Not yet have I found my inner-self I sit cold and alone like a doll on a shelf How can you expect a flower to grow if you don’t cover it when it snows? The greatest part of growing up is being one with yourself and another seeing How fast you can grow and be apart of the greater youth that gives lots of hugs. For I am lost and don’t know what to do and you label me as a fool That may be what I am but i'm not going to sit down and take this into another round I am stronger smarter and faster than what you perceive at any point I could leave But I stay because I would break your heart just as you have broken mine and thrown it in a cart Maybe one day you will understand and live with someone who treats you like a kid Changes your diapers everyday and always holds your hand so you won’t go astray Just remember when you are old and grey who will be taking care of you night and day Will it be someone you like or maybe someone who doesn’t talk right? Wouldn’t you like it to be a loved one someone you would trust with the sun? Don’t worry I wont be there just as you weren’t here when I needed you to help me with my hair? You were too busy worrying about what other people would say instead of trying to keep you little ones from going astray If you decide to come crying my way think again because I will make you sleep in the hay People say what you do always comes back to you and you know from experience that it is true Give me one more chance to say that there will always be another day To land on a punishment which is senseless and places you under a bench press? How would you like it if I was to take away your dying friend would you run away to spend time with him until the end? Of course you wouldn’t because you don’t have any friends when was the last time you went out to with lots of gin? Maybe if you were not so fake people would hang out but they see past you little bouts. A selfish person without a whim and someone who doesn’t know the gym. I was once guilty of a “bad” mistake, but if I had the chance to do the night over again I would take the pain. I did something you told me I could do and now you say I didn’t pull through. But let me be the first to bring up your faults and you throw it back at me and say I was the one who took the walk Maybe but I am about to break past a barrier in my life and whether or not you wanna take it with me is your right If you think I need to rely on you you’re sadly mistaken for some fool standing in the road butt naked If I wanted to I could have you arrested right now but the only thing saving you is the form of God in a Cloud For even a dog must eat the scraps from the masters table and my life is not a fable But don’t worry the same mercy you show others will be the same mercy you get when the tables turn and i’m forced to be your mother Do you think I will forget the times you have taken away do you think that this time would be the one that I would stay? I am not as week as you think I am I can stand on my own two feet and protect the world But you’re not in it so why does it matter that you are a stupid ratter If that meant so much to you that night, why didn’t you call and say not alright? You hid yourself from your true feelings and blame them on someone else that has no meaning I have been your slave for so long that the only thing I can do is imagine a life when I am not wrong As the tears flow freely down my face I realize that I am a disgrace In you eyes I can feel your spite and I feel like grabbing a knife But the only thing I can honestly say is that I feel good in a horrible way You have brought me to the brink of sanity and soon I will lose all grip of reality I cannot stop the water from pouring out my eyes and they are coming out like you trying to conceal your words with lies I am important and I hope you realize that maybe it might happen before it becomes too late There will be no connection after graduation because this punishment has put me in a sticky situation I have to choose between democracy and dictatorship and I believe that you are whipped You have failed to understand what you are doing to me I am already unstable and within me exists three. Maybe one day I will like up to your expectations but you won’t even get me in the same nation I pray to God everyday that he would me away To a far of place where it didn’t matter the color or race Not yet is not to close and you have turned me into a ghost.
