It's always cold, always day, always here, always say
I'm alright, Ill be okay if I can keep myself awake

No-one said it would be easy
But no-one said it'd be this hard

Scraps of paper you're not meant to find
A broken clock still telling time

As the last drop drained out of my tea cup
I looked upon what I'd lost

New year is a time for change
Welcome it and embrace it

The van parked up,
The van moved out
And I wonder if I've been left behind

Some places I could lose myself
And others are already lost

I'm never ill
Unless I force myself to be

I sang a song tonight
A song for someone special in my heart

I'm falling down
And in my polka-dot dress
I'm asking you to help me on my way

I can still smell your scent on my bare skin.
And you walked into my life like I walk into a shop,
only you stayed.

Years ago we freeze-framed a moment.
I have never looked better since.

I waited and waited.
A nd realised somehow
that a watched phone never texts.

I sat at peace in the winter’s sun.
And consumed around 96 paracetamol.

W and X
Two letters as far apart
as could ever be imagined.

I said goodbye.
And walked away,
dragging my heart along the concrete.

I stared at the kitchen door and turned away.
That door is on the path to destruction.

I took a moment.
And wandered off
on a path of wanton destruction.

I argued my point.
But I failed and will no longer speak.

I drew a line.
And watched it turn
a darker shade of red.

I lay with you last night.
And learnt more about your soul
than in all the time I’ve known you.

I sat in the sun
And freeze-framed the moment
in my memory.

Ode To The End Of This Part Of My Life
And the circles dotting your I's
prove you're still as much of a child as I am.