Well here I am again.. woohoo... There's kinda been a lot that has happened to me the last couple weeks, but I really have been to busy to think about it-let alone write about it on here. But here I am now, bored and thinking--Like Usual--

I went camping this past week. Travis went with me. I kept telling myself before we went that nothing would happen because we were *just friends* HA HA HA. I'm a loser. I'll always be a loser. Within a few hours of the first day he kissed me, and I didn't stop him. I didn't want him to kiss me.. I mean, I did want him to kiss me.. I mean, I knew that I shouldn't let him kiss me. That's it. But I did. And all week long. I guess I'll never learn... him either. We're both stupid I suppose. We make much better friends when we're not making out on the side, it's just so dang hard not to. And now what am I supposed to do? I know he's going to want to know what's going on. I'm sure he thinks I like him again.. of course he does. But I don't. Well I guess that's not really the right way to put it. I still love Travis, but I know that we can no longer be together, and so I am making myself get distant from him in heart... I'll get it right one day...

Oh guess what!?!
Brandon is coming back for sure!!! August 16th! That's only a month! I can't wait. He will help me figure this thing out with Travis, too. He always does. Man I can't wait to see him again. I guess this means I have to keep my word to myself and not hold back this time. I have another whole year, but I gotta take advantage of every minute.

Well I am on my way out... that's my little entry for now...