11-29-00
Sadness swells up with in me
Like a festering blister ready to burst
The puss leaks out like
Tears streaming down my face
For a while the wound is sore
Like a bump on the head from a horrible fall
Eventually the sore will heal
Like the emptyness being filled with in me
At first there will be a scar
Like the memories of my pain
Over time the scar fades
Over time the momories fade.
11-1-00
Some times I laugh about stupid things.
Some times I cry about useless things.
I wish my dreams would come true…
I wish to be with you.
I know the love I have for you will never die.
This love for you just makes me cry.
I know you never feel the same,
Telling you this, I feel the shame
I know I can cry until I turn blue,
I know it doesn’t mean much to you.
Going crazy with sorrow,
I can do nothing but to wait until tomorrow
Perhaps today things will go my way
Perhaps today I’ll find my way…
Light above
Dark below
I’m lying in between
Waiting of what shall be seen
Choices to make
Hope I don’t hesitate
When it comes to me I’ll know
Until then I have nothing to show
My last thoughts are of you
My hopes die within you
The Fall
Its been over for a year, still I cry
I try to remember why
How did we stand at all when all we did was fall
I lay awake
I hear your voice shake
I hear you cry
And I wonder why
How can this be?
I thought we were meant to be
Foolish me
Why didn't I see
I walked in whith darkness around me
I wanted to see
Tears blurred my vision
I made the wrong decision
Only now I pay the price
For the mistake I made twice
I used to cry
I wondered why
How did we ever stand at all
When all we did was fall
3-27-00
Sorrow
A thousand lies
A thousand cries
A million tears
A million fears
One heart ach
My head brakes
A life time of sadness and sorrow
A life time of wondering what will become of tomorrow
We live and die
We laugh and cry
My heart bleeds
Hoping I'll be seen
Even though we weren't meant to be
I'll wait for you to come back, back to me
4-20-00
These are only a few poems that I have found that I tink that are ok to post. I know they suck but I really don't care. These were just how I felt at that point in time.