Well I haven't wrote in here in over a month. I guess I just haven't really been thinking near as much about my thoughts.... Or lack there of.

Travis and I are back together. For about 3 weeks now. I didn't even initiate anything this time I promise. I didn't fight it, of course, but I made sure that I wasn't the one who got the ball rolling this time.

It's really good to be back with him. I think it's better than it has ever been, actually. Maybe we both had time to grow up and figure things out in the two months that we were apart. I honestly don't think I'll blow it this time. Really. I know that statement coming from me doesn't exactly hold a whole lot of water, but I'm really trying, okay.....

Brandon is gone. He left Tuesday morning. I miss him. As a friend. I thought this time would be like last time and I wouldn't hear from him for a couple months, and then it would just be a couple scattered e-mails, but he actually called me Thursday night. I was so surprised. It was really good to hear from him, too.

Uncle Melvin told me today that Brandon really loves me. I knew he cared for me in his own way, but Uncle Melvin told me that Brandon said he loves me, he's just afraid of being rejected. I hate to think that he really thinks that... He would just never try anything, and I wasn't going to because I didn't know exactly how he felt about it. Now it wouldn't matter anyway, cause I'm back with the love of my life, but it kinda makes me sad to think that Brandon loves me and was afraid to say anything. It's never good to hold in things like that. It's good on my end of the deal, because otherwise I might not be back where I belong with Travis, but it still sucks for Brandon.