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Everything Wasn't Right....
We started to drift apart...
I didnt feel happy...
I was feeling alone even though he was there.
Then all of a sudden I met this guy....
Who just charmed his way in my life...
Weird as it seem... With just one kiss from him... everything changed.
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Bliss is what he called it...
Everything was different with us.
We were more of friends then lovers.
Which is what made it so much fun and comfortable
He was always in the slightest of trouble
but I tried to keep him out of a few situations ...
Omg and his never ending talk of Star Wars.
I could now say that I know atleast 4 planets in that movie,
off the top of my head. It's scary. -_-"
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Some of the stories he told me had me just laughing.
Just words leaving his mouth is funny.
Common "Woopsi Doddle: thats some shit I say.
Omg and the fact that he stares in the mirror more then I do...
(great pic to repesent how it was...) LOL Wow I remember all too well...
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Everything might have seemed perfect but I still had to deal with Jeff.
I couldn't just walk away from someone I loved.
But like me he had moved on...
Love never dies. Not even for a your favorite one...
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So yeah of course I got sad.
I felt rejected for who I was, again.
I went numb.
I ran away to Florida.
I was mad at everyone.
In the last moment of time...
Jeffrey pops back into the picture....
"I'm Sorry..." "Me too..."
And in that nght right before I left
He gave me the gift of life...
Of course I had to return cause in Florida they don't take my medicaid.
So back to New York I went.
But drama awaited me there,
cause already for some reason D. knew I was back
and only a few ppl knew.
Drama bursted into flames!
Things got out and he found out about my pregnancy.
People were assuming it was his and shit got worse then I wanted.
I had no intention for him to even know I was back
but... I can't control drama...
It got to a point where I was confronted by him and his girl
about the issue of my pregnancy on my own block.
It was embarrissing because all my friends were there.
I was so stressed out by the issue that the next day I got the abortion.
I didn't want too because my lil sister and her friends made me think about the life i was going to destroy.And also it was a life inside of me.
Something that I could hold dear to my heart and take of.
But I started to feel the other end of the issue.
Drama itself was already about and I wasn't feeling too good either.
I was weak and scared. Just having that fight with D. in the street almost made me passout. I couldn't handel the stress. And so I choose.
I had the abortion...
I was in alot of pain afterward...
But I was happy that everything ended. The problem was solved.
I didn't want a baby to be born into a life where it wasn't wanted.
So shit ended or atleast I thought...
After the abortion... Jeffery and I wasn't doing so good.
We would have constaint fights about anything and everything.
It even got to a point where he started to hit me outta his own anger.
Calling me a whore and was laughing at me cause I was sick.
He didn't care if what he did hurt me cause he was seeking his revenge.
I guess i desevered it but after a while I kept begging him to stop and leave me alone. My sickness grew worse as I started to cry more often and start shaking.My headacks grew more painful and I started to swallow more pills then i usally due to ease my pain. My father didnt notice since I locked myself up but Jeffrey knew. He sought out his revenge and I took advantage.
He kept saying that I was easy and that's why I got used by D.
It wasn't true. I knew it wasn't true.
Saying: " Who can ever love a whore who acts like a baby!"
"He used you and you let him you stupid bitch!"
! He never cared about you!"
"He didn't even love you."
" He told me he used you as a game."
I wanted to die. "I'm not a whore!!"
~I felt like I already paided my price! Why?! ~
~Why do I have to endure this much pain. Haven't I had enough?!~
Jeffrey:
*w/ a tight grip on my arms shaking me*
"I'm the only one who gave a shit about you
and this is how you treat me!!"
Me screaming:
"You don't love me, you know noting about me!"
"How can say i love u back, you never made me happy!"
HIs grip on my arms started to hurt, and I couldn't take it!
So i punched him in his face. It was then that I realized this wasnt right.
He wasn't meant for me. So I didnt have to put up w/ his shit.
I broke up with him.
He got upset and started to scream:
"Go, you stupid dumb bitch. Go suck D. dick you whore."
Crying I paused and turned around to say:
" I'd rather be his whore than your girlfriend!"
*Pause*
" Nah fuck that, I'm no ones whore.
You were my bitch, remember that!"
~That was it. It was finally over.~
It was not until a few days later that I got drunk off my ass
and started calling everyone I knew cursing them out!
And Of course that next morning
I was told off by everyone I called... ^_^
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After everything ended and I just left things be...
... All came into place.
I was reunited with old friends from my past.
Ones that I thought was lost.
And I'm now happy with the outcome of this story.
I choose education and my life before boys.
And oddly enough at this twisted end...
I recieved an aim from D. Outta the blue.
"I'm sorry for everything. I never wanted to hurt you."
"... Forgiven... I'm sorry too..."
~THE END~
For now atleast...