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There hasn’t been a time in my life that I haven’t had this feeling once before.
I don’t know.
I guess I’m just bored again or is it something else?
I’d like to look up at the sky but all it is is an illusion brought on by synthetic material and artificial light. No. I have to let go of my surroundings.
I’ve got a feeling that I’m all alone now.
I have no one else to turn to.
I have no one else.
My life is gone. I can’t feel it anymore.
The days have gone longer. It’s getting too dark for me now.
Kill me, please.
I’m outnumbered by too many heartless idiots out there.
My time is short. And I just realized that what I was hoping for, wanted, is now lost and gone forever.
My memories of the past are overtaking me again. Too many visions to be counted.
Once again my destiny is just an empty shell with nothing else left to lose.
It is gone my life. I can’t feel it anymore.
But one day maybe something else new will come, just maybe.
And I stare at the silence; centering my eyes at a single point, not blinking or moving away, otherwise it’ll disappear. I see it, but I’m blind. It’s too far.
I can’t reach.
Only if....
My life is gone. I can’t feel it anymore.