Mood:  don't ask

I spent my Christmas with my family because my car was vandalized a couple of days before and I really didn't feel comfortable leaving it without a window for too long at the convent.  We're in the inner-city and theifs and vandals seem to abound around here.  I haven't really gotten much sleep for the past few days because of being worried about the car.

I've talked with a few of the Sisters and I really don't know what the best option for me is right now.  It would not be good for me to move to another convent because that would mean that I'm just running from this anxiety instead of facing it.  I really am not so sure how to "face" it though.  I know that it's just a car, and that's what my insurance is for...to cover any expenses of the vandalism, but I also feel that it would be better to have the car somewhere where it is less likely to be vandalized again.  The Sisters tell me that it can be vandalized anywhere that it is...

How do you face something like this?  I'd like to know because I'd like to get over it instead of being stuck in the same groove...  Any ideas?

I don't really know what to do about my nerves.  I took something to help me sleep last night, and will probably have to continue to do so for a little while.

On a lighter note, I got to see my family for Christmas (because I threw a fit and drove the car to my parents' house where I could store it for a night).  I technically was supposed to stay with the Sisters for the Holiday, but that didn't happen and they didn't do anything to stop me.  They told me that I was missed, though.  I missed  not being able to join them for their celebration, but I was so concerned about the car at the point that I guess it was impossible for me to make the choice to stay with a clear head.  I didn't have a clear head.

I don't know if I'll be moving or not.  All of that is up in the air with everything that's been going on about my car...  If I do move somewhere, I'll be living with my director, which could be a good or a bad thing as she IS my director...  But then I guess that would mean that I've ran from the problem instead of confronting it.  But how do you confront this?  Should I just purchase a state-of-the-art, and probably super expensive alarm system for the car?  That would quell my worries... But it would probably cost an arm and a leg...

I'm just afraid that the Sisters would think that I'm blowing this way out of proportion, and perhaps I am.  But I don't know where to go with it.