My Bio

I was lost for as far back as I could remember. I struggled to get to the top, but every time I got in arms distance I was pushed back down. Life itself wasn't worth all the this pain. But lucky for me the ones who play a vaulters in my life. He saved me from myself and walked me to the door with the light. As I entered it the darkness that was once weighing me down with its chains were now broken off with ease. This light that was shown to me was the best thing that had ever happened to me. Though the darkness did not leave as I thought it would have. It only stayed back for a while, as it figured out away of how to enter me and chain me again. It turned some of my friends against me. The ones that were not as far in the light as I was and thought they were doing the right thing. Though I wanted to walk backwards and retain them again I knew that would be what the darkness wanted me to do. So I kept on walking. Though I thought it would give up after that it didn't. It tried a new idea. It tempted me with love. I excepted this temptation. And I started walking backward because the light was pushing the love away. Then the light stopped me. It showed me that I cant put this temptation over the light. I let it go and began to walk forward again. Then the darkness struck again. This time with an even better plan. It hit me and my group of friends. It tour us apart. But then we saw with the help of the ones sent to guide us that the darkness was doing it. At this time the strongest of us got up and moved on. each at our own pace. The others fall backwards. Just as I started moving forward again the darkness struck with its second part. This was antilove. I have had no love. No one to care for, hold, talk to, comfort in time of need. This did not pull me back or push me forward. It dropped me to the floor like a ton of brink's was just placed upon me. I try to crawl forward cause I know this love I seek will be given to me if I keep moving. But this constant thought that the darkness gives me is will not go away. So I crawl on towards the light looking around to find the one that will love me as I love her. When I do find her, trust me I will treat her like a gift from god because that is what she will be. I will be there to talk to, to comfort her, and to show her love in so many other ways. So I crawl on with the weight and keep going forward and looking. I then realised that the love I seeked, was already given to me by the light. It was a love that could never stop no matter what. And the love I wanted from a girl was a bonus if I ever got it. A bonus that I did not need to live for the light.