Well, I don't mean to be negative, but I know that's how this is all gonna sound...
My grandma has been really sick now for about a month and she was just released from the hospital yesterday because the doctor said she was well enough to come home. Well, she told my aunt today what songs she wants played at her funeral, and she told my mom that she has lived a long, happy life and she is ready to go. I don't want to sound selfish by saying that I want her to live. I mean, I definitely DON'T want her to die, but I know it would be better for her to go to heaven than to stay here and suffer. I will just hate so much to lose her. She is technically my great-grandma, but I lived with her and my grandpa a lot when I was little, and they are much more like parents to me than great-grandparents. Plus, I know that when she goes, my grandpa won't be far behind because he has practically already worried himself to death over her. It's actually very sweet, I mean, you can tell that he does not want to have to live without her, and he is staying by her side all the time. It's actually bothering her because she needs to rest and try to get better, but he just won't leave her alone.

My aunt is going back to Ohio the day after tomorrow and then my grandma asked me to go spend the nights with them until school starts. If it was anywhere near possible for me to drive from their house to my school every morning, I would. But I would have to get up really early, and with everything else I have going on, there's just no way. It's gonna be so hard for me to be there all the time. I love them both so much and just being around them lately kills me because it's so obvious that neither one of them are feeling the way they should (or at least the way I think they should).

...And then a couple days ago, I found out my "sister" has cancer. I put it in quotations because she is not my blood sister, but my parents had custody of her and she lived with us for four years. She has really pulled herself away from me and my family the last year, but I love her and her kids so much, and just all of this hitting me at once..

Well I have to cut it out, I am starting to make my self depressed. *On a happy note to end it though, Brandon comes back in 8 days*