my (izzys) limits!
i just want to shoot my self sometimes. i am not joking. just say "buh-bye world" and pull the trigger, poor in the poison,sniff up the powder. i know s uicide is just quitting, but i don't want to play this anymore. i am going to lose in the end no matter what. the only reason to stick around is to help mankind which will eventually die out, just like any one person. the other reason is to stay and take the abuse that i get served on a silver platter from all of my relations. i am not that person who doesn't do anything and just sits around thinking of what they oughta' do. i don't want to play, and when i am completely finshed i'll stop rolling the dice. i am just one more fattie with a disfunctional family and no social life, but i hold myself responsible for everything. my brother moving out, my dads money problems, my mom sobbing in the middle of the night, and most of all for my parents divorce. i just can't do this s hit any more! damn. and it doesn't help that the world is in turmoil.
i can't stop thinking that if i turn my back my so called friends will start whispering about me, i might be getting suspended for something thats not even my fault, i am so low that i have "cyber boyfriends" and my friend just stole one AND set me up to go away with him for 6 months!!! go ahaed laugh at all my mistakes. laugh that my life is not half bad. laugh until i am myself.
