sighs..sighs..sighs..
Mood:  sad
sighs.its been the 4th day in the row tt we've been screaming and quarrel..sighs.i duno when is this every gg to end.....

sumtimes i wished thing dint happend tt way..i dint do alot of things.sighs.but i know they are all too late..he totally hates me to the core..the words i dun like u anymore..i dun have feelings for u anymore...i dun wanna tok to u anymore..it really did hurt me alot.sighs...i duno..i made a fool of myself infront of him by crying ...n crying...like a cry baby..sighs..duuno....the words he said were very hurting.n all..duuno..sighs.god...help me...
i really dont want this to end with him....really..cos he's really a special guy...to me..

i tried to say i'm sry.it looks like its not working.i dunno...god..hELP me...i duuno wadd else can i say..i cant slp for nites.......i duuno...he wnt back on his word...sighs.i really dunoo..god,can u pls enlighten me??cos i really dont wanna lose a guy like him..........sumone hus hard to replace....

im hoping n praying for a miracle to happen....
i think i better slp............

my b'day !~
Mood:  bright
happy bday to myself ..happy bday to myself..
yawns* having 2 sessions of driving..really regret booking so many sessions..hahahas..cos this yr i'm having bday with my darling!hehes.wonder wadd 's his plans..

had keith to buy me stupid wan tan mee n many other junk food.i was damn full n slpy when it came to my 2nd session of driving..hahahas...the teacher gave me extra stamp for my test routes..hahahs..for bday..n let mi off early cos i told him i had a impt aptmt!hahahas...thank you sir!hehes..

darling wanted to go sentosa to tann..etc..but i dint want to..cos its like so hot!!!!!!n i'm trying to avoid the sun to get fairer..lols..n i'm not a beach person..cos jus dont like it..duuno why..hehes.mad bah...since he cant decide where to go n getting all stressed up plus frustrated on where to go..i decided to stick on his plan..since he wanted to go..n i dont want to see him unhappy..cos i will be unhappy!i"ll do wadever to make him happy cos i really want him to be happy!!!hehes so i"ll be off to sentosa ltr..hahaha

really wonder wadds he present for me..muahahahas.

gee i really love him to the MAX!!!!!

finally found!
Mood:  happy
i'm so happy!i've found the love of my life!he's name is jireh!hahahas..damn happy!!gg bonkers..lols

finally!after searching high n low for the past for 4yrs!yes!god thank you!!im really happy.

gee i cant slp..tts why i'm writing this blog though im really dead tired...hehes
but its worth!eheshs.cant wait to see him tmr...n i would nv want to say goodbye to him cos i dont want to lose him..not even on the fone will i ever wanna say goodbye..ehehs..*so bad rite?*

finally the exams are .OVER!
Mood:  spacey
finally 1st semester's exams are over..n i have 2mths to play first..b4 my heart starts to race again!hahahas.wry abt results.wry abt 2nd sems's exams..ahahas...
oh well.HECK!its over..hhahas.

dint write this blog for 3mths !hahahas..too lazy..or jus say cant be bothered.hahahas..i'm a mad person hu laughs non stop..muahahhas..
life's been bored..with work,sch,driving.
gum tou tong!!!!arhgs.

hahaha HK disneyland is opening on 12th sept.i'm gg back to plaY n whack all the rides..hahahas..managed to pull sumone to play wid me all the rides..all day long..muahahahas.plus..erica will be gg with her kido>>hahahas...really looking forward to it..cos its oso mummy's bday...

recently read and heard alot of news abt sammi.hais.poor girl.living in world of hell from all the paparazziS..wished those pple would jus give her a bREAK!even if she's sick,dying of cancer,jus simply taking a break from everything..dont haf to over do it mah..wish her all the best.hope she's fine!

duuno wadd else to say.......

sighs!
Mood:  not sure
its been nearly a wK!hais.nth had gone better.
he's baCK!i'm still quite sad.i duuno wadd will happen in the coming wks,coming days.cos he really means quite alot to me.

alot of pple told me not to think.but i duuno why i cant help it.but i really wish i could mt up with him soon..cos i really wanna see him again.gee..this sounds
desperate....*No choiCe*i hope i can end it.but if best..of course i want him!

haven been myself lately.been very very moody.
upset abt everything in my life.jus living my days like a person hus gna die liddat..hai.i really hope i really cheer up soon.no more buts n er.

been thinking alot too.thinking over the past yrs n my current.man!I sound like a fool and a clown..it really feels so yesterday!hahhas.can really have a gd laugh abt everything!=)
but i do thx god tt i made good lasting frens along the way.cos after wadd i've been/gone thru..it made me see the real picture of things and the real facts of things.hehes.really thx god for chelsea.she made me the person hu i am now.e determination,the support.thxs gurl!really appreciate it though ur presence may not be physically there but everything counts!u go gurl.
the guys i was with..the guys i liked.everything.i wished tt sum could turn back time..sum wont.hehes.contra person!geez.diana wadd on earth are u thinking n wad on earth are u doing??
but i really hope i do get a good guy this time round like wad erica said.i MUST lower my expectations and not expect too much.let nature takes it causes..n see how things go..hais..god..HELP ME!!!!我真的很想找一个好的伴.....有是我好好喜欢的..

咳...

My Song

to tired to think of one..
Mood:  spacey
its finally the weekend!its quite boring...cos i cant get to go out.but thx god i had karmen to visit me..hehes=)o well..yesterday was a bad start.quarrel with my siblings..well.nth unusual.always the same old thing..hais.sumtimes i dun wish for all these things to happen...oh well..i jus this is jus part and parcels of life......??

argss**erica got her LV bag already!!!arghs..i have yet to get my mini monogram sling..hehes.*damns..i have so many things to buy..i guess have to STOP buying and STOP looking..hehes.but b4 i get the LV bag..i want the Hermes one..hehes..hahahas...tts the one tt i've waited for long time..arhgs..OMG..DIANA U BETTER STOP!!!b4 all ur cards will be GONE!!hehes..

i'm quite happy tt i found the chinese songs i wanted so much!!!!!!thx to samuel..hahahas!THX!!!cos i've been trying to guess the title..but i know the content of the song..arggs..period- but anyways i got it..!!heehes.toking abt the song..its quite sad..well i guess all fairy tales relationship can be real.it can be fake.it can mean anything.but the way its gna to end..its up to the couple.i mean hu doesnt want a happy ending?hu doesnt?but i guess sumimes..we have to accept fate.accept n be contented with the things we have..n not complain..after listening n watching the mtv..over again n again..i did sum reflection.i guess i was damn mean..damn sucha bitch.n it reminded of wad happened to me n him..
well..of course things werent going my way or anyone's way..it was heading to dead end anyways.but it did let me learn alot of things..and i muz say..thank you kwangsheng!!for listening to my story and telling me a wonderful way to end the story...

hmms..one fairy tale jus ended...i wonder when's my next one..hais...n wad type of ending will it be...cos i really wondering..cos i really hope tt the next story would be a story tt i've always wanted..so much..=)..............................

post exam mood
Mood:  blue
finally!my exams ended on yesterday.........
n there goes our seperate ways...wuden be seeing alot alot pple from our class.hahahas.
no more plastic face.no more boring lectures.no more of waking up early.no more of exams for the time being.hehes

did had fun with the bunch of pple.enjoyed their company and all though the time was short.but indeed memoriable.hehes.the times of having lunch.disturbing monica and kevin lols*.hahahas..asking ivan to quit smOking..lols.ahahs running ard sch to ask for protection fee which made him a fool of himself!hahahas.our last exams studying together..lunching etc...waiting for each other after exams..hehes..oh well..im sure we"ll have other time n c each other again..n i'm looking forward for the chalet mans..hehes..then we can catch up the good old time..ehehes*really gna miss it soooo much*

sighs.have been thinking alot.i've moved on for far..and got so far..i'm sure god will show his way n mercy..n i'm sure he"ll give me a guy tt i've always wanted..n make all my wishes cum true..hope he's having a good time there..but again..i do know tt i have a small quantity of frens tt will be there for me..all the time..somewhere..somehow..
sighs*n there are much nicer guys out there..hahahas..

p.s:monica..dont thNk too much!hehes=)

a day before exam.
Mood:  don't ask
gosh!*yawwwnn* im supposed to wake up like 4am jus to start studying.n now its 8++am..shoot!im hella dead.
i've really less than 24hrs to go b4 the core exams.slap me..!!arghs..god!!!help me!!!=(

the wkend was grt..though it was tiring,but i managed to pull thru..thank god.hahahas..studying till whee hrs in the nite was sure a killer!hahahas.lucky i had sum really nice frens to tok to..like sam,sammie,chel,etc..to kp me companY!
i managed to kp him off my mind for awhile..tts really really gd..cos tt shows tt i've moved on with my life ..moved on to persue alot of dreams.hahahas..
oh well..i strongly believe tt there is sumone god wants me to be with.so i"ll jus wait.and hope for a miracle.hahahhas..but i do hope its a hkie..hehs=p
cos i've a few choices in mind..hahahahas..*jK*
kping my choices open.hahahas.

o man..i'm still so worried..abt the exams..it will offically end on the 18th..so that i can have a ease of my mind..and relax alot.hahaha wanna go back and play..hehes..n really enjoy n relax myself.hahahs.cos i think i've been too tired and etc for the last 6mths...hais..