I hate my life! I just have such freaking terrible luck with it! Well I guess I don't have SUCH terrible luck with everything in life, just guys. But for most teenage girls, that is most of life.

It all started after Travis and I broke up. God I hate that had to happen! Life has just been terribly awful since then. Basically because I feel terrible as a human being without him. He's the only one who's ever "really" loved me, and he said he would forever. Geeze does that tell you I suck or what? Forever suddenly turned into about a year and now I have no one. And I have no hopes of finding anyone either. No one will EVER compare to Travis. I know I am going to try to compare everyone to him, too. And then I will realize that they're not gonna measure up and I'll become even more depressed than I was to start with. He doesn't even consider me a friend now. I don't even know what I did... I don't think that I did anything, but I guess being myself has always been enough... Geeze I just wanna cry. I hate to cry though, and I know I really won't because it would make me feel like a wuss but sometimes I think it would feel good to let it out.

Well I have to stop this crap I can't even stand to type it anymore. I might finish it tomorrow... but that's enough for today...