Dear God
First let me say that death will achieve ultimate freedom from pain, fear, and depression. It is also the only way to experience complete peace. The hell of this pointless life and existence holds absolutely no meaning or reason to live. Nothing matters anymore because the deep pain is all that can be felt, and every day it only gets worse and worse. No one cares! They have proven it by how they hurt me. LOVE IS A LIE! The voice inside says freedom from the pain is to just end it, so get it over with.My life really sucks and the deep black hole just keeps getting deeper and darker. Each day and night I ask God to take me to his house. But I awake. Guess I'm not worthy of Jesus either.
Andy
10/10/04
Sunday...3:45
