Chapter 10

"Jami...shhhhhh, calm down. It's going to be okay." Jeff comforted. Jami turned her eyes toward him and he saw the pain in them. "No! It's not going to be okay! Our baby is dead! And it's all my fault! I killed our baby! He should be alive and I should be dead!" Jami cried.

"Jami, baby, it's not your fault. You didn't know that the baby was in danger after you were knocked into the steps! You did not kill our baby. And you should not be dead. I could not live without you! Please, don't ever think that again. I love you." Jeff told her, reaching out a hand to stroke her cheek.

Jami layed back down on the bed and curled up into a tight ball. She squeezed her eyes shut, trying to block everything out. Jeff sighed and decided to go back out to the waiting room.

The only people left in the waiting room were Stephanie, Shane, Tasha, Lita, Matt, Edge, Trish and Sara. The others had all left to work the house show that night.

"Well, she knows about Joshua." Jeff announced to the group. "how did she take it?" Tasha asked. "Well, she knew about it by the time I saw her. She cried and blames herself. She thinks she killed him and wishes she had died instead." Jeff whispered. "Oh God, how awful. poor J. Jeff, I'm so sorry." Edge said, pain in his eyes.

"Do you think we can see her?" Tasha asked, linking her arm through Edge's. "I guess so. Follow me." jeff said, as the waiting room group followed him to her room. Jeff pushed open the door and the group filed in.

Jami had moved from the bed to a chair in the corner of the room. Her legs were curled up in the chair, with her arms wrapped around them. "Hi Jami, how are you feeling?" Lita asked. Jami turned emotionless eyes toward teh group and shrugged.

"I had a baby. He died. They tell me he died. But he can't have died. I loved him to much. Jeff loved him to much. We loved him to much for him to have died. It hurts to much. I can't hurt Jeff by letting our baby die." Jami numbly muttered to teh air, as if she no longer was talking to anyone in the room. Stephanie pressed a fist to her mouth to keep from crying out loud.

Jeff kneeled down in front of Jami and grabbed her hands. She looked at him and he could see by her eyes that his Jami was far away from the hospital room. Her brown eyes were empty. "Jeff...you should go check on the baby. I hear him crying." Jami told him, her eyes staring through him. Jeff slowly raised his green eyes to look at his friends, staring heartbroken at Jami.

"Jami, no one is crying. Do you know who is here to see you?" Jeff asked her softly. Jami looked back at the group. "Yes. Sara, Trish, Steph, Tash, Lita, Edge, Matt and Shane. Di you guys go see our baby? Matt, he shares your middle name. Did you see him?" Jami asked, again her eyes looking through them.

The group looked at each other, unsure of what to say to a distraught Jami. "No Jami, we didn't go see him" Tasha told her. Stephanie turned and fled the room in tears. "Steph must be going to see our baby." Jami said.

Jeff shook his head sadly, not knowing what to say or do to help his wife. He was afraid her denial would hurt her more in the future, but he couldn't bare to break the news to her again. He knew it was probably part of the grieving process. Right now all he could do was hope that his Jami would come back. And soon. He had never needed her more.

Chapter 11