understand
I can't say why you left me
Don't know why you couldn't stay
But I try to understand
Everything I Gave to you is gone
Will we ever know
What might have changed those feelings
If our love had grown
Something that I felt inside my heart
Could've been the place where things went wrong
And I just don't know
I never said that we could work it out
And you couldn't feel it
I never said we would end up
Strangers one day
I can't say why you left me
Don't know why you went away
But I try to undersand
I can't say why you left me
Don't know why you couldnt' stay
But I try to understand
I will always feel the same
Our love is on my mind
I know that you have gone away
But i just don't know
IF it's right
I can't say why you left me
Don't know why you went away
But I try to understand
I can't say why you left me
Don't know why you couldn't stay
But I try to understand
I can't say why you left me
Don't know why you went away
But I try to understand
I can't say why you left me
Don't know why you couldn't stay
But I try to understand
Everything I gave to you is gone.
And as Jeff sang the words, Jami once again felt the
world spinning out from under her. Tears flowed freely from her eyes.
After the first verse and chorus, she knelt down on her
knees, holding her head in her hands and crying silently. She could
hear the pain and heartbreak in Jeff's voice as he sang. She wasn't
sure if she'd have the guts to knock on the door now. She just wasn't
sure she could do anything anymore.
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